| | Posted by ALBRECHT68 at May 19, 2011 |
So here I was, ending 21 years of service. Fought in 3 wars, all that stuff. Pretty busted up. So I land a job doing level 1 tech support with NETARX. Mind you I managed tech support overseeing a team of 500. Everything was fine, until my boss, who is my brothers mother-in-law, starts taking her aggression against my brother out on me. Daily she wrote emails to everyone in the organization picking my work apart, while giving the office morons praise and glory. I only expressed my anger with my dear brother, who then told her what I was saying. So yep, I finally got fired for defending myself.
Oh but it gets better, the new Post 9/11 GI bill doesn't pay for your books or anything until you have been in school for a month. Can you say Catch 22??? So Veterans are stuck with the bill for school, and if everything goes OK with the system, you will get re-embursed. Oh no wait, thats wrong too!
So screw it, can't go to school, can't keep a job. To hell with life.
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| | Posted by soldier boy at May 19, 2011 |
lets see born into a broken home taken away from broken home mom drinks and is crazy, i drink and am crazy thought that the army would teach me to be a man. realize that i have pissed away every opportunity in life away. am only 21 one screw up and i am homeless never got close to people period because of unknown metal issues. likely to be another vet/former foster youth in the never ending cycle of homeless and prison seriously considering giving it all up and drinking myself to death by any way possible. no dreams or aspirations anymore. man it really sucks and i don't care that is the part that scares me. |
| | Posted by Sh**y Life at May 19, 2011 |
I have 2 kids with someone I can not stand the sight of, but in order to make sure they are treated right I am forced to live with "IT", while the state we live in gives custody to the mother (if she can even be called that.). Minnesota, the land of 10,000 lakes and even greater number of Bull-Shit laws. Back to the "mother" of my kids, she don't like any one of us including the kids, but when people come by let the illusion begin.
I as many was told a higher education is the key to happiness and success, and if this is true.... Then I have one question multiplied by 2 (the number of college degrees I will have in less then a month, but as of now I only have 1). WHAT THE FUCK HAPPEN?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!! |
| | Posted by DanLONER at May 19, 2011 |
God, I need to make a strong request to show me yourself, your holy spirit, and your power!!!!! I know you exist but so what???? WHAT'S YOUR POWER USED FOR???? Since you are so powerful, WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE STILL SUFFERING???????I never felt happy. People insult me, people criticise me hard. They hate me for who I am, what I do. I dunno why but they just hate me. Onlookers hate me too, as if they wanna bully me. Even dogs, bark at me and wanna bite me. I dunno why I suck so much as a person. I am 16. I never really felt happy since 6 years old. I could remember that was the only time when I was really carefree and enjoyable. Yeah...Even when I was 14, I cry a lot, due to hatred of people and people bullying me. I never had any self esteem, self confidence. Even god hates me. Never had gf, never kiss, never hug, never had sex. I am totally pure. Tell me the purpose of living man. |
| | Posted by mmm at May 19, 2011 |
My mother abandoned me when I was 7, but before she did, she did some great damage. I was always deprived of food and social contact. Whenever possible, I would be locked indoors, so that people could not see how scrawny I was. Whenever I did go outside, she would layer me with clothes (even on a hot summer day), so as to "bulk" me up. Sometimes she locked me up in a dark bathroom and told to stay quiet, whenever her bf came over to fuck. Her boyfriend would always threaten and hit me.
A few years later, my family (now with a stepmother) moved to North America, where I was bullied in school and became a total social outcast.
I had no friends throughout school (all of it), largely due to the fact I was very shy. In high school, I was still a target to bullying and fights, as I was labeled as "different" by everyone. At the time, I never had what most kids took for granted (nice clothes, money and an abundance of tasty food).
I had to live with emotionally abusive, arrogant parents (who would only tell me how much of a failure I am going to grow up to be). This would only further bruise my already crushed self-esteem. I never once stood up to them, because I thought I had it "good" (at least they didn't physically abuse me).
I never even thought of girls, cars or partying as a teenager, because I never thought I was worthy of such "gifts".
