|Posted by cparadise.2012 at June 13, 2012|
I don't know why but for the last 8 years I keep making the same mistakes over and over. Commonsense says to stop putting myself in the same situations. But I don't listen. My friends tell me to slow down. My family continues to help me yet I spend money on drugs every tine. I do well for.a period of tike yet I always go back the minute I get a decent amount of money to get started on my life i blow it .... I feel useless in this world. And dint know where to get help . Aa is a way to get help but I never listen. Please someone help me!!!!!!!!!!
|Posted by Al at May 31, 2012|
4 years ago i decided to retire. it was a big mistake. im 84 and enjoy working with people. then my wide came down with altimers disease. i am very depressed by it. have been married for 62 years and never thought any thing like this would happen. on top of that i lost my balance 1 and haf yearss ana d brke my hip. at that time i wanted to kill myself.very unhappy with life.
|Posted by carly at May 25, 2012|
I'm a depressive person... I just hate my life right now I was unhappy all my life nobody cares if I'm alright ... I just get married a few months ago I moved to another country because I was fall in love but then I was away from my mom my friends and my normal life because of love and now I'm crying because I have problems with my husband he is a good guy but WHEN he wants to be mean he is good! AND make my life a big black hole....I just feel stuck I cant go to school I cant work I cant have my own money I cant drive I cant go out because I don't have FRIENDS.. I just hate my life I JUST FEEL that I cant keep living.... I was a singer in my country I was doing a good job and when I moved every possibilities to be a singer in the future disappear ... I supposed the people told me don't get married you going to get divorce I was blind..... I just feel like a waste of time ... SHIT !
|Posted by jueves at April 17, 2012|
Today is his birthday and he block me out, i found out i won't be able to subscribe to the master thing that i wanted because i was stupid and let the limit date pass by and I realized it the next day after all the subscriptions, i also find out an old mail that tells me that wasn't able to fill the IRS report months ago and the chances of going back to usa are extremely little now... I lost love, I don't have a job and no money , also i have like a strange superiority feeling that stops me to go cry down to somebody just for that someone to hear my problems, i just need somebody smart enough to advice me. I'm in my 30s and i got everything fixed , everything on track until i start doing one stupid thing after another and now I'm totally deep in depression and which is worst alone, totally alone not able to speak to anyone deep enough as to share my problems because i'm afraid of looking like a loser, I miss him with all my heart and he has me blocked .. what's wrong with me? , why do i still care? I just wish i could sleep all days all day long, sleep and forget about everything that is happening to me, sleep and don't ever wake up.
|Posted by no jobsha at April 16, 2012|
Three months ago, I was what most would consider a successful person. I worked as a RN case manager in home care. I loved my work and had been doing it for 20 years, 10 years in Michigan.
I went to college when I was in my late twenties, after my husband left me. I worked and went to school with 2 small children at home. I became a nurse. It was great. I moved to Arizona, lived there for 15 years.
Came back to Michigan when my daughter had children. My grand children. I worked there as a case manager in home care. Doing what I do best, caring for other people.
In June my sister was diagnosed with colon cancer, she had surgery in august. I worked every day, then went to the hospital to take care of her. Make sure she gets up and walks, that she is eating right and that she is telling them about any pain.
When she was released, I worked every day and went to her home every evening to take care of her. She lives 40 miles from me. I did this for two weeks. When she was able to care for her self, get out of bed without assist, make her on food and shower alone, I went home after work on a Friday evening.
I was sitting at home and decided I would go have a few beers at a bar close to an old apartment that I used to go to. I liked to play keno. Long story short, I was stopped for speeding and arrested for driving while intoxicated. I did what every one does and obtained an lawyer, went to court. Did not get much help from my attorney, I didnít...
|Posted by stupid at April 14, 2012|
I made so many bad choices all involving the same person. He was in trouble with a violent family and said he was being abused. He was different and liked being different. He was kinda reckless and wild and turned to me for help. He liked being happy and loud and loud music and being individuals. He brought me out of my shell and life was fun again. His family turned the whole town against us. Made up lies and had everyone spying on us trying to get me arrested. They would come into my work and complain (I was a server), My managers would be on my side...but after awhile it got too stressful with his family following me around trying to wreck my job and saying how I stole their son from them. Everyone hated us and talked about us for years. It was us against everyone. I gave up my family, my jobs, and all of my friends for him. For 5 years. Then recently...
