| | Posted by samantha at May 22, 2011 |
My parents was divorced when i was 14 , and i can not went to college because my mon doesn't have the money, then i work so hard to get my position now at my job as manager but when i think life is okay. my sister came again to my house,divorced with 2 kids and she is jobless. in the other hand i am preparing my marriage with my boyfriend, and now its all blowing apart because now i have 4 mouth to feed.and my mom now got heartache and it's cost a lot money for medication
when i think everything is ok, and i wnat to live my life, it's all blows up and i am tired to be money machine and can't live my life |
| | Posted by Yep at May 22, 2011 |
I had to choose between the lives of my children, My BF of a year and a half stood in the door as he put his coat and shoes on to leave and said I am moving in with another woman. I was 5 months pregnant he wanted this baby and I did to. I have 2 other boys and I have to work to keep a roof over their heads. My job pays well but is extremely labor intensive I was put on bed rest with both my boys they were both born early and were nicu babies. So I was left with the choice continue to work and provide a roof over my kids heads or go on bed rest and make my family homeless. My second income walked out the door. I choose my existing kids went to work and 5 days later went into labor had a still born baby boy. |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 22, 2011 |
Well, where to begin. Here I am spending my weekend writing this, big indicator on how much my life sucks. I am forty, single, no girlfriend. My life was cursed from the day I was born, my innocence taken from me aka being molested by a trusted family member. I have a scar on my face from a childhood accident. I have very few friends, no girls ever show any interest in me, I was always the boring guy out of the group, I have the nice guy syndrome, you know the line, your a nice guy, or I like you as a friend. That was in high school, now I don't even get that far. How much worse can it get? I tried an online dating site, blew 80 something bucks for a few months of service, never got one email from the opposite sex. I tried going to church for a while, hoping to meet new people, but never really felt like I fit in. Churches are geared to meet the needs of married people and every activity seems to revolve around married couples and familys. They had no activities for singles and felt out of place when it came to church events. All I ever wanted out of life was a little slice of happiness, a girlfriend to spend time with. As I get older it looks as if I will end up dying alone. How sad is that? I have some good qualities, I maintain a job, I am financially responsible, I drive a nice car!, but it seems those aren't the qualities girls are looking for. When does it get any better, sometimes I wish I could just sleep and dream and never wake up, I am totally miserable with this life. I hate life. |
| | Posted by no-one at May 22, 2011 |
Life sucks. Period. I don't have a job. I always have no money to go out with...my friends. I dont have a best friend, which has always sucked. I've never had someone who I could just tell everything too, so I bottle it inside which is slowly depressing me. Sometimes I can't handle it. Not only that I pretty much have never had a boyfriend. Not because im fugly but because im too fucking shy. I hate it. Its the worst part of my life and feels like a hideous and horrible disease. I can't talk to anyone I have'nt known my whole life. Not only that i'm scared of everything. EVEERYTHING! I could possibly become one of those people who never leave the house. I'm even afraid to walk down the street by myself. Its so fucking sad. So to me I see one thing. And that's that LIFE SUCKS! |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 22, 2011 |
I am a 26 year old that had everything I could want and threw it away with one stupid choice. I married the man of my dreams four years ago and we had a great relationship. I had a great career as a nurse in the operating room. We travelled, went out frequently, had disposable income, great sex, etc. I also was active and worked out by running, dancing, doing pilates, and yoga which kept me in great physical shape. I never really had a desire to have children because there were many things that I thought I could do instead. I became a tad bit bored with life as it had become routine, and had been under intense pressure for years by family, friends, and co-workers to have a child. I began to doubt myself and think that maybe I wanted a child and that this final "missing piece" would fill in life completely and it would be a great addition to my family with my husband.