I went to college for a year only to start binge drinking and break away from my parents (to live on my own). I had to learn social skills quickly (to keep up with everyone else), and even trained myself to completely lose my foreign accent. I've stopped drinking (haven't had a single sip for over two years now) and never done any drugs. Yes, I feel cheated out of the life that I could have had, and yes I am bitter and hurting about the life I had. But I have learned to stay positive, because even after all this hell, I can say that I've made it. |
| | Posted by sadie at May 19, 2011 |
i'm an 18 year old girl. i have a crappy minimum wage job, and i live with my asshole father. i'm currently in a program that helps me attain a high school diploma through computer courses, but it takes a very, very long time. i feel so lonely.
i've never had a boyfriend. i've never even been kissed. though guys do find me desirable, they're only ones i don't feel the same way about. i take antidepressants and they help, but when i miss a dose (sometimes i miss weeks worth due to lack of the ability to refill my prescription) i experience terrible withdrawal symptoms and feel as if i could die. but what i hate the most is the fact that i have to rely on taking pills every day just to feel happy. i hate the idea of relying on drugs to feel what normal people should be able to feel.
i just wish i didn't always feel so alone and hopeless. my friends claim to miss me and love me, but they always blow me off. i'm always taken advantage of. because i'm such a good friend, my friends think "oh, she knows i care about her". and only talk to me when things go bad for them and they need a shoulder to cry on.
even as i type this, i'm ashamed of how utterly pathetic and full of self-pity and despicable i sound. i hate being just a worthless sad-sack crybaby all the time, but i can't help it.
i just wish i had someone to talk to when i'm alone in my room, lying in bed or sleeping. i wish someone would show up to my house and tell me everything will be okay, and spend time with me, not because they feel obligated or sorry for me, but because they want to. i wish i had someone to make me feel important and special and pretty and loved. at least a distraction. something to divert my attention away from my sad, sorry, pathetic attitude and make me forget about it for a while. i don't want to be alone. because i sit and think and ponder all of the things that make me sad and i can't bear it. |
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| Posted by anonymous at May 19, 2011 |
To those of you who want to stay stuck in you're shit: dont listen.
If you're not feeling part of society, you're probably not. You're not doing something that people who are apart do.
If you're feeling like you're not as close to your God as you once were, you probably aren't. But your God didn't go anywhere- you did.
If you're in pain and feel like you're not as happy as other people- you're probably not. You're not doing something that people who are happy are doing.
The point is that we are the potential creator or destroyer of our own happiness and sanity. If we are genuine about our pursuit of happiness and contentment with life we can no longer blame circumstances, people, places or things for our misery. Maturity is no longer blaming and accepting that we are responsible for our own recovery.
Life's a decision making process. We reap what we sow- if we sow principles and principle-based decisions then our lives flourish and we reap positive things and good opportunities. If we sow insanity and self-will-based decisions then we stay stuck and reap nothing good. Our decisions are what make our lives what they are. When we accept that and take responsibility for our lives, our lives begin to change.
When we accept others we accept ourselves.
When we love others we love ourselves.
When we look at the good in others we see the good in ourselves.
Life is good, it's our perception that sucks. We have a choice.
