LIFE SUCKS : 2010 December

life goes on i hope

my wife started playing AN online game and now we have no relationship we are in or early 50s and have an adopted 8 year old son too. she now tells me she does not love me no more and wants to move on. the kicker is the son we adopted is her grandchild and he does not want to live with her. She wants to live free and run around and leave him with me, i adore him but dont think she deserves a free ride I do. life sucks what do i do. I am dieing inside

What's the point?

I'm a 15 year old girl, and I hate like everything about myself. I'm bulumic. I think I'm ugly and fat, but people say I'm not. I don't believe them, and probably never will. I tried commiting suicide, but got caught. The only thing keeping me here is my girlfriend (I'm Bi), I love her so much. My dad's a deadbeat and my mom lives in New York. I live with my sister. I cry almost every night because my appearance puts me down so much. What's the point of being here?

Sucks~~~

Well my life sucks, my life is a big lie...
when i was 3 yrs old, i waas looking at a pretty world, a good father, a caring mom, a nice villa. everything anyone would dream of, but suddenly my mom disappeared and when i ask why.. i hear "she is sick, she left you and she will be back when she's okay"...
spent 15 yrs without hearing anything from her, i hate her for dumping me...
my father used to have a big company, but he's broke now, and we loved misery for years, too month's ago she found me, and she was the best mother any son could have, they lied to me!! they took me from my mother's arms!!
I hve low self esteem, i have a weird personality and never had a girlfriend!! i aam too different from others i am 6"7 too skinny, have HUGE lips, bad hair, i always slouch and have theocratic spine.. i feel ugly.. every girl is rejecting me... i do have the balls to come on girls aks them out, talk to everyone, but i jst didnt find any girl tht likes me.
I feel blue all the time... dnt have many friends nd my bets friend (from opposite sex) just choose to study with a girl she hates instead of studying with me!!!
I got recently been called "pedophile", i accidentally touched my cousin's daughter... and everyone didn't believe me!!
I've been called "pervert" by my aunt.. all my family hates me, and i idnt do anything!!
wht do you think?
wht should i do?

anon

I just turned 20 and I've been depressed since I was 14/15. I wanted to become a doctor, but my depression affects the way I think. I'm overanxious which causes me to do badly on every test I take in college, in fact I just took a chemistry final exam and am beyond nervous to see the grade because I need a 70 just to get a C. So from this point to the point where the grade is posted I'm going to be a ball of stress worrying about getting a D and if I do get it, I probably will have to drop out of pre-med because my grades will be too low.

In addition to that, I hate the way I look, I have horrible luck, my self esteem is non existent almost to the point where I don't want to be noticed because I feel like people are making fun of me. My life is unbearably bland, nothing to look forward too. The only girl I love flipped out on me & is no longer in my life. I see my friends only once a month since they moved away, my job is boring and people always seem to take their anger and crap out on me, especially when I'm extremely nice to them. My life feels out of control and it feels like I'm being pushed.

For me to be happy, all I want is a girlfriend who isn't emotionally abusive and good grades, but I can't come by either and things that I do have such as my health and my family seems to be deteriorating as well. I just don't understand what's wrong and life really is a bummer right now...

i dont know what to call this shit

i cant stand my life i left school after my dad died to take care of my family and they arnt even thankful ive been dealing with horrible tooth pain for a year cause its either food or dentist ive sold everything i own for gas money for my little sister to get back and forth to school i dont even have a fucking bed anymore im stuck on a couch with a bad back to take care of them yet i need anything im told no stop being selfish are u kidding me i gave up my hopes dreams and future and all i own and go through agony each day for them yet im selfish what the hell i say or do anything i get chewed out and o im grown yet i gotta get disrespected by someone half my age sleeping in what was my room yet i cant try to correct her and i cant even leave cuase guess what lost my job due to down sizing and who whats to hire someone without a HS diploma dont matter why i left they just look at me like a punk and a bum no one cares hell i do it all and im treated like shit i cook i clean my mother dont do shit but put me down and use me knowing i cant leave i got nowhere to go

Born at the wrong time.

