| | Posted by messiah at January 19, 2011 |
life succks in was with my cheatin x boyfriend for 9 years he went behind my back got a girl pregnant while she was 3 months pregnant he didnt tell me i found out from someone else but no he swore up and down it wasnt his of course when it found out to be his he stop callin me 9 years for what i guess he thought i needed time but what pissed me off his mother trader knew as a women you should not let your son play triffling games anyway he told me he wasnt goin with her hahaha life SUCKS i went with it because of sex and it back fired him tell her he dont know me im the hoe and i lost my virginity to him LIFE SUCKS I LOST ALOT CUZ OF HIM will i do this again awww shit hes callin me now i jus want his sex is that wrong this is a story about how u dedicated your life to one person thinking life will work and having hope FUCK THAT now i dont want to be with him and i dont love him i love one thing and this is sad cuz bad things only happen to gud people thats why LIFE SUCKS |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 19, 2011 |
My gf and I have been dating for 6 months now, I'm 15 and she turned 13 just recently. She was all I ever wanted. A beautiful girl, amazing personality, in general I am so in love with her and she is also with me. But now we've been arguing alittle more and we're having a break right now. I don't know what to do, she's all I have left. My parents disowned me, my aunt and uncle are getting a divorce, my sister is dying, I lost my grandparents to diabetes and alcohol, everybody hates me, nobody loves me. I'm just a deficit, but she's the only one who loves me and can put up with all my emo crap. She's my only lifeline in this world, hope we don't break up because if we do...then my cutting sessions will continue. Fuck my life, sometimes I wonder why I haven't killed myself yet. I get notes from people at school, they say "emo fag" "go kill yourself" and etc. Hell, even my gf is starting to doubt that I really love her...it hurts so fucking bad it's like having a butcher knife covered in barbed wire thrusted into my heart for endless times...Fuck my life...I can't play this game anymore, I hope I die soon...if nobody does it for me I'll do it myself. |
| | Posted by Steven at January 19, 2011 |
BasicLy I went to the best school in the world... In San Diego the best place in the world. But now fate has brought me into private school life in central Florida. I fucking hate everyone at my new school. I cannot stand anyone. I pretend that I'm happy so know one can tell how depressed I really am, not even my little brother who is my best friend in the world to me right now. Me and this super sweet girl had a fling going on and I liked her alot. She dumped me right after I got her a $80 purse for her sweet 16 with my own money... I have no job. Then I started talking to this freshly single girl. For whatever reason this girl meant the world to me. She is now dumping me because she doesn't wanna ha a bf... And niw I can't get her out of my head. I miss my real fucking friends. |
| | Posted by stupid at January 19, 2011 |
I worked hard, I studied harder, I have spent the last two months preparing myself and the last three weeks doing nothing but study. And I failed. It was my last chance to get it right, the last six years and $50,000 wasted on an education that I will never complete. Then just to top it off, my boyfriend gets angry at me because I am upset and he expects me to be Miss Perfect Effing Sunshine all the god damn time.
I feel like screaming, like yelling, like punching things, like hurting myself, like breaking everything in sight. I want to punch my boyfriend in the face because he is the one that spends so much money that I have to work two jobs just so we can survive. He spends and spends on JUNK and then complains when we have no toilet paper. He brought a laptop last week because he was going away for work and taking the PSP and DSI was not enough for him so he went out and spent $1000 in one go and then left me at home with no food, no toilet paper, nothing. I lived on fruit and tin soup for nearly a week until it was payday.
