LIFE SUCKS : Job

Sigh

My life has been one big sucky pile for the past year. First I discover my 40 year old husband has been texting an 18 year old girl I used to babysit over 1000 times in one month. We have four children together. One weekend a couple months ago, he told me he was going camping with a guy friend of his. I discovered he REALLY got a romantic room at the beach. He claims he went alone. I'm not sure. A month after that, he started showing symptoms of colon cancer. I love him so much even though he's put me through hell. He's ok, by the way, just has ulcerative colitis.

Last week, while I had the flu and was vomiting every 30 min or so, my boss dropped by my house unannounced to tell me I'm laid off. This is after she promised me two months ago that I would be the last person to be laid off. She's keeping all the early 20-year old employees around even though they are not as qualified. She's about 35 and loves hanging out with her staff. She wants to relive her 20s through them. I told her off, probably burning bridges and making sure I won't be getting any verbal recommendations from her. I have several glowing letters of recommendation from her though.

A day after I lost my job, one of my teeth broke. The day BEFORE I was laid off, we got all the medical bills from the tests they ran on my husband. I've also been having some medical problems. We've been unable to pay off them all very quickly and just got a summons to court for one of them. Sigh...I just can't win. I'm trying to pay them all off, but when we didn't have great jobs to begin with and now I'm out of work and we have four children...well, it's just difficult. (We had all our children during much better times).

Anyway, will someone just shoot me please. I'm so done with life and wondering what I did to deserve a cheating husband, no money, and everything else that's going on. (Sorry, I'm feeling a little sorry for myself right now)

Completely lost

I know most people probably won't read this, but I need to get it out somewhere. I'm a 22 year old woman and am at my wit's end basically. Read through some of these stories and can say I do have it better than many people, but am experiencing emotional pain every day. I'm in a relationship that sucks and don't know how to get out of it - he is a total liar and can't keep his eyes or thoughts off of other women and humiliates me because of this. And then denies he ever looks for other women and guilt trips me, I'm the only one for him. BS. My job sucks, just filed taxes and was thinking I might get a good amount of money back from the peanuts I make because of tax deductions.. ended up owing 300. I have no friends anymore.. never had many. No one to turn to but family and my lying ass fake bf that I can't seem to get away from. Life is looking pretty bleak right now.

I feel like I really try only to be rewarded with crap in life. It's always been that way and I wish I could start things over.. go about things a completely different way.

I know things could be worse but I feel so stuck in trying to make them better. I don't know what direction to walk in, what schooling or career to try for (already tried a career counselor), who to trust romantically, who might make a decent friend. I pray and that's my only hope right now, that God will help lead me.

Venting

I am feeling down about many issues and looked for some place mostly to vent when I found this site. I am 56, smart enough to earn two degrees, but dumb enough not to choose a practical skill. My BA in journalism might have been usable if I'd pursued it, but my MFA is in English. Short of teaching, I'm qualified for almost nothing. My giving a resume may seem showy, but I started this way because a huge part of my depression comes from being middle aged and able to have accomplished so much, but succeeding at nothing.

I married later in life in my 40s. I truly love my wife, but I blame her for a lot too, though I never talk about it to her. She loves kids and babysits four days a week for next to nothing. That leaves it up to me to earn enough to support us. In this economy that is almost impossible on one income. I've worked two jobs for five years. My part time job just laid me off, and it is difficult to find another part time job that can fill the needed hours and keep my full time job happy. My wife has been diagnosed with divertiulosis. It took me until five years ago to find a job offering health benefits, but the insurance covers one CT scan a year. We're going hand-over-fist into medical debt.

I write (the MFA thing above), but I lack the ambition and knowledge to market my writing, so it is little more than a hobby. Then, it's hard to get the gumption to write when I know that I need to turn my actions into money. I do almost not...

Ok, I'll give it a shot ...

I'm not happy and I don't even know why. I've had a professional job in my industry since I was 19 yrs old. From 16-19, I had crappy food/retail jobs, but what teenager didn't? I had a full ride to college and got a double major computer science / mathematics degree. At 22, I moved to Vegas and got a job as a software engineer after 1 day of looking (luck?), and still work for the same place 9 yrs later. During that time, I worked my way up in the company to the point that I am now the GM of the entire business. I earned a finance MBA in the evenings and graduated with a perfect 4.0. I make 68k a year, and my living expenses are $1100-$1300/mth, so I save about 3 grand a month. At 32, I have 120k in cash savings in the bank. I own my z71 silverado truck. I've had several long term relationships with smart, beautiful women. I have at least 5 very close male friends I can talk to at any time, and a handful of girls I can call up to hangout with, go out with, or sleep with any time I want.

