LIFE SUCKS : Poverty

my life sucks but still love my God

I was living in Calgary but had to quit my job due to health issues and then moved to British Columbia where I collected unemployment till it ran out
I had two strokes when I got here and my left hip is so out of joint that it pains me to get up in the morning , I have a sprained elbow and a crushed disk in my lower back which when I move the wrong way shoots a sharp pain all through my back.
My fiance lives in the Bahamas and I cant afford to go see her its been two years now and the good thing is she still loves me. For how long I dont know cause you know how it is when your lonely.I have no source of income and may end up a homeless person who knows.I have migrain headaches in the morning due to the strokes I guess.my brothers and sisters all live in foriegn countries and I dont have a clue how to find them . And to top it all off my eyes are failing me and I had to upgrade my glasses to correct my vision which made me broke.But all in all I still trust in God and expect he will see me through.If I should die tomorrow at least I have my God.
Oh by the way . My only son is an alcoholic and goes on binges once in a while .And his girlfriend is a lunatic and she is pregnant.There you have it . Life sucks but I still believe in God

I'm a depressed male prostitute

First, sorry if my English is poor, it’s my second language. I live in Thailand where my Australian father and my Thai mother had me. My father die when I was ten. He didn’t leave us anything. Later I learn that my mother was his secret wife. Life was very difficult after he die. We hardly had three meals a day. Then my older brother joined a boxing camp to become a boxer to help out. He was doing ok. So I was forced to train there when I was twelve. At twelve, nobody would hire me but people would pay to see teenagers fight. Yes, this is how things work here. In the camp we had to get up at five and run ten kilometers. Then practiced all day until sunset seven days a week. It was no fun being punched and kicked when in the ring or in the camp during practicing. The worst part was weight control. To maintain weight class, camp manager controlled who got to eat and didn’t. I was allowed to have only vegetable soup for days even if my weight was only a few pounds over. People can count all my ribs a few days before the fight date. Because I eat/sleep/train in the camp, most money I earn from boxing which is not much went to the camp owner. But at least I was not a burden to my family. Then my mother was killed by a car accident. The killer ran away. Hard life at the boxing camp and my mother bad news made me leave the camp. I was sixteen with no education and no money. My brothers friend helped me getting a job as a construction laborer in Bangkok. Work was hard but my bod...

i hate my life

I am 27years old I got pregnant at the age of 20 my family stopped talking to me because my bf of 2yrs was white! Asian people are NOT meant to mix apparently! My partner lost his job a few days before giving birth!I have gone hungry so I could feed my daughter! Now my daughter is 4yrs old and I gave up my family to be with my partner I trusted and loved! A few weeks ago he beat me up, I got him arrested! He got a suspended sentence and now because I have no money no where else to go or contact I have to remain with him! I hate my life he don't work I do I pay the rent council tax gas elec all his debts and mine! After the bills are paid I have 300dollars! This has to feed us three pay for bus fare buy my daughters school meals! I want to run away sooo far and start life again! But my daughter needs me where the justice??

Is it worth going back to school?

Im Avatar,
Life is hard right now...I used to have a job in the summer and me and my boyfriend were going by pretty good. I went back to school this September after I dropped out 2 years a go. My boss couldnt accomodate my new schedule and i got kicked out.I depend entirely in my boyfriend and resently he only works 18 hours every two weeks. That's not enough for food and rent plus other expenses. In late october we ran out of food. He eats when he can at his job and me I sneak out food from the cafeteria. This month we won't be able to pay the rent and that means if we don't pay by next month we are out. There's no one to help us and believe me we have asked for help. Now i ask myself is it really worth going back to graduate? I am an illegal citizen so college is not an option for me. We were doing so well when we both worked...I only went back to school to feel that I have done something in life. To make my parents proud of me. It was my goal to graduate and be someone in life. Now as we are starving and I see my boyfriend struggle to get another job or to get more hours I hide my pain. I know he gets hungry when he is at home and I can't offer him anything. We have nothing but our clothes. We sold his computer and many other things now my computer is next...Imagine what thanksgiving will be like for us this year.My shoes are about to get holes in them and I have no jacket for winter. I walk to school and back everyday only with a sweater that's so old It barely fits anymore.Life sucks.......

no food no money no job

I'm and 22 having a baby soon,
me and my wife are both undergrads, jobless, moneyless.
we barely eat 1 meal a day each.
train fare is what we spend most of our money on.

most of my and her loans have gone to rent.

i wish i could all be free,

i feel like it should all be free.

