LIFE SUCKS : 2011 April

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My mother died 12 years ago and my only brother killed himself 3 years ago... My father remarried and he's happy I think. I have uncles and grandparents and they are alright, but lost contact with all of my friends. I have a beautiful girlfriend, she and her family helped me a lot after my brother died, but for the past year I've been loosing all my interest for her, I mean, I like her as a friend and not as a gf anymore. This is because I'm completely crazy about a girl at work, that flirts with me, but she is going out with another guy... I don't want to hurt my gf's feelings, but if I leave her I'll be alone and I can't stop thinking about the other girl... Today I'm not depressed, but some days I just want to kill myself... I miss my brother and my mother a lot and I keep thinking I should be with them...

i hate myself.

I have yellow crooked teeth and one of my big teeth is bigger than the other. I think I have vitiligo because I have white spots all over my body. My hands are wrinkly and whenever i touched a persons hand they say it feels like alligator skin. I have a lazy eye. I have no good looking clothes and always feel uncomfortable. My bedroom looks like a little boy's room with a bunk bed when I am 17 years old. I have no friends and hate how people think they could make fun of me. No girls are attracted to me. I always have weird bumps on my you know what.

Its sucks?

well mi life is not bad i guest..... My brother dead so all i got left my beatifull wife wich i love and mi dear mother "worlds best mom ever". My problem is things are starting to crumble, you see a few years ago having a profesion was a garanti of succes, how ever now a days it is not. Im doctor, 7 years studiying realy kicking my own ass down on the books. Finished the career and got to the next step... the spciality, studied a full year for the exam and got a speciality on surgery. its was terrible, i was going to die so i talk with mi wife about quiting and start over, she was ok. i did it and im unenployed right now, i try to studi "is not going good" for take the test next year and start over again. at least i was fast i meet this guy hwo finished a especiality but was 2 years unenployed, that sucks, now i got the exam againg and is doing another especiality, 4 years of his live to the crap.

Today i start thinking ¿WHAT THE HELL ARE WE DOING? i spend 9 years of mi life studying like an asshole, spent thousands of dollars, and only worked for 1 year (its doesnt even pay 1% of the cost of my studies). i dont drink, dont smoke, never tried drugs on mi life. dammm im a saint, dont even cheat my wife... "no need i think shes a beauty".

only think i want to do is go down the street, go berserk and fuicking kill averyone como close.... but then i see my wife, get calm and say fuck it.
Lost 9 years of mi life.. so what? unenployed... so...

Screwed character, screwed for life

Well, as you know my character is kinda screwed. I am 16 YO this year, never had sex, never had a gf, never hug nor kiss before, only dated twice. Many people say that I am very handsome, cool, charismatic, but I do not have a good personality. Many girls like me, and I am the type in which girls go for, but I feel unworthy for them. I am so afraid to know them, because I hate my nice good guy and dull personality. I hate myself a lot. Let me tell u all of my problems. I am anti-social, introverted, has social phobia, don't dare to look into one's eyes when talking and very rude, has all kind of irritating and disgusting action while chatting with others, has an unfriendly aroma, kind of shy, low self esteem and confidence, not bold, one very honest and upright man(seemed like a robot)(this was because of my fking teacher in primary school who asked us to be fking honest and obedient and I was the stupid one who became the teacher's pet and listened to her. From then on, I became some very honest, very very upright guy who doesn't know how to have fun.) Well all these could actually screw my teenage life, screw my entire life. First off, people don't like me. They hate my every action, the way I talk and move and do things. I always screw things up. One fine example was when I was in 8th grade of high school. I was the parade commander for morning assembly and I had to shout out the command. When I was on stage, my leg shook like mad. The audiences laughed. From then on, ...

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Well I'm a pretty privileged child. But my home life sucks.. My dad is pretty much I guess bipolar and well ever since my parents were married he's been abusive to my mom now he is just abusive mentally, so after all these years of my mom "complaining" to me about how her life sucks and how she won't get a divorce til after my brothers gradution. Well after being fed up with all this I finally I gained the courage to stand up to him(which was a HUGE mistake) well i told him everything my mon told me in my perspective and now he won't talk to me, asked me to run away and even said "don't let the door hit your ass on the way out" I'm only 14 I know there r lots of people less fortunate than I am but what u dont understand is that my dad and I have been very close since I was born, and now for all this to happen i might as well run away because obviously he doesnt care...

