| | Posted by Warrior55 at February 1, 2012 |
Ever feel like God errored, and made me. I am 55years old. On the outside I appear youthful (so I'm told often). Have been a hobby bodybuilder for over 20years until last month. 5'9" 200lbs. Healthy. experienced in a variety of things including owning a small business that made profits Xyears. Accounting,Business were my majors. Clean driving record, not a felon. I can't get a job. In the past 3yrs have lived homeless in my vehicle living off charity and whatever small 1 day job comes. Today, I spent 5hours researching 7 different online sites for jobs. Have had this girlfriend for 7months. I told her when i met her that I'm not a good prospect being jobless. No unemployment in 2yrs. She just moved to a small city 25miles away. Can't even afford to go see her (she went back to her hometown). The depression which has been my companion since I was about 17 is treated with wellbuitrin (for 3months now). I have so many days in which I don't want to wake up. No family around in 20years. Taking myself out of the picture often comes to mind the past 2yrs. My girl is nice, she has medical issues at 36. I'm not going to live off her. I just cant seem to find a job. I know many of you suffer from this and more. Sometimes I wonder why Obama doesnt pass a volunteer euthanization program. I mean, if there arent jobs for us and we cant support ourselves, and society doesnt want deadbeats, PUT US TO SLEEP. Why on earth would America complain about us homeless, if we want work, yet have ... |
| | Posted by N at January 31, 2012 |
I want to kill myself. I won;t though as I know the ripple effect and I believe that life IS beautiful and there is a reason for living, but I am stuck in a rut. I am fucked off. I studied Law at Uni. I wasnt very good but I managed to get a good grade at the end of it. Everyone was like oooh youre studying Law thats so good you will get a good job and career etc.
I finished at the end of 2010. I have been doing temporary work for a bit from 2010 to August 2011. Since then I have been unable to find work. I am going fucking gaga. I email and call and send applications daily. I have been for interviews. I went for an interview last Weds and they said they would make a decision by Thursday. I am still waiting. I have just emailed them to follow up. They said they would be making a decision by Thursday but keep me fucking waiting ! What is this !!! Whenever I am in a position of authority and I have to make decisions involving HUMAN BEINGS I am going to be straight up and honest. I can take the truth. If you dont want me for the job - TELL ME, dont keep me hanging like a puppet. I have put on weight, without even realising ! I used to work out 6 days a week and I used to have a spring in my step, and I used to wonder about the world, but now I look in the mirror and see a slow death. That is dramatic yes. I am incredibly lucky and have a lot to be grateful for however I am still fucking pissed off with this situation. I wish I didnt fucking go to University it's a waste... |
| | Posted by Waste at January 30, 2012 |
I'm an Ivy League graduate who can't even get a job as a cashier. I have been unemployed for almost four years. My electricity was recently turned off. I don't have furniture in my home. Most weeks I do not know if I will be able to eat.
I have no direction or skills. My friends and family are also broke and unsuccessful. There's not an individual I can turn to for assistance.
I've let myself down and I don't know how to fix it. The "potential" that people said I had as a child has amounted to nothing.