All I wanted was support, someone who would just listen to me yell and cry and be there for me. Not someone who accuses me of picking fights and being melodramatic, I need support right now. I want to just curl up in a corner and die and all I get is critisizm. Might go cut myself now. That should take away the pain. |
| | Posted by jk95263 at January 19, 2011 |
I am 18 years old and in my 1st year of college. I am doing a Business Administration program and I fuckin hate it! I have never know what I've wanted to do with my life so last year when I was in grade 12 I chose to do the 2year BA program at the local community college (while all my friends went to the university here) and I could stop worrying about the next year. All last year I had been dreading September and here it is, January, and now I dread each day. I fucking hate it, it is hell! I don't know what to do with my life. I wish I was still in grade 10 or 11. Many times I think about killing myself instead of going through all this shit. Also I am a virgin and have never had a girlfriend in my live. I JUST WANT TO DIE. I don't see the point in getting up everyday and going to some stupid day for 30ish years, always being tired and stressed out, and then retire and wait to die. I'd rather just end it all now
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| | Posted by Jsharp at January 18, 2011 |
Since October "2009" my inlaws lost their home to a fire,our kitchen caught on fire,my husband got laid off,our Christmas tree caught on fire,i fell down the steps and hurt my knee,i lost my job,we lost our house to a fire,we had to move n with my mom,our new dog got ran over,my husband changed jobs and took a huge pay cut, my grandmother passed away,i found out i hav a tummor behind my left eye,i found out my real dad wanted me and my mother kept me from him and told me he didn't want me after 26yrs,i had a nervous breakdown,the same dog got parvo,the state wouldn't let us burn the house down so we had to get a loan and pay to hav it tore down,we finally got moved n our new home,the same dog got ran over again, my son had to hav surgery, my daughter broke her ankle,my fathernlaw got put in ICU, i lost my job... and it still goes on? people say god won't put more on u then he knows u can handle??? well, we passed oh shit limit 6months ago and i'm beyond the point of no return... i stay so stressed, life is misserable,i'm more suprised when something goes right instead of wrong... Life's not suppose to be this way???? |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 18, 2011 |
im 45 years old, with a job that pays minimum wage
i owe about 40,000 not including student loan(another 18,000)
made a mistake going back to school and getting a loan after getting laid off
i send about 10 resumes everyday ( 500+ so far)
looking to get a part time or another full time job to make ends meet..any will do
i can't declare bankruptcy we might lose our house ( went to financial councilor )
i can't get a loan to pay off debts coz of low income ( went to bank/others )
i live with my mom my aunt my sister who scrape by daily
im depressed everyday
death seems to be a good way out but then who pays for it
i don't have anyone to talk to
i don't really have friends to share this problem with
everyone else i know has a job they're clinging to
and don't really want to know about my problems
life sucks
then it sucks some more
then you are burried under it
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| | Posted by anonymous at January 18, 2011 |
well i m 46 i work the bars all my life my mom got sick she had cancer my mother is the best the family took very good care of her i had day shift 7 to4 everyday 7 days a week she lasted 1 years and 1 and 3 months god bless her soul my brother and sister had night shift the thing with cancer you don t no how long they will last we keep mom at home tell her last week the family fell apart she was n t even buried and we fell apart i did what i thought was right my mother got sick i had my own bar i was renting it i had 9 years
.i woul d let any one, to work i had my mom so didn t care i got audited i owed i don t no mayby1000.ooo so i new the bar could nt pay that so i sold drugs just not to everybody very few i was at my peak i was quitting at 50.000 i got busted it s was the girl the girl how got me in it to this day i don t no what in 1 haft any way they took my money 45.000 atleast haft has mine i wen t to see a layer gave 4 or 5 thousand after a while he need moore i had none he dump me i lost the bar i wen t to see a nother layer he said he coul d pay himself out of the money i said o k went to court the judge said she woul d give him some but all the bill has to hight i guess just before i go to court he said i owe him 400 00 no job no income just borders i can t even pay my house bills but i gave it to him i ve been seying a counceller t god she help me not the layer they gave my house arrest 9 months they wanted to give me 2 years never did nothing in my life no record at all the layer told my 23 miystake in the warrent not to worry i lost they take my money my money was not with the drugs at alll they still took my money where is the justice i got out of court go see my layer now said for 2 hour in court i owe 2500 plus gst pst anyway it over 3000 tell me if there justice |
| | Posted by SkyGorgeous at January 17, 2011 |