We ran out of money and had a hard time finding jobs. He started to change. He started to be a different person...changed his hair, stopped wearing metal clothes, hid his piercings, and tried to fit in with the people we used to hate. But the worst part for me...he is a part of his family now. After all the things they did to us, and all the lies they spread about us...he is with them.
And he doesn't get why that tears me apart and makes me question my decision to give up everything for him. If I was wrong to go with him and believe him...it makes me a bad person. It makes me a really bad person that will end up burnign in hell.
|Posted by anonymous at March 30, 2012|
What's up? I am a 31 year old male. It seems no matter how hard I try I can never have any kind of luck. I committed a minor offense of attempted forgery when I was barley 18. But I guess in the eyes of texas it was serious enough to be a felony and follow me for the rest of my life with no chance of ever getting it expunged. So thanks to a foolish teenage mistake my chances of gainful employment are ruined forever. Then also in the stat of texas they frown on driving with no insurance which I did in 99 and 2000 and of course with my luck there is no stature of limitations on traffic tickets in texas either so I do not have a drivers licenced and have not had one since 2004. In 02 and 03 my wife of 6 years decided to have a couple of little ones without my help. We divorced in 06. So in o6 and 08 I have a couple of little ones and.surprise surprise I get hit with child support. So on toolbox having to work shit jobs now I can take home about 125 a week but am currently unemployed because I got fired from pizza hit for giving the birch that stuck me for child support a 50percent discount. And to top that all off my only means of transportation broke down last week 4 hour away from the house while I was job hunting.
|Posted by Kingbowser at March 26, 2012|
I am 27 years old. I had this girlfriend for 9 years, high school sweethearts. Started dating around 15. I thought she was going to be the girl i was with forever. I can't even recall what happened but we ended up breaking up and were too stubborn to talk about our problems. After high school i got a construction job with her neighbor. Awesome job for someone so young. I made 22 an hour. When the break up happened i snapped and made some awful decisions. The main bad move was i quit my job because i couldn't stand having to park outside of her house everyday to go to work. So i sit and live off what i have saved for about 3 years and did absolutely nothing. Alot a world of warcraft, hanging out with friends drinking, different girlfriends. Yea, i dated some crazy chicks in 3 years. Most of you are wondering how i could not work for 3 years! well i live with my dad and he doesn't charge me rent, try to give him money sometimes but he never takes it. I started to get super depressed in that time mostly about love. I'd wonder if i'd ever get that feeling back where you truly love someone and they love you. And then it happened. I am wasted at a bar with friends one night and ask this random SMOKIN girl to go to a upcoming wedding with me, that i was just invited to. We had some mutual friends so she says yes! We went to that wedding and everything since then has been a miracle. Been dating her for 6 months now. So, here is the problem, i want ...
|Posted by anonymous at March 25, 2012|
i am a 28 year old man and like most of my tattooed peers i am having the late 20's epiphany that my tattoos are fucking lame and 18 year olds should not be allowed to get tattoos. what are they? well i have three....2 on my shoulder and one on my lower fucking stomach. 2 on my shoulder are some japanese kanji words and honestly they could mean anything...i literally picked two words of the kanji poster at the tattoo shop and now i hope the translations right. to be honest though internet community, they don't bother me that much...i look at the bright side and laugh about those....first who doesn't have lame tattoos anymore and those could be covered up by some badass design.(btw internet people i love well done tattoos on people and respect people that get them and i would never hate on anyone's tattoos unless they are racist)so its whatever on those....but now the stomach tattoo....wtf was i thinking you ask? first off NEVER GET ANYTHING ON YOUR STOMACH...you get fat and the beer drinking catches up quick after 24...also dont kid yourself that you'll always keep in shape you won't and your belly is the first thing to build fat...well anyway in my lame 18 year old kids mind i was thinking "its gonna be so different and sexual and girls would think its badass and shit." right. now i look in the mirror and see a tramp stamp on my groin. the funny thing is is that it wasn't until a year ago that i realized what i had actually done to myself. its weird thinking bac...
|Posted by AloneAsUsual at March 9, 2012|
Growing up Ive never had any real friends, never really connected, withdrawing was a pattern in my life. When I did achieve getting a "friend" at 16 I found that she wasnt a friend at all. Throughout the years she would pop up, in and out of my life. sometimes she'd stop talking to me, the longest stretch was for 3 years. I realize it was my insecurity that made me not tell her to just leave me alone. She was all I thought I deserved as a friend. The things shes pulled through the years is irrelevent but it shaped the way I saw her and others. I was 24 when I went to celebrate my birthday in Mexico. I was at my familys house when I went out and came home and was raped by my uncle. I didnt fight back and I experienced such guilt and revulsion in myself that I thought it was me and that somehow I wanted it. I remember distinctly the things he said during the act and it affected and still affects me to this day. I can recall with such detail the things he did, even though it happend over 12 years ago. My own mother and aunt said it was my fault for going over there and getting drunk. I came back and called the one person that for a year tried his damndest to get my attention by bullying the people around me at work. I didnt know till much later the things he had done. 3 months later not only did my 2 new found friends turn their backs on me. I was alone, homeless, pregnant,and not a single person, aside from 2 supervisors, talked to me. Those were the loneliest 3 months I...
