| | Posted by mishka at May 3, 2012 |
Every morning when I open my eyes, I am again hit by the realization that I have absolutely no purpose... no reason to get out of bed. I don't have a job, I don't have friends, I don't have a single thing to do. My life is completely empty, devoid of any sort of meaning. I am like a fish in a bowl, constantly swimming around with no goal... no thought, just mindless existence. I occasionally attempt to break free from this swirling monotony that is my life, but I just can't seem to ever break free. I no longer can stand it. Everyday is another waste. I look around and see people I once knew passing me by, creating a life of their own, and I feel like I'm stuck in this static environment where nothing ever changes. Thanks for listening, back around the bowl I go. |
| | Posted by video28 at May 3, 2012 |
i haven't told anyone about this but i'm 28 and i've been married to the same woman for 4 years, she is a great person so what is the problem?
she just isn't good at sex. i can go for a long time, i am well endowed, i am strong with a nice body because i go to the gym 4 times a week. I feel that i am doing my part but having sex with her is like the equivalent of poking a fish with a stick
its just like boring and (trying not to be too graphic) sometimes i just look at her and she disgusts me.. i am good at my husband job.. she however is a muffin top and saddle-bags having, limp wristed bore
sometimes i begin having sex with her and instantly just want to retract my penis, but i do my duty as a responsible husband should
i never have felt satisfied in the bedroom except for the first two weeks, then after that it got boring so i started to work out a lot hoping somehow it would help, thinking maybe it was me.. well here i am 4 yrs later and its HER.. she just doesn't know how to make me feel like a man in the bedroom
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| | Posted by jaybees at May 3, 2012 |
hi everyone (well hopefully someone)
Where do I begin. Well I have this story and its kind of difficult for me to tell. I don't know if anyone else has been through anything similar but here it is. I am a woman and at 23 I ran off with another woman I met at university. I had a young husband I left at the time and nowadays I cannot really remember why I just couldnt love him. But I couldnt. So there was this woman and I ran off with her. She seemed like such a poor wee thing and I couldnt wait to protect her. It seemed her mother was beating her up and had been so unfair and abusive to her and she had nowhere to go and needed me. Well I quickly fell in love and I quickly fell in love with the idea of protecting her and I began to see her a broken bird. Yeah right! That broken bird ended up dominating me. How did that happen? Well she used to make such a terrible fuss when things didnt go her way, and she used to cite abuse stories. For example one time when she was getting started with a relationship with another woman (oh yes right in front of me)she got upset when I got upset and told me I was being abusive for wanting love and affection. You know how emotional these situations can get right? Well we ended up I thought making love and would you believe it - but no, she told me I had sexually abused her. And that was really just the beginning. She used to hit me quite often. And when I got upset, she would say that I made her do it.
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| | Posted by Beyond sad girl at May 3, 2012 |
I'm a 35 year old attractive woman. Married for 4 years with no children (not by choice).
I married a man who was not my type but I fell in love with the fact that he was such a Good guy and he adored me. And I later grew to love him. People always joke with him and say how did you score her as your wife. And I never cared what people thought about us because he was perfect for me and that's all that mattered. I love him! But over the years he stopped being intimate with me. I tried to ignore the fact that my husband didn't want to have sex with me by working extra hard at work and slimming down to my high school size (and I was already small). I'm not bragging but I have a body of a toned teenager and a face of a movie star and my husband does not want to have sex with me. The bigger problem is that we both want kids. How the fuck can we have kids if we don't have sex. On top of that his sister moved into our two bedroom condo. It was suppose to be a couple months it's been a whole year! I'm lying here with my husband beside me and my sister i law down the hall and I'm thinking I'm 35 years old but feel and look like I'm 25 and I hate my life!!!!