I had the baby and everything came crumbling down. First, when I gave birth to my baby I found out that I have crappy pelvic connective tissue. What does this mean? It means that my uterus, small intestine, and large intestine prolapsed down and tried to fall out of my vagina. It was horrible, my insides felt like they were constantly going to fall out (like beind slowly eviscerated everytime I stood up or did anything but lay down). I constantly felt discomfort and pressure like I was falling apart. Due to this condition I couldn't be active and work-out, poop, have sex without pain, and work as ... |
| | Posted by blitzen at May 22, 2011 |
Born into a highly dysfunctional family. My mother told me one day dring an argumentthat my fahter raped her - that was how she becoame pregnant with me. She remarried - Al the pedophile. He tried to rape me when I was tweleve. Thing he was piddling arond earlier than that - do notremember mostthings that occurered between the ages of 8 to 10. Mother packed my bags at12 - went to live with my grandmother, who really did not want to take care of me - lockedout of the apartmentmost of the time - she did notwant that landlord to know I was living there (if that is what you want to call it) afraid the landlord would raise her rent. Throw out at15 - on the streets in NYC. Lived whereever I could find a place. Accosted by several girlfriends father's. Depressed most of my life. Found "God" what a fucking joke that was. Stayed with a crazy fucking crack head - thought God was in it and he was going to heal and save my ex. Finally gave up on that pipe dream, called an attorney - made an appointment to get divorced - wound up pregnant instead. Long painful story of lies, crack, stealing, violence and abuse by the hand of the asshole sperm donor. Make a long story short, I now have lost my child - he is in foster care. The sperm donor is with the 24 year old - who is so crazy - she thinks he is the best thing that ever happened to her. He probably is. Where's God? Sleeping, I guess. But he loves me. Right!!!!
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| | Posted by anonymous at May 22, 2011 |
I am about to be 25 and I am sad and stressed all the time I am about to graduate college and my life is falling apart it gets worse every day. I spend the majority of my day crying because of how my boyfriend treats me. He calls me stupid and gets mad when I try to have fun with him. He screams at me when I stump my toe or drop something. He says I'm to fat and he refuses to have sex with me cuz I'm disgusting. I gained 40 pounds last year when I broke my ankle and have lost 30 but he says that's not good enough. I feel awful all the time and no one knows . I have lots of friends and he refuses to be apart of anything we do and that upsets me. I know that it should be as simple as breaking up but there is so much more to it and I cant. I have to support most everything we do and I'm exhausted daily.I hate my job cuz i work with people who suck ass and have a boss that doesn't care.
My family is my everything but my father got me sued over medical Bills he was suppose to pay years ago. That sucks cuz he said he would always take care of me and he lied. I wonder if this shit is a test of who I am but Damn give me a break. I want to runaway and not worry about bills but I can't I'm a fucking coward and i hate myself for it. It's not fair when these people have these wonderful lives and most of us are stuck in the shitter. I hate it ! |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 22, 2011 |
In the span of a single year I've been laid off twice from low end work, called the cops on one of my mother's abusive boyfriends (who choked me and put my grandmother in the hospital that day), been short on rent a couple times having to ask my father for assistance, and dread my girlfriend's return on a near daily basis.
Some people have experienced real tragedy, while others are experiencing superficial loss. I only wish my life was so pleasantly straight forward! Nothing is going so wrong that I cannot eat, yet nothing is going so right that my mind can relax for longer than a week. I believe everyone has the right be challenged yet comfortable. I am neither of those and have not been in some 8 years!
For what it's worth, I'm 24.
To those with serious problems: you have certainty. To those who are older: you have experience. To those that are younger: you have many years to go. To those who are whining about, say, $120 calculators: grow the fuck up. Where's the advice for people, such as myself, who are stuck right in the middle? Where's the catch-all phrase that applies to folks who count their blessings and get shit on regardless?
Whatever. |
| | Posted by Madison at May 21, 2011 |
i have a horrible life. when i was born, i almost died. now im mentally slow and i have cerabral palsy, a rare disorder that affects 0.1 to 0.2% of children. it fucking sucks! it effects the way i talk. i cant talk right. i sound like shit on the phone which might be why hardly anyone ever calls me. it ruined my social life, which i will talk about later. my life was good until my best friend ever (at the time) moved when we were 11 and i havent seen her since. im 15 now. my life sort of went downhill when i started middle school. when i was in 6th grade, these girls that were my friends hung out with me, then, they started treating my like shit for the most retarded reason. i cant even remember what it was. then, they started ignoring me. in 7th grade, a few of my friends would never talk to me anymore. i would have to go to them. i know that sounds clingy, but for gods sake! i lost my best friend just 2 yrs ago at the time. i felt like my only best friend was a girl named jessica.
