LIFE SUCKS : Friendship

wow life sucks lately

OK SO MY LIFE IS SO BAD RIGHT NOW
My mom practically kicked my ass out of the house before I even hit 13, and I never even met my dad. My only friend till I was 10 was the fagoot prick next store who was always beating the **** out of me and telling me I wasn't worth Its not even like I had a choice, the town ****ing had something like 9 people living in it, I lie to you not. My entire adolescence as just moving around from place trying to get along with people who didn't even want me.

You think that's the worst? My only friend was an Asian guy in his thirties or something, who only kept me around because he thought I could help him get laid. The only perk was that I also got to hang around with this cute ginger chick, she was flat as a pancake sure, but damn she was a total nymph. She must hace been a sadist or something cause she always took pleasure in hitting me and telling me how she loved to get wet.


But dear god the bane of my existence was this adult couple that I coud NOT seem to avoid. You know these types of couples that are absolutely sickening, like they wear matching outfits and finish each other's sentences? Yeah they were ****ing creepers, and they had a cat, wich was at least twice as annoying as they were, I swear this thing would never shut the **** up.

Like I said I ended up moving from town to town getting into fights with others kids my age, even adults from time to time.
The only thing that kept me going was my dream to become a pokemon master.

And now I am a rapist

I gloat a lot. I'm trying to change that, but so far no good and most of my friends always talk about me being richer and having money and that pisses me off. But I guess I dug my own grave because I gloat too much. Anyways, thats not the point. Point is, I'm sharing an apartment with a very good friend and a few nights ago he brought this girl from a first date. So I sat with them in the living room and kinda flirted with the girl. At the beginning I didn't even notice but after a while she started doing shit like whispering me all kinds of crap and pinching my arms and even told me "lets fuck" in Russian. Anyways, I tried my best to ignore that, but my best sucks so I stayed. I should have just left to my room. We watched a movie (all three of us) and then she fell asleep and then my friend got tired and went to sleep and then I got horny and tried to wake her up. Alas, she did not wake up, so being the retard I am, I gave her boobs a wiggle. Apparently she was wide awake and pretending to be asleep (because god knows I tried to wake her up). Anyways, she told my friend I touched her at night and when he asked me I simply said its true, leaving out the rest of the details. So my friend said we're cool and everything is alright but I can't help but feel that I should just run away and never talk to any of my friends again. Maybe life doesn't suck, maybe its just that I suck.

I hate my best friend

what kind of idiot ends up with a best friend that they hate? I'll tell you. a desperate fuck like me, apparently. here i am, on the phone with this bitch who owns the title of my best friend. she's a slut, she's unreliable, she's a fucking liar, she's ended every single one of my relationships by getting involved with my boyfriends, she's gotten me in big fucking trouble, not only with my parents, but with the police because she has super poor judgement. anyway, what's keeping me from ditching her? telling her off? the fact that if i do, i'll be friendless. (not that she's my only friend, but she's what connects me with all my other friends and she will MAKE them not talk to me or have anything to do with me. she's done it in the past) not only that, i can make sure she'll trash my life, just like she did to all of her ex-best friends. and trust me, she's had many. She's a witch, okay? the last unfortunate girl who was this girl's "best friend" for 13 years told her off. what happened to her? well for one, her boyfriend left her because my best friend told him that she smokes weed and drinks, and she also told this girl's parents, and now she's in fucking rehab all because she does a few joints over the weekend. i don't know what to do. i feel stuck. there's no way out. oh and i find it pretty ironic that this girl is a drug addict herself.

just me

I know i wasn't always like i am now, because i had friends. i had friends and family who cared about me and trusted me. they confided in me. I confided in them. I don't know how or what made me turn on them, but i did. I'd make fun of my friends behind their backs. I'd go out with their ex girlfriends. I lied to them. I cheated them. I started doing narcotics. i'd be i complete ass to my family. When my parents found out i was into drugs, I promised i wouldn't do it again. i lied. I had never broken a promise before in my life. My brother is a sweet kid. He never wished a bad thing about anyone. I know when he told my parents that i was doing drugs again, he meant the best. but i am an ass. i am decietfull. i don't deserve a single good thing i get. The only remotley bad thing that has ever happenned to me was that my parents are divorced, and i used to get beat up all the time in elementary school, but that's no excuse for the way i am. My phsychiotrist (fuck me if i spelled that wrong) put me on antidepressants, but nothing changed. I still cut my self and i still like hurt other people just as much as i like hurting myself. Physically and mentally.
I have no real friends at college (haha, no fucking surprise right?)
and i am unhappy. not because i am lonely, but no one can trust me. I still play football with some people and what not, but they don't trust me. I want people to trust me, i want people to love me, i don't want to want to hurt them but i do. I do...