How did I get here?!?!?!?!?!? There's so much more to write about how bad things are but I'm tired and I've never spilled my problems on an open forum before. This is so not me. But I can't talk to anyone about this because everyone in my life thinks my life is perfect. But it's not! I've actually been online for 3 hours trying to figure out how to end it all. The only thing stopping me is the thought of my Mother, Father, Brother, Sister, cousins, aunts and uncles and my Grandmother ( who's 98yrs old). If only I could just die and not hurt them. If only. I have to go the pain is to much. |
| | Posted by rechel at May 3, 2012 |
Im under 40, Ive been w/the same man for almost 21 yrs, we have kids but soon they will all be grown and having lives of their own. I cant depend on them for my happiness forever. So besides regular marital suckage, sex sucks to the point where I just cant bring myself to even talk about it. Ive told him before it is boring, unfulfilling and he is done in l or 2 minutes, sometimes less. Seriously I cant take it no more. he gets all hurt because I dont want to even sleep in the same bed with him. what am I supposed to do?? I already told him what I think and nothing changes |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 3, 2012 |
I've been in a long time marriage, well it seems long to me, about 5 years to be exact. I just got a divorce 3 months ago. I have 2 kids with this ungrateful Bitch and when the divorce was final, all she wanted was money, she didn't care about nothing else, not even the kids. So she now moved on with her life and about to be remarried, she's now trying to sue my for child support, but at the same time she wants nothing to do with the kids because her new brew doesn't care very much for children. I'm now in a big custody battle with her and trying to win full custody of my kids, by the way they both boys. It's really hard because a judge will be sensitive when it come to taking kids away from their mother, but little do they know she doesn't want them and only want them for money. Every since the divorce, my life has been pure hell and dominated by my Bitch ex wife. I would rather die than to let my boys be with her and her new boyfriend whom I know nothing about. If he doesn't care a lot for children, think what he will try to do to my kids because he wants more of her time. I'm going to win full custody of my boys and when I does, she and her bastard fag friend can burn in HELL. |
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| Posted by life stinks at May 2, 2012 |
Ok, so I just wanted to addmy shitty life story because I really have nothing better to do. I have 4 kids . They are great, yes but a pain in the ass, too. I am 28 years old and had my first at 16. I had another child who died 7 years ago as an infant. I have held many different jobs but am currently working making 8 fantastic bucks an hour cleaning up after people. I cant afford cable or actually anything. I am married to a guy who happens to just begun doing coke again and has these angry outbursts. Now if I left him I would be even broker as to he does not have to pay child support because he is onj ssi but he does have a cash job and makes good money. Wouldnt hold up in court cause there is no evidence and he would not pay anyway. I dont make enough to pay my rent let alone anything else. My car just broke down so 3 hours of bus travel for my 60 bucks a day before taxes. This shit sucks contiplating becoming a escort because thats the only way to have money if I am not with him as I am attractive and fit. Feel like the only way to get by is doing something dirty. I hate being poor. My kids dont have anything and they deserve alot. They somehow manages to be honor roll students who have great personalities so I must have done something right |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 2, 2012 |
My husband of 25 years dumped me in an email while I was working out of state trying to save our home from foreclosure because he stopped working 3 years ago. While I was working, he had an online affair and handed me divorce documents the minute I pulled in the driveway after a 3 day drive from across the county. All the money I had sent home to pay the mortgage was used to pay off his personal credit cards and debts. Then he refused to leave the house for two months because he was saving money to move to where his online affair lived, during this time my Dad passed away suddenly, which basically put me where you are now, then my daughters shitbag boyfriend gave her amphetimines and she overdosed and almost died. I came home tonight to them screaming at me and telling me to get out of an apartment that I pay the rent on, I did in fact lose my house and have to file for bankruptcy thanks to my 'nightmare from hell' ex. The only thing I have going for me right now is a steady job and the fact that I am still breathing. I pretty much hate the world right now and would just as soon be done with it, except for the nagging and delusional notion that it may somehow get better and if I just hang on a little longer I will get back to being myself again. Plus if I off myself that bastard will have taken everything from me, and I refuse to give him the satisfaction. |
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| Posted by anonymous at May 1, 2012 |
Life surely does suck. I transferred to another state with my employer. My wife promised to follow me and even started packing things up. House wouldn't sell, so she refuses to leave now. It has been 3 years now. I live 8 hours away from my home, my wife, my 2 kids.....one 12 and the other 15. When I left, they were 9 and 12. I have missed everything in their lives the last three years. 90% of of my pay goes back home. I work 50 hours a week and get 10% of the pay. I'm pretty sure the wife is happy because she gets to stay there, with the kids, with the money, with her part time shitty paying job, summers off, and her best friend which I now believe she loves more than me. She tells me I need to sacrifice for the good of the family. She has turned out to be the most selfish person I know, something she never was before. I love her so much. I am about to lose everything I cherish because she refuses to relocate. I won't divorce because I love her, and don't want the kids to suffer and our marriage was perfect until this happened. I cannot take it anymore, I cannot do it anymore. That's why my life sucks. Four years to retirement, but I can't do it anymore. |
| | Posted by heisenburgh at May 1, 2012 |
let me start by saying that my life has gone straight to fucking hell over the last 6 months. I lost my job of 16 years at a major telecommunications company. I could not believe it, BAM!!! OUTTA NOWHERE..... Then two months ago, my wife comes to me and says that my three children are my brothers and they have been having sex now for ten years. took the dna tests, i have no kids...Get it? shit!! Then I lose my house, car and the whore took control over my bank account. I drive a 91 camery now and live in a week to week motel. Did I mention that I work at a carwash now? And to top it all off, my colostomy bag exploded all over a lexus today, when i was trying to dry it, the owner hit me in the side with her coach purse. I got fired. EVERYONE LAUGHED. I WANT TO DIE!!! Please, please someone out there give me some relief. Im almost out of time, they only give you thirty minutes at the library to use the internet. |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 30, 2012 |
This will be a long read, so apologies and thanks in advance to those who read this.