So why the f* am I unhappy? Most people would say I have the life. I honestly have no idea. I think I have a case of the Joneses and dwell on what I don't have:

- I don't own a house. To save money, I rent the master bedroom of a nice home out. I pay $450/mth for a very nice 400 sq ft room which includes utilities, high speed internet, and cable. The owner of the home is awesome, very mature and responsible, and doesn't give me an ounce of grief in any ...

Joke's on me

55yr old male. worked same job since 1988, which was apt management/maintenance for the same apts. several different owners over the years. 2007 a neighboring church buys the place for the land. keeping it open til it pays itself off then they will demolish and expand the church (supposedly). they asked me to stay on and run the place for them, I agreed. 1 week before closing they call me and tell me to come meet the new mgmnt team. the lady is the church pastors cousin, her husband is a church board member and was their finance director. I now have to interview just to stay on as a maintenance guy. I get hired, it sucks. they are nutty and really have no clue what they are doing. they immediately start trying to recruit me to their church. he tells me I am stealing from god because I am not giving them 10% of my salary back in tithes.

a year later, he builds a new shop in one of the buildings. I am told to put my tools there, not where I have had them the past 19 years. he doesn't believe in deadbolts. you guessed it, the place is broken into and every one of my tools is gone. welder, compressors, nail guns, saws etc. high dollar shit. they say, oh well, too bad. I say turn it in to insurance, they say no, deductible is higher than your loss, sorry. a year later, the church hires a new GM for the properties. guess who gets fired, me. No tools to work with, age, finding it very difficult to find a damn job. unemployment ran out in may, have child support to pay ...

Sometimes, its just better to vent instead of holding it all in.. so here i go.
where to begin.. okay, so for the past few years my parents have been on my case for every little thing. i'm a 20 year old female. currently, i have 2 jobs and im enlisting in the air force. today at work, my boss.. who is a complete dick (every employee thinks he has a permanent stick up his ass).. sent me home today because i had to use the bathroom. & to top everything all of, my dad yelled at me today for it. he said "well you must have done something wrong". NO I DIDNT DO SHIT. what pisses me off even more is that no matter what i do i can never seem to please my parents. i'm paying my own car insurance and enlisting in the service.. within the next 6 months i'll be gone. i dont necessarily hate my life, but i hate the position im in now. i can't wait to leave, its like im always wrong no matter what. my parents never seem to side with me. throughout my entire life, i've always been the wrong one in any situation. my relationship with my parents is extremely shitty. i need to leave soon, because if i dont, i know that i when i do leave, i wont have any contact with them.i just want to get as far away as possible. my parents wonder why i cry a lot.. i think its because throughout my entire life, my parents have never supported me.. with anything i wanted to do. every time they yell at me it sucks, it just gets worse and worse, you think id be used to it by now..

hopeless

I'm twenty one years old and after a long relationship, my girlfriend dumped me this Christmas. Worst came to worst as I lost my financial support from my parents, since my dad lost his job... I was studying in a good university until my grades went to shits and I dropped out. I'm afraid to tell my parents since my dad tells me that his only hope is that I graduate from university. I'm currently trying to find a good job and currently I am working as a dishwasher in a restaurant to pay off my university debt. In addition to that I have other bills to pay which I cannot afford with one job. I don't have any real friends and anything that I try just fails miserably. I'm really good with programming and creating websites but no one even considers hiring me because I don't have a bachelor's degree. I keep giving myself hope but I'm starting to give up in life. It makes me to question why was I even born? was my sole purpose in life just to bring misery and debt to my parents and be ignored by society? Don't know what to do... Just wish I could turn back time and start over

stuck

I'm usually a relentless optimist.. But right now I can say life sucks. I've seen my share of hardships and have over come them.. managed to get over it and move on. The last 5 years have felt like I'm falling slowly only catching hitches on the way down.. which only slow the decent. It all started when i lost my first job.. I had to move to a new city and live with my mom. Away from all my friends and familiarities.

Since moving I've had 2 other jobs that have both failed me (and utterly used me). I'm practically unemployed now making only small amounts of income from odd jobs and still living with my mom. I feel so useless and of little worth. I've been trying my way at my dream in graphic design for a long time with much failure and rejection. People have used me a lot to get what they wanted from me without much or any return.

I started working on a project a little over a year ago.. progress is slow but promising. There is just so much uncertainty it's scary I don't want life to always be like this. I'm so unhappy even when I have a "job". Retail is the most miserable way of life I can't handle it. I just want things to change and I'm stuck in perpetuity and it's making me crazy.

