|Posted by anonymous at April 29, 2012|
my life is static.i have been looking for a very decent job,nothing big or well paying,but i havnt been able to.besides,my personal expenses are going up,its natural i guess bcoz day by day prices are changing.the place i have been working never give raises.i am an international student in the US,when i came here i thought at least i would get an on campus job to pay my bills.my parents pay tuition and i pay my bills,but the jobs on campus just sucks.they pay so little and most relaxed,better ,and career oriented jobs are not given to internationals even we are qualified enough or not.i am 27 yrs of age,female.its a shame in my culture to ask for money from parents at this age,considering they are paying my tuition already.i am trapped in a big problem.i cant ask my parents for any more money,its an ego problem,but then there is no way i can earn more money other than robbing,stealing,or doing stripping or nudity for money.my life sucks.i dont know how to get rid of this foreign education which made me poor and restricted my opportunity to work and be independent........
|Posted by Justin at April 27, 2012|
Well all my life have been abused physically and mentally by my dad, although i do love my mother she just backs him up most of the time because i believe she is afraid of his abuse. So the abuse pretty much marked my childhood and teenage years. Made me really withdrawn and just a loner pretty much. the relationships i've had with women have all ended with me being cheated on. I hate my family minus my mother, she's about the only one i can talk to. The childhood and teenage years of abuse pretty much caused me to turn to drugs and alcohol, got a dui and some other drug charges that will stick with me for life. I told myself things cant get worst and quit the drugs and alcohol which was very hard with the situation i was in. Then at the beginning of this year my dickweed brother got in a fight with me and broke my wrist, also had 250 cash stolen from my wallet at the hospital which was nver recovered. So i told myself it doesn't get any worst than this, but on the way home i ended up hitting a deer minor damage to the car but about 1000 dollars to fix it. Then few weeks later on the way to work got ran off the road by another car and ended up rolling my own car, yet i got ticketed for not maintaining lane control(fucking piglet) totaled the car, insurance covered most but it went to the bank for the loan i had on it. Got a rental car for 30 days from the insurance. Didn't have it a week and and another car hit and run, so i didn't want to make another insurance claim so im going to pay for the damages myself because there minor and my insurance deductible is 500 dollars so for another five hundred the damn thing could be fixed. So yea right now stuck without a car and im hoping and praying things don't get worst but as they say history does repeat itself. Well thanks for listening.
|Posted by Bridget at April 24, 2012|
I'm 25 and feel like I've wasted the best years of my life. I was happy, popular and successful in undergrad college and then went on to graduate school. I became severely depressed and struggled through school just barely making it day to day. My classmates and teachers would worry about my risk of suicide. I struggled through a very difficult program and did graduate. However I have over $125,000 in student loans (really). The best job I could find (and my school is one of the best in the country) and I make about $60,000. The debt stresses me so much.
I have a loving, pretty much supportive boyfriend who has been with me through this all. We have had our ups and downs, but overall he is great.
Since moving to a new town after graduation, its been about 1 year and I am so unhappy with my life. I haven't made friends, I just am not living the life I want. I feel like my youth is rushing by me. I am getting older, not living the experiences I wanted. Just waiting every day for my life to begin....
|Posted by life sux at April 24, 2012|
I moved to Australia last year to be with my long time boyfriend. Well the opening line should tell you how stupid I actually am. I left my very close family, all my friends and my FANTASTIC job...not to mention, my car. Now I am stuck in a country I HATE, yes HATE...Australia is full of BOGANS (White trash country racist hicks, with no teeth, bad hygene etc). There is actually nothing appealing about this place at all. I can't find a job in the industry I want to be in although I probably have much more experience so I'm working as a receptionist... I kid you not. Now i am all about life experience's and starting at the bottom but this place really gets me down. I came from a very wealthy family and I've never been a snob until now.
I hate being broke,I hate public transport, I hate the places I work and having little 19 year old girls who can't spell as my superiors. I am a perfectionist and always give my best even if it is just answering the phone and being nice to someone. I have always been positive, I can see the bright side in everything infact I've described myself as the opposite of a "manic depressive" because I used to be happy 90% of the time. I am so so so sick of being broke I haven't had any disposable income in about 10 months. I'm sick of eating badly or barely at all because I can't even afford fruit.