I am alone

My father went to prison for murder when i was 4. My mom was diagnosed with cancer when i was 12. I had big ears and buck teeth as a kid. the other kids would call me stuff like "buccaneers" and "monkey boy". Im also not 1 race. People mistake me for arabic or spanish or just dont know what i am. All the friends i ever had fucked me over. My best friend greg had a black dude rob me at gunpoint for 187$. My other friend mike who ive known for 10 years stole an idea of mine for a coffee shop AND is using the name i gave him without giving me a job! I used to be so full of hope but now i dont trust anyone. I believe everyone is out for themselves. Its funny how as kids we are so anxious to become adults. But being an adult is just about MONEY. Even if you find someone to love you money will always be the underlying factor. The fucked up fact is: the government makes the money. YES! They print it themselves god didnt give it to them and say you only have this much so make it count.NO they fuckin make the money and make all of us fight for scraps. Life Sucks. I dont even like animals anymore. they too are selfish only showing loyalty to the next person with a bone in their hand. If it wasnt for my love of marijuana i would have killed myself or more likely someone else. Thank the Cannabis plant for making life suck a little less.

Life Sucks

Let's see, my parents are heading for a divorce and i'm trapped in the middle, and somehow i seriously think i'm plagued with lonliness- i can't keep friends or boyfriends-i keep attracting a lot and then losing them in the end.

Why?

I really don't know. My life sucks, badly. Let's start with family...none of them reallly care and I get ignored a lot, my brother tries to kill himself a lot and my other brother I never, ever see because him and my mum fell out. The rest of my family are ok, I just feel like they don't care, because they don't act it you know? Then let's start with friends. Friends are a load of SHIT! My best friend I met like 10/11 years ago has turned into a right slag and all she does it talk about herself, and everyone follows her around like she's it. I make new friends and suddenly have none, due to her. Also, I'm the 'nerdiest' girl and most 'ugly' girl in school. (I've been callled and named it a fair amount of times.) so in otherwords, I'm hated, bullied, laughed at and nobody takes notice. I had one boyfriend like 2 years ago and he did stuff to me I wasn't fine with. (I won't go in detail, but I hated him.) :( but I am still a virgin. I currently like this guy for 4 years, (began to love him) told him. A couple of months ago, he didn't like me one bit. Yes, I did cry...yes, I did try to kill myself, I mean, you wouldn't know how much I loved him. But he took everything as a joke and he took ME as a joke. Everything I ever have or get is taken or done better by someone else. Media skills (only skills I hve) - done better by my best friend. Boys- taken by friends. My life just, isn't mine anymore. I know I sound like a whiny little baby I just need to let it out to someone. I hate my life. Either end it or restart it. Ending seems like the best option up to now.

ima duaghter hidding her depression a sister tring to make a good impression

okay im 13 yr old girl that basicly has no reseson to live .......my friends are always complaining that their parents woun't let them go some where or that their friends leave them out of "important" things but they don't have it that bad they go to partys every other weeekend and they have friends by the hand full......back to me i guess ok my life sucks beacuase my friends don't trust me they act like i don't exsist my grandfather just died, one of my friends act like they own me my parents don't even know whats going on i love my best guy friend but one of my friends like him too i have thought of going emo but i couldn't do that because of my little brother and sister...they need me...i cry myself to sleep i have low self esteem a couple years ago i say my best freind get run over by a jeep . im failing evry class my friends leave me out of every thing they only come to me some times when they need help with homework...the only thing that keeps me going is my lil bub and sis like i saiid earlyer they need me

friends

i have , sorry had a friend whom i gave my all to i was always there for her and she was never there for me but i continued to be her friend thinking, hoping she would change she always chose her other friends and even boyfriends over me but it did not matter i knew i was being a good friend just by being there but now she has gone and done it again. i said something on facebook that pissed her off now i am no longer her maid of honor in her wedding and we are no longer friends after 9 years at 25 years old i think she just made the worst decison of her life and to make things worse it wasnt even to her it was to an old friend whom she hasnt spoken to in over 6 yrs wife i have no money and a dead end job and now have no friends other than my husband which isnt even that good because i work while he sits home on his ass watching tv LIFE SUCKS i would write more but i don't have the energy to bitch anymore ima go take my meds and then off to bed

