| | Posted by anonymous at December 17, 2010 |
Ive always been afraid, or feel anxious around other people, especially women, Im akward in everything I do, I tried so hard to do what people think was right but ive noticed you cant ever be right doing that. Not complaining about lovelife, I havent had a girlfriend I was ever attracted to and wouldnt mind being a vigin again to be honest. I never leave the house, trapped in my room, on this damn computer, I feel inhuman, I cant relax or find peace. I watched almost every youtube on that subject, and THAT addiction built up this strong belief in me, as deep down as I can go at the moment, with a feeling there isnt a point in life, it's all hearsay, I havent heard one honest truth worth keeping in my heart. I look at people, as if I see them watching me, keeping their comments hidden, Im sure they would benefit my perspective. I get into trouble everywhere I turn, I have no job, absolutely noone would hire me, my last job was such a nightmare I lasted a week. I don't know how to be myself, or even see others, I'm sure this is all a dream, nothing feels real except for what I see and its such a warped negative perspective..at this point in my life, my dream is to just find the cheapest place I can live, and just be alone. Therapy hasnt worked its all bullshit brainwashing I'm sure. I dont enjoy anything..Videogames are the only thing I waste what little money I have on, and im not going to go into the negativity i bring into that. I would kill myself, just to see what happens next, cant be worse this, thankfully I found out religions bullshit too, so there cant really be a hell, right? or is this it? |
| | Posted by Passer by.. at December 17, 2010 |
They think I'm smart and happy. They compare me to other amazing students.they make me feel like crap. My parents. They don't get that highschoolvis hard for me and that I'm trying my best. And for some reason, my 4.0 GPA isn't good enough for them because I should be over 100%. It's really hard for me, they just don't get it.'why can't you be better?' 'why don't you do sports?' 'it's not good enough.' I expect to hear some kind of good job every once in awhile... Why dont they? My dad is very judgemental and calls me fat and a loner All the time. My mom hardly talks to me. My brother and sister just don't give a crap. My hourglass too busy with sports and friends to motice that I'm sad.... My will to keep on trying to do my best is fading. I just want to give up and have them see what it'd be like if I didn't try. If I didn't try to make everyone happy but myself and if I stopped trying in school and if I just stopped caring about everything. It'd make like so much easier for me to deal with... I just can't give up. Someday, someone will tell me good job. Someday.... Someone will notice my stress and see that I'm not happy. |
| | Posted by hatemymomanddad at December 17, 2010 |
I fucken hate those stupid mother fuckin cunts. Stupid son of fucken bitch. I want them to fucken die stupid donkey dicks. Stupid mother fuckin prostitute has no fucken means once so ever! I wish they go and fuck themselves. STUPID MOTHER FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate them with a deep fuckin passion. Stupid dusce bags they fuck my life up. Stupid homos. I freckin kiss the fuckin floor they walk on and I fuckin get yelled at for this what the fuck fuck fuck de de fuck. I HATE THOSE STUPID FUCKEN HOMOS! The little cunts they fuckin are. STUPID ASSHOLES! CUNT! They fucked up again! Those stupid dam mother fuckin retards. They freakin have no clue one so ever. THEY FUCK MY LIFE UP! Stupid bloody fucken hoes. They fuckin don’t help me or fuckin support my those stupid freakin dicks. GOD DAM IT STUPID MOTHER FUCKIN HOES! Bitches they fuckin have no fuckin clue what they have done to me those stupid fucking assholes. Retarded cunts. they need to go fuckin die in a fuckin hole stupid mother and father fucker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CUNTS Those little bastards. BLOODY FUCKEN CUNTS THEY ARE I WANT THEM TO FUCKIN BURN IN HELL! DAM HOES! MY freakin mom is a fuckin whore and my dad is a fuckin angry ball of fuckin dick. SON OF GOD DAM BITCH! THEY WILL PAY FOR WHAT THEY FUCKIN DID STUPID dicks I HATE THEM SOOOOOOO FUCKIN BADLY THOSE STUPID GOD DAM CUNTS.THEy never TOOK ME TO FUCKIN SEE HIS GOD DAM PARENTS GRAVE STUPID MOTHER FUCKIN HOEI Fuckin hate those stupid ass dick. THEY NEVER FREAKIN LIKED MY UNCLE STUPID MOTHER FUCKING HOES! Stupid DIRTY PRICKS THOSE STUPID OBNIOUS MOTHER FUCKIN CUNTS . THEY CAN GO ROT IN FUCKIN GOD DAM HELL FOR ALL I FUCKIN CARE STUPID BLOODY FUCKIN DICKS. |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 16, 2010 |