My life doesn't nearly suck as much as some of the people's supposed lives. Mine sucks in a different way. I am a senior in highschool, never had a legitimate girlfriend, still a virgin. I don't have anyone I can call a true friend. 18 and a half. My sister died at 36 while I was a junior, I fucked up my junior year second semester, went from being a 4.0 student with a bright future to a slack off 2.2 student with nothing to look forward to. I have a bunch of brothers who two of them moved away, the other two are still here, but I am too young to really hang out and drink with. I play videogames and work at a fast food were I have to deal with shitty people all day. I am constantly bored. I am split between college and the navy. I am just ranting with everything I don't like right now. If I join the navy I can experience a little life with getting friends and traveling the world, becoming fit and the like, or go to a community college work two jobs to pay for it and not have a life since the school will still be the highschool people in a different life. I wish I could win the lotto and fix my familys financial situation put myself in a university out of the state of mi since this place is absolute garbage. End of Story

I don't think it will ever end...

My mum had me when she was just 14 and my biological dad ran away. Then she married Mark at 16 and he was 20. And he basically bullied me throughout my whole childhood. I got picked on all through Primary School for being Fat.
Got raped by my uncle at 10 years old and he was convicted Not Guilty BY ONE FRICKEN VOTE!!!
Got bullied once again all through high school for being Fat and Dating A Girl(I'm Bisexual) in my last year!
My mum had 6 kids with Mark, and when we were just beginning to bond she divorced him. Ever since then I became Bi-Polar and Suicidal.
Mum then Shagged a bunch of men and got Pregnant again! I spend my whole time acting like thier mother rather than older sister!
She then ditched him for Another bloke and is now Pregnant with her 9th baby and is once again single!!!
I'm struggling in college and have no time for a job!
My mum said she is going to put the unborn baby up for adoption when it's born but I want to adopt it instead. But only being 18 with no job and no house of my own I'm scared of what will happen to my unborn brother!! I wish I had some help!!?

My life sucks

I am 16 and am poor socially mentally and physically. I have no talents at all. I sometimes wonder what the point of getting up in the morning is because i have nothing to look forward to. I have very little friends. I have never had a girlfriend or even been kissed also my firsst friend that was a girl came last year. Seriously I'm gonna die alone I get C's in all my classes I weigh about 125 lbs. I am skinney as hell. I cant do anything my life is a complete waste of time. I am extremely shy and have social anxiety disorder and need anti-depressants to get me through the day. I cry a lot i was crazy when i was a little kid and now its come back to haunt me i wish i could do it over again i have had so many chances to get a girlfriend but i screwed them all up i dont know who a friend is in this world anymore i hope i could go to college and make friends there but i might screw that up too my parents want me to stay here but i refuse i wish i could do it all over again

Alone

Im not English so please forgive me for my grammar. Im a 16 year old boy. My parents and I had to move from Hungary to London 10 months ago because of financial problems. I had to leave all my friends and family. Since that I got in to a pretty good school. Sometimes I go to work to get some money for my parents. In school I dont have friends because Im the only male in the class. In the school most of the people are black and to be honest they dont really like the depressed white boy who always sits alone in the corner of the canteen. My old friends forgot me and they dont really care about how alone I feel so I lost the connection with them. All I have are my parents who I dont fell comfortable to tell how I feel. All day Im sitting in front of my monitor checking websites about sadness and listening the sound of silence. I dont want to be that kind of man who sits home alone, but I feel trapped and worthless. I pray almost every night for some help for my parents but it looks that God doesnt love me. Please tell me if it's me who cant fit into this world, or my life really sucks? please leave comments even if they are bad.

should know better

I should know better. I am a Christian. I know that Jesus fills every longing, or at least should! But I get very depressed. I do not have a job (I'm a teacher). I'm thankful that my husband has a job. My son just got married and it seems to be true (at least for me) that when a son gets married, you lose a son. I have few friends and very little social life. My desire is to make a difference in this world, but in the last several years, haven't found my niche. It's hard to be an empty nester, especially with no work that is making a difference for the Lord.