Okay I know everyone that is reading my story is probly like "oh hey just do something" I wish I could, pftt as if. I want to become a anime artist but Im to embaressed that no one will ecept me for whome I am. An insecure, Shit -talking girl. Im 14 about to be 15 in february 5th. These 14 years I've lived on this evil ass earth has been nothing but fear,torture,insecurities. fearing of my past. & way too many broken promises. I started to feel insecure when i was about 5 years old probaly 4 dunno, but I got baby-sat when my mom use to work and this one time my baby sitter mixed me up in the wrong class I cryed like a dummy a scared dummy and The mixed up class became my official class, Ugly ass lil bitch ass kids called me "ugly, crybaby" and hey that shit really hurt. I started going home and examing my face in the mirror to see what was so ugly about me that people saw where I couldnt see and it finally hit me I WAS ugly I felt like ugly duckling. I felt like I had no meaning in my life when I stood on the toilet boil, bounceing onto the bathroom sink leaning onto the mirror; I felt like shit. I mean my VERY first best friend even hated my guts; when my mom use to show me and my baby bro off to people they use to say "ohhh you got some beautiful kids" and I would shy up and my bro would just look lost *since at the time he was like 1 or 8 months or something* but now I know everybody says that to a child ugly or cute. Looking at me you wouldnt tell that I like anime,... |
| | Posted by Steve at January 17, 2011 |
Let me start off by saying that this has been the worst time period of my life. I had a 2.0 gpa in my first semester of college. i am getting kicked out of my dorms for smoking weed. I will likely have to live at home with my parents. My little sister won't speak to me. My friends belittle me everyday. I have made almost no new friends since coming to college. That's why my life sucks big time. |
| | Posted by indian at January 17, 2011 |
i am 17 and have no girlfrnd. the girl i love the most thinks me like a bro. believe this shit???
i was a really bright student in my junior high but somewhere along the line i fucked up. fucked up real bad. i had never got less than 80%for any subject in my life till now.nowadays i get less than 40%.
iam a single child and my parents expect a lot from me. i am scared that i will let them down. i even consider suicide as an option. my father thinks iam a failure and havenot spoke to me for months.
my teachers say they had high hopes for me but now they just pray for me to pass. evryone one of my friends are rich and come from good families. ihave hell of a lot financial problems so i might even lose ayear in college. they ignore me completely. they are all cool the girls like them the teachers like them, not me never me why??
i have no interest in studies and feel disconnected and isolated from the world and bring an indian it is even more hard for me to survive here . this may well be the last thing i will write in my life . i wish my life would straighten out. |
| | Posted by tenur at January 17, 2011 |
Not sure if this will help anyone...felt very bad for some of you folks after reading these posts. One thing that I try and do is focus on small wins. Even the tiniest accomplishments, like brushing my teeth, picking the right outfit can be considered wins. Keep doing that throughout your day/week/month until it feels like there's some positive momentum. For those of you who have much deeper challenges, such as domestic abuse, suicidal tendencies etc. GO AND GET THE HELP YOU NEED! There a literally thousands of people out there just waiting for your call and are ready and willing to try and improve your situation. Don't suffer abuse! How can you get better, focus on wins, if someone is constantly dragging you down? No one needs to put up with this crap, so just remember that things can always change for the better. Joining support groups where you can talk about your problems is also a good way to improve things. You'll meet people who are also experiencing challenges in life and develop a support network where you can help each other.
Life is short and yes is full of challenges for everyone. Try and make the best of it folks, especially you young ones out there. I wish I had a magic wand that could make it all better for you, I really do. Just remember that there are good people put there who want to help you and that do love you. Good luck, I wish you all the best. Despite your challenges and perceived flaws, just know that there is something unique and wonderful about each and everyone of you...
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| | Posted by Casey at January 16, 2011 |
I guess my life started sucky. I guess. Blahblah mom gets knocked up young, blah blah, dad leaves when im 2 havent seen him since..blah step dad...half brother....step dad and mom divorce blah blah uncle kills himself, go to a new school blah blah, two of my classmates die blah blah. But the suckiest part- IM A DOPE ASS FUCKING PERSON. IM REALLY SMART AND FUNNY AND CREATIVE AND HANDSOME. and im not trying to be concieted because in my day to day i try to remain as humble as possible. It just doesnt make sense. I dont think my mom ever believed in me or my talents and i think shes always resented me. oh right im gay. she never got me and she thinks she does. Im gay and im artistic and im like my dad and she doesnt fucking like it and never has. I was "DIFFICULT" my brother? Wonderful. talented. different ways- sports academics normal easy shit.and shes always believed in him. and she always supported his talents and his gifts and hes really sucessful. im single and lonely and feel empty and worthless and i just want someone to make me feel fixed. |
| | Posted by gregshecki at January 16, 2011 |
I am 29 years old illegal allien in the united states.