I wish i could

I hate my life, i dont know what to do anymore.. People cant forgive me for everything ive done, im soo sick of it.. Walking around and carrying this pain with me.. Believe me people im not emo! Im only human i can not be careless.. I just want to be forgiven and i promise ill do the rest

Lonely

I always thought when i was little i was going to grow up and be perfect; pretty, talented, popular. And now i feel as though i have lost everything. I never really noticed that everyone left me until a few days ago. Every best friend i have ever had has left me for someone else, someone better. I have this one best friend who means more to me than words can explain, i tell him everything until one day i told him something and we disagreed and now we arent talking. I have lost everyone and im really very lonely. I have cried for 3 hours straight and now my mind is reeling with how i could have prevented it. I have never regretted something more in my entire life than taking my best friend for advantage. I just hope he will forgive me, because without him i'm utterly lost.

I don't think it gets better

I know I don't have it as bad as some of you. Growing up, my family was poor, but never in poverty. When I graduated high school, I thought I would escape from that little town and go off and see the world. I went to college about 3 hours away from my hometown and I was so excited about learning new things, making new friends, and discovering who I was. I ended up on academic probation at the end of my freshman year. I couldn't handle the stress of being a full time student and trying to support myself at the same time. I had trouble finding a job that would pay enough and give me time to get my school work done. I have social anxiety and the idea of going in and looking for a job was just overwhelming. I ended up just dropping out after 2 years, with nothing really accomplished. Maybe if I had some goals to work for, (I never could decide on a major) I would have worked harder in school. Maybe if I could have just found a decent job, I wouldn't have been so stressed about money. Either way, I was done there.

I decided to enroll at a tech school. I found something I enjoyed doing and thought maybe I could make a career out of it. But the same old problems came back. I couldn't find a job to work with my schedule and depression and anxiety got so bad my parents checked me into a mental hospital. I was there for 4 months. I was kind of excited about being there. I thought it would give me some great life experience while I healed. But I never di...

When did I die?

I seem to be in Hell already. But I am completely unaware of what I did to get here.

OMG really

I am in bankruptcy on chapter 13 repayment. We have been doing this for going on 3 years now. All this comes out of my check and I just got garnished from a stupid health club from 2 years ago (not in bankruptcy) and it was originally a $148.00 debt so I blew it off. Well, it grew to $823.00 and they are taking it out of my check like now. I HATE MY LIFE.

Just venting. I still love the life that hates me. (Warning, it's an effing book)

Well huh, I guess I'll just start. I grew up never knowing my actual father. I still have no clue who he is, and honestly there isn't a fiber of me that cares. I grew up living with my mom, grandfather and grandmother. My grandfather, was just that, a father to me. So the three of them all raised me.

Now skipping ahead. I always had a rough time in school. The teachers sucked and the kids were shit. So I dropped out in eighth grade. Probably the only good decision I have ever made. I actually learned a lot more, after doing that. Eventually I started skateboarding and made a few friends, after that I became a sort of transplant into this town, south of the one I am from and currently live in.

Eventually after having the worst girl related experiences of my life so far, I had finally found a girlfriend. Yaaaay! right? No, wrong! She treated me like shit. I eventually moved in with her. Big mistake.

Now by this time I had started working for my grandfather full time in his carpentry business. Not doin' to bad but still scraping by. This girl I was seeing had.. well to put it lightly, anger issues. She not only managed to repeatedly threaten and punch me (hit me with an acoustic guitar, which I actually find funny) but she also managed to burn a lot of the bridges I had built in the "transplant" town we moved to.

Moving on. A friend of mine, one who had introduced me to this town and all the people I now know. Not to mention, someone a c...