I have never met anyone else with a life like mine, ever. Born to physically and emotionally abusive pill addict CA-razy mother (who attempted to kill me with her car once, and poisoned my food another time), I have nothing but bad memories from my childhood and adolescence. My father, although a good man in many ways, such as raising one of my brothers as his own -- a brother who was conceived while my mother had an affair -- was emotionally distant, and sometimes physically abusive. He died from cancer a few months before I graduated high school, which was a couple years after my parents divorced.
My mother had remarried after their divorce, and my stepfather was a sick bastard, an alcoholic. One day, when I'd interfered in my mother's abusive behavior toward one of my little brothers, she beat me with an electric frying pan and bit me (huge bites that bled profusely), then threw me out of the house. I went to live with a friend and her parents.
My stepfather lured me one night with the promise he wanted to help patch relationship between me and Mom, but he was lying. He held me prisoner in his car and raped me at knife point. I'd just turned 18. The police did not believe me despite evidence my stepfather had been drunk and had fake ID, as well as a knife in his glove compartment (after I escaped his car, telling him I needed to use the bathroom,... |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 30, 2012 |
Ever since I started balding at 18 women are afraid of me. They fidget awkwardly around me as they move to cover up their boobs with whatever is available (I never even look down there), and refuse to make eye contact with me unless absolutely required. I've always been socially awkward and never have had a girlfriend, but now I can see that any chance at that is OOOOver. I could at least land a date and talk for 5 minutes before being rejected while on that date, but now I can't even get a girl to look in my general direction. I'm stuck rail thin and bald like steve jobs because my body doesn't properly absorb nutrients. When you're bald and rail thin at my age, it becomes the centerpiece of conversation wherever you go. There's nothing more humiliating than having to laugh off people's jokes about some of the most depressing parts of your life. The cancer patient jokes are the worst.
I've lost my job and can't even muster up the courage to do the things I enjoy like I used to. I used to be able to muster up the courage to at least enjoy life living alone, but after 28 years of just suffering I can't do it anymore. I can't kill myself because that would wreck the people I love, and I can't live happy. I am stuck in an endless no mans land. What the hell am I here for? |
| | Posted by J R at April 29, 2012 |
okay so im 18 and a virgin, ive never had a girlfriend or anything witch is pathetic atleast in my opinion but whatever. ive got this girl im good friends with and she sends me ridiculous mixed signals, one day she will hang out with me until midnight just talking to me in my car about random ass shit (alot of times sexual making me think shes a slut) and openly talks about sex to me like oh i love giving blow jobs and swallowing yet sometimes when i put my hand on her lap or say something suggestive she seems awkward and uneasy. i just can't fucking tell if she wants more then friendship out of me and i don't want to try making a move as we have been friends for over a year. she also talks to me about another guy she is currently hanging out with at like 3am and it is just obvious she is fucking him yet she says she is more into fuckbuddys right now so i feel like she might want me. i dont even know if i could take being just a fuckbuddy for her anyway i kind of want more but am just soo confused. what should i do because i also dont want to fuck up our current friendship. |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 29, 2012 |
Ya know... Had this really story to tell about how my life sucks but it got to long so I'm just gonna tell the main ideas...
My father died when I was around 9. Supposedly of suicide. I was young, confused. Didn't even cry at the funeral... I loved my father with all my heart..... I'm not going to go into how he did drugs and drank alcohol. Fast forward. I was popular in elementary school. But in middle school I was the exact opposite. I was quite, shy, and I kept to myself. I was talked about but I survived. In 8th grade I fell in love for the first time. I told him everything and we talked and texted all the time. Unfortunately, he was dating my friend. And its funny and sad because everyone knew I was in love with him even her. Before the end of the year they broke up. However, me and him never got together. He moved. And when I started talking to him again he was different. Gee broke my heart. So I developed abandonment issues because him and my father. Didn't trust anyone. I thought I could trust my best friend but she had changed too. There was a guy I liked and I told my friend this. But I knew that when they meet they would start to date. They met once and dated for 9 or 10 days. Heartbroken. But I got over him when I found out how many girls he had dated and dumped. 10th grade year I stated to get close to him again. He was dating someone on and off. I fell in love with him because I realized how much we had in common. He talked me into dating him. First kiss... |
| | Posted by Sucker for love at April 27, 2012 |
I had my life all together until I met a woman and fell in love. I through away my education, talent and potential for what I thought was love. Several kids latter I found out that she use to be a "escort" and I am so far in debt and trapped with these kids (their mine..blood test confirmed), I cant leave. I hate my job and the woman I am married to. |
| | Posted by Imager at April 27, 2012 |
My ex wife is selfish. I was married for 20 years. She cheated on me 16 yrs into the marriage. I struggled to keep the family (2 kids) together. Did everything she ask, but was not exactly the way she wanted it done. I needed a car, cause her van transmission broke down. So, she cashed in her stock from work and brought a patio. My paycheck paid all the bills, Her paycheck was for savings and extra expense. She offered me, our house if I agreed to a divorce. After I said Yes, she wanted the house for her and the kids, to help keep stability in our kids life.