When i left my country for the U.S, i thought the first thing i was going to do is going to school, unfortunatly not because you need such papers or documents to get colleges or universities.
I stayed for years without document, i didn't get chance to go to school, completing a high school diploma or GED for the entry of college or universty.
My life starts sucking.
Now i feel like i have no education, no skill, having difficulty with social skills like making friends, going out with friends or girls.
I just stay home in front of my gadgets, because i own tons of gadgets specially apple products what i love, i spend all my money on gadgets, i can't go back in my country right away because i don't have any qualification over there and it's one of the country more corrupted in the world and poverty is over there, seriously my family is ok, but me i feel scare to go back.
If i wake up in the morning i feel like the world is too scary for me, i feel nervous quickly, sometimes i don't even want to talk to people, specially work place, because it's one of the worst job in the planet, do this, go there, bring this because you don't have any skill, they just using you, treathing me like a garbage.
At 29 years old i got my life like that, i don't think i will make the rest of my life. |
| | Posted by amy at January 16, 2011 |
I always thought I had a bright future. My parents and everyone around me was always telling me how beautiful, intelligent and gifted I was. I went to a private college to study art and design, I thought I was going in a good direction and would be successful - but I wasn't happy. I was anxious all the time. I worked sooo hard that I was wearing myself out. Then during my junior year I was raped by two guys at a party. My life came undone.
I tried to continue school- but it wasn't the same. I couldn't be the perfect student I had been before. I struggled with guilt, inadequacy and depression. I started cutting myself. All of the networking I had done in the design industry had gone to waste- I lost interest. I started focusing more on fine art, thinking that the tragedy had inspired me somehow. I made some headway and I graduated somehow, but had not made any lasting friendships in school and was lonely and confused. That was in May.
Now, I am working part time at a book store making no money. I have huge amounts of debt due to my private school loans, and medical bills from breaking my leg while I had no insurance. I feel like such a failure. I still cut myself and and I am so depressed, but I try to put on a good front and seem happy. My boyfriend moved to another city... I am trying to move there, so I am looking for a job there, but have not had much luck. I have no friends where I am now, and no life. I'm worried that my boyfriend will get fed up and break up with me. If that happened, I would truly have nothing and no one in this world. I feel stuck. I don't know what to do. I keep trying. It has to get better right?
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| | Posted by anonymous at January 16, 2011 |
So this is my story. Might not be much but Im drowning myself with everything and everyone.
