LIFE SUCKS : Family

fucking hate my life

I fucking hate my life.I am 28 yrs old and recently got divorced.I hate my fucking x husband. I don't have any job and living with my parents.Every fucking day they will say mean things to me just cause im staying with them and cant afford myself.I applied 100 places and no luck so far.Im so damn depressed.All my friends are happily married. I feel like a fucking loser.Went back to school again but failing my classes badly. I cant concentrate on my studies. I need a job badly. I don't have a bf.No one likes me cause im so ugly looking. Every freaking guy likes some fucking models!!! I just want to end my life.I don't want to live in this mean and cruel world.Its pointless staying here where no one cares.If you are pretty and got money people will only value you.Other wise you don't even exist in this world.

it sucks i feel like killing myself. we are broke and homeless my mother works as a whore and my father got shot when i was 5 years old. My brother got 20 months of jail breaking some type of shitty law. This is the end.

everything

I would rather be honest than phony, so here goes. Its me, boyfriend and our three kids. everything seems to stress me out. i love my three kids BUT have a huge disconnect with my twins. its hard to explain cuz probably no one understands, but u know how u had that one true best friend and the really whole heartedly screwed u over once, maybe more and then ur just like, screw it and stop being there friend because u know a real friend shouldnt do that. WELL, thats how my twins make me feel. I have let them f**k me over so many times. everytime i reassure myself that it will get better the next time. they always get into stuff, constantly. i gave them the benefit of the doubt because little kids do get into things and do ruin things, but they will be five and still r doing this. i dont know how to reconnect when they have pushed me so far away from them. i feel like i dont want to communicate with them ever, at all. and i dont know what to do. one on one time basnt worked cuz like i said they have pushed me so far away that i just dont want one on one time.i know, i guess i am a bad mom for saying all that( then to top that off i feel worthless, like right now when me and my bf fight. i understand he works hard six days a week, and that i only go to school five days a week for 5 hrs each day and that i take kids to school and pick them up and grocery shop and clean and laundry and make every financial decision. he gets mad that i get mad that he comes home from work and plays playstation until midnight. " because he had a long day at work" disregarding what i do because he says its not i job. i just want him to do some of these things with me. stressed

A failed life headed into the abyss of irrelevancy

I'm the same place I've been for the last 32 years, in my parents basement with the only two friends I've ever had: X-box and laptop. I was a loner all throughout school, never had any friends all the way through high school. Was chubby and overweight all my life, and during that time I heard every fat joke in the book. Now at nearly 520 lbs, the only activities left that I have the capacity for are rolling over in my bed and the occasional trip to the bathroom/shower which is always a putrid event. Didn't dare go to college. Never had a job. If I had to fill out a job application, I'd be done after I put down my name and the date. I've tried to eat my misery away, which is about the only pleasure I have access to, and its gotten to where I'm so large I can barely make it up the stairs to see my parents(major social event), both of who are also fat slobs, but at least my dad can squeeze into a vehicle long enough to go get groceries. I'm so limited in my movement that I can't bathe myself like I used to and consequently my big ass mother said the stench is getting harder to tolerate so she asked me to limit my trips upstairs to when she isn't around. I can't stop eating, its all I have to look forward to...other than death. I'm a failed genetic experiment between two fat slobs and I'm headed nowhere. I will land with a thud. F all of your pathetic responses, they can't and won't help me.

I just need to talk

I am just gonna sputter this out. My mother was a very careing person who took in her step children and had me and my younger brother. The three step children had a mentally challenged mother and all was not well with them, they ended up in childrens homes and were brutally raped several times before my mother took them in. After she took them in they repeated those actions on me and my brother. My parents did not catch them for a long time and me and my brother were too young and tried but did not know how to tell our parents. After they found out what was going on my three step brothers were sent to prison and other victims in the area we lived had come forward, mostly children around our age and I was six as the time.

As you can guess I grew up with many problems from this issue, many people knew who I was and what happened and so did their parents. I tried never to let things defeat me, no matter what I was going to be a good person and do good things for people. At the age of sixteen I was raped again by another man and this person I was related to by blood. This time the incident was turned in immediately but also caused me to have issues with many family members. I was not popular in high school by any means but there were a few nice people that befriended me and I am so thankful for them.