|Posted by hopeless at March 3, 2012|
It is now official. I am a total failure. Made a horrible mistake at work and now I don't want to go back ever again. I am ashamed and humiliated. I have lost all self-esteem and only see death as a way out. Can't find a job in my profession, so I struggle to just keep going in another. God hates me and I wait in fear as I anticipate the next heart-breaking thing he has planned for me.
|Posted by Itdoesntgetanybetter at February 28, 2012|
My family hates me, i have no true friends. I'm an ugly looking female, who found one love. I made mistakes and ruined what we had, pictures were spread out of me online and he saw it. I cannot forgive myself for what i've done. I never finished high school, im too stupid to even think about college. ive never had a job in my life. I cannot drive because i never had a license and i have anxiety. I'm 28 years old and live my days drinking and smoking the pain away, therapy could not help me. i will never know what a happy life is, ive fucked it all up. i want to die.
|Posted by John at February 27, 2012|
I am 25, will be 26 in may...
As a high school student i was smart, A+ student...
went to university and thats where it all went down hill... started off as a med student... by my second semester i hated it, switched faculties... then i started missing classes for no reason, figured i cud still pass my exams, but i didnt... spent 4 years at university and still didnt have my degree and was asked to withdraw for a year, but i met a girl while "studying" and we got married... spent a year doin odd jobs then she divorced me, till i got a fairly good paying job at the power company... now two years down the road... i was told that in April my 3 year contract will be terminated.
With no other job prospects in sight, i have rent to pay, school loans to pay for a degree i never got, and a girlfriend that is cheating on me...
where do i go? who do i turn to for help?
Cant turn to God, because i really dont believe in that...
My thoughts right now are centered on suicide, just ending it all...
since finding out i will be unemployed come May, and nothing but a high school diploma no job will pay enough to cover all my expenses...
I've made mistakes in my life, alot of mistakes... so many regrets...
Just wish i could go back and undo them... probably shouldnt have quit medicine, or skipped classes, or partied as much as i did...
i'm gonna be 26 soon, and all my friends are employed, and moving forward... but here i am stuck and no idea what i'm gonna do...
easiest thing to do... hang myself... not like anyone wud really miss me... i've no family... a girlfriend that wont leave me cuz she feels guilty but she really wants too... got a couple friends... but then they dont really answer my calls or return them...
Just here all alone, in this dark hole...
should probably just go hang myself...
|Posted by Ignacio at February 20, 2012|
I'm 25, after getting my bachelors degree i didn't know what to do with my life so I tought a masters degree would be a good option. O my gosh I was so mistaken, first of all I did one semester eventhough I passed all my subjects my debt was increasing to a point where I had no money for trasnportation and no money for food. I forgot to mention that i moved overseas for doing the fukn masters. Hell yes I had a good job but all my wage had to go straigth to pay those suckers form University. Seriously guys if you don't know what to do with your life don't pay university furthermore you will get the piece of paper have wasted two years of your life and got a big debt. So that's why I think life sucks.
|Posted by PrinceSimba25 at February 20, 2012|
Caught 3 felonies, (recieving stolen goods) when I was 20. I was never a bad kid just hanging with the wrong crowd. Now im 25 nothing is going good. Mechant Marine rejected me,The miliatry wont take me. Been working regular jobs but in my area its hard to find a decent one. Still living at my moms house. Seems like there is no hope. Feel like just giving up.
|Posted by desolatekane at February 16, 2012|
Where to begin. Well, I foolishly left my wife and 3 kids a few years ago because I had it with my ex-wife, and met someone I thought was great and married her last year. I only see my kids about 4 days a month and feel huge regret everytime because I should never have left. My current wife is the worst person I have ever known. She verbally abuses me all the time, cutting me down contantly, doesn't care about me or my job or anything about me really, but yet somehow turns this all around to say I don't care about her. Because of her I have lost all my friends. The few family I have left she never wants me to see without her. She says she doesn't trust me even though I have always been faithful to her.