I'm angry, disgusted and hopeless. |
| | Posted by maid at January 23, 2012 |
I feel like a maid in my home. We used to have a housekeeper that we paid $1000 / month for. Since we moved to another city, and I cant find a job I get to clean up after my boyfriend and his 140 lb bulldog that does nothing but drool and shed all over the house. The floors have to be done at least every other day or were swimming in drool and dog hair. It's disgusting. Plus, Im with a guy who refuses to commit to me after 5 years and doesnt want to have a family with me becuase he says he's too old and doesn't want to lose his freedom. So I am essentially a free maid (slave) to him and his dog while he gets the milk and cow for free. His job consists of meeting new, fun peopole and going out to lunch daily and having beers...playing rock band and hanging out w/ friends, while Im stuck at home hating my life..feeling like Im wasting the best years of my life. We started dating when I was 25, now Im 30. Im getting older and I feel stuck becuase I have no job in this new town..no way to get out of the house..lame. As I type this I can hear the dog drooling and shedding all over the floor I just spent 2 hours cleaning, which will look like crap in about a couple of hours. Oh, and since Im an indentured servant, my bills arent getting paid so Im getting deeper and deeper into debt. But thats not his problem. Thats mine. And that's one of the reasons why he doesnt want to get married, b/c things like that would become his responsible too. So why is the dog and all the housework mine? He hasn't lifted his finger one day for this house... I made some pretty bad decisions allowing myself to get stuck like this. I used to make a lot of money and had full benefits...I quit that job for this. Oh wait theres more. I suffered my second miscarriage this week, leaving me to feel even more worthless than I already do. But my bf sure is happy about it, Im sure. (Not wanting to lose his freedom and all.) WTF am i doing w/ my life? |
| | Posted by ME at January 22, 2012 |
So here's my story..... 33 year old male that hasn't worked in a year and 3 months. I have been living off of a divorce settlement that i saved since my divorce 9 months into a marriage , which was at the age of 22. My money is dwindling and I can't find a job anywhere. I moved to this dying city because I loved my girlfriend who is very successful and I basically have mooched off of her for the 15 months that I have spoken of. I can't believe I quit my job and sold my house in this economy for anyone. It cost me 8 grand to sell the house and that took a nice chunk of my settlement money. I have a car payment that I'm not going to make this month, and I have no clue how long its gonna be before they tow it away. The girl that I loved is turning out to be a huge pain in my ass. It is probably my fault because I am the mooch, but she isn't making it any better. I try to do what I can for her by cooking and cleaning and laundry, things like that, but she just bitches about the way I do things. She is a straight up control freak that has to do things her way and a total type-A personality. I mean, she yells at me when I am driving my car because I am either going too fast or slow or the music is wrong. It is god awful. We got in a huge fight tonight and she calls me all these names and tells me whats wrong with me and how I bring nothing to the table, and I will still try to kiss her ass tomorrow because I have nothing to my name. I moved away from my friends a... |
| | Posted by PTSD at January 20, 2012 |
When I was in school, I was always bullied, especially in high school. I hated it so much, that I became home-schooled, & eventually quit school altogether. Any sights or thoughts of that high school triggers my PTSD.
Recently, my grandmother passed away, & she left her house to my family. Her house is right near the high school that scarred me for life. So everyday, I get these horrible triggers from my past. There's nothing I can do to avoid it.
I'm 20 years old, & I can't find a job anywhere. I desperately want to move out of my mother's house & live like a normal adult. |
| | Posted by Unemployable at January 20, 2012 |
In a graduate, in 28 and cant get a job. I have tried and tried...even if its something i dont like.. I live at home and its extremely embarrasing to keep asking my parents for money.
I hate my life! |
| | Posted by Flallinspeuw at January 17, 2012 |
Hello out there, This is how my story begins...
I have had a job until recently and now I have lost everything and am about to be homeless with nothing I could explain it all, but it is a long story one that I am sure that you have heard before. OK so I am writing this to see if there is someone out there that would be willing to help me and go in with me on getting some internet sites going. I have some really good ideas, but in less then a week I will not have the means to do anything. I am looking for someone to help get the ideas going and for us to split the profit 50 50 and then once we get one going then start on another one. I am at my wits end with having no steady work and no resources available. The only thing that I am asking for is just help getting one of these ideas up and running that is all. You do not need to hand me money or anything like that you just need to have to be willing to participate and be able to help purchase things for the site to get it going. You must be serious and want it to happen also. |
| | Posted by fall under at January 16, 2012 |