I lack freedom. I have a lot of spare time but it can't be appreciated because I'm constantly reminded that I'm a living burden to my mother. She does not harass me but I know how she feels because i feel it too. And that drives me insane. I want independence achieved through the means that make me happy meaning doing what i love.. I hope these things happen for me until then i will remain discontent. I don't know how to feel any other way it's overwhelming. I'm stuck.

Things aren't getting better.

I loved my last job, but unfortunately my coworkers treated me like shit. I was a line cook for a fancy restaurant in town. I cleaned, prepped, organized, took stock and inventory, made and plate salads, appetizers, amuse bouche, and desserts. Then my boss hired two other men to work with me. I'm an 18 year old woman working in a professional kitchen. The only girl back there. I interned there for three months, unpaid, making ravioli and cleaning up after other people and just being their bitch, and when they asked me to work for them, I was thrilled! I was put on the salad station. Then my boss hired another guy to work with me. He was alright, didn't give me too much trouble. But then he started getting better treatment than me. Better pay, more learning opportunities, he was put on the grill station two weeks into his time there, and I had been working there for four months. Then they hired another guy. What a tosser. He would sharpen his knives over the food, leave his knife handles hanging off the edge of the counter, stupid, careless things like that. One day he was about to send out a salad and I told him he needed to clean his edges because they were a mess. And his response was to bow to me and say "Yes, your majesty". That just pissed me off and I still had several more hours until we closed. My boss didn't seem to care, and even started to treat me with even less respect. I was always the last person to find out anything, even if it involved me or my station. ...

Feel like a looser

I used to think that I would have things and be somebody and that I would get respect from people because I give them respect. I have spent most of my life being put down and laughed at and why all of this I don't know. I do know that I have ADHD and that I have a very hard time with focusing on anything for long. I get frustrated with things cause I lose interest in them. I became a carpenter and a plumber cause I did not know what else to do. I guess that I just fell into it and never left. I have allot of great ideas, but do not know where or how to start to get them off of the ground. I have a high IQ but still cannot seem to stop my brain long enough to figure out the common sense things like where to start to get a business going. Even hear I am just rambling. I am 48 and my whole life people have put me down so that they can feel better. tell me that I am stupid and tell me that the ideas that I come up with are dumb and will not work. I have not held as job for more than a year in my whole life. I can do better than this I have some very good ideas, but I need help getting them off of the ground. Man people always have nothing but negative things to say when I tell them about my ideas. It is as if they think that if my idea works then they will look bad or something....who knows. I am now about to be homeless with no money and no car no job and when I asked my mother for a little help she said that I should go to a homeless shelter and eat at a soup kitchen. Now mind you that I have asked my mother for very little help and that she has plenty of money. I do not know what to do from hear I feel very very lost and indeed.

Life is fucking pointless

So here I am, with my own place, a car, a job, a boyfriend. And I'm still not happy. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. It probably doesn't help I owe $33,000 in loans, I hate my fucking job because my sales manager is a fucking douchebag, and I hate my boyfriend half the time because he's an asshole. I feel so alone most of the time, I've only had like 1 best friend throughout my life, and and no other real close friends. I have some acquintances and friends now, but I don't feel that close to any of them. I was diagnosed with some stupid ass Asperger's Syndrome. But my brain is probably messed up because some inflammatory disease I know I have passed down from my mom's side of the family. The "disease" (not yet diagnosed...) has caused me to be underweight my entire life, people always commenting on how skinny I am, which pissed me off. Leave me and my shitty weight fucking alone, You're fucking fat, you see me telling you how fat you are? Um NO!!!! So shut the fuck up! My name means Joy, but I feel like I just have so much hate for everything, because people have made me like that. My dad also died when I was 7. I've never lived in the same place for more than 3 years. I had to live growing up in a nasty messy ass household because my parents were too fucking lazy to clean anything. My mom was always getting drunk and being stupid. Well now after I have everything that anyone needs to live comfortably, I feel like I've hit the ceiling and can't go up anymore. I feel like there's no point in moving forward anymore, you'd think that means I'm satisfied with my life where it is, but I think it means I'm depressed and don't care about anything anymore. I just wanna go out and fucking party.......