MY life suck, cannot find a damn job

my life damn fucking sucks and i still cant find a suitable job. almost 6 months i searching for job but still not a damn opportunity.
today 12/04/2011.. i went for 1 job interview. this job was introduced by headhunter company.
i was so happy because got an opportunity to go interview. but guess what my day are not that lucky !!!!!!!11. The employer told me that they will bond me for 2 years for this position and require me to go for some software training. if i leave within 2 year time. i must pay compensation.!
( here is the sucking part) the head hunter never told me that this position requires me to accept bond period!!. what the hell totally wasted my time and the employer time, and make me feel what the fuck!!! why god treat me like that !! why me is the one that be the unlucky side ??

Giving up

I know there's something wrong with me. I must be retarded or autistic or borderline or something because I feel so different from everyone else. Life sucks and god and everyone else in the world most certainly hate me with a fiery passion. Had a horrible childhood with a pedophile for a father and developed depression at a young age, which led to the chronic use of marijuana, alcohol and sex by age 16. A few years later when I was 19 there was a short period when I involuntarily went sober from all substances and this is when I underwent a brief psychotic episode where I ended up slitting my wrists and scarring myself for life. Afterward I was so ashamed that I felt I didn't deserve to live, and so I bought a gun thinking I'd blow my brains out, but at the last second realized I still had a small amount of money left so I thought I'd gamble what little I had left playing poker so I could have the luxury of dying penniless.

Sadly my initial plan was thwarted as I won back to back to back tournaments and now I've never been richer and have all the weed and alcohol I could ask for. I'm still miserable and depressed and incapable of developing a meaningful relationship with anyone, but at the same time I don't know what it is that I need to make things better. I would ask for help but lets face it... Friends, family and professionals are all so fucking useless! The only person you can depend on is you.

Nothing...

I am only 21, but I feel as though I am 81. As an only child of a single parent I was constantly alone in my youth. On top of that, my mom and I moved around a lot (at least once a year until I was 15), so I was always having to readjust and try to fit in. It never worked. In middle school, I was mercilessly teased for my terrible acne, my body type, and my general presence. At that time, I couldn't even escape to my home for solace because my mother was entering a relationship with an abusive alcoholic who domineered my every move. When I was 15, my mother married this abusive man and thus ensued a total of eight long years of domestic violence, lack of self-esteem, and general anxiety nearly every minute of the day. I spiraled into a depression that, now as a university student, is really coming through in everything I do. I have many acquaintances, but no honest to god friends. Everyone I do end up becoming close to, eventually begins to hate me and I really can't understand why. It feels like everything I touch turns to shit, everything I try to fix just becomes more unrepairable. It is the day before my 21st birthday. I should be out having fun, making plans with friends, and getting really excited but that won't happen. It never has happened. I am not like most 21 year old college students. I feel that my loneliness is intrinsic, and even if I were to find friends and support, there is something inside of me that will not budge. I fear that I'll die this way...alone, unhappy, unsuccessful, and damaged. I can't let go of what happened to me in the past, I can't escape my imagination, and I feel that my anxiety is growing by the day. Life shouldn't be like this.

Ten Reasons

It is easier to find Ten negative things than to find Ten positive things about life. We all have problems, some worse than others. Life takes forever to pass you by, make the best of it. Volunteer somewhere, adopt a pet, or simply find a hobby you enjoy. Attending church regularly also helps people get back some motivation. God bless.

Crappy

My parents found out I smoke weed and took away my freedom to go outside and have money, they lock the medical cabinet so I won't get high so I end up stealing Nyquil and Robitussin to get high. I'm overweight and never got laid, everone thinks I'm a drug addict who fails at life and it is true, I never done well in school and I need to get high to rid of all pain inside me but no one gives me a break so I am going to kill someone who does that too me, especially my fucked up overprotective parents. I grew in a family from India and people make fun of me for that even though my family is wealthy in India and a high-income family in the United Sates. They make fun of my people and I'm sick of that crap, my people aren't poor it's costs alot of money to come to this fucked up country even though after we come we end up being discriminated. The only thing I could do is murder the who ruined my life. I was molested,bullied, and pathetic and the only thing I could do is murder for comfort and attempt to do well in school. For people who fucked me over, your life will end short because of me. Too many commas in this paragraph.I hate niggers and white-trash skinheads because they give this country a bad name and so do I.