We got separated in October 2011. Got divorced in Dec 2011. I feel so alone. She never felt alone. She got married in April 20012. Now she is selling the house, so her new husband can feel comfortable living in a rural area 30 mins away.
I got screwed because I trusted her. |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 26, 2012 |
My life sucks. In perspective of everything else, it is a pretty good life, but I can't help but feel sad and depressed. You feel what you feel I guess. There's no stopping it. Any advice will help. Please be considerate.
So it goes like this. It's a relationship that never happened. I don't know if many people have this sort of problem, but I am heartbroken over something that was never there. We met at the beginning of my senior year, officially. I had always known him because he's star of the school (captain of soccer team, president of the student body, lead in the school play). He is certainly impressive, and I had always wanted to get to know him but never had the chance. It didn't use to bother me much. But suddenly, at the beginning of this year, I could tell he was impressed by my academics. And he wanted to get to know me better. Everyone loved him. But he wanted to talk to me! It was a fairytale. I've made a couple of moves to try to talk to him, and he reciprocated.
That's the problem.
When he tries to talk to me, I freeze and panic. I can't seem to think of anything. He would stand next to me and smile, but he never initiates the conversation. I wish he was more blunt, but that's not his personality. He would just stand there and watch me. He stares at me in the hallways until it gets awkward. The reason I don't talk to him is that I think he'll realize that I'm not as cool of a person as he THOUGHT I was. Then I'll ruin the fair... |
| | Posted by amy at April 25, 2012 |
i had a kid, became a single mom which was find but then i thought i met the love of my life who loves me and my son, got pregnant again and now we have a beautiful baby girl, but he's not happy, he yells all the time and never trys to improve our life, everything is my fault and im sad all the time, he is nice to the kids. I work sixty hours a week to cover our bills, i never see the kids and he complains because he works 4 hours a night on third shift...im sad, but i dont want to be the single mom of two kids from different dads, so i stick it out every day...i even think i may have met someone who will atleast compliment me once in awhile but i can never act on it...i have ruined my future and all i can hope to do is direct my children in the right direction |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 25, 2012 |
Im sitting on my sofa in the UK with tears in my eyes over the aching emptiness in my chest.
I have nothing new to add to the issues that most people are facing in their lives and I admit I am much better off than many others.
Im not looking for pity, Im hoping that someone out there will identify with me and maybe give me some advice on how to handle the overpowering emotional pain Im feeling on a daily basis.
Long story short.
Ive had emotional problems since I was a little girl. Four sisters a lovely mom and an alcholic father who drank us into poverty.
Saw a lot of physical fighting between my parents from the age of 4 to 16. Lived in fear of my dad killing my mother and in those days, late 60s, early 70s there was not really any kind of awareness or help for kids like me and my sisters.
Grew up, I was in the top stream at school but under achieved because it was impossible to revise properly in my house because of my dads the drinking.Again in those days you didnt talk about this kind of stuff.
Started self harming at 15 but eventually put it behind me. Married a lovely man I was with for almost 20 years but the marriage ended after he had an affair. His mother died from Motor Neurone disease and his dad was fighting cancer when he started the affair so I guess he was cracking up a bit too.
Had a new relationship for five years with a man who started off great then started hitting & shouting at me. Discovered he was mentally ill but i... |
| | Posted by girl at April 24, 2012 |
I was engaged to this guy whos in the army. we were supposed to get a house, id spent most of the stuff on the wedding already. But then he found out i cheated on him. Which i had been trying to keep secret because i knew it would break us up, and despite what most people think, i love the fuck out of that guy. So yeah. Ive lost just over a grand ive spent on the wedding. I have no more savings, ive lost all the money i spent on furniture for the house. I have no friends, in the relationship he forced me to hangout with all of his friends, so... now they hate me. ive recently started a job at his place of work, so EVERYONE thats their knows what ive done. Ive been rather depressed since it happened, and have lost libido, happiness and appetite, i have lost 3 stone since the breakup 4 months ago and am now under weight -.- low pay at my new job so im getting taunted for shillings. my dad has cancer, and my mum.... oh wait, yeah she has cancer too.
My life is SHIT. |
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