Loneliness

Well, I'm going to be starting my third week of my second year of college soon. What do I have to show, nothing. I have no friends and this three day weekend is killing me! I made "friends" last year but they don't really talk to me anymore. Last year, they (three girls)lived across the hall from me and we became close. When doing our room selections for next year, I kept hinting we could live in a quad. But, they ignored me. The one, that's name her Jessica, was complaining about if they try to get this quad (two rooms with a bathroom in between the rooms) they would have to have one random roommate. I'm standing there saying "Well, I can me your 4th roommate." Right when I said that she turned a deaf ear and changed the subject. They never told it to my face, but I know they didn't want me to room with them for some reason. So, they got a triple and I was put on the waiting list for a room. Finally, I got my room, it was in the same resident hall as they were. I was pretty happy about this because we could see each other often. Well, that's not the case... They never invite me to do anything! No dinners, no movie nights, no working out, no nothing! I've invited them to do a lot stuff this year like watch a movie, eat, or just talk. But, they are either not there or already eaten or studying or too tired. It's really frustrating and making me depress.
They live on the first floor and I live on the second floor. I've been in their room about five...

i need advice on a friendship

okay so

i made two really good friends this year in my high school and i got comfortable enough to call them my best friends, which is a big step for me. one of them (ill call them joe) told me all this stuff to me about 5 or 6 months after meeting him, stuff like i was annoying and craving attention and he made me change my image of myself b/c i became insecure. he also went for the girl i really really liked . weve gotten into plenty of fights but were "ok" now. joe usually talks to me every night but all he has to say is sarcadtic or rude.

the other one (ill call him bob) has also been my friend, but hes too into himself, and doesn tcare about anyone else just in general. we were absolutly fantastic until about the start of the summer when he stopped talking to me or limited the amount of conversation (we used to talk until 2am even on school nights every day).

i feel like im being so dramatic, but i want to end both of these friendships so badly. but if i do i know ill be sad/depressed and miserbale without them, and im tired of working it out over and over because they do it again over and over. can someone please give me advice please??

Out of nowhere

When i was in 2nd grade i was outgoing,opened, and fairly popular. My 2 best friend were Anissa and BreAnn. I always felt like they were a little closer but at that age it didnt bother me all that mattered was that we were bffs. Well one day at recess they were like we want to talk to you. So we go over by the huge oak tree and their laughing and running behind it saying i can't say it. I'm thinking its something good. They come back around smiling and said 123 we don't want to be your friend anymore. I was standing there a crushed little girl and they think its funny. They leave and i just sit there in disbelief thankfully i had people to be there for me at recess. We got back to class and i couldnt help it and just started bawling we all had the same class. I know it was along time ago and i'm over it. Its just one of the times i've been let down by a friend thats caused me to become a different person. To put up walls and not trust hardly anyone....it just sucks.

Bff or not

My best friend moved from my neighborhood to indiana across the country. My other bf who was going to replace him Was also very close to me and I liked ALOT thought I was anoying and thought I txted her to mutch. So I stoped txting her and 3 weeks l8r I txted her and no response she told my friend that she ddnt feel like txting me. She never talked to me any time after that. By the way that started happening the day after I went out to a icecream shop with only her. Now my Bffff moved and I lost him. Then I heard from my other friends that she ddnt wana be my friend anymore. We were closer than you think and I also liked her ALOT. Soo now two of my closest friends are gone. And one of them just h8s me to h8 me. "Life Sucks"

shitty life

I am bored to death with my life. I hate it. I never have money, always fucking broke. People tell me well you can always change that by getting another job. well they don't know my situation, its easy to say but not easy to do. i have friends but not friends that will help you in times of need.Just drinking friends. friends who will back stab you. Recently ive been doing stuff i shouldn't be doing but fuck it i don't care anymore, i will only live once.
I believe i am a nice person who cares for others but whats the point no one else cares for me.
I will always be on my own i have got used to that.

Life! what the fuck is that even mean?

"women don't lie"

*READ FIRST* - This got forwarded to me the other day through an old college buddy. I think I know who wrote this, and if he ever sees this I hope he can move on, as cold as that sounds. It's been five years buddy.
I had a pretty decent life up until my freshman year of college. Friends, supportive family, always had something fun going on. Freshman year 2005, I went to a party with a handful of friends from school and wound up hooking up with a way-out-of-my-league girl I'd known from class. We were both drunk, so was everyone. But we were both lucid enough to have a good time. She and I even spent the night together, in the morning we exchanged numbers and everything. I didn't hear back from her again and she ignored my calls; I chalked it up to a one-time deal.
A week later I come back to campus from a funeral and get arrested for rape. I guess since word got out that I had managed to have sex with the queen on the cool girls, this cunt couldn't handle the social ramifications so she went to the cops and told them I'd slipped her something and raped her. Expelled, all my credits were forfeited (so long to $30,000). Did three days in jail waiting for bail money. Wind up going back home to slightly less-supportive family. Did the court thing. Bitch lied through her teeth, and of course had the biggest bulldyke of a lawyer I'd ever seen. She couldn't even keep her bullshit story straight but since "women don't lie about rape", she won. My lawyer got m...

