|Posted by anonymous at March 1, 2011|
As far as I can tell God isn't real, so as far as I know heaven isn't, either. And if God is real, I can't have faith in him, because it's obvious it's not the God the Christians taught me about, but some kind of asshole deity that likes to see us suffer, and/or uses our suffering as some kind of sick example. Since I lack this faith, on the off-chance God was real, I'd be going to hell anyway.
Which means all I have is, most likely, well under 80 years on some random rock in space, like some kind of bacteria growing on a rotten fruit in a bucket. Purposeless and meaningless, grasping for any happiness that can be found, which are few. Clawing and fighting just to maintain anything resembling a "life", always running into walls. And this is when I'm actually one of the lucky ones, to live in one of the better countries on this earth.
To top that off, with as ridiculously stupid and power hungry as people are on this rock, we're either going to kill ourselves off, or be destroyed by something that could have been prevented if we could only stop our bickering and play nice. And even if our race survives, or overcomes most of today's ills - which is extremely unlikely - I won't be around anymore to congratulate them.
And at the end of it all there will be nothing to show for it, just a bunch of mass floating in some uncaring universe. Just a broken body to be cast into a fire. Is that all I get? Is that all that any of us get?
I wish my life were a better story, but what can you expect with either no author, or a shitty one?
|Posted by iiiiiiiii at February 28, 2011|
my life sucks bc i have to work 70 hours a week just to pay bills and it is too hard to do anything.. there has to be a better fuckin way. i have kids and these days you cant get any help or loans its bullshit. there are so many rich ass people out there who don't know shit about struggle. i am in debt an looking for help and i work my ass off and would pay it back. but unless you have like A one credit you cant get shit.. fuck america it blows the rich get richer and the people who work there asses off barely can pay there bills.
|Posted by anonymous at February 28, 2011|
I can't understand myself. I've been under the tutelage of a fine educator and I've had a good upbringing. But after years of being tormented by an over-active and self critisizing mind I've gone to the best psychologists and therapists. Year after year I've been diagnosed with something new. They once diagnosed me with multiple personalities, but another psychologist noticed that was not the case since I basically change who I am each year. First I started out as a limit pushing party girl who had no care in life and that lasted for a good year and a half. Then I felt a sudden change, possibly brought on by a chemical imbalance in my brain, that caused me to withdraw from any human contact. After the change I pushed my cognitive functions to their limits, studying and absorbing knowledge as best I knew how. Some years after that, I've grown sadistic and am having trouble controlling violent urges. I desire power more than anything now. But there is a part of my frontal lobe that still morally sways me and I am tortured by my thought processes that have caused me to hurt friends and family. Lovers have run, friends dissappeared, family keeps their distance. I'm all alone in my mental prison. I'm on the brink of something chaotic and sadistic. Now the pain is growing everyday. My IQ spiked beyond it's normal capacity. I'm at the end of my rope. I'm starting to like these dark feelings. I need help before I draw blood.
|Posted by touheed at February 28, 2011|
i am soO unlucky that everyone hates me including my parents also.daily i am crying when i am thinked about this my parents love my brother not me and all my relations also hates me ! It hurts me more than i deserve! My life is like a joke! My love also hates me ... I am just like lonley person my frnd is only my lonelyness! I can't survive all this! It hurts me lots and lots just tears are coming from my eyes! I am nothing than waste! Therefore i think that my life sucks and i am unlucky person in this world!
|Posted by anonymous at February 27, 2011|
My life story: i had horrible parents as a child, mom: smoked and dranked constantly, she would throw stuff and break things and hit me. Stepdad: did too many drugs to say, crack, pills, meth etc. Etc. He raped me many times as a child he started doing it when i was only eight, i can remember the agonizing pain when he had sex with me, he countinued to do this until i told someone, he is in jail to this very day. My mom always told me i lied about that to get rid of him. She hates me for that, now i only have my grandmother (she can pass at any moment). Dispite all of the horrible things that happened to me i maneged to keep my grades up and i recieved a schoolarship to harvard university. So for all of you who just are determined that life will never get better im affraid you are terribly wrong. I thank god for the wonderfull future he has given me.
|Posted by JB at February 27, 2011|
Well, let's see life was good until just over two years ago. My wife had surgery for breast cancer. She's still living but life is hell! Intimacy hasn't happened since then. She or I just can't seem to make thing work as they used to. She gets pissed for no reason. Menopause has kicked in. Transferred to a store that is on the wrong side of town so work is he"". The pressure keeps coming at work and to top it all off our insurance isn't paying for all of the things it used to so Money just isn't there. Haven't gotten a raise in 4 years. I just want out!!!
|Posted by anonymous at February 27, 2011|
life really sucks i lost my job after only 3 days and now i have none infact everyone who seems not to have had a job has one and yet me who had one doesnt have. my bestfriend who was a boy hates me and after just i thought i had found myself a new best friend but she doesnt tell me anything and she now talks to some babe with whom we used to share a boyfriend who was cheating on me and yet i had really liked him .this gal called rachael seemed like all she could talk about untill she nolonger even talks to me anymore.i fell in love with a guy but he had dissapered for about a year and i cdnt get him out of my mind and then he came back told me how he still loved me and i believed him and after just about three weeks he dissapeared and his phone is off plus his apartment is locked and the worst thing is that now i seem to have no friends at all and no one to talk to plus i have debts to pay within one week.all the cigars in the world arent solving the huge troubles i have with my family also
|Posted by Neanderthal at February 27, 2011|
My life is hardest, no fire, cause not sure what it is yet, God I need some heat, that dragged' woman in the cave there, she always a grunting me to do some hunting, God it's hard to shape a rock for an arrow head.Gotta figure things out those big creatures ten times my size, if they hungry enough they be taking me down I'm sure of that.Frig, when is somebody going to invent cloth for me to at least cover me stones, frigging cold out here and I think something Icy on the horizon.
And please tell me I will be the first to live past 20!
When you think of it, man kind has been a struggling with everyday pressures for sometime, me included.At least I got me stones covered on a daily basis.
Sit back crowd and just like they said in the 70's "Chill Out" and give yourself a break, you all not that bad.Look into the sun until your eyes burn and realize life is just a big experiment, with you the test subject.You can't perfect it no how, so stop a trying and enjoy a small snippet a day.That's all there is my friends.
God Bless, love u all!
|Posted by Life Sucks at February 26, 2011|
My