The man I moved here for is sick of me. We fight and argue constantly I'm not too sure if he even likes me anymore let alone loves me. I don't have a support system. I speak to my family less and less because I don't want them to know how unhappy I am. I want to go home, but I cant. I'm in so much debt at home because of coming to this stupid place.
I just needed to vent. Thanks for being a place I could do this.
|Posted by Cursed at April 23, 2012|
Growing up for me had its ups and downs. You were never bored as there was always work to be done living on a farm. I’m the oldest of four, but now there is only three. My youngest sister died at the tender age of nine months- Sudden Infant Death Syndrome or SIDS. It was the day after Christmas when my mom found Sophie dead in her crib. The scene still imprinted in my brain- my mom wailing hysterically on the floor over her little body- everyone, the paramedics, police, all standing around unsure of what to do…. My dad cornered me in the bathroom, his eyes bloodshot: “We have to be strong and get through this”. It took YEARS for my mother to return to a “normal” state of mind. Sophie’s death almost tore the family apart. When I turned 18, I rebelled, moved in with my Uncle so I could grow weed and hang out with my friends without a curfew. There were strings attached. I was lying on the front lawn sunbathing when the first episodes started. First there would be a “massage” then eventually at night came the blow job demands. I moved out soon after, living from boyfriend to boyfriend until I graduated from highschool. After graduation, I moved out West, worked for a ski area and can honestly say that it was the happiest time of my life… The molestations were tucked far away in the back of the closet… Eventually though, I moved back to my hometown. I rarely saw my Uncle, it was always awkward. He was my father’s brother for god’s sake- I couldn’t say anything, or else my fa...
|Posted by Cindy at April 21, 2012|
My mother used to say, "I'm tired of living." I never fully understood what she meant, but now I believe she meant "I'm tired of living THIS WAY." I'm not living, I'm merely existing. I am now in my second year of looking for a job since graduating from college. Work has always been a drudgery for me, I have never had a fulfilling job. Now my husband is probably going to lose his job, and it puts even more pressure on me. It's taking a toll on our marriage, which I'm shocked is still together. I've become more and more withdrawn, which doesn't help my situation either. The insurance company stopped paying for my therapy, so I don't even have that outlet. I don't like the way life is now. So many processes are impersonal and unfair. People just don't care. There are times when I wish I would die, just so I don't have to contend with it any longer. I have never been suicidal and would never put anyone else at risk either. I feel like an alien. I don't like the world the way it is now and I don't feel I belong in it. But what other choice do I have? Now I understand why mom said, "I'm tired of living."
|Posted by Scarlett at April 19, 2012|
I met the boy of my dreams the day someone else moved into my apartment. I loved that person, but we were completely wrong for each other. I helped him come out as bi and trans, and we tried an open relationship, but he broke the terms we set repeatedly and didn't care if it hurt me. I lost a lot of friends for dating a boy instead of a girl and because friends didn't like him, so I wanted to try to make it work, and tried for nearly 2 years. I'm stubborn like that.
I broke up with him and got together with the aforementioned boy of my dreams, only we slept together while I was with the other person.
If my self esteem didn't hurt enough from being cheated on, around the same time I exhausted 99 weeks of unemployment. I spent 2 months with no income. I sold some things I loved and had sex with some people to make rent. No one knows about the sex part. It is the scariest thing I've ever experienced. I still have nightmares about being evicted from my apartment, my cats dying of starvation, etc. It was made worse because when I went to interviews and then later to a job where they treated me like a retard who should be grateful to get paid $75/week and told me they would give me more than eight hours a week only if I was able to singlehandedly make up for all their poor business choices. When they fired me, I tried to kill myself.
I have debts I can't pay. They call me on average of 3 times a day. I finally got not only one job but three brie...
|Posted by Ugh123 at April 19, 2012|
Every day I wake up feels like another day of punishment. It has felt this way for lately and for a while - whether I thought of it that way or not. Where do I even begin...
Ok so, before the economy totally tanked I was very successful in my career. I was starting to pay off my student loans and any debt that I had from working 2 crappy jobs and putting myself through school full time. I had respect, my own office, and loved what I was doing. Then it got messed up (long story). I lost my studio office, most of my business, got into debt trying to save it, got stressed out, gained like 50-60lbs from being stressed out, etc etc.