life is so sucky

I have never been the type of person who had alot of friend i really did not care i like having a small group of friends because to many people can start problems. I was fine all the way until the 7th grade. i had my school friends and my friends in the neighborhood and those were my real friends. However, when i moved to Georgia is when things changed, well sort of. When I moved to GA I had plan to start a new life. I did, I had made new friends and was doing really good in school and a knew i was not the most popular but it did not matter all of my friends was great and i never felt alone in while i was there. We had even tried out for the flag team for high school and most of us had made it including me. but during that summer between middle school and high school my mom wanted us to move back home. This may have sounded nice but it was not. When i had came back it was like all of my good friends had forgotten about me like i had never existed. i remember walking down the hall of my high school and seeing my old best friend look at me then turn her head. we didnt speak until the end of 10th grade and that was only because we wanted to know if the other had pass the state required graduating test which we both did but after the we never spoke again. it was hard for me to make friends since i came i dont know why i guess after 4 year so of being isolated i have a hard time now getting to make friends now im in becoming a sophomore in college trying to figure out where im going to go next just so maybe i may have a chance to meet people so i can make friends

Friends? I think not.

It was just a normal school day, and I told my friends about a really disgusting nightmare I had (I wont say). The friend who was in it got all pissed and wouldnt talk to me all day. My other friend, Lydia, being the shit hole she is, goes to her side. At lunch I go to sit next to Lydia, and she moves from that spot to the next seat. I sit somewhere else, and all that time I'm sitting there, listening to her conversation with Alex and Kayla. I try to say something, they all look at me, and look away. I know this is something on my part, but I called them motherf*cking b!tches after that. We go to science class about 45 minutes afterwards, and we can either play math games, or read. I chose to read, because my only 2 friends left were with the b!tches. I cry, school's over soon enough, I get home, and cry my eyes out again. I didn't go to school the next day because I didn't want to face them, even though it was field day.

Why I'll never be good for anything

It all started good...I think so anyway. But since I could remember all of my friends kept moving it was and is pissing me off. Because one of my other friends is moving next year and well it upsets me. I can also never find the right friend the one who actually thinks the way I do or likes the same things. But back to the topic. In elementary school people were dicks to me and I get blamed for everything. But now things are worse. They people who were dicks before are complete assholes! It's especially not helping when I have problems at home to. I also am having trouble with grades. My mom pisses me off she used to be on drugs and used to get drunk so bad it sickens me so yeah figures! The only thing I'm looking forward to is watching all the assholes I know now grow up and become actual people so I can call them names and complain to them so they'll feel terrible! Jesus Christ sometimes I think I should just come to school with a shanking knife. You guys reading may not understand but I am pissed the fuck off and hate pretty much everything and it only makes things worse that next year I won't have anyone to back me up...

FRIENDS :(

Ok, so since I was 6 years old, I was best friends with Clare, and best friends with natasha since I was about 7.. We were REALLY close! We never fought, we never bickered much.. Now me and clare were slightly closer, but not in a mean way towards natasha.. we just were... Then, me and Natasha got really close, and hung out together alot, mainly because Clare's parents were really strict etc. and didnt let her go to discos etc with us.. The three of us were still extremely close... In P5, we got to know a girl who lived about 15 minutes away-sinead- through a sports team.. she was nice. Then, we got to secondry school,( aged 11) and sinead was in our class, we soon became best friends with her- there was four of us then. But this is when silly fights started.. though they always turned out OK in the end. Then, near the end of our second year, I became friendly with another girl in our class- shannon.. now shannon was really nice, but she was never my BEST friend- I already had 3 and nothing could have replaced them.. I never saw shannon all over the summer holidays, and hung out with my other 3 best friends most of the time.. In september, when we started back at school, shannon invited me to sleepovers etc, and i was flattered and I did like her, so I went.. Then, I noticed my other three friends change soon after shannon and I's first sleepover, the excluded me slightly, and tryed to avoid me.. then one day I confronted them saying 'Guys, we've not been the same lately...

Life..

Well im sick of life.

I hate it where i live its full of people who seem to be enjoying life when im fucking sitting in my room doing nothing.

I have no real friends, they are all fake and i can't trust them.

I wish i could move away and start fresh. Meeting new people and making new friends.

Fuck life.