My life is an exercise in futility

I have spent the last 3 years working 60-90 hrs a week trying to become a chef in grueling, stressful environments with horrible people and mostly horrible food. 6 months ago I finally landed a job in fine dining, but I moved up quickly under odd circumstances, and even though I tried really hard and volunteered every time they needed someone to work a 6th 11-13 hr day, i failed because I just wasn't fast enough to cut the cake. I got into a car accident last week, and since I blew slightly over the limit, it was labeled a DUI. I also got slammed with possession of marijuana and paraphernalia. Even though I'm the 6th person from work this year to have gotten one, I got laid off for it and had to move back in with my family. The house is tiny, so I have to live on a couch in our unheated storage room. My brother and sister both hate me and say the most hurtful things they can think of on a daily basis. I went job hunting, but my face is a mess from my car wreck so no one even looks at my resume before telling me they aren't hiring. It's going to heal, but it's humiliating in the meantime. I just went through a horribly drawn out, tragic, messy break up with the guy I've liked and been best friends with for 7 hrs and dated for 3 because we didn't want the same things in life, and the guy I like now lives a thousand miles away and is only interested in friendship with me. My personality sucks I think, but no matter how much I try to fix it, I can only conclude that it is...

life sucks

I have you all beat ! , I live in Roswell , New Mexico , try living here , a crap little town in the middle of nowhere , literally 250 miles in the middle of nowhere , no job , was fired for having a heart attack , the state won't pay unemployment , I have no ins to help pay for the meds that keep me from having yet another heart attack , I have 1 ill son , and 1 son with a pissy attitude ( he is smarter than everyone else , my wife can't work due to illness , we are broke , and the IQ here is quite low , in fact the family tres of most here have no branches , you know the type , Uncle-Daddy , Once you are here , you will be lucky to get a min. wage job , but like Hotel California , " You can check out , but you can never leave "

I actually pray for my own death , or the end of the world , so this crap will be over.

Kicked while down, again and again...

My dad died in August. I spent the prior year caring for him and put my life on hold. Haven't dated in over a year and missed some work on Family Medical Leave, but was finally getting my life back together. My manager talked me into going back to school with work tuition reimbursement. The day after my Family Medical Leave ended, I met with my manager to discuss my new role (and hopefully raise). And I got laided off! WTF. My manager took a different role in the company that eliminated my job. Did I mention I was a temp for 3 years waiting to get this job? Now I'm signed up at an expensive school, that I'll have to figure out how to pay for and I'm unemployed. GRRR... Plus, I broke my tooth on Xmas day and have a huge dental bill now. Everything is sucking.... there is more suckage than this, I just don't have the energy to vent anymore

die slow or fast??

well guess what my life sucks. i have no frieds no car no money and soon no home i was bad at school but wen senor year ended i got a job changing oil. one day i put a pig of a truck on a lift the tools started sliding till all the weight was at the back of the car and it fell off the lift sigh. i dont have that job any more. wen i turnd 20 i went on a mission my family paid for half of it but i only lasted seven months i coudnt stand it so i came home my mom now hates me thinks ive ruind my life but shes mostly responsible for that well part any way. managed to get another job working for some plumers they worked the sit out of me in the middle of december in below frezzing wether but i was more bothered by my bosses heated temper .after three days i had blisters and so sore i couldnt lift a think i told my boss he just said i was full of shit and said young people dont wont to work these days.i wasnt physicaly unable to do it so i quite. now my mom has told me to move out again (man im sick of hearing it) and this time theres no fooling. i have no where to go all be 21 in FEB 2012 i plan on buying a gun and blowing my usless brain cells all over my short week body. i always struggeld in school but i wish i would of tried a bit harder but God doesnt give re-do's

im stuck

so.. i got suspended from my work as a cashier after being short three times with a total of a thousand dollars. I can honestly tell to God that I really had no idea where that money went. A week later after I got suspended, police arrested me because the company I am working for filed a felony theft case against me. That is probably the worst nightmare in my life. Until now, I cant believe that I would go through that in my life. Now, I am unemployed. I feel so helpless because I cannot help out my family with our financial needs. This file charged against me and the arrested record will stay on my name until I prove to the court that I am innocent. I pity myself. Most importantly, I am supposed to be in the nursing program starting in 3 weeks and we have to submit and prove that we have a clean criminal background check. Ive been so worried that after all my hard work just to get in to the program, I will end up getting kick out because they will see my arrest record. Finishing nursing school is my very first priority in life and my family's dream. Now that I am not sure if I will be able to go to the nursing program, I feel like my life is just stuck. I dont know what Im supposed to do right now. Im so disappointed, mad, sad, and terrified what is the future waiting for me. What if they won't believe that I am innocent, what if I go in jail again? My dream will all fall apart. My family's hope will be crushed. You see I was supposed to be the first person in the family that will graduate in college. I got scholarships and government grants that pays for my tuition fees and school expenses. I work so hard but everything will go to nothing just because I was accused of something I DID NOT DO. I keep praying to GOD that I hope they'll find out the truth. I wish they will find where the money really went. But its been a month, and my court date is getting closer. They haven't drop the charge still. I don't know what to do. My life sucks.