My mother was a good person but their were a few issues their while I was in high school, and ultimately I became responsible for my families expenses, I was w...

No way out..

My life is a bottomless hellhole. My mom hates me and doesn't want anything to do with me, my dad passed away when i was 12 and I had to live with my diabetic grandmother who recently passed away and the grief is too much for me to bare..

I'm 28 and i never finished high school, i dropped out when i was 15. I never got my drivers license..why? i dont know.. i just dont want to drive i dont think i can drive i have an anxiety for driving and i get shaken up just thinking about it. i live with a man who only uses me for sex and treats me like shit other days but i have no where else to go, my mother disowned me and the rest of my family are states away from me too. I realize all this time ive done nothing but waste my life away being a slave to this man, getting drunk and high and i will never have a career or a happy family. im a worthless woman

Just feeling down right now, need to rant

Hey everybody. I guess this is just a bad time for me and life doesn't suck per se, but here I go.

I am making a mess of my life. I have no real friends except a couple people that might be considered friends but we aren't that close and live in other countries (better than nothing, yeah, but still meh). I have a boyfriend who currently lives on the other side of the planet and I will only get to see in August for 3 weeks but never before that and it'll be months again after.
My mother was diagnosed with Parkinson's disease and I am her only caregiver currently. I am only 22 and trying to graduate from university but being a full time student, caregiver, long distance relationship lover, it is so hard to handle it all. I won't give up on any of these things, that'd be impossible for me to do, but it is just so hard to live life with no relief. I am trying to pursue some hobbies that will keep me sane in the little free time I have but I am so emotionally strained I can hardly keep up.

I feel my life is completely up to others and my wishes and desires don't matter at all. My boyfriend keeps trying to plan our move together though we both know it's in years and he has no ways of planning it out just yet. Plus he keeps taking jobs that won't allow him to easily visit me and will just pay for me to visit him instead, which is ok, but I just wish he could come over instead at times.

My mom used to be my best friend but now she is sick so eve...

Fuck humanity

My mom was apparently a pretty cool person. I wouldn't know, because she was killed by a drunk driver when I was 3. That drunk driver was my asshole father. He beat and abused me for around 10 years. Now he is a cocaine addict. I was constantly bruised and scarred by my father through elementary and middle school. Nobody would even look at me. When I was 16, I realized that I was bigger and stronger than my drug addicted father, so I completely beat the shit out of him. I get sent to juvie for it. I turned 18 a few months ago, and my father went to jail. I'm living on my own, I have virtually no money, no friends, no family, no education for a respectable job. The only luxury item I own right now is a computer from around 2003, and I might have to sell it soon if I can't find a job that will pay at least minimum wage. If there's a god, hes up there laughing at me. Anyone I ask for help is so disgusted by my mangled and scraped up face that they refuse to even listen. I wish I could afford a cat or something, because I really need a friend. Crying and cutting my arms just aren't fixing the sadness anymore. I'm really tired of people just not caring. Its like, when someone sees me, they think "ew, I might get a disease if I touch that piece of shit".
Is one friend too much to ask? I just want to know what its like.

life

Im a 23 year old male working a dead end job makimg around 800 every two weeks. I dont really know where to start my life hasnt been easy by any means. My mother is addicted to meth and i found out when i was 11 years old. My father was a very hard workwr and tried everything he could think of to keep the family together but they devorced in 2009 a few months later the family house burnt down. In 2010 my father passed away in a atv accident while i was at work. He wasnt found until the next day. So now the house and land belong to me and my younger beother who doesnt have a drivers liscense or a highschool deploma ( droped out after the devorce ) he pretty much stays home and smokes weed all day and gets by off of 200 a month from a rwnt house we own
So ive been working and trying to pay taxes and lawyer cost. A few months ago i found out i have type one diabetes which has been life changing and expensive. To top it all off my girlfriend of four years is 8 weeks pregnant. Sometimes it seems like everything happens at once. Im very happy about the pregnancy and it has brought more meaning to my life. I just find myself wondering what kind of a life i will be able to provide my child when my life has been on such a downward spiral for what seems like forever. Oh yeah and my mom went to prison shortly afyer my father passed away. Shes back now and living with my brother. Shes steals from us to pay for her addiction and pretty much makes my life hell. Ive tried to get her perole officer to send her back but he doesnt give a shit .