on the 1st day of summer break, my mom told me that she and my dad were separating. they divorced in october when i was in 8th grade. 8th grade was better for me, but the last day of school was the saddest day of my life. it was the last day i saw my friends. our house got foreclosed so we had to move to this shitty town called livingston. its a country town and it takes 20 mins to get to town! plus my friends from round rock arnt here. i was going to go to a brand new high school in... |
| | Posted by shep at May 21, 2011 |
Well where to start, my mom, who's 53 has melanoma again. She just found out its in her lymph nodes and her liver. Who knows how that's gonna turn out. Then to top it all off we don't have any money, so we could never buy a house of our own, and the one we rent now is going up for sale again. Having to possibly find a place to live, in the middle of my mom's battle with cancer..... tell me how that doesn't suck. |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 21, 2011 |
Im a 22 year old male, i come from a poor background and was brought uo being told not what i can achieve but what will happen if i dont achieve, it was really driven into me. My father (in his mind) had a bad life and so he took it out on me, ive been a victim of attack and verbal abuse for very little in terms of reason and sometimes no reason at all.
Im suffer chronic anxiety & depression, speech disorder and im pretty sure i have some kind of mild learning difficulty, i have to read or hear things twice before it makes sence, i hence lack the basic skills to become employed and make something of my life, the pressure is too much because i know if i dont make something of my life we will all be struggling to get by, its all really taken its toll on me, im 22 but if you were to look at me you'd think i was almost certainly 29+, i have grey hairs and my hair literally falling out due to the stress, i dont sleep well and hardly ever go out. I have very very little in terms of friends, im very quite and hardly smile (never laugh), ive never had anything close to a girlfriend.
I have thought about taking my life several times, i have nothng to look forward to and if it wasnt for my mothers presence and her hope for me to do well in my life i believe i may have taken it. Life sucks, and sucks even more when i see how easy its been for others that have been born with a golden spoon in mouth and clearly dont deserve it. |
I live in a country called Taiwan. I am an asian. currently 19, Male.
Since long time ago ppl tend to tease me about my appearance. i have small slanted and disgsting eyes(even asians tease me bout my eyes so i guess u can see how fugly they are ) and i am very skinny . and worst of all, i have serious near-sightedness. its like -9.00 D for both eyes. yes guess u can imagine how its so inconvinient. I am also an social outcast because i dont like asian stuff while other ppl do , i love alternative rock , emo, punk music, i watch tv shows that are only from States or UK. only thing i am proud of in school is my english . so basically i have no friend in my life.
i dont know how i can survive in the future. how can a major loser like me find a job when i grow up? everytime i look in the mirror, only stand there wondering who the guy in the mirror is. sick of crying, tired of trying, just tell me who can save me ? what did i do wrong in my previous life? :(
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| | Posted by anonymous at May 21, 2011 |
As much as my life is sucks it is an interesting life to live.I am the end product of match-making and inter-racial marriage,and both my parents are of mix parentage too and grown up from a different country and different lifestyle.Both of my parents came from a parents that have a multiple marriages, hence was not brought with proper parents and lacked of love. I am mixed with four different races, but my parents had make a big mistake in choosing one race and a religion for me,written in my birth certificate, as to follow the rule of the country,where they both met and got married.My life was a disaster in trying to be the race that appear in my ID, which was not even the race of my parents.It sucks to live in a country that demand to prove your identity with a race and religion and it is more sucks that I have no power to object to it as I was a baby.I was a confused child as my parents fought alot, my fucking mother started to humiliate my father races, and they lives seperate life,my father go back to his original country,I have to grow up in a two different country with a different lifestyles.I hate to be with my fucking mother as she had abused me alot,especially when she nagging and ranting like a mad woman, forcing me to devot to the religion that she had chosen for me.Unlike my father,he doesn't live based on any religion,his life was just to live and work hard to survive, and at the same time to appreciate and respect nature,as nature in return will be kind... |
| | Posted by Fucked Over at May 21, 2011 |
I have a fucked up life.... When I was 6 years old, my parents forced my to move from the country that I, to this day, LOVE to the country that I to this day HATE. When I arrived to this new country, I spoke not one word of English. To make it worse, when I had to enroll is school, I was constantly discriminated and made fun of because of my skin color, and the fact that I was a big boy. I got my first girlfriend when I was in 8th grade. It lasted 3 days. I never had too many friends, only back in my native country did I have tons of friends, but even so I only got to visit for about one month or two months each year. Anyway, I was made fun of skin color and stuff until I was a Freshman in high school, but I got over it. I lost weight, grew up, etc and girls call me the hottest guy in my entire High school ( sounds cocky, but I really do look like a super model ). But even though I look good, I still can't get a girlfriend because girls call me awkward. Last girlfriend I had lasted 2 months ( Record - btw Junior now ). Parents wise- never really talk to them and the only time I talk to my dad is when we fight and I fucking hate him. I've only had sex once, and I felt like a GOD DAMN loser. Religion wise, sure Gods exists, but he finds it so entertaining to fuck people over, this world is so fucking unfair, and he just sits back and laugh...I suffer from depression and have constant thoughts of attempting suicide. But what hurts most is when your friends don't drink from the same cup as you because of your skin color ( I'm slightly tan - in homeland, I'm considered white ).