I feel chewed up and spat out. I've been used by my selfish boyfriend, who has turned around and dumped me after I tried to leave him and he begged me to take him back. He was always selfish and put his work and hobbies as the most important thing. If I wanted to do something with him I had to ait till he had finished everything else. If things didn't go his way, he'd get mad and call me horrible names and say that I take after the bad side of my family. He has said that my life is a mess. He almost hit me once because I got upset when he said he wouldn't go to a concert with me that he'd previously said he'd go to. Yet at the same time he's sweet around my friends and they think he's a great guy. My mum died recently in a violent way, and I had to organise the funeral/deal with police/coroner etc by myself bc the rest of my family, who I'm not close to, are socially akward. My boyfriend came to my home town and was great and supportive, and everyone thought he was such a great guy. But when we left to go back together, he started being verbally abusive again when things were not about him. It was like he thought that he'd give me some time, then things could go back to normal where he was the most important person. He would make me cry and say he didn't care if I didn't have anyone now. Then he kicked me out of our flat. I told him I was going back to my hometown and that I couldn't take the relationship anymore, especially after losing mum. After a few days he apologised so much and said he cared about me and wanted to stay together, come out and help me deal with my mum's estate etc. I hoped it would work out...and hewas so sweet for a while. But now he has turned around and said he's not coming, I made him an abuser, and that he's so glad the relationship is over. I feel alone and worthless. Manipulative prick. Thanks 2010. |
| | Posted by Ghizm0 at December 16, 2010 |
Last thursday, I rolled my car, totally destroyed it, no insurance. Just bought it a few months ago. My mom got all dramatic about it, her and my dad got in a fight, apparantly he called her a whore. My mom said she wanted nothing to do with me so I moved to my dads. I went to my moms to pick up my stuff and my big scary stepdad yelled at me because somehow its my fault that my dad called her a whore. Then they canceled my phone, took me off of their insurance, and I'm not invited for christmas. On top of that, my ex is fucking with my head, my laptop isn't working, and I have no phone to communicate with anybody. Am I the devil? Did I commit some horrible crime to deserve this? Not that I can think of |
| | Posted by Your mother at December 16, 2010 |
I fucking hate being alive. Everything keeps going to shit, I'm homeless, I have no job, no family, gf wont give me another chance because she's a stubborn bitch and is gonna regret it anyway, no money, no reallll friends, no nothing. Why the fuck am I supposed to stay alive, because other people will be hurt from that? Who gives a fuck about other people when they clearly don't give a damn back? I fucking hate my life. I fucking hate everybody. Nobody gives a shit and I'm gonna be a fucking loser anyway so might as well die. Fuck life |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 16, 2010 |
so im 14 years old and yeah my life sucks most of you will say that life is just begining but i just dont see how its going to get any better for me. it used to be good a long time ago back when i actually had some self esteem and people did not think i was a total faggot. i used to actually be "popular" and people actually liked me for who i was untill all my friends started to hate me because of some stupid rumour now im just that faggot whos always there. I had to switch schools because i moved to a different part of the city right when i really started to like this girl and she liked me too and i spent a year of my life regretting ever leaving her so i decide to come back to my old school. since i live so far from it i wake up 6:00 AM everymorning walk to my bus in the fucking cold and sit on a seat for an hour and 30 mintues just for her every morning and afternoon. After doing all this for her it turns out after a few days she doenst even want to be friends with me anymore. im socially awkward i have no one to talk to about this, people often make jokes about me which i dont really give a fuck about because im used to it. My family cant really afford half of the things people in my school have people are always saying how good life is but they are usually the people with friends and money which i dont really have any of. right now i guess ill just pass school and go to university eventually and get a job but i dont really get the point in all of that its just work ... |
| | Posted by cantthinkofone at December 15, 2010 |
I cant imagine what it would be like to live in a 3rd world country but i can imagine what it would be like to live in this world.