I am 50. I have a bachelor's and a masters. I have been hired and laid-off three times since 2008. Before that I worked constantly and always paid my bills. I am now applying for jobs making less than half what I was making a few years ago. I was just told on Friday on a temp job I was working (only after I asked directly if my assignment was ending) will end on Tuesday. They were not even going to tell me that the assignment was over they were just asking me to train someone else as backup in the event that I get sick. Nice people. I am alone, I have no husband, or boyfriend and I am not only depressed but I am scared. I am getting to the point that I am so emotionally exhausted from trying to get work and doing anything when I get it that I barely have the energy to get out of bed in the morning and I do all of this and can barely pay my housing and medical coverage. I don't want to wake up anymore, I feel like a used up piece of garbage with no easing of the pressure in the near future. I think daily if I would just close my eyes and never wake up than I wouldn't have to endure the fear and stress any longer. |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 16, 2012 |
Life right now is terrible. I'll start with the relationship department, I met a guy four months ago who I thought was a really decent character. Recently I decided to sleep with him, he was my first, and now he hasn't called/texted/emailed/ communicated in any sort of way for the last month. There's no denying that I was used, and every time I think about this fact it feels like I'm being repeatedly kicked in the stomach. Now on to friends, my friends are the most unreliable people in the world. It seems as though every time I ask them to hang out/ be there for me they blow me off, me being a pushover, allow this sort of behavior to continue. I guess I have no one to blame but myself for this poor treatment by my friends, but it would just be wonderful if I could have at least one person in my life who actually wants to spend time with me. Next up is my future, i have no future period. I dropped out of community college because I have no clue what type of career I want and now I'm currently searching for a job. No one will hire me, apparently you have to have a bachelor's degree to be a barista these days...every morning I wake up feeling hopeless and every night I go to bed feeling the exact same way. I try to find things to be happy about, I try to remember that I have a roof over my head and am not suffering from some horrendous disease, but I find myself constantly returning to my deep pool of self pity in which to wallow in. |
| | Posted by Cindy at January 14, 2012 |
I don't even know where to start,so I will start with the beating I took from my husband in October which landed me in the hospital.He is under house arrest at another location.I lost my job because I just could not work due to depression and worry.I sit in the house all day crying,feeling sorry for myself. WHAT"S WRONG WITH ME?I have no will power left,no light at the end of the tunnel.I am sick of this stale life.I need friends....I need someone to help pull me out of this deep dark hole I'm falling into. |
| | Posted by Steven at January 14, 2012 |
im 23 years of age and im starting to pull my life back together. ive spent ten, eleven years doing drugs.ive been on everything but roller skates, junk, white, pills, weed, you name it i did it.anyway im not posting a record of what drugs ive done this is more or less my little note of diary, and it starts off in the middle of my story.
im sober for about two months now and its mainly cause i a had what alcholics would call a moment of clarity,or what normal people would call an epiphany. this epiphany i had made me see all my flaws and i realized that i wasted all my time doing drugs when i couldve took that time to grow the fuck up. by that i mean i have no car no home and my family pretty much disowned my sorry ass and at that my fathers the only person who reluctantly talks to me on occasion and at that the little bit we do talk he always throws my past in my face. my whole thing now is picking up whatevers left of my life and moving on to a better life.
i met my girlfriend around august and so we had our fare share of screwing shit up together. we spent more money on getting high and screwing up, had an abortion and two miscarriage with my girl and shes always been more straight edge then myself. we fucked everything up in a very short amount of time.
her parents disowned her cause shes been with me and all we've been doing is getting our lives in order.
ive been sober since the last miscarriage in october and ive been trying to get job at an envelope factory but theres never any end to the bullshit. i was supposed to start at that job two weeks ago but because theres no openings i wont hear nothing till february anyway life is bullshit and im done.. |
| | Posted by KaD at January 12, 2012 |
Next month will be my one year anniversary. One year since my unemployment ran out and I've had NO income. I was a project manager in commercial real estate; saved a billion dollar client for my asswipe company and this was the thanks I got. I've applied everywhere; starbucks, grocery stores, no one wants you when your credit rating is shit because you had to file a Chapter 7 and you've been out of work for 2 1/2 years. Corporate america is a bunch of assholes. They whine all the time about not being able to find good employees but they don't have enough brains to hire one when one is looking them right in the face. Everyone who knows me says 'I can't believe you of all people don't have a job yet. You work SO hard. You do such a good job'. Yeah, that all meant shit. |
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| Posted by anonymous at January 9, 2012 |
I am a 30 year old male. It seems that the last year for me has been a culmination of one problem after another. To start, I haven't finished college yet. My girlfriend of seven years left me and went to another country to teach English. I am unemployed and back living at home after being independent for over a decade.