PIECE OF SHIT

My whole life is a constant shit storm ever since i could remember. I grew up while my parents were all alcoholics dad was a drug user and a cheating SOB my mother had a short temper goes well wit the alcohol. I d been beatin and whipped for things that i had been small harmless inncidents. I grew up in rough neighborhoods even been mildly molested by a boy that was a sick pervert and i never knew it was wrong becus i was too young and too stupid. My parents were as ways being caught by Police for dui. I stayed wit my little sister at my grandmothers house until my parents get out of jail then they make more kids (my youngrr sibbs) to share the wonderful experience im goin through i caught my dad cheating wit another woman in bed at age 7. He would get drunk as usual and tell me he was gonna kill himself that noone appreciates him. Dad always beating mom. My aunts and uncles dont care but us but themselves. As i got older in my teens dad and mom were still drinkin and mom thot i stole mom from her so she came at me wit a knife i had no choice but act in self defense so i struct my own mother to get away from her. I usaully stayed a frens to forget what is goin on back home and leaving my younger sibbs wit them. I vowed id never be like my parents especially my father. My parents kept talkin about me when im in close proximity where they knew i could hear them theyd say imma a piece of shit, worthless piece of shit, piece of chicken shit and fuckin little fucker. Then an...

I am 17 year old girl, who was not had a good life at all.
beating up by my dad when i was younger. I got put in and out of care throught out my young teenage years. I have been rapeed about 5 times by people i used to talk mates.I was pregnant at 15 with a beautiful girl but on child surport because social workers not to put him on the birth certificate. but sadly tooking away because of my ex was proving a threat to me and her. got batter my this ex also. i have try kill myself due my deprssion. hardly my family pays attention to me. my new bf and me have been fighting and lose two of ur kids due misscarriges. he hardlys speaks to me. one of my exes is stalking and has an thing about me. i am almost turning in a whore because i need money for xmas. today i want to kill myself because everyone would benefit. i feel alone because my bf doesn't let me see my friends because he thinks am gonna cheat. i have been return down from jobs that are so true to me, but i was not good enough. i have nothing to my name and not got the proper skills. i am trying to stave myself to look pretty and apealling to just guy. but thats not working.

Internet humiliation.

I've been in love with him for over a year, we were friends six months ago. We got to know eachother, my heart was set on being with him. I told him things about my life I've never told other people before, including about my abusive father and honestly saw myself spending the rest of my life with this person.

He got a girlfriend a week ago and stopped talking to me or answering my texts. I felt heartbroken and depressed, I couldn't sleep, or concentrate. Today I found an email forwarded from his girlfriend to me and the entire school called 'The secret life of Tanya.' One of the first sentences was 'Abused and ruined.'

Emptiness. Habituated emptiness. Disconnection from everyone.

Its 4 AM and I just thought to myself, I know my life sucks, I've known that for a very long time, but is something wrong with me or the people and the world around me? I feel empty, disconnected from every single person I know. My family included. In fact, my family more than anyone else. They're so not me and I feel like I'm acting out. Just not giving it to their faces, a whole lot too. I have gone through several stages of this 'life sucking' period of my life. First I realised it, then I started to get frustrated, then I was going crazy, going completely mad, it was maddening to the very limit, then I tried to fix it by trying to blend with these people I felt disconnected with, and now, apparently for the last couple of months, I've become this person who doesn't have a care in the world, no matter how bad things are, and talk and respond to people EXACTLY what comes to my head, but diplomatically that is. And the frustration and maddening have gone, and I can actually feel 'happiness' these days even though I'm not really having anything to be happy about. Its true, I'm not sad anymore. I have no pleasure except completely being myself and doing whatever makes me happy every single day, whatever it may be and however it may seem to other people. My dad is the only person who calls me, I have no real friends except one guy I guess (well I do have a few friends, but just this one guy who I 'kinda' feel connected to), I sleep for 10-12 hours everyday, wake up, and al...

