|Posted by shattered at October 30, 2009|
My life started to suck when I was 2. My parents separated and began a 3 year custody battle over me. That battle ended when my mom died during a "routine" operation when I was 5. As I write this I'm 30 years old, and realize that IF I somehow manage to live to be 100, I will have lived 95% of my life without knowing my mom. Ok...that pain is bearable...I've done it for 25 years now. I moved with my dad to a small town where he remarried. I became the youngest of three kids...blamed for EVERYTHING that my brothers did. I was never beat or abused, but try dealing with depression at age 5. Got glasses when I was 8 and spent the next 10 years being called Urkel...getting teased and bullied for being skinny and intelligent. My teenage years were ok considering the daily torture I received from my "peers". Age 18, I move out...go to university...and fail miserably. I've spent the last 12 years going from dead end job, to dead end job, praying at the end of each month that I have enough money for rent. My longest relationship was 1 month, going years in between relationships. I have spent about half of my adult life alone with 2 major relationships under my belt. The first being my ex-fiance. We met, she got pregnant and we were together for 3 years...then she left me for an ex-con that she fell in love with. I went seriously in to debt to get custody of my daughter...so far in to debt that I had to ask my parents to raise her for me because I can barely afford ...
|Posted by shitty at October 30, 2009|
my life sucks worse than i can imagine ... i have no j\ob no girl no friends im sick... fat lazy stupid an asshole a dumb sloppy pushover nobody.... i have to move away from here fast but i have no cash surly there is a better fucking way...
|Posted by anonymous at October 30, 2009|
Alcoholic Abusive dad
Drug addicted mom
Bullied at school
No girl friend
Not even a proper meal everyday.
Do I have to say more?
|Posted by Kirsten at October 29, 2009|
2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason
'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe
May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.
Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe
There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.
2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longe...
|Posted by anonymous at October 29, 2009|
I fell in love with this girl and for a year everything was great. Then she cheats on me, twice. We break up. A year later I fall in love again. This girl brings up my ex all the time. Won't drop all the shit that happened, like it was my choice. Next pregnant, married. My Grandfather gets cancer. Baby born then dies after 13 days. Divoriced. Then my cousin hangs himself. 4 years! It never fucking stops.
|Posted by AD at October 29, 2009|
life is very beautiful ... I'm realising this when I'm gonna commit suicide. my life was ok but now i'm the only cause of pain and suffer of my family. so for 3000 pounds I'm gonna commit suicide...this is how life sucks
|Posted by Kirsten at October 28, 2009|
I hate my life. My parents hate me, I only have two friends (one of which hates me), AND I have been abused mentally and physically. My own father has called me retarded and stupid, then he got mad at me because I cried. You don't say that to a thirteen year old girl.i heard them talking and they said that "they didn't know what they were going to do with me and that they were tired of me." They wouldn't care if I killed myself and they would be better off without me anyway. Your thinking "Whatever, thats not so bad." Bull crap. I'm so freaking pissed right now its not even funny. I have been hurt in so many ways and I can't do a thing about it! I cry myself to sleep hoping the next day I won't fight with my parents. I can't vent to ANYONE because nobody CARES and because I only have two friends. My heart has been broken so many times and I don't know what to do about it. I swear, sometimes I feel like just letting go and giving up on everything. I really do. Everyone thinks I just want attention, but I don't. I just want to be loved and have friends. Nobody understands my hurt or my pain. My boyfriend broke up with me because he said he wanted to be single. Then that day his cousin told me he was cheating on me the WHOLE FUCKING TIME. Now he is going out with a girl that said she would never do anything to hurt me. Can't get worse right? Wrong. My parents are now going through a divorse and i'm moving to a little 1 bed 1 bath apartment with my mom and lil brother. LIFE IS A BITCH, IT SUCKS THEN YOU DIE...
|Posted by anonymous at October 27, 2009|
Okay the deal is, there are three girls (I'm a guy, 19 years), used to be my best friends... one was my very best friend (let's call her "S", 20 years) I gotta know in school several years ago... another one was her best female friend (let's call her "A", 20 years as well), whom I fell in love with and we had some kind of affair but it didn't work out for a serious relationship... and the third is the girlfriend of my brother (let's call her "C" 22 years) and she is like a sister to me... Well the last 10 month or so my whole life began to wrap around the three girls... we hung out together so often, we shared almost everything, had our fights now and then.... Under usual circumstances it's not that bad, but you see they are more or less my life... they mean everything to me... well at least they did...