I have never said any of this...

I hate my "life"...
I know things will get better but, It fucking sucks right now. And I can't be all
happy about what might not even happen in the future.
My story:
My mom raised me around drugs my whole life. She constantly had a new boyfriend,
even while still married to my dad. He wasn't around. So how the hell would he ever know about this right?... well he only caught one guy. And that one guy had molested me. But don't worry... no one even knows that. My mom had felt so bad about that one guy.. she started up even more drugs, alcohol, and sex. She was always using me to get her into more drug deals. And dragging me into them. I really had no choice. But i mean, i trusted her at the time. So, I didn't see any problem in it... My mom went a little crazy. I was constantly catching her trying to kill herself. One time, I had to catch her on my shoulders because she was attempting to hang herself. (i seriously walked in the right time) ... well one morning i just got tired of her shit and i told herself to hang herself. I threw some bungi chord shit htings in her face... the minute she dropped me off at school.. she went home... just to hang herself in my garage... with those fucking bungi chords.... and then life has just challenged me ever since....

My alcoholic family and friends

I'm sick and tired of dealing with alcoholics. My husband is a drunk, and so is my oldest friend. Both of them get attitudes when they drink and give me attitude. I just want to tell them both to f***off. Why does anyone think other people should have to put up with their drinking? My husband is a pretty good man otherwise and my friend is pretty good friend....when they aren't drunk, which isn't often. My friend starts repeating herself and tells the same damn stories over and over. I try to make plans with her, like when she gets off work, before she's had a chance to get plastered. My husband usually just takes a bottle in his room and gets buzzed, but frequently he will call me or just come out and start bitching about everything. Then I will blow up and he straighten up for a few days. I'm just sick of dealing with this shit at all and frankly wish neither of them were in my life. Thanks for letting me vent. Screw alcoholics....a disease my ass, nobody voluntarily has a heart attack....give me a break....

Destroyed

I have a tough life. I grew up with an alcoholic dad who cOnstanty beat my mom and us kids. There were times we had to sleep in the car because it was difficult to stay at home. It was my mom and us three kids. When I was 14 me and my sister gave my mom te courage to leave, something that many women find diffiult to do. For us kids she took the biggest step of her life and left my dad. Now I'm 24 and I have a child also married. My husband is an alcoholic and is abusive. I feel like I'm going through what my mom went through only that I don't have the courage to leave. What makes matters worse I live with my in laws and they are yhe most evil people I met on this planet. They encourage my husband to beat me and go against me. They try to convince him the man should have power over the girl and her family. I fear for my daughters future I don't want her to experience what I am and I want her to have the best life possible but in this situation I fear she won't get it. Things that are normal to everyone like sleeping is something that I get if I'm lucky. Hes verbally and physically abusive and hardly allows me to sleep. He's always sexually active and wants to always do something . He forces it and I hate it. I wish I had the courage to leave him but I fear he will try to kill me or my family. He threatens me all the time and puts me down. I ruined my life I'm so hopeless . I don't know what to do. I wish I could be happy and just live free. I just want to be free!

helpless

People need to realise that suicide is not the right decision. Life is worth living. Most of the people after hearing my story say that I am a really strong person. I don't know if I'm strong, I'm just happy that my past is over. From my 13th to my 16th year I've had the most terrible childhood ever. My mentally sick dad was sexually abusing me in front of my mom's eyes. Then my mom died. He got arrested. I haven't seen him till then and I don't want to. I went to live at my aunt's house. She accepted me, but I was like a slave for her. I was bullied at school, not only by my school mates, even by teachers. I was broke inside. Nobody loved me. I hated people so much. I was cutting ofcourse, I've had anorexia and one day I woke up in the hospital. I could've had a heart attack at any moment. I couldn't wait for that. I wanted to die so desperatly but I wasn't brave enough to kill myself. Somehow the doctors saved my life. I was in a big depression and I was bipolar. I shaved my head and I went out late night and just scream until I fall asleep on the street. My aunt didn't want to have anything with me so she sent me to a mental hospital. I stayed there for 2 years. You can't imagine how hard it was for me. When I got out my nerves got in place for a little. I didn't have anywhere to go. I was sitting on the street all night and I would cry myself out until I fall asleep. I didn't have anything to eat. I've had no choise, I had to go back to my aunt. I went there and I beg...