I feel no point in living

I don't know whats wrong with me. I feel like the world is such a bad place to live. My family, friends, boys, school, house, me... everything is so messed up. I tried to kill myself twice, i told this to my mum, friends etc. but no one cared. When i cry... i cry over stupid things... so people call ME stupid.. even my mum. Everyone says i have no future. I don't know why i am alive anyway

why me

I was born into a dysfunctional family
Iv been mentally and physical abused up
Intill the age for 12 at that time my parents where
Divorce for 4 years I have three brothers one older two younger
I was currently under the care of my father
My mother never came to really see us for she had really
Bad 13 teen year marriage with my father
So anyways when I was under the age of. 12
I was forced to clean and never leave the house one day I didn't clean
Up right I think I forgot to pull out a
wall unit and my father kicked me out at the age of 12
I grabed my shoes and left
I found my alcoholic
Mother and started to live with her
It took me three days to find her
FRom there I went in to a very poor life
Picking cigg buts off the ground
And never no where your going to
Be living nex
When I was 14 I went in to excor sex for money
It was time we where getting kicked out
I droped out of school to make money
I was in to very hard drugs mixing from 12 15years old
I quit the drugs and sex shit and went to move in with my now 32 year old boyfriend anyways thing haven't been easy with him I'm now 19 no job I have four abortions and I'm still trying to hang on come feb I go bad to school I'm in debt and un happy.but I'm trying

dont get me wrong my lifes is generally fantastic but 2010 has beeen the worst year first of january exams failed all of them got kicked outta biology which meant i was only doing 2 a levels so cannot return in september all the teachers looked down on me! in may i passed my exams A sociology C in psychology teachers felt dumb.However i wasn't ready to start a new college..behind all the make up and bubbly personality im just a under-confidence person no self-esteem im a nobody and i accept.Started a job at mcdonalds but i quit a few weeks later coz they were rude bullies so now im a un-educated jobless goon on JSA and my mum blames me when thres no money. one min she likes me the next she hates me. She always brings up me quitting my job im fed up seriously all i think about is death now obvss i have my happy days but theres very few of the now.i wanna die :/

I have nothing

All my life I have picked on, made fun of, yelled at it sucks. I had 1 friend throughout school until high school then I have people who I hang around with but could probably care less that im there. I still get bullied in high school and it makes me so depressed that I go home and sit in my room playing xbox then i forget to do something or something else and my mom yells at me which then causes and argument between them... bcuz of me my parents almost got divorced multiple times. my mom calls me a user even though i pay for everything of mine but since i don't help around the house im a user which adds to my depression. I also have a older sister that bcuz of her ruins everything. her college is so much i have to go to a state school if im lucky. and she ruins everything for me... the week after christmas i usually go up to maine and that is the only time im ever happy and dont think about suicide and i havnt been in awhile. but bcuz of her we are changing our house so she can have a bigger room so my dad is working on the house that week so i cant go up...she ruins everything for me.. then to top it off i suck at the drums...i can barely play and ive been playing for awhile. I suck at all the sports I play. Like i said before 0 friends and I'm now a junior and I have had 0 girl friends... I have had some tell me im cute but they wouldnt go out with me or then they ignore me when i say hi. Everyday i think about how better everyones life would be if i wasnt born or if anyone would miss me if i die... I consider suicide everyday and everyday i think about it more and more...i just want life to end

IT'S A WONDERFUL LIFE?

I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO ARE SHY? I MEAN REALLY SHY.I'M 50 AND I'M STILL SHY.NOT AS MUCH NOW,BUT WHEN IT COMES TO APROACHING WOMAN I FREEZE UP.I FEEL SHYNESS IS A HANDYCAP,THAT OTHERS JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND!YOU HAVE NO SELF CONFIDENCE AND WHEN IT COMES TO CONVERSATION YOUR BRAIN JUST SHUTS DOWN.I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN LONELY AND LIFE BECOMES A VACUUM.WHICH SUCKS!BEING AROND PEOPLE BUT NOT FITTING IN IS A TWILIGHT ZONE.I'M A CHRISTIAN,YET THAT IS SOMETHING I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND.

Why mine is the suck!

I am a 30+ student of Nursing, living without a real income, can't afford anything.. all with the hope that, in a year... I will be able to get everything I have lived without previous. Best part is, I am thinking of ending it much sooner.