Oh well, thats my life for you, I read some of the other stories, hope you people's lives get better. |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 21, 2011 |
I used to a good student, great work ethic, punctual, etc. However, over the last 3 month, I fell into despair, I started growing tired of life in general. I didn't want to get up and do anything in the morning, I missed more classes this semester than my whole high school and first 2 years of university combined. My grades went to hell, I lost interest in workout and video games. I have never missed an assignment in my life, sure I scramble to do them in the last minute, but never missed them intentionally. I just missed 3 assignments this week, plus a midterm test which I know I failed since I didn't study one bit. I used to love to cook, but ever since 2011 started I didn't go to the kitchen once. I also developed insomnia and suicidal thoughts. I feel extremely angry and vengeful just by looking at happy couples or groups. I also started looking up suicide methods and school shootings. I find no motivation to do any of my tasks. I even started to dream of leaving university and live in the Arctic.
I'm 21, 6'6, 200 pounds, studying in electrical engineering undergrad program. I from a middle class family, both parents still alive, I have a little sister who's 7. I currently live in a dorm, im one of the few who has no roommate because he is never here. (Down stairs in his GF's room for the last 8 month). I do not smoke or use narcotics at all, I only drank once every 4 month, no more than 2 beers each time. I never been to a bar or club. No GF since I had no motivation to find one.
I longed for the days when Im happy I finished work early, felt good after working out, and played video games with a smile and laughter. Compare to now, I feel like a waste of space. The only reason I didn't remove my self now is I dont want my sister to grow up and know she had a brother that committed suicide.
If thing dont work out in the next few month, im gone. |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 20, 2011 |
Well my life started by being adopted and not having medical history, which is stupid as people get a birthcert for a horse or a service history for a second hand car as u can tell i havent even got a birthcert. About 14 years ago (i am now 32)i developed diabetes then in the last 5 years i developed diabetic rethanophy and november 12 months i lost my left eye am on insulin a very high dose and have a hernia and neoraphity in my feet, hypertension and high colestoral then the Doc discovered i hava a rare liver condition on top of every thing else. I am also registered blind and feel trapped i have good friends but they dont know the full extent of my problems as i dont want to become a burden i try to show the positive side but i suffer from Depression and am bi polar 2 i cannot use litium as a medication as it effects all the other medication i am on and the Diabetes would be effected i have got home help but what i need is a counsellor to help me but they are so expensive and i am not as able to get out to see one. Rant over. thanks for reading :-)Lisa |
| | Posted by Anonymous100 at May 20, 2011 |
I feel shit all the time. My life involves being stuck in the house all the time with no money in a really shitty area with shitty people. I'm trapped there is no chance of escape. No one cares how I feel. Told the Doctor how I felt. He didn't say anything. No offer of counselling, no offer of medication. Just a simple "go to bed earlier". As if that's going to help my shit life! I've had this problem all my life, every single different doctor has been the same. "There's nothing wrong with you, I just think you are a stressed young woman!" Patronising smile! Yeah thanks a lot for the help! Society in general has turned into a nation of selfish me-me-me, greedy, apathetic, unsympathetic human beings with no compassion or consideration for anybody but themselves. Even those who are paid quite a fair bit more than everybody else to help people. I'm angry all the time. I just wish I was given a break from my shit life once and a while but no it's there 24/7. The only time I get to escape is when I'm asleep and most times I wish I could sleep forever. I'm taunted by nice dreams where I'm rich and I'm in a spa, walking beside an indoor swimming pool, the walls are literally Golden, everything is Golden and I'm dressed in luxurious clothing surrounded by similar people. Then I wake up in my tiny box room in my tiny house, with junk sprewn everywhere because there's no storage space to keep it in and I feel stifled, claustophobic like I can barely breath but if I were to go outside it'd be worse. Surrounded by Chavs and scummy neighbours and scummy families. So I remain inside, inside my own little world. Isolation is far better than having to remain in the company of these Assholes or even having to look at them. Because the fact of the matter is most people repulse me to the core. |