Why Am I Even Alive

I was molested as a kid, I've been physically and mentally abused my whole life even witnessed my mother getting abused as a little kid. I'm 24 years old living in a shitty ass rooming house that has roaches. If I didn't get disability I would be homeless. My father is an asshole who was never there for me financially, my mothers boyfriend was physically and mentally abusive, mother didn't give a shit she put him over me. I live alone with no friends but I do have associates. I can't find a girlfriend the girls I do meet are fuckin treacherous and pathetic and never seem to work out. I spend my days smoking weed and newports, which I'm trying to quit but it's hard as fuck. My family is dysfunctional as hell. They try to help out but they wind up being useless & worthless and nothing EVER goes my way. Society won't give me a chance and I feel trapped and lost. I pray to God but it seems he just watches and lets me suffer day n and day out. It's freezing cold in my room and the land lord will not get his rent until he gets me a heater. I've told him to get me one he said he would but he keeps bullshitting and he has millions, a fuckin rich slumlord. I have small ass refridgerator that doesn't freeze anything so I can't really cook anything, I have to cook noodles and eat out mostly. I'm going back to school in January so I can give my life some type of meaning, but theres nothing worst then this cursed ass hopeless life. I've seen miracles in my life but it seems right now I'm shit out of luck. I wonder why I'm even alive. I think about death all the time. If I wasn't such a coward I would end my life but then I would spend eternity in hell. I feel that God hates me so much it's not even funny. I been in and out of the psychiatric hospital. I have trouble sleeping most of the time. It's just a damn shame.

Life Sucks and it just gets suckier

Hi everyone,

I am an addict and I don't want to admit it because I happen to like drugs and sex a lot. Life sucks so why is it wrong for me to do something I like.

Lets see, I bought my first house to find that it was riddled with defects and now I am living in a gutted home. I found out my husband has been sleeping around since we met. I have broken 3 vehicles within the last 6 months. It is going to snow soon in Colorado and I will freeze in my house because I have no heat. I really do want to die but I don't have enough balls to kill myself. If someone else would do it that would be great. I can't even die in a car accident when I was hit by a semi.

I honestly do not understand how anyone can think this world is great. I think that only people that have everything handed to them think this world is great. Fuck this world and fuck everyone in it. I wish it would just burn up and kill us all.

Shit Happens

I'm almost eighteen. However, I don't want to hear any shit about me being too young to know if my life sucks or if I've messed it up completely yet. I know that I still have "hope," but I can't stop this destructive behavior. I can't get out of this depression. I live in a really awful household right now. It's just my dad and I, and we live in a really gloomy, really small, really dusty apartment. I'd say about 70% of the time one of our utilities is shut off because my dad is incompetent in terms of getting the bills paid. Living in this place is one of the many reasons why I hate myself. I'm sure someone with a sunshine for a brain would want to kill themselves if they had to spend as much time as I do in this shithole. I try and straighten things up, scrub things down, clean, organize. I hate to play the blame card, but my dad is such a fucking slob and he messes everything up a second after I've done my work. He dirties things up, and he's really nasty. He's always shaving over the sink, and leaving little bits of facial hair all over our 2-square-foot bathroom. He refuses to clean up after himself. It's just excuse after excuse after excuse. Anyway, being the obsessive compulsive that I am, this just really makes me frustrated. I'm constantly smashing things because they've been stupidly misplaced. Like I'll find a used toothbrush on the computer desk or a cup of soda on top of a bunch of unpaid bills that's about to topple over. I mean, sometimes I really have to ...