so bottom line, no friends, very little family and only limited contact with them, Abusive wife, no money, and lost relationship with kids. The one good thing in my life is that I have a job I like. That's about it.
|Posted by Robert at February 13, 2012|
I seriously have fucked up my life from stupid decisions I use to have my shit together. I graduated HS and went into the Army. I did well and became a Sergeant. I got a State job and was making good money. I joined the National Guard and was getting ready to make E-7 should have retired by now.. Meanwhile, I had started a small business and it was doing okay. Then i got sick and lost both careers and went on disability for a measly 1200 a month. I was able to cope and went back to school and got a degree in Computer Science. At the same time I owned two house and sold both for almost half a 300,000 in profit around 2005 at the height of the housing market. I paid of my wife's car and all my debts
Flush in cash I bought a new car and a new house. So over 3 year period the money slowly was spent. I should have invested in a new business or bought stock or gold, but I spent it on daily life shit. Why because I only made 12000 a year on disability. i put a huge down payment on a nice house Then the market crashed and my house became worthless. So i ended up moving into a smaller house. Then I lost my car because I bought a lease instead of buying it. So, you can see I fucked a good situation.
Because I've been on disability for 12 years nobody gives a shit about me or my past. I applied for job at the DMV for 12.00 buck a hour and was denied. I'm stuck because I have nerve damage so its a tough thing to go...
|Posted by maria21 at February 9, 2012|
2003 I start school and end going for about8 years hoping around majors... not realizing I've racked up 70000 dollars worth debt that I NEVER EVEN GOT A DEGREE FOR. Becoming the laughing stalk for all my family and friends and later finding myself knocked up with twins by an man who hates me and only married me for paper. Ain't that some shit and to make matters worse my stupid mirena came out and and I freaking pregnant again by the same damn man who hates my guts. Whats a girl to do another 9 months with no moral support I mean come on while pregnant with my twins I had to drive myself to the hospital 3 times thinking I was in labor 6 months of silent treatment..oh dear I don't think I can handle this shit again..and that is why my life SUCKS.
|Posted by annonymous at February 6, 2012|
Father by 18. Married by 20. Seperated by 26.
3 kids, no money, loads of debt, tookin to the cleaners.
Fact is, I didnt want my marriage to end, she left me because she did not feel "Marriage Councelling" would work? Go figure. I said I was in for it and even was the one who made the appointment. 1 week before it was suppose to happen, she was done.
Life goes on, 12+ years later, I am making good money in a good job.
Bills, Childsupport and day to day living leaves me living from pay cheque to pay cheque.
I lost my youth do to being a father. Atleast I pay my support and see my kids like clock work.
I lost ALL my friends during my divorce, no idea why. They all went bye bye on me. Like I did something wrong.
My family is a lost cause, the least supportive people on earth.
I have a girlfriend and I have been raising her son as mine, but for the life of me I cannot get her to understand she needs to make a good income, we are struggling.
It seems every move I make, its a 70% chance I am goin to make a mistake.
I am happy like 5 minutes a day if that.
It can always get worse, but I don't think it always gets better.
I've been broke since I had my first child. That would make it 20 years with no savings in the bank. Whenever I do save a few bucks, something comes up to take it away (car repair, etc).
Maybe I am suppose to just be one of the unlucky ones and I need to accept it?
|Posted by kaitlyn at February 4, 2012|
I feel selfish writing here, because my life doesn't have to be bad. My life has SO much potential and I was given SO many opportunities. And I've done nothing but manage to ruin everything. I came from a upper-middle class family with a nice home, and I made my family's life hell. I was a brat who was unappreciated of my surroundings, thinking I was owed life and rebellion to society was the answer. It landed me with horrible relationships with my parents, brothers, and extensive family for my whole adolescence. I had friends, good friends. I took them for granted. I never returned favors, I traded loyalty for attention, and thought boys were more important than girl friends. They got sick of me and stopped listening. Every time something bad happened it just gave me reason to push into reclusion more. As if I was getting back at the world by not being part of it. I dated boys every one told me not to, and they were abusive physically and emotionally. I went off to college without saying bye to a single person from home except for my mom. I didn't leave my dorm room and did nothing but cry. When I did eventually tried to become social, I realized the window for making new college friends was closed. I met a boy, who I loved. He introduced me to drugs. He abused me. For three years I immersed myself into the drug culture, until I had a psychotic break. It scared me so much I ran from every one I had met as a result of him, probably for the better. I realized I hadn't made...