Before leaving, I lost my job on account of leaving college. I am close to graduation, but have to take community college classes out of pocket as I can no longer receive financial aid. Before I left my last city I was working at a liquor store. I was broke and had trouble paying the rent. My girlfriend (at the time) helped me pay but constantly called me a "mooch" and a "user" while she did it, despite the fact that I had financially helped her in the past.
Long story short, I quit my job to move with her to another city, at which point she decided on a whim to leave the country. She said she would return in a year and we should try a long distance relationship. Within a couple of months she had already slept with three different men. The blow of losing this relationship and feeling like such a loser destroyed my self confidence. To top it off, she gave me genital warts. Thanks.
I have criminal misdemeanors from 13 years ago (no trouble since) that prevent me from getting jobs. I realize my mistakes in the past are my own, but I still need to move forward. How many years must go by in this society before you can start again? I... |
| | Posted by Jerry at January 6, 2012 |
Hi
I am 23 old boy who has just finished with my complete education. I was employed till last year and was earning good. I have to quit my last job because I needed a long break for my exams. After completion of my studies I am unable to find a real job according to my qualifications because of the recession. My Family and my girlfriend have lot of expectations on me. I havent told them about all this as I dont want them to get hurt. I am doing small jobs, avoiding my friends and living alone nowdays. I have spent lot of money of my parents on my education. I am unanswerable to everybody and i am just avoiding them. Each day has become very hard for me. My gf have a good job than me, thats why her parents also hate me. I dont have any idea what I am gonna do my whole life. |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 5, 2012 |
I somewhat recently have moved a very long way from home. I can't find a job. I can't even get one at a fast food place, I've tried. I live off the money that I made from my other job, which is running out. I don't know what I am going to do when it runs out. I will be homeless.
Really, after a couple months of trying, you start to get really disheartened and depressed. It's tough hearing "no" umpteen times a week. So recently, I haven't even been trying. I have pretty much given up. I wake up, play some video games, watch some TV, and go to sleep. I'm just trying to stretch my money out as long as it can possibly be stretched.
"What about friends and family," you say?
"Well, this is why I suck," I say.
My family is great. They are well off for the most part. Middle middle class, very normal. If I asked them, they would let me stay with them until I got back on my feet, as long as it took. But I won't.
"Now why the fuck would you do that?" you are probably wondering.
Well, I have lied to them every step of the way. I told them I was moving because of a job opening. They don't know that I was ever fired. They don't know that I am not currently working, and haven't been for nearly a year. I'm not going to tell them, I have too much pride.
What I will do is continue on the path I am going on. I am so weak minded that I would rather financially (and likely otherwise) destroy myself than ask for help. I am so weak minded that I am not even going to... |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 1, 2012 |
Life was really going smooth when suddenly I flunked in my 11th standard exams. I was in Science stream which was my favorite. I got the seat via donation but I really wanted it badly, for me marks were not a concern. But I don't know why I wasn't able to clear my 11th. Later I somehow landed in my 12 th and again flunked. This was getting ridiculous, I was like a fool my friends cleared the exams by copying and still I don't know why I was trying to be mr good. I had given up hopes to clear my 12th. I had joined some computer classes in which I was really good so I had decided that I wanted to be a programmer. But I was 12th fail so I decided to do my diploma in computers. Surprisingly I fared well in it infact I scored and got admission via cap directly to Btech IT. I was very happy things were going as planned my project was codes by me and not bought and even participated for state level expo. The same was in my degree where I developed my project myself while my group members watched me do all the work. Infact they scored more than me in project. That was so bad that too from Mumbai university. Even after all this I couldn't sit for placements in many companies. Maybe the companies were on a lookout for grooms to marry. What has age got to do with a job? I got into a company but they have delayed the date of joining and I'm sitting at home spending my dads hard earned money. I have wasted 5 yrs of my life. I am 25 when I should be 20. My friends are already working and I can't face them. I don't have a girl friend like my friends do. Who the hell will marry me when I don't have a job? Sometimes I feel being good is if no use people just take advantage of it. I cry almost every night I don't visit social networking sites since people post status of their successful life. It's just that I am unable to get my family running. It's not that i chose the wrong field I'm really good in it but god knows why he is playing around with my life ;( |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 31, 2011 |