Life just sucks

Lost my house about 2 months ago. Been living on the streets since. Cold and raining. Luckily I still have my library card so I can at least stay in here for a few hours a day. Parents are dead. Never had a family of my own. This is it. When I leave the library tonight I will kill myself. No since in acting like it'll get better one day. Life absolutely sucks.

im screwed

im 16 an living on the streets... cold an hungery everynight... i hate those rich fucks who just sit there an waste a whole bunch of shit... my 4 year old brother was killed an because my mom couldnt handle it she commited suicide... in 24 hours ill probably be dead...

Life Sucks Big Johnson

Hello, my name is Bob. I live in California by myself in a one two room sack or shed. I have no running water in my home so I try to ration water from rain. I mostly hunt for my food by trapping rabbits, chipmunks, and other small prey because I'm trying to save up my money by not buying food. I have electricity atleast, and this laptop. I get my internet from sitting outside the local cafe that has free wi-fi. Iv'e been living this life for three years now and just looking for a little hope in this lonley world. my parents kicked me out of the house when I was eighteen years old knowing I won't make it in this world. I didn't finish collage because I didn't have the money to. since then Iv'e been searching for jobs that will keep me and not let me go after a month. for now I have to just live my life and hope for the best.

my life sucks

ABOUT 2 YEARS AGO I LOST MY JOB DUE TO AN INJURY TO MY BACK I WORKED AS A CNA AT A NURSING HOME MONEY WAS GOOD WELL NOW I WORK ONE DAY A WEEK DOING FAST FOOD OVER AT CHECKERS HERE HOW IT GETS BAD I LOST MY HOUSE I LIVE WITH MY BRO ME MY GIRL AND MY FRIEND I PAY 350.00 A MONTH FOR A ROOM I PAY 311.00 ON A TRUCK PAYMENT AND I OWE AMSCOT 496.00 AND I BRING HOME ABOUT 50.00 A PAY CHECK I SUFFER WITH DEPERASION AND BEEN OFF MY MEDS NO MONEY TO SEE DOCTOR IN PAIN ALL THE TIME WITH A BROKEN TOOTH AND KNOW ONE WILL HELP ALL I GET IS FOOD STAMPS AND WHEN THERE GONE I AM F***ED I MISS MY JOB AND MY FRIENDS JUST WISH I COULD GO BACK I HAVE NO KIDS OR WIFE SO NO ONE WILL MISS ME IF I LEFT THIS EARTH I AM JUST TIRED OF ALL OF THE BS LIFE GIVES TO ME BE NICE TO GET A JOB BUT NOT HAPPENING FOR ME WHEN I WAS 17 I SLIT MY WRIST LOOKING BACK WISH I WOULD HAVE FINISHED THE JOB THERE IS NOTHING HERE FOR ME THANKS TO ALL OF YOU WHO READ MY STORY

Miserable LIfe

I grew up Poor, My parents divorced when i was 6 when i was 19 my dad had a massive heartattack inside 7 Eleven and died. A few months later my favorite Granny was diagnosed with cancer and died a couple months later. 9 months later my step dad found out he had Brain cancer and died 4 months later about a year and a half later my mom found out she had cancer i took care of her for 8 months until she passed away. My twin sister couldnt handle the pain and got into drugs and disappeared i heard she was living in a car..I got married to a very abusive man who beat the crap out of me all the time and cheated on me from day 1! I had a son when i was 17 and pretty much missed out on my entire childhood prom, school dating...etc..
My husband was from a small Island and we ended up moving there after i had another baby once there i discovered my husband was living a double life and was engaged to a flight attendant who lived on the island, needless to say i left him and suffered greatly no family or friends on a very expensive island i started dating a gangster for the excitment and he used me. My aunt who was like a mother to me and raised me got really sick i had no money for a ticket to go home and see her or help in anyway...she ended up dying in the middle of the night all alone....I have felt guilty ever since...I divorced my husband still stuck on this island i again was living very poor lost tons of weight. I met a man who i started dating, soon after he lost his job i stuck by him and he still is not working or cant help me in anyway. Now i am living poor again on a boring expensive Island with no family or friends and no money struggling in an unfufilling relationship that i dont have the heart to get out of....I've never done anything my kids always come first i am 33 and bought my first laptop and i have never even been in a Limo or had any kind of exciting life whatsoever....Now tell me does my life suck???