C.P.S

So today my mom called child protective services my dad left us when I was about 5 now I 12 my life sucks I fell like no one loves me. Anyway yesterday we were in St.Marys Ontario and My mom told all her friends that me and my sisters are really bad kids all the adults were talking about how horrible we are the her and her EX-HUSBAND a different on before my dad he lives with us and he's a ..... He left from Korea and now took a year off from work he been he for 2 years and every since he came we have been BROKE. SO today My sisters and I were angry and my mom wanted to cut our hair so we let her while she was doing our hair we told her how we felt and she said IDC meaning( I DON"T CARE) and i felt heart broken anyway after she got fedd up with how we felt and called Child Protective Services she feels that all I do is ANNOY her she thinks is MY FAULT that were BROKE and THAT SHE'S A SINGLE MOTHER is that fair? I feeel Like I am alone I don't now if its my fault am I bipoler or SOMETHING PLZZ I

Misery has no company

Hi,
I type this teary eyed and frustrated. My life has gone downhill, I have entered a realm of depression and lonliness. I can admit that I have had suicidal thoughts, but I think I may be able to conquer it. I go to counseling. I am a college student. This is my story.

21 years old. Small town kid. I have a suicidal brother, a mother with cancer, and a broken family. All of the pressure is on me to keep things together, to make something of myself, to graduate. In my small circle of friends, I am expected to be the comedian, the reliable one, the one to bend over backwards for someone. Sounds easy, right? It's not. All of my efforts to help others, makes me feel that I am constantly forgotten about. My friends think I am "stronger" than I am. I cover my pain with humor and by showering my friends with attention and gifts. It's an easy way to keep my mind off of my problems. However, lately, I've been feeling forgotten about. Stress has piled on top of existing stress, and my "best friend"has fallen off of the face of the Earth and only sees their significant other.

There is no worse feeling than knowing you will go out of your way to help someone out, but it will never be returned. I have lost my knowing of my self-value. This is too much for one person to handle, and I feel like I would be better off dead.

But then I must consider, how does that affect the people I care about? Would they be sad? Would they care? Do they even care about m...

My daughter is the reason I have to live

I am a 42 year old man.I was very successful spoiled my wife and kids with everything there hearts could desire.Through 13this years of are marriage my wife was over wieght i didnt care i loved her was faithful. She was always unhappy no matter what, she got in head that i must have been cheating even though i tried to have sex with her everynight and got turned down.she went on diet pills and went totally off wall.She tapped my phone my computers everything and found out i never did cheat but on pills attacked me and called cops they arrested me i was sleeping she was so messed up on diet pills she went around telling everyone who would listen i tried to choke her to death. Well any i got her to stop the pills if i got her woeghtloss surgury so i did. She lost wieght and cheated on me with a co worker.When i confronted her to ask about this guys she said she never did anything and she thinks im crazy and moved out so me and my two great kids just went on with our lives. He was just using her so when she moved out he told her he didnt want to deal with this because he had girl friend and a child and one on way.she convinced me nothing happened and i took her back not knoing any of this happened during past two year i have become very ill but i tell no one and no one can really tell. She told me do you think that low of me i would like someone that only makes 30k a year and is ugly if i was going to cheat on you dont you think i would do it with someone who could support me like you do. So i believed all this but it was wierd she all of sudden says she doesnt like to kiss after 159 years of marriage and never wants to touch me. Well got over that. I thought i was nuts. Bang brother in law tells me truth. I want to die and she is never happy anyway.my son just wants things. My daughter is only reason i have to live. But im thinking they all might be better with out me