If you don't like the person you are or the recovery you have then stop doing the things you do and start to practice principles.. Recovery isn't painful, lack of recovery is. Recovery is relief from the pain. |
| | Posted by sick n tierd at May 18, 2011 |
46 two kids working and taking care of my mother, not knowing if shes going to to die! trying to pay mobil payment, gas in car just living day to day.... life isnt supose to be this way i dont get it! dark cloud over my head. |
| | Posted by FML at May 18, 2011 |
Yea, I’m a 17 year old in high school about to be 18 in August. 10th grade I consider my golden grade, because I finally got a girlfriend, I had a lot of friends to hang with, I finally lost my virginity. But once summer started, she dumped me; she never gave me an exact reason but multiple reasons. I never got a clear reason. It my broken hearted stage, I did one of my biggest regrets; I slit my wrist with box cutter blade because "everyone did it to feel better" and I thought it would get rid of the pain. I look down at the three cuts and realized how open the wounds were. I could see tissue and blood dripping everywhere. I didn't know whether to lie in the bathtub and bleed out or to tell my parents or stop the bleeding. I managed to stop the bleeding and hid the scar (which took a little over a year to heal) from people who I don't want to see. I "loved" this girl so I called her but she never answered. She left me a voicemail when I was asleep to tell me she would call me in a week and talk about our status. I didn't sleep, or eat, or talk/text anyone, just waited for the call. Later that week, I got on Myspace (when it was still popular) and saw her default picture of her kissing her ex on the cheek. This crushed me. I became dependent on this friend I’ve met but never seen in person because she lived 5 hours away. We got close and I told her that was in love with her, and she said she was in love with me. We did meet and she was great. We had lots o... |
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| Posted by anonymous at May 18, 2011 |
im 16 and i live in the most boring fucking closed minded country on the planet. My parents are like two completely separate people from me and is completed by my brother and my little sister.Our family is without a doubt dysfunctional. Not in the way that my parents are divorced or im constantly abused its way more complicated than that. Without giving to much information i could pretty much say i dont have allot of unhappy childhood memories. I have friends in fact im well liked but its like im cut off from everyone else like everything just exists for the moment and i know the truth the truth that it all doesn't matter. When im sad its like someones piercing my heart i remember the tears i think of my life the people who will get into good universities live good honest whole lives.In my school its like im the only one in another category. The one where very few things will be easy who will always have an aching feeling of despair that only goes away for moments. My life feels so fake i feel like i have nothing to live for except the people that ill leave behind. I wish I was strong enough to forget or change. Be a different person. Im not though and i dont think ill ever be. |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 18, 2011 |
My life changed because of my desire to get an education. 20yrs ago at 16 I met a teacher who I asked for helped with my homework. To make a long story short, he abused me for 20years and the guilt and shame I felt cause me to lose all my teenage friends and family members - Who he claimed were no good for me. I know what you're thinking, How could someone abused you for this long, well, I was brained wash to think I was gay and he preyed on my innocence and silence to not speak out because of the shame. I tried leaving many times before but, I went back because I had know friends or family to turn to. They all thought I was just a weird loner. Little did they know I was screaming for help and acceptance. This ruined my life completely, almost 40yrs, can't keep a job too long, I have absolutely no trust for people in authority, I have made attempts to start new relationship which he would sabotage but spilling the gay lifestyle. I walk around confident and strong but I am such a devastated human being. So I try not to give my heart to people in fear of how they will use it against me.
Today, many people just think I am just an angry person who cannot get along with anyone.
I now feel a very sad sense of anger towards gay people and I know that it is wrong. Of all the things in the world, this was the last thing I wanted in my life. I was just a kid, trying to do the right thing, why couldn't he see that...
This really sucks
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| | Posted by kweenb at May 18, 2011 |
fucked from the start my mom and dad were haroin addicts and i was the only child they had togather I was born sddictedto haroin and downer pills and alcohol was born twelve weeks early when i was born in 1961 they lacked technology and experance i was born with no heart beat but they brought me back but when they went to tell my mother she was gone there was a blood trial leading out of the hospital. but thats just the begining its been going down hill since then the doctors said i would never be normal did not see my mom until i was 13 and then she left and a week later she died i found out I had half bros and sisters i never knew i had we never got close I was molested from the age of 6 to 12 by my uncle i became a drug addict and had kids and did not know who thair fathers were i sm now 50 and have nothing and no family left except my kids my mom didnt even want me nor did her family o boy life sucks the fucked up part is i feel like a mistake something that sliped through the cracks |
| | Posted by Loser at May 18, 2011 |
I'm in my 50's. We lost all material wealth over the last 5 years. We will be completely out of money at the end of the month and I don't know what will happen with my family. We have no family members to help us. There's nothing like losing everything and trying to support a family on nothing. Failure and regret. That's it. |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 17, 2011 |
Yet another story in the news about a man cheating on his long time spouse. Yet another. And another and another. Always shortly after the woman says something about how wonderful her marriage is. I have already come to terms with the fact that there is not a good man to be had for myself... but it just makes me wonder... what is a female supposed to do, who is born with a desire for male companionship, and also a desire to not feel completely disposable. Life truly sucks for women. You will always get your heart broken. What we need does not exist.