Then I had to start doing physical labor - painting murals and rich peoples homes to make money - making a lot less than i was used to and pulling 12 hour days breathing in toxic paint etc. I was always dirty, felt unattractive and generally felt tired like I was dying every day. Eventually I burned myself out completely and hurt my back.
I was unable to work from Nov.2011 to now April 2012. I have run through any savings I had. I had to get on welfare, food stamps and other degrading programs. I got even fatter. I was a very proud person and now I feel like a slug. I am also filing for bankruptcy. I have about $300 to my name and then rent is due again soon... I wont have enough.
My back is sort of better. I quit smoking and I lost 30 lbs so far with a lot more weight left to lose. I need to be on antidepressan...
|Posted by LifeCanSuck at April 19, 2012|
Last year, I developed sudden onset binocular diplopia (double vision). Got an MRI and saw a big white mass behind my right eye. For a few days, I thought I had a brain tumor and would die in a few months. Turns out it was nothing, and my vision returned to normal on its own. Fast forward to today, I risked all my money on a business and so far it's not working out. Don't know how much longer I can hang on before creditors start banging down my door. I'm on the brink of losing everything, 150k in debt and nothing to show for it. Here's the thing - I wouldn't be in this situation if I had had a brain tumor. Now I wish that I did have a tumor. At least then I could have died with dignity. I would have taken than few thousand dollars I had and traveled with my family. Now I'm totally fucked. If my business doesn't improve I will have to declare bankrupcy. That wouldn't be so bad, but I don't even have money to pay for gas, utilities, etc., and no job prospects either.
|Posted by grey at April 16, 2012|
Im 23 years old and working a dead end security job,living pay check to pay check.My parents everyday tells me how ashamed their feel when somebody ask about me.I was never smart or had any good grades, dont matter how hard I study Ill fail.My mom tells how all her friend family member kids are so bright,smart, going to school,help pay the bills,and having nice materialistic things.Im in serious debt and cant get a bank account because of this.All my so call friends have all the money in the world, makes fun of me because of my 91 Honda with no AC in it .Everybody I know living life to fullest or the fast life.They party and have fun while my broke ass stay home feeling despress.I ignore my ex gf or any females because I feel dont deserve her or them.Im to broke or stupid to change anything.I feel like to clock is against me.It dont matter what I do I still fail at it,It could be something illegal and still no money coming in.I been kind and nice and dont get it and return.I dodge girls im to broke to afford dates and to embarrass to drive my car.I cant keep a long term of relationship becsusr of my failures or what she might think of me not doing noghting for my self.I wanna accomplish goals and my dream I feel like im curse and have bad luck,cause what ever I do I always hit an road block.Im gonna say goodbye to all my so call friends and family members who dont really give a fuck about me.Im gonna say good bye to their happy fun lifestyles which I cant live.Im gonna say good bye to my parent out rages expections,and to my love life that I also never experience.Because im give up.
|Posted by OnlyGoingDown at April 16, 2012|
I know they say you don't really know what tomorrow might bring, but what if you can analyze the variables relatively reasonably? What if computers everywhere do that for you regardless of "what tomorrow might bring." I'm getting older and I've never had a truly good job. I had a decent job at one point that offered a lot of freedom, but didn't even pay me enough to afford my own apartment. 't one point, I was in grad school for a really great career, but something horrible happened to me that ended my career path. Now all the training that I have in that field is of no use because nothing matters unless one is licensed in doing those actual things. The skills really don't apply elsewhere. But when I was pursuing the career, I ran myself into massive debt because I knew I could pay it off in time when I finally started my career. Now, it's like I've not only run up debt, but wasted countless years in school as well on skills that nobody really wants. My credit rating is shot and I've officially tapped out of money. I'm way overeducated but can't get a job doing virtually anything other than waiting tables. I apply to jobs all the time that seem like they should be begging people to fill them because they're so bad, only to find out 300 people are being considered for the same job with lower expectations; a humiliating thought considering the often horrid working conditions and barely subsistence wages. And, literally, I can see no way this will ever change in ...
|Posted by Daniel at April 16, 2012|
Hello, my name is Daniel and my life is a big fat pile of crap. I find myself living paycheck to paycheck with so many bills to pay and three different sources of low-income. I get a very small paycheck from two of my really part-time jobs every other week, and I get a decent check from the government to save my ass from being eaten alive. It's really frustrating trying to manage three different incomes and the only reason I get the last check is because I broke my neck 5 months ago.