| | Posted by Danni at May 20, 2011 |
My mom full time drug dealer ex-beautician. my dad a disbarred criminal defense attorney & drug addict/ musician. i start smoking bud at 7 &the 20 dip-shit tweakerz living in my house, they we're everywhere the attic every room in the house except mine, the back yard in a tent, the garage. don't get me wrong I'm not saying anything bad about my parents they did whatever they had 2 4 me, but they let ppl take advantage of them. some1 decides to rob an electronics store for like 36 big screens &sell them at yard sales in my front yard! so needless to say my house gets raided i get a gun pointed at my face &this is all before i was 10 yrs old! sent to live with a verbally abusive uncle & aunt who used me to defend herself from him i was tormented seriously contemplated murder on the daily sobbed at least twice a day got in fights constantly(got jumped by 7 high school girls in 7th grade)&the only reason i didn't kill myself was hoping my family would get bak 2gether. which all ended when my dad died of pancreatic cancer 3wks after his diagnoses when i was 15. then i was on self destruct mode. running with the wrong crowd that was way older then me became a hard drug addict &then got arrested on the 1st anniversary of my dads death on my way to get a RIP tatt that i would've regretted drunk as i'd ever get, belligerent as hell ¬ taking any shit. go figure. i get released why, i dont know. but that was the 1st time i'd ever disrespected my uncle &the day i knew it was time ... |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 20, 2011 |
I have had the unfortunate distinction to be born fat and ugly. I am also a girl. It is true what they say about "everything you learn in life you learn in kindergarten." I learned that fat, ugly girls have no place in this society. I am not even one of the "lucky" ones that has some kind of talent, whether it be, brains, artistic ablity, or just a pretty face on a chubby body. I have no natural talent for anything. I know there are guys out there who feel like they are ugly, but there is nothing compared to being an ugly girl. At least guys are taken at face value whether they turn out to be gay or straight or whatever. But a "hot chick" still isn't considered hot unless she has altered her appearance with make-up. It really sucks to be a girl. There is no amount of make-up that will make my face pretty.
Kids I went to school with would have nothing to do with my because I wasn't pretty or athletic or talented in some other way. I was never seen wearing the right clothes either, because I got my sister's hand-me-downs. It was a really lonely childhood with no friends. My only friends in life have been my pets.
I spent my childhood being compared to my older sister. Mother would always say "that's nice honey, but look what Sister did!" or simply, "why can't you be more like Sister?" It was not the motivator that my mother obviously thought it would be, because why would I continue to try if I knew I would never succeed? Needless to say, I... |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 19, 2011 |
I am 21 right now. Back in 2008 my then 22 yr old boyfriend who I fell in deeply love with when I was 18, died of cancer. I was 19 when he died. A few months after that my grandfather passed away. And a few months after that in 2009 I broke my jaw and had trouble with it for 6 months. The following year 2010 I came across 6 different men back to back were obsessive stalkers, perverts, womanizers and plainly had no problem abusing women. Present year 2011 - My insurance made me pay 375$ out of pocket thinking I have a pre existing condition. Then I passed out at my hospital I was volunteering at (because a b***h ass cracky doctor mocked me and said I see no hopes for you going to med school, you have no interest), I couldn't take it, I was so shocked. I had to pay 500$ for being admitted at the hospital. A week ago, I lost my financial aid for school for the entire year and my car stopped working for which I might have to pay 900$. Today - My pre med advisor just confirmed that I have a poor academic record and I will not be able to make it to med school. This was my dream and oh, I am just 21 broke and really sad. My life sucks. |
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