You have to know that I can (or could) trust "C" with anything... So I told her when I fell in love with "A". However "C" was a little mad at "A" for some other reasons which do not belong to this... Well however I didn't fell like I got the support I was used to (this may sound selfish) from her... Like she didn't care or anything. It hurt me but well. I guess at some point I started to get on her nerves... later C and A became friends again and everything was fine but the last days C was more and more unfriendly towards me... Sure we always tease each other from time to time but this time it felt different... I felt hurt by her again.. and we had some arguing which ...
|Posted by iwishiwassmart at October 26, 2009|
OMG GUYS I AM FREAKING OUT... I WANNA COMMIT SUICIDE.... i live in new zealand and my final exams start in 2 weeks.... omg i don't know what to do... i can't study because i know i will fail so hard and if i fail i will lose the oppurtunity of going to uni... please help.... can i study for 2 weeks straight to make myself pass??? how many hours do i study helpppppppppppp
|Posted by anonymous at October 26, 2009|
I am 18 years old. I am paying for school completely on my own (no help from my parents or loans). I dont even have the money to pay for it, i am two months late on paying now. I am a super nice person but dont get any respect from most people. There is a guy in my one class who got my phone number, and he will text me and ask me to hang out on a certain day, and then when that day comes, he doesnt text me, at all. I just let it go because i expect it now. I would do anything for my family and friends, but lately it just seems like they dont even care. I was in the hospital last weekend, and while at the hospital, i realized how rude and self centered my best friend is. First off i was vomiting for 14 hours that day, and i am laying in the hospital bed and in a rude voice asks if we can trade seats (her lay on the bed and have me sit in an uncomfortable chair) Then we get home and i can finally eat something (the hospital gave me medicane to stop me from vomiting) and my friend asks if i will make her food too. I am still feeling like shit and she wants me to hop up and make her food? Hell no. And my brother was in the hospital, and i drove 45 minutes to see him, and a few days later, its back to normal, me being nice and doing anything i can for him, and him just treating me like shit. I am sick of this. Am i being too nice about things? Do i need to start standing up for myself more?
|Posted by life is shit. at October 24, 2009|
i fell in love with a girl in my school we were friends we talked and had fun then when i finally had the fucking courage to ask her out i got rejected bad real BAD!!! then my mom n dad started to fight and got divorced then my dog died cuz he got hit by a car fuckinG hell. then i started to get bullied at school for no fucking reason SO I MY LIFE IS THE WORST AND I'M ONLY 13 YEARS OLD!!!!!!!
|Posted by anonymous at October 22, 2009|
so about 10 months ago i met an fell in love with is girl an i knew she fell for me too. but she went out with my best friend. and i had to sit there for 8 months watching them cuddle up and kiss. and i had to deal with a broken heart while trying to comfort her cause her bf was a complete douche to her. i had to spend my 18 birthday alone and heart broken and no where to go because my parents kicked me out. then as the months went by she finally broke up with him. and this is when even more shit went down. i use to be a popular guy. but i had to make a choice between the girl i loved or the "best" friends i had that only wanted to drink and do drugs. so obviously i went for the girl and lost all my friends. i was happy for 2 months. until she broke up with me cause she needed to "find" herself. now im here alone, suicidal, jobless, my family resents me, no friends to talk to.
|Posted by eugene at October 20, 2009|
Man I really hate myself and im gonna tell u why. i got alot of things in my life that i hate. i like this girl in my class i asked her out but found out that she had a BF!!!!!!!!!!!. another thing is im always getting screamed at by my parents because of me failing in school work, and all of that man i wish i can restart everything from the beginning i have more things in life that isnt fair but i just gonna say that much.
|Posted by Clam17 at October 20, 2009|
i just graduated, i have no friends and im not in love with my boyfriend, every friend i make i lose, im ugly, i cant get a job and ive been on the computer for 6 yrs straight becuz i have no friends and nothing to do.