Paradise isnt all its cracked up to be

so yea if you havent heard of a lil shit rock 90 miles from cuba called key west you've been doing great already this town sucks youre motivation and determination right out of your soul via the shitty way people treat each other our (bullshit)"motto" is One Human Family well i guess it doesnt specify if its dysfunctional now does it so yea been stuck in a vacation destination with a need for vacation for 7 years when the oppurtunity came to i jumped at it upon reaching the outside world i remembered that there are good people out there and real friends dont talk bad about you then when they see you act like youre their bestie but wait theres more its not just the people i belive this town employs gremlins to do dirty work after revisiting reality and awaking from the horrible delusion of it here in the keys i made the decision in my gut to leave and everything fell to shit as if here is a magic lynchpin on life something just pulled out from under me my friends for 7 years turn thir back on me for trying to do more than spin the wheels of life in the sand oh did i mention they were also roommates so if you put 2 and 2 together im fucked now homeless and the aforementioned gremlins plauge my car weekly with a new and exciting part going wrong the job i had was taken from me by a charlie brown lookin white boy on a power trip so yea i went from a nice house with a good job and a solid vehicle to a jobless homeless walker of the streets whos "loving" family thinks it an inc...

homless

Yes, like the title suggests I'm homeless. my house was taken because I was behind on my bills. my wife was killed in a crash my daughter was found dead in the woods. right now im typing this from the library. this may be my last record of living to all of you struggling out there dont give up dont be like me. Im coming martha

i HATE YOU

THIS FUCKING SUCKS. I HAVE NO WIFE. NO LIFE. NO MONEY. I LIVE IN A GARBAGE CAN UNDER A FUCKING CARD BOARD BOX NEXT TO SOME NIGGER NAMED JAMAL. HE HAS DREADLOCKS AND I USE THEM FOR A PILLOW. I GOT BITE BY A RAT OUT OF HIS DIRTY FUCKING HEAD LAST NITE. I HAVE RABIES AND NO INSURANCE. MY MOM HATES ME AND MY DAD BEATS ME. I STAY IN THE LIBRARY BUT THEY KICK ME OUT BECUASE I SMELL LIKE SHIT. I CAN'T EVEN GO INTO THE ARMY CASUE MY BODY IS SO WEAK AND DECREPED FROM SLEEPING IN ALLEYS AND DITCHES THE PAST 6 YEARS. I THINK I SHOULD KILL MYLSEF. BUT THEN I COULDNT BUY DRUGS. I HAVE NO MONEY THOUGH. MY LIFE SUCKS AND I HAVE THE SAME SOCKS ON FOR MINIMUM 7 DAYS THEN I PUT THEM IN WATER AND PUT THEM BACK ON. YOU EVER WORN SOCKS LIKE THAT? MY EX WIFE STOLE MY KIDS AND MONEY. I AM A BUM AND CANT EVEN SHOWER. I LOOK LIKE BUBBLES FROM THE WIRE. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

the streets

Iam 54 and live on the street. Most my family is dead. Those left dont help me much. Iam disabled but the government doesnt see it that way. I dont expect to
live a long time out here. Id like to be here when jesus returns but I think that still a ways off. I was abused as a child, had a bad marriage, my one child didnt turn out well. I am a giveing person but i havent a single friend in this world. If it wasnt for bad luck I wouldnt have any at all. I think I might like to get a life but I dont seem to be able to get going. Despite the tough life ive had, I know I greatly added to my own problems. This is hard to live with as I still have some family that needs help. I am not in a postion to help them. If this is not enough to deal with Iam not in on whats going on so i dont fit in anywere. I hope I do better in the next life hope i make it.
Till then life sssssssssssssssssssssssucks.