im 16 im fat,ugly,failing school im grade 11 in grade 9 classes,i suck at everything and anything (school,games,making friends,ect.), i havent had a relationship in over 5 years,i have no friends, im so poor we rarely have food and sometimes go a day without, im not involved in any sports anymore, im patheticly weak (only being able to bench 60), im short, i stink even after showers, im fogetful, and i am constantly sick with puking/flu, my parents constantly fight and have physical fights in which i try to break up, my 3 sibbling hate me. i hate my life i am constantly being looked down upon and made fun of or people tell me that im useless stupid fat pathetic worthless not going to get through life ect. and i feel like there telling the truth, my teachers even tell me im going to be expelled because i miss so much school. i wanted to blow up the world at one point and at a next i wanted to kill people but i know that wouldnt help, i have nothing i am nothing and i dont know what to do. |
| | Posted by sadchick at December 15, 2010 |
the other night I had a mental breakdown and cried for almost 5 hours. I realized just how worthless and expendable I truly am. I think I might kill myself before the year is over. |
| | Posted by LeeLee at December 15, 2010 |
My family is being evicted from our. Until we find a new place we have to move in with my moms Ex Husband( my stepfather) but he hates. He is always picking fights with me calling a bitch and how I deserve this incurable illness I have. His houses is also 3 doors down from his mothers( who also hates me) she gives dirty looks and is always putting me down. My mother is a manic bi-polar alcoholic. and my step father as a pill popping addiction. Even though I have applied at everything other store in the city I can't get a job so I can't get a place of my own or even scrap enough to finish school. Oh and every chnace she gets my mom reminds that I'm "worthless" because of this and how I do nothing. even though I cook, clean, take care of my sisters, and pick up after HER untrained dog. Also now that we are moving I have give away my cat that I raised literally from birth and love to death. I try to talk to friends about it but one of them is a "one-upper" so instead hearing "oh I'm sorry.don't worry things will work out." I hear " well I have it so much worse!" |
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| Posted by mmmright at December 15, 2010 |
So honesty, I really don't care if any of you guys read this or not. Because truthfully my life is quite nice. So if you don't want to read my complaints about a life that doesn't really suck, then don't.
But this place is not just for people with absolutely horrible lives either. Normal people who occasionally face difficulties in life can write about their lives too. Nobody's life is perfect and everybody thinks their life sucks at some point. You just have to deal with what you have.
That being said, I am a 16 year old highschooler attending a good high school. I have friends, and although I'm kind of socially awkward, I would say that I'm pretty much average. People have told me that I'm pretty, but there's no way I'll ever get a boyfriend because I'm so awkward around guys. Everytime that a guy is mildly interested in me, I ruin it when I open my mouth. I'm irresponsible and I can't take care of my own matters. I'll never be independent enough to take care of myself. My parents are disappointed in me, and I can't control my addiction to the internet. I literally spend 7 hours of my time everyday going on the internet and doing absolutely NOTHING. I hate myself more every additional minute I spend online. Sometimes I get really fed up with people and I feel like I have no motivation to do anything. I'm really lazy (although I may not seem like it) and I forget important things all the time. I always find myself having to ask other people to bail me out of something. I'm really useless. At school I feel like everyone I talk to is judging me or talking about me behind my back. I feel like such a loser most of the time.
Well, I sort of just wanted to get that out. I know my life doesn't suck at all and its just typical teenage drama.