DO NOT CRY FOR ME. ONLY SATAN DO

I am a 22 years old virgin, painfully loner, never had a gf, never kissed a girl, been hated since childhood. Parents loved me a lot in childhood but hated me in teenhood. Everyone hated me a lot. Noone likes me. I am handsome though, but for some reason, I suck too much until everyone hates me. I got no life. In my high school days, I have social phobia. I was the quietest guy in class and noone likes me at all. The girls hated me damn lot. They would always give me that sort of hatred and disgusting face whenever I talk. This causes me not to talk for a few years(except at home). I guess the reason for all these was because I once had teen depression painfully. The feeling sucks like fking hell. I didn't dare to look into someone eyes, it's as though it's a curse. I was low in energy. I couldn't socialise like anyone else. Everyday in school, I would try to walk as fast as possible to my class room and I would sit at the back of the class without partners. People would always give me that kind of hatred stares. During recess time, I had nowhere to go and I would be so afraid to meet anyone and I would just hide inside the toilet and sometimes crying inside, praying to god when this will end or else I would end it myself. I would always challenge to god vulgarly, doubting his love and whether he would end this shyt, otherwise I would just kill myself and join satan force and attack heaven. I really have this thinking. At least satan is for the outcast. Since childhood, I...

First of all i'm 16 years old which to most readers might seem ridiculous,the fact that someone my age can cry how her life sucks b when she hadn't really lived much but please read the rest and you might understand the way i feel.
I was born in a war-infected country and survived stuff like bombing and so on at the age of 3,i lived in building basements,attics and so on most of my earliest childhood which led me to have pneumonia and some other infective diseases which led me to have a very weak immune system to this day.But this honestly was the happiest time of my life, if that makes any sence,it was the only time in my life when i had at least some attention from my parents and was acutally carefree.My mother is mentaly sick and was treated a few times though unsuccesfully,she never wanted me born nor the rest of my family,which they keep telling me every single time i do anything wrong,FOr an example when i was about 4 years old i accidentally tripped over a stone on the street and hurt my self badly,my mother as soon as she had seen me started kicking me on the floor,yelling and insulting me.After that they had to take me to the hospital 'cause i couldnt get up from the pain.She constatnly criticised the way I look and called me ugly and fat since i have the ability to remember.My father was never around and when he was never did pay much attention to me neither.I have an elder broter which my parents love and adore and would always buy him everything and give hi...

I love to rage

I can't stand my father anymore. I've gone through an extremely difficult break up. I'm merely 17 years old, yet I maintained a relationship that went of shy of 3 years. I loved her very much, and she claims to still love me. I hope we can get back together one day. But the main point of this is...

FUCK MY FUCKING DAD. HE CAN ROT IN HELL THE STUPID PRICK OF A COCK. HE NEEDS TO LEARN WHEN TO SYMPATHISE AND WHEN TO BACK OFF AND JUST BE GENEROUS IN HIS NATURE. I HATE HIM SO MUCH.

Anyway, capitals end. I wish to God - though I am in no way religious, that my girlfriend and I could simply get back together, move out and have slow sundays in bed. Damn it makes me wish to cry. Life is never that simple though, is it?

Life sucks.

is it to late

i will start of sayin i am 45 yrs old unemployed 380lbs ex addict who still needs percozets whenever i can get to feel ok oh yea take antidepressants.i was born into a blue collar family full of mental and other addications.i am the youngest of 4 only male of the sibs my father bein this strong hard workin police man and cons worker wanted nothin more than to have a son.he finally got his wish although my parents hated each other by this point but they had to have me.of course i thought as a child i had a great family until the age of 8 they divorced with my mom bein so weak and unable to stand up to my domineering father ps guess who i took after.life really began to suck my interest in schooland activieties started to lack this is where i first found the comfort of food.so fast foward to age 13 peer preesure no confidence in self came drugs by the time i was 18th i had been in and out of rehabs oh yea i managed to lose weight though lol so that was kool.i had finally found the drug that got me away from drugs for a while crack which now added the stealin of my familys mney and jewels.with my mom bein german she had moved back there so i was sent there at 19 which was great i started havin sex with a cousin my first real relationship 2 months later i was home free of drugs and measnin back in america with some confidence. i now was in shape from gym lookin real good was meeting and datin girls and had good ppl in my life.i finally subcumbed back into drugs and alcohol ...