tired

I honestly don't get what life is about. Im 26, never had the chance to go study and even if i had i still don't know what i want to do.I got married young and my wife cheated on me and i get why, not enough money. Im stuck in England, cant even afford a ticket home. I work in construction like a slave for min wage, i live in a shared house and behind with rent. Eat shitty food, can't ever do anything, day in and day out. Can't find a better job cause my cv doesnt mean anything. Im just so tired of always having to struggle and through this experience im starting to wonder what the hell is the point of it all. It's always gonna be like this isn't it and what person is interested in a broke 26 year old with no future... How can you stay positive if you have been living a pointless life for nearly 10 years.

Life is Shitt. PERIOD

What can I say? I dont ever feel happiness. I used to be real happy. It was all cause i liked this girl but she hates me, broke my heart, doesnt care. I have no friends, Im an alcoholic, Im a 25 year old man who lives in a 1 bd apartment on a disabiltiy cheque cause i have some bullshit disease a shrink pulled out of theyre ass (TOO MUCH DOPE IN HIGH SCHOOL) I fight every day to be happy, been through more hell than I can explain and I get nowhere. People got all the answers and criticism for me, Im happiest when im alone cause i dont gotta hear anyones shit, and by happy i mean numb sitting here dreaming of shit thats all empty and crap. Im planning to go to school in January, Mainly cause i gotta do something other than sit on my ass, I aint excited and ill more than likely just end up with a debt and some degree that gets me nowhere! I never have sex, I get treated like shit no matter what I do, people are shallow, its all about how you look and talk that causes people to treat you the way they do, every job Ive worked since I was 16 has been shit, my family is always down on me, my greatest joy is eating crap from the supermarket, a deli sandwich or piece of chicken, I suffer, I suffer more and all I get for it is people tellin me to buck up and get over it, people who have good lives nd dont understand shit, I think the happiest Ive ever been was doing drugs at a young age, beer and dope in high school bout as good as its been so far, what else can I bitch about? Ive been in psych wards, Ive been depressed, I fight with my family, im poor, I aint a badass who rides a harley davidson so girls dont like me, Im just some stupid guy kicking around. Even if i meet some girl I fall in love with which is what usually makes people believers, completes theyre lives and makes them truly happy, it probably wont work out for some reason and ill just be miserable my whole life. lots of poeple are unhappy until they die, it is true. LIFE SUCKS.

worst year ever

my life right now sucks so much its hard to even get through each day. the year has been horrible. first of all i'm poor. my dad left and my mom struggles to even pay for food and other basic stuff. sending us to school is a battle. i often have little or no money. we don't have a car nor have we had access to one since my dad left. yet still i battle and study and try to make something of myself. it didn't work out that good. i failed a course pushing me back an extra semester. since i am funded for school this means i have to pay for this course with money i do not have, and since i didn't graduate i can't get a good job. that's just the start. i always used to work and try to get some extra to help out around home and have some money. i actually kept a positive outlook on life. i had a gf. it got serious. i gave her my all. all my time and effort. i loved this girl like no other. i swear i wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. we were even planning to eventually get married. obviously though, she left me, for someone else. in one night. destroyed my whole world around me. wait it gets worse. my grandmom who i lived with for a period of time when we got evicted, is dieing. she can't even qualify to do surgery to prolong her life. another big part of me gone. since the start of the year i have been getting rejected from every place i apply to or anything i try to do. being poor would suck right. until you consider that the little i do have was stolen from me. i was held up at gun point more than once this year. f*cking bandits who just held me up. took everything i had. the wounds from the robberies healed though, but the pain of it all doesn't go away. life and the world seems to be fucking me over everyday. i won't be surprised if right now someone is planning to shoot me in the leg, so i feel the pain but don't die. every morning i wake up to realise that my life only gets shittier.