|Posted by shattered at October 19, 2009|
Those moments of sadness were like droplets of rain which seem to have no effect on a rock but over the years erodes it away. My soul is that rock. Completely shattered, weary of the forecast and cursing at the clouds.
|Posted by anonymous at October 19, 2009|
Sometimes if someone asks me to share my life story I say no. Why? Well it's because I'm scared of what they may think after I'm done. Everyone that has tried to find out I've told to fuck off. And I only opened up to one girl who means so much to me, because she knows how I feel. But now, I think that there are people out there who should know about my life. All I should be considered to you is a 15 year old boy with too much anger, stress and sleeping problems. You don't know my name, you don't know who my friends are, you don't know where I live so why does it matter?
I'm growing up in a dysfunctional family. My father has a range of mental disorders, including bi-polar. My mother has anxiety and depression. She puts all her hope in an imaginary god who doesn't exist. My oldest sister exploits herself in ways I will not describe. My other sister on the other hand is the opposite. She is anti social and is slow. Meaning she thinks differently. Then we come to my brother. He is the worst case. He has drug induced psychosis. (Psychosis from doing many different drugs) From when he was 15-22 he would smoke, weed, crack, snort cocaine, eat shrooms,take heroin, ecstasy. I think weed is fine. I even do it a few times a month. But when it comes to drugs this serious....I can't help but to feel sorry for my brother. Anyway. My brother is on anti psychotic medicine and will be on it for the rest of his life. Now that he's 25 all hope for him i...
|Posted by lifesucks at October 18, 2009|
I just realised i'm like NOTHING. Fcking hell, I hate my stupid, COMMON, BORING life. I HATE IT. I live in Europe now & i want to leave it as soon as possible cause i think i'll go crazy. I wanna do something with my life and not wait here like a stupid lazy jackass who doesn't have a purpose or ambition in live. God, my life sucks. Get me out of here.
|Posted by anonymous at October 18, 2009|
im 14 years old girland in my mind im the ugliest creature on the planet. everyone tells me im pretty but i cant see it. last year i was constantly teased about my weight i weigh 125 pounds and im made fun of. ever since they left my school and the harrasing stopeed i was okay with myself, until today i talked to this guy that i REALLY LIKED. but hes never seen me in real life before and my friend(she is the most prettyest fucking thing u will every see in ur life, and every guy on the planet agrees) comes with me.. and all he looks at is her. and just adding they hate her personality they just wanna fuck her. but wen he was texting me all he cared about is me :) wich made me feel good untill he met my friend. im begginging to feel like i should foloow in my family's footsteps for my dad smoke, drink, yell and fight for my mom cry,yell back for my brother, do drugs, more drugs, smoke , fuck and lie. im 14 and i have all these problems..help me get away from this..it fucking sucks
|Posted by tabby at October 17, 2009|
im so tired of all this shit im 5'9 im 13 an dmy mom is always out i have nothing to do but babysit my lil bro he is 9 i clean the house i cook i have no friends becuse of this bitch i go to school with(im bi)i said to her i loved her and what do you know im fucked up in the head iv been raped hit for nothing my familys scared of me i think thats why my moms always out i cant git a job so no money my music is the only thing i have sometimes the only thing i can do to sleep is drink my mom keeps 7 under he sink iv tryed to kill myself but every time im there in he light i get brought back im sick of it
|Posted by black sheep at October 17, 2009|
ok well i lost all my money gambling like a dumb ass,oh,nd my eog ran away today what else i dont hve q gun that will shoot at me,some how the fucking door was left open all day so dumb ass dog of mine desides to walk himself.Im going to fucking shit y pants if he aint in the pound,ohh and hes a pitt bull and hates strangers so did dumb ass bite anyone,kid,or what the fuck we just movedhere three days ago theres a highway one hundred yards from the house what the fuck do i do bout that. my kids are going to piss and moan not only did i loss all my money and dog and girl and life and friends and sense and know how to even coupe with it all i want drugs lots of drugs if i didnt get sick id try anything,ok not all my sense,no needle but if u make it id take it, ok not crack or crank,ok maybe a blunt and shot of henn.i cant get a job any how so there till tomorrow comes and i cant find my mute .fuck shit damn me all to hell im worthless right now.nad for a long time before that.