Which brings me to the next topic--I broke (yes, BROKE) my neck december of 2011 and life has been hard since. I am lucky to be alive and not paralyzed; however, sometimes I just wish I was lucky enough to not break it in the first place. Why? because I'm not nearly as fit as I was before, my dreams of being a professional performing artist have gone down the drain, everybody forgot about me and moved on while I was out of commission and recovering alone at my house for 3 months, and people look at my surgical scars like I'm a freak or they treat me like I'm fragile.
Speaking of scars.. I have been breaking out a lot in the past year and almost every pimple that I got left a scar. Can you imagine how many I have on my face now? Most of them are jawline and cheek acne, but lately I've been breaking out on my forehead as well. Not fun. I've been taking this problem very seriously for the past 3 months and made some progress, but now it is time for me to rid my face of these h...
|Posted by bigman at April 14, 2012|
got fired from a shit job only paid 10 an hour i am 28 years old live at home no car no money never been in a relationship have no job skills or any real education mostly everyone i meet have only negative things to say about me don't have any close friends never have any luck always get the shit end of everthing only growing older watching the rest of the world live a happy life while i sit back as i suffer a slow death have been in and out of jail no one will hire me if i had one wish it would be for the ground to open up and the world to fall in it
|Posted by anonymous at April 12, 2012|
Both my husband and I are unemployed. Both looking for work,he has a terminal illness and we have no insurance. No money to pay the bills, went to social services for the 1st time, they said sell the house, we don't even own it yet. Will be out on the street soon.Bills keep coming, and no money.
He was let go after 21 yrs., and his employer gave him NO Severance pay. Said they only have 14 million in the bank, and cannot afford to give him and the other person a severance package.
Both have education and skills. I have applied at so many jobs, told overqualified or underqualified.
I feel so defeated. I just want to give up. Friends say it will be ok, yhea, for them, they have jobs, bank accounts, insurnace all the things we used to have.
The reason we have no money is because he had to pay for his 2 kids from a previous marriage, and we were not able to save as much as we wanted to.
I hate everything right now.
A friend of mine on fb had the nerve to complain about her high paying job, and she has a high school diploma! Then she says her worst problem is deciding to cancel Netflix or not.....WTH???
Glad I found this site. Thank you for lettimg me type, regardless if it gets on the site or not.
|Posted by anonymous at April 12, 2012|
That black dog is back again. I can feel its presence and sense its low growls filling my head, and all because I allow it. I let it come close because I know that it is part of me. That mutt has been with me since early high school.
I am 40 now and still on a low income job. Wife pestering me to get more money, my kids are relying on me to get them good education and support and every day i find it hard to support myself in this struggle.
The thought of eternal rest is always lingering and knowing that option is always there is somewhat comforting.
I am miserable and stuck in this place where I cannot just vanish and hurt those i love deeply.
|Posted by eeyore at April 11, 2012|
I am usually optimistic. I do a lot to help others - donations, volunteer etc. I feel like, oh I don't know...I just feel horrible. My daughter was born with dyspraxia - not too bad of an issue..but difficult at times none the less. Now my husband has brain cancer. We have insurance but of course it doesn't cover everything. Due to the high bills we have lost our restaurant of 10 years, and are now going to lose the house and car. I have less than $100 in the bank! I am soooo due some good luck! I always watch as other people have great things happen and I am envious and feel guilty for feeling this way. I know there are a lot of people with worse problems - how do the cope! I cry myself to sleep every night then spend every day pretending its all hunky dory for my kids sake. The good news is that my husband is still with me way passed the date the drs. gave. so I guess i do have a little bit of luck. Just wish I had a lot! thanks, for listening. I feel a bit better just knowing someone is.