Well my story is diffrent from alot. I lived in Florida got my degree and moved to Mississippi to start a TV carrer. I loved TV was so happy, making and saving money. A couple of years ago I got offered my TV dream job in Colorado, I quit my job in MS and flew to CO, when I got to my new employer I was only to pass a drug test to start work, I was clean then. When I arrived I found the young guy at the TV station who told me I had a job informed me he gave the job to a young hot girl with big boobs. I flew back to MS to try to get my old job back, but I was too late. Its been 3.5 years since then. I look for work all day and all night, but the little town in MS I'm in is dying. No new jobs just places closing its doors. The money I saved for retirement is almost gone. With no insurance I lost my ability to go to the doctor for my scoliosis so I had to get medication from other than legal ways. The meds I used to take where non addictive, but you can't find those on the street, so pain killers it was. Then I got so board my house became a prison to me, so I started taking them to pass the time. Now Im hopelessly addicted. I even went to school and became an EMT because the hospital here had 16 job openings, when I became and EMT they had none. I still look for work, but know spend about 18 hours a day in bed. Sometimes I think life just is not worth living. All I have is my cat he has been my savior. He is 13 and I know he won't be around much longer. I don't know what I will do when he is gone. Well thats my story not as bad as some but its my personal hell. I'm stuck in a dying town with no work and one friend who is also a hopeless addict. |
| | Posted by ThatLad at December 30, 2011 |
Justtyped in 2 google cant get a job and have no money and ended up here. well what can I say I am 20 yrs old living in north-west england, I currently live with my family which consists of my brother, my sister, me nd mum and dad. No one in my familty works or has worked in the last 10 years. The legal age of working in this contry is 16 I have been tryin ever since my 16th birthday I am currently studyin in uni and will leave uni (considering I pass) with a debt of approxemtly £20,000. I spend most of my days in doors playing video games and not becasue I enjoy them, because I have nothin better to do. there is always fights and arguments between my parents (money issues) I have lost contact with most of my freinds because I have never been the type that gets close to people as past experience have taught me that the person I get close to will eventually screw me over (trust issues). Next errmmm oh yh theres girls nd well at times I think Im good with them and at other time I think am not. thing is I want a girl that i can stay with forever and not some small short relaltionships (p.s im a muslim). for sexual pleaseure i normally masterbate and have only had sex with 4 girls all which were prostitutes. life seems pointless and I seem to be wasting time and spending time by myself isnt helping. I have been doing this for well over a year now. I started drinking heavily every night for a good 7 months but have managed to quit drinkin all 2gether with the help of no1. My biggest fear is of the time I am wasting as I dont think I will get it back as I am young and these are the years that I am suppose to enjoy. |
| | Posted by Raz'Orii at December 29, 2011 |
56 years old, two years of college, no friends or family I can turn to. Unemployed again, three months this time. I'm fortunate enough to be getting unemployment though that's only good for another couple of months. I had a good job, cooking and barbacking a few nights a week, so I had some money saved up.
From the first day I started looking diligently for work as best I could. I polished up my resume as best I could and from then on spent several hours a day scanning the listings on a number of the largest online job sites in search of anything for which I was even remotely qualified. I live in a large city so most days I was able to find two or three local jobs listed. I submitted applications and a copy of my resume for all of them. A couple of times a week I drove to the state employment office to look at their lists of jobs and to just talk with someone, trying to find some guidance to help improve the odds of my finding work.
It's been three and a half months now. My savings are all gone. I'm still getting $187 a week in unemployment which doesn't even begin to cover my living expenses. I have a housemate to share expenses with and have cut my spending back to the bare minimum and it's still not enough. I had recieved an email from an IT Staffing agency on Tuesday, looking for someone to fill a position with a local firm that looked quite promising but I learned this afternoon that the position had gone to someone else. No other prospects at th... |
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