I know men have to deal with this too, but it doesn't seem to be so all-pervasive. A woman who loves you will stay with you. Right? I don't really know, that's just how it seems... I don't understand how people on either side handle it, really. Over and over again. |
| | Posted by karma at May 17, 2011 |
We all go through ups and downs. However after 30 years of nothing but bad luck coming my way i gave up. My siblings, friends and others tell me dont worry "things will get better". I dont blame anyone but myself, it is important to come to a realization that things will not get better. My story is not worth wasting words, my life is and will come to an end i can sense it. All hope is gone, let us escape this brutal world. Live alone die allone.... |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 17, 2011 |
My family has decided they are sending me to Canada because I'm more trouble then I'm worth. They said I was an embarrassment. They call me a slut. The only person that ever made me feel beautiful. . . They forbid me for seeing him.
MY LIFE SUCKS. |
| | Posted by Bill K at May 17, 2011 |
I am grateful for what I have and I don't need more.
I count the blessings and forget the misfortunes....
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| | Posted by PCOSLoser at May 17, 2011 |
For once in my life, I had it all. Great job, amazing boyfriend, great friends, and I was happy. I am overweight and I actually felt pretty for once (due to finally starting to lose weight). I have PCOS and hadn't had a period in over a year. So, not only do I start one that is hell, my boyfriends ex starts contacting him via text and Facebook again. I asked him to delete her, but he refused. So, he ends up dumping me out of nowhere. 20 minutes before we are laying there kissing and all happy, and she texts and he dumps me. Then, last week I end up having to have a D and C surgery, along with a blood transfusion because I had lost so much blood. So, I had to take time off of work. Not even sure if I'm going to have a job. Worst part is, the ex still talks to me. We are even supposed to hang out tomorrow. Yet, he says he has no feelings for me and will never get back together. I don't know how to move on from any of this. |
| | Posted by A.M.B at May 16, 2011 |
will how can i start,ok here i go....i have 2 teenage boys that have no respect 4 anyone my home looks like crap holes everywhere and they think it's funny they don't work r not on a course they do nothing i work from 6.30am untill 3pm and come home to find them still asleep or all there mates r here. ive had enough sometimes i think about just ending it all i have no life and just dont feel like living anymore.when they were little life was sweet we had a beautiful home now it looks run down i cant keep up with the repairs because when i repair something there is always another hole or smashed window alot of my things have gone missing or wrecked ive tryed to kick them out got the police but nothing ever comes out of it it's just hopeless they are going from bad to worse i should just pack up and move overseas if i had the money but thats not a option i cant save cause ive got nothing to save after paying bills and getting food on the table that dont last long, and as for the father he left when they were little wanted to live his own life,they are 17 and 18 yrs old i need a life away from them to start all over what can i do im desperate? |
| | Posted by none at May 16, 2011 |
It started in my first marriage, I was mentally abused and neglected, cheated on with three other women and secluded from my family, too embarrased to tell my friends. I finally left him and we got divorced, meet my now husband two years later, had a whirl wind romance and go married he cheated on me five times so far, I am stupid enough to forgive him, I guess I just beleive that all men do it now and some women too. And after one of these affairs he got herpes and now I have it because I was unaware at the time of his infedielity. He is a manipulator and he emotionally and psychologically abuses me whenever he gets mad. He says he doesn't trust me and I try hard to trust him enven after all he has done. Every few months he goes on a tirad and claims I am a liar and is mad at me for days, saying he wants a divorce and that he shouldn't be married. I tell him if he wants one to go get it, but he never does. He sas later that he doesnt want to regret it later, letting me go. That he loves me he just gets scared and angry. I am at witts end and do not know what to do anymore. I love him with all my heart, but every few months my heart is ripped out and crushed. Even if I leave him, who will want me now? Maybe it is me like he says....but i DO ANYTHING i CAN TO MAKE MAKE HIM HAPPY! I'm just not perfect. |
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