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| | Posted by anonymous at December 15, 2010 |
MY LIFE BLOWS BIG DONKEY BALLS! BECAUSE MY MOM ANDD MY DAD BITCH AT ME ALL THE TIME SAY IM USEING THEM BUT IM NOT! IM BROKE AS HELL GOT TOO MUCH SHIT TOO PAY FOR THIS MONTH ANDD ON TOP OF IT GOT CHRISTMAS PRESENTS TO BUY FOR PPL ANDD DONT REALLY WANT TOO! MY JOB SUCKS SUPER BADD I GET PAID MIN. WAGE AND UGH IT JUST SUCKS!! IVE BEEN WITH MY BOYFRIEND FOR ABOUT 4 YEARS ANDD I FEEL LIKE IM OBSESSED WITH HIM SO MY PARENTS TELL ME ANDD ARE ALWAYS ON MY ASS ABOUT IT! FUCKING ANNOYING! BUT THAN I STARTED FELLING THAT I WAS OBSESSIVE AND NOW IM PISSED THE FUCK OFF CUASE I WISH I WASNT! ANDD TRUST ME I NOE HE ISNT AS IN LOVE WITH ME AS I AM HIM! IM ALWAYS TRYING TOO MAKE PPL HPPY WITTCH ENDS UP SUCKING FOR ME CAUSE I ALWAYS END UP GETTING BITCHED AT SOME HOW I FUCKING HATE IT! MY CAR GOT TAKEN AWAY CANT DRIVE IT ANY WAYS MY TICKETS OUT ON MY CAR! UMM WHAT ELSE JUST PRETTY MUCH MY LIFE SUCKS DIRTY ASS ANDD THERES NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT!!!!! I WISH I HAD WHAT I WANTED BUTT GUESS THATS NOT HOW LIFE WORKS |
| | Posted by suzicide at December 14, 2010 |
My life suuuuuuucks. I mean jesus tap dancing christ. 7 months ago my husband became addicted to meth. 2 months ago I was layed off from my job. My husband was arrested 1 month ago on our sons birthday, mind you this is a few days after I had my kid look me in the face and asked does my daddy still love. I found a used needle in my sons bed, a used condom in our bedroom and bills hidden in the closet that were 2 months past due and no job to pay them. Now I have my husbands tweaker friends stopping by my house wanting sex since my husband is in jail. I have no money for rent since my unemployment is phucked up, I'm rationing my food. I know I'm not going to be able even buy my son a christmas present this year. So yeah my life phucking blows. |
| | Posted by Singapore at December 14, 2010 |
Hi I am a 25 yr old male from Singapore. Life was quiet ok until I injured my farking eye. I work as a mechanic with my father. I repair excavator's air con for a living. I have to face the sun and rain everyday. I am soaked with mud and dirt every single day as excavator are only operational in construction places. But I took it as a man. I travel the whole Singapore alone with my van and equipment in my van. Until one day, sept 3rd 2010. A metal piece flew and it my eye. Initally iwas told that I should be able to see clearly after steroids injection. But after admitting in the hospital 3 days for the jab, I still cannot see.
Three months has passed. My injured eye has only 60 per cent vision. Now everything that I see is overlapping each other. I am depressed for the whole three months. I am sad and stressed. Everything I see is not as beautiful as last time. Whole lot of thoughts coming in to my mind. I am scared and afraid. Afraid of my good eye. Afraid of dying. Afraid of going out. Afraid of cancer. I think I am going crazy.
Hope no more problems in my life |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 14, 2010 |
Happiness Eludes me. I've suffered from depression and social anxiety since the 5th grade, I am now 30.been to so many shrinks and meds, this field is such a waste. No one really wants to help, just diagnose you.
My mom passed away this year, I developed a skin disease of the face this year, I have a back disease that causes me great pain on a daily basis, I work 3 jobs and I'm broke.
Beyond all this my main issue is that I really get no enjoyment from life. I have no passions really, most things to me not enjoyable and I suffer from this blackhole of depression.