Lonely forever

I am as dead as a doornail to my family. They just quit their jobs and made a new spa for massages and facials. In one month, they were supposed to make 5,000 dollars. They only made 300. They started stressing out, and in order to make sure the buisness did not go bankrupt, they cancelled the family's health insurance. When I just recently got a severe form of sinusitis, my mom did not care and just tried treating it with tylenol. Finally, when I started bleeding from my nose, she took me to the doctor. The Dr. said that if we had come any later, I would have to go to the hospital, and stay there for five months. Five months. I wish I had come later so I could beat up my parents. Forever I would kick and yell and tell them all the things they do wrong for me and my brother. But I can't. I just cannot because I am nothing to them. All my parents do is talk about the spa, or yell and scream about the spa. I tell them to stop, and lets go out to have fun, but they always end up talking about the spa. SPASPASPASPA. WHAT IS SO SPECIAL ABOUT THE SPA THAT IT IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE FAMILY'S HEALTH!?!??!?! I try talking to them about my school, but they automatically get phone calls when I try and talk to them. I got depressed, but got out of it eventually. I asked my parents for a pet, like a guinea pig or a hamster. But the second I brought up getting a pet, my mom told me to stop annoying her because she wanted to kill them already. I have NO ONE to talk to. My friends have just formed other groups, groups that I just cannot seem to get into. Everything I do is wrong in everyone's eyes, and I just want to talk to somebody before I actually do go insane. I don't need anyone's pity, I just need their warmth and help. Before the spa become our family, that is.

As long as I can remember I've been brainwashed to hate everything. Myself,my friends, my family , especially strangers I don't even know. My father a drug addicted alchoholic phsycopath, and my brother a brain damaged violent phsycopath were major influences on me it was an everyday thing no love or affection ever, only threats, punches, kicks and insults.

The difference between my situation and the average fucked up situation is that it wasn't as if I wnitnessed or was victim to a handful of traumatic events that wouldn't turn me into something I wouldn't be otherwise. Mine was constant 24/7 365 days a year nonstop every single day, no escape,

so as a child your learning all the skills you need to live In This world for the rest of your life, and what I learned was how to survive in a ruthless environment by showing no emotion not ever trusting anyon,and learning that all humans were a possible threat to me.

Now I'm 22 and Im supposed to be funloving and outgoing people say I need to just change, if only it were that simple, I don't even know if it's physically possible to unlearn everything I learned as a kid violence and hate was my whole life, the only thing I knew, I guess I can learn how to eat breathe and sleep differently too

My Girlfriends 50 Year Daughter is Impossible

I moved with my girlfriend to Miami a few years ago and since then her relatives visit one week out of almost each month. Her 50 year old daughter gets into my face about everything I would talk about. She is on her 3rd marriage, hates men and her own sister says she visits to get away from her husband. My measured blood pressure went up really high when she was over. Really thought I'd stroke out. We just do not get along, ever. So, I really do not say a word. Everything I say she blasts into me like she does with her high school child. Her mother just remains silent when she sees I'm steaming. If I leave the house to get away from this crap, the mother then threatens me that she will leave me. The condo is a vacation home for all relatives. I have made the decision to sell the place next month. Tired of this vacationing family crap. I do get along with other realatives except when they do not rent a car and stay for a full week to enjoy going to the beach.

Why?

This is the lowest of lows ive ever felt in my entire life. Im 20 years old with a single mother and a father whos been in jail pretty much my whole life. This was no big deal, i was used to it and i was a pretty happy kid with exceptional grades. Once i finished high school i went off to college for radiology. Two semesters in my mother got very ill and i had to take off school to help her out. I was working a full time job at the same place for 6 years. Just recently my mother has gotten better but my work decided to close which forced me to collect unemployment for the time being. My employer told me we were only closing for 6 weeks so therefore i only applied for unemployment for those 6 weeks. About a week ago the business decided not to open back up but my unemployment had already stopped. On top of that i just paid all of my bills along with putting a down payment on an apartment close to where my new job will be starting in another month. With all that, i have no money left. So fast forward to today, i find out im pregnant of course. This was the downfall of my, everything else just seemed like an obstacle that i would overcome because thats always how ive lived my life. Very optimistic under the cards ive been dealt. I'm not sure how this has happened considering my boyfriend and i have taken all the precautionary measures. i just dont know what to do. eveything is so stressful. Why must the world revolve around money.