|Posted by anonymous at April 11, 2012|
I am 38yo, went to Ultrasound school when i was 34 graduated 35 couldn't find a job, everyone told me you have to get the Registration Licence -so i sat 1 year and Study --soo much $$$ on Rent/Living and good news finally i got my Licence not 1 but 2 different for Heart and General. Now TWO and 1/2 years passed i am still Looking for this Job, FL , NY or LA doesn't matter i just seem can not find that Job (that is available) Most people now require 3 years experience where will i get that Experience if i can't get that first job?
waisting 4-5 years of my life with $50,000 debts No Job, Living with Relatives ( My mother passed away long time ago) > here i am feel like in this Person who stack in this small Fishtank and world is just Living -Laughing-Going forward but all i do is swim in this Round Glass and there is No way out?...How much more should i Continue look for this Job? what and where should i go next? i am not 22 , or 32 yo to say -ok let me see what else i can to and study or change profession.
U have to know a Doctor or Cardiologist in order to get the job now days, its impossible to get on there doorsteps. and funny thing when i was in School Everyone bet that i will get the Job first , because i don't have a Family -> i have OK looks, i am Charismatic etc... But turn out to be i am NOTHING but this OLD bag , or maybe this Fragile Butterfly ...
I really couldn't believe or imagine how Cruel people are, No one wants to give you a Chance, No one cares -> but i just don't understand How people make it? what about Them -those people -who re hiring, there was Time when They were looking for a job, Someone HELP them right??? Someone give them a hand that they started..
No matter how much , how hard i try i just Can't find that Job.....I think Pretty soon i am going to be Homeless. And scary thing is No one can help me.
|Posted by bear at April 11, 2012|
I have been hating life for quite a while. I was making $50k annually before 2004. The plant I worked at shut down. I had to settle for a job that paid approx. 30k annually after that. This past January I got laid off and I am getting $240.00 per week. I am almost 54 y/o and feel worthless and depressed. I can't stand not working. I wish God would take me. I'm of no use to anyone!
|Posted by anonymous at April 11, 2012|
Im a 23 year old male working a dead end job makimg around 800 every two weeks. I dont really know where to start my life hasnt been easy by any means. My mother is addicted to meth and i found out when i was 11 years old. My father was a very hard workwr and tried everything he could think of to keep the family together but they devorced in 2009 a few months later the family house burnt down. In 2010 my father passed away in a atv accident while i was at work. He wasnt found until the next day. So now the house and land belong to me and my younger beother who doesnt have a drivers liscense or a highschool deploma ( droped out after the devorce ) he pretty much stays home and smokes weed all day and gets by off of 200 a month from a rwnt house we own
So ive been working and trying to pay taxes and lawyer cost. A few months ago i found out i have type one diabetes which has been life changing and expensive. To top it all off my girlfriend of four years is 8 weeks pregnant. Sometimes it seems like everything happens at once. Im very happy about the pregnancy and it has brought more meaning to my life. I just find myself wondering what kind of a life i will be able to provide my child when my life has been on such a downward spiral for what seems like forever. Oh yeah and my mom went to prison shortly afyer my father passed away. Shes back now and living with my brother. Shes steals from us to pay for her addiction and pretty much makes my life hell. Ive tried to get her perole officer to send her back but he doesnt give a shit .
|Posted by Tony Kickass at April 11, 2012|
My nephew and i have been very close since my late mother died in 2010.....He was always at mine once every two days without fail for a brew, some free cigs and moaning about how hard his life was.....He did'nt work so i would buy him cigarettes, give him plenty of money and free takeouts to help him out as much as i could......We were pretty much inseperable for nearly two years and then he got a well payed job and i havent seen him for dust......He never visits me or calls me (not even a mother fucking text to say hello) NOTHING......He tells me that he'll come visit me soon but he hasnt been down for weeks and blames it on his job, BUT HE ONLY WORKS FOR 4 HOURS A DAY SO HOW THA FUCK CAN THAT BE??......He owed me £60 but would'nt pay (but said he would)......The prick makes about £250 a day but still nothing so i payed the cunt a visit and demanded my cash so he went to the bank and finally got my cash and came down......He said quote "i bet you need that money cos your broke" but did'nt offer to help me out at all......I have helped that little shit out on so many occasions and never asked for the money back but would he ever do the same for me?? FUCK NO.......He's no nephew of mine and when he does finally lose his job (as i suspect he will one day) i wont be here to bail the shitter out......