The thing I hate most is when people that never had clinical depression tell you to cheer up, pick up your bootstraps; unless you have dealt with this monster, you really have no clue on how it sucks away your life
Anyways, let me know that I'm not the only one like this!!!!! |
| | Posted by arodem at December 14, 2010 |
My life doesn't suck in actuality, it just seems that way by my twisted perception. And the distorted values of modern society don't exactly make it easy to remember what's really important in life, what really defines success, and what is really worth living for, fighting for or even dying for. We've become so selfish, superficial, self-centred and stupid that we can't even recognize our blessings anymore. I refuse to join that pack. I'm not happy all the time but I have the potential to. God has put me here for a reason and although times may get hard, I'm certain He'll get me through all my trials and into tomorrow and the next day and the next day and the next day.......Sorry for spoiling the mood. |
| | Posted by depressed_truth at December 14, 2010 |
I graduated from a 4 year course and came from a rich family. I left all the good stuff for my common-law spouse with a kid. I hated my stepdaughter the moment my kids were born, which i dont know why. She reminds my of my common law spouse's ex. Lately for the past 6 months my spouse nags and is very controlling. The only reason I go home is to be with my 2 kids who I love so much. I planned migrating to another country to leave the stepdaughter with her biological father, but my family is so pushy that I should bring her along. I'm tired of working and being told what to do. I feel like I built a prison around me. I shouldve never broken up with my girlfriend for 5 years for this dumb bitch who thinks she knows everything. The visa is now ready. Its like fucking my life again in another country. Thanks to this forum I'm able to vent.. |
| | Posted by Alex at December 13, 2010 |
my life doesn't suck, it's just uneventful, which is really my own fault as Im am very introverted(shy), I have the hardest time talking to people. I've been kind of depressed ever since my girlfriend broke up with me, it was my first serious relationship, I'm only 19. I really loved her and she is the only girl to ever show interest in me and tell me Im sweet and handsome and I miss that so much. I want to move on and stop being sad, the thing is I don't really get out too much, I hardly ever see any girls and even if I do I'm too shy to talk too them. It's really my own fault, I'm pretty much socially retarded and extremely awkward, I'm not bad looking or anything, Im always dressed very nicely and Im extremely polite and nice to a fault, it seems like nice guys really do finish last. |
| | Posted by kamran at December 13, 2010 |
My life is sucks
When I was ten I feel love, but I never say to my love because every time peoples hated me
Now I’m 25 years old I had saw my favorite girl again and i cant say to her I love you
Because I’m ugly and poor, last time I’m going for relationship with some girl, he call me monster and she say to me go away
My father is really jackass and he is 60 years old and he work only 5 years and we live with 300$ per month , I saw in my dreams SUV cars and my childhood love ,
I’m a really loser…
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| | Posted by anonymous at December 13, 2010 |
I'm alone, through and through. And yet im not, how can one have a caring family, and friends but still feel alone? My life personally hasn't been all that bad growing up. I lived, I was even made stronger from whatever problems walked my way. These days, I feel like I'm falling, falling further and further and I don't know if it's going to stop. I try to be strong, but somehow I always come back to this miserable feeling. But it wasn't always this way. I feel that over the last 4 years I've only become a weaker and weaker person. And as I sit here, I'm pretty sure I know some of the major causes.
In my life, there is absolutely one person I will never ever forget. This girl meant the world to me. I had a kinda strange relationship with her. We were close friends. Close enough to be considered borderlined relationship. It showed through our actions. But everytime I would try to cross that border, she would run away. Try to tell me that it wouldn't work. We may be opposites but that doesn't change how we feel. That doesn't change that were both good hearted people who respect having high values and morals. But nothing changes and 7 years later I found myself in the same position. Still chasing the girl of my dreams and still standing there empty handed. And this spring, I had it. I was through chasing someone who who would only inevitably hurt me. So I did the only thing I could think of and said goodbye. I made sure to drop all forms of communication. And now, I ... |
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