It never gets better,

I'm 25, still in university. I have to pay my way (don't want student loans) and so work and go to school. As a result, I can only take the minimum necessary to keep the balance on the loans from my first time around at university in interest free status. My depression and anxiety has been spiralling slowly out of control since I was 21 or so. I started quitting jobs because I was afraid I'd kill myself if I didn't.

But I've found a job in my career that I love, I've had it for a year and a few months, (previously the longest I'd had was 5 months). But my boss is a drug addict (he says he's clean as of now (as opposed to six months ago when he was NOT) but I don't believe him anymore), he marauds around fucking with the business I'm running for him. I can't run it very well because he won't let me.As a result I'm constantly on the hook with people about his behaviour and if they aren't getting irritated at me, I'm failing them. I'm FAILING THEM and I don't have to.

But the prospect of another job is out of the question. Nothing I'm qualified to do is going to pay me enough, or give me an environment that isn't toxic to me. Provided I can even find another job if I let this one go. My tuition rides on this job.

I get good grades, but I don't feel like I deserve them, I barely do the work in school compared to some of my classmates, I'm just smart and manage to understand the material. I was surprised and a little horrified to walk out of this se...

Big Storm Small Boat

I don't get it. Next year will be the 5th year I've to deal with this crap. I'm over loaded again. I've been given 20% more basic load than others/average. And the time needed to deal with the added load means I've less resources to deal with it.
Oh, and why do I say it's the basic load? Cos there are other loads... to justify my rank in the company. And so the storm gets bigger.
I've been battling with depression last year 2011. Perhaps I should get it officially diagnosed. That should make the bosses sit up and take note: I'm overloaded.
Trying to hang in there. I have for the first time voiced my displeasure at this crappy arrangement. My immediate boss may take some of my load off my shoulders... I'm reminding myself not to feel bad about it. My family is at stake here. My mental health is at stake here....

I was born to die

Ever since I was a baby. I remember my mother telling me that my life would be hard for me. I would have to work %200 to get %100. & others will only work %50 & get %200. I see what she means. I am sorta intelligent. Well I have built websites, Filmed stars, Promoted . & I'm still broke. I mean $0 in my bank account. I work hard & smart - I have over 20 talents. Only dancing has paid off. After being hit by a car that dream was dead .
Maybe I have a curse on me. Ever toy, Digital devise, & friend Gone. I brought a rc car it broke the first day. So I brought another one the next day. & It broke in 20 min... When I was about 10 I got rc car. That broke the first day.
What a Christmas. My uncle said our cars was on the same channel. Whatever.. I noticed what my mother said was true.
I will grow up to be nothing.
I had a job one time in a factory 10 miles away from my home. I was fired the 2nd week for being 30 minutes early. Not by my supervisor but by the main boss.
New factory New job had it for almost 1 year. I quit, I noticed only 1 kind of people get raises & promotion.
I seen it happen - 1 month work next month pay raise. But not me. Just remembered I been going to Supreme Cort for robbery for the past year. fyi I'm gonna sue. I didint do it They Have No Evidence. Why was I arrested. Mistaken identity. I heard that one enough times.
I want to believe I am jinxed Vodo or something. I pray but it things just get worst. I might do something crazy soon!!!

Is this as good as it gets?

I worked hard to get what I have, a single mom, I worked my butt off to finally move up in the corporate world, buy a house, take our first family vacation. To get cancer and have everything thrown away. Now I may lose my home, and no one to help, no person,county or organization. I have two part time jobs that suck, and it doesn't pay the bills, and I'm a student. My brother got leukemia and I was his caregiver until he died watching as his wife didn't visit him in the hospital and started seeing someone else. Then my dog died, and I thought how can I keep the Christmas spirit? So I tried and went to my moms, where all of us siblings gather. The topic of my brothers widow came up from my other brother.( who is friends with her) and I said sarcastically she is a hoe. He got mad and defended her, a woman who won't let anyone see my brothers kids. He called me a bitch in front of my grandson. I finally decided I'm not pretending anymore. I lost it , started crying and told him all I wanted was for Him to be a brother, since I had already lost one. Even though years ago this brother told me that he didn't love me or my sister or care about us. I still tried. My mom, step dad, sister and brother just sat and stared at me not saying a word. I sat and cried, not one I'm sorry, or hug, anything. My family has always been dysfunctional, we are supposed to pretend everything is fine and don't make anyone Mad. so by expressing my feelings, I have defied the family ...