My life is kept in a bubble I have 4 sisters with old fashion parents. Were all girls.. meaning we need to get our education before we have boyfriends. I'm in college and i have a boyfriend, parents don't approve, but they don't need too because they don't know. How do i see him on the weekends. I am starting new things in this year 2011. I believe i am under so much pressure, I am over stress and i don't think i am living life at this moment. I am so afraid of losing my guy just because i am so attached to him, and i love him. The one thing i need for this relationship to stay strong is communication, and i don't think we have that yet. been together on and off for a year.!! Boy problems, trust issues, attachment issues, attitude problems, i am even afraid to write down what other problems i have. I JUST WISH I CAN SCREAM TO THE WORLD. LET ALL MY STRESS OUT. and feel better. I want to go back in time and wish i was 5 again. No problems to face, turning 18 is harsh. it could be the best years and it could be your learning years. I'm lost and i need to be found. I want my boyfriend to look at me in my eyes and tell me that he will never let go and try to make things better. Not to make me feel less than him, not to cry at night anymore because he is cheating on me or because he called me out, not to be afraid of the future because everything will turn out to be ok. I need communication in my life. i need someone to understand me. I feel that sooner or later i'm going to POP and hurt myself. AT this moment i am hurting and i need someone to show me the light. |
| | Posted by alucant at January 15, 2011 |
well i do my best to tell my story as best as a uneducated person can forget perods and good grammer anyway i wake up early im eight years old i was a big fan of the aba ny nets this is over thirty years ago drj julius erving scored thirty something points my dad worked overnights as a policeman i couldnt wait for him to come home and tell him when he came i told him something didnt seem right this is when me and my three sisters where takin into our living room to talk with mom thats when i was told they where seperating so over thirty years later this still saddens me so the next thirty years where meet with depreesion drug alcohol addication self pity grandiosity my story can go on with the people i disapointed and hurt esp dad who always stood by me regardless my mom had some mental illness and couldnt handle much which i feel wasnt her fault i cant continue to far because i thing i could wind up writing a book if i got too much onto detail i of course dropped out of school started with marijuana pills coc and then came angel dust and crack after stealing from family and conning who ever many efforts by dad to get me clean i didnt stop finally i did stop using angel dust and coc for a long time weed also but 9ij forget to mention ever expanding waistling ive gainded and lost so many hundreds of pds so now im in my early twenties in good place but full of self esteem issues got into good shape started to make have some girlfriends even went bact to school for a minute well my hero dad dies at 58 i marrie a girl who enables me to gain 100s of pds start using coc and alcohol daily so here i am now in my 40s 400lbs om all kinds of depressive meds no job and only have worked low paying jobs with a depression i feel deep in my bones the one thing i know though there is hope no matter how bad it gets just so far not for me and i really believe most of it though is on me ill end this now |
| | Posted by a cool romantic guy at January 15, 2011 |
You will definitely cry when you hear my sorrowful story. I had a deprived childhood and extremely deprived teenhood and right now, I don't know how to live on with my life. I am only 15. Since young, even though I feel love from both my parents, I wasn't happy at all. I remember when I was in kindergarten, I was the only boy in class who would cry as I was very timid and must have the company of my parents. When I was put alone somewhere, I would be so afraid until I cry. Yeahh but the good thing is I am good looking. My face looks kinda cool but my character was timid. It contrasted a lot. My father looks very cool, together with his character and I look like him, except for the character. So since then, I have been an isolated kid. My childhood was playing with myself and sometimes with my cousin. I was very different from other kids when I was young and it all boils down to my grandma. She doesn't allow me to do anything cos in her eyes, I seemed like a pearl to her. Other kids of the same age or younger could go out to play, but I couldn't. This lasted until I was 13. In my primary school, I was in an all boy-school(sucks) but I was a kid, so it doesn't matter much to me. Because of me staying at home in my childhood and being an extremely good kid, I did well for my studies in primary school and went on to a prestigious high school. The reason why I wanted to do well was because I did not want to end up in an all-boy high school which is affliated from my primary sc... |
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| Posted by anon. at January 13, 2011 |
Well, for my sad story about life i will start in 4th grade because that was the last time i can remember where i was happy. In 4th grade i was pretty popular and i had a amazing friend and we were just like each other..we always used to say we operated on the same brain wave. But sadly he moved in 5th grade we kept in contact till 8th grade then we just stopped talking. Thats how i lost my best friend and i am pretty sure that im capable of reconciling with him but the thing that stops me is the same thing that caused be to look up this website in the first place. Here it is my big bad excuse for my sorrows and depression....i have acne. I know it should bother me in this extreme degree but i just cant be my self when ever im breaking out and whats worse is that i am doing all i can to get rid of it but it is not going away which is showing that no matter how hard i try i cant change my life. The school always says take control of your own life if your not happy its your own fault but how am i supposed to change something that i cant control. |
| | Posted by kinewaras at January 13, 2011 |
I have pretended, lied and tried to be someone else for my whole life, just to get a friend or so. I've spent countless hours on trying socialize with my classmates and shit, but nothing. Can't someone appriciate my fucking efforts? And when I was so close on getting a girlfriend, my classmates managed to convince her I'm a pervert, so she has been ignoring me since then. My marks in school are fine, but I can't really see the point of living without having any friend.
fuck the world. |
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