I am married to a narcissist 45 years now. Financially tied to him. So tired of the anger, moods, lying and other women. I am so tired of being married to what the world views at "Mr. Wonderful", a "hottie".....such a nice guy. When the front door closes the REAL beast raises his ugly horns. Oh, he can "charm the birds right out of the trees". Unfortunately, once his entertainment with them fades, he takes pleasure in a heavy stomp to their very being.
I am mentally exhausted, numb and realize to late that I should have left this relationship years ago. To old, to tired to start over... | |
You have a option, to leave.
But instead you are lazy and subscribe to fear.
And in doing so, you will burn the last remaining years of the ONE chance thing called life.
You can't know what life would be like on the other side, until you GET to the other side.
You don't know my full life. My psychiatrist and psychologist can't believe what I've been through and still live, Trust me it's worse than you could imagine.
I want a reason to live. Please give me a reason.
I pretty much only told you about the past year, but I have several decades of really heinous things that either happened to me or around me.
I'm mostly afraid I'll never find employment in my field (or any other field) ever again. After being stabbed in the back by my ex, i feel like I'll never meet anyone again. I've completely isolated myself socially. I just fear that things will only go downhill, that I'll die old, alone and homeless.
Where do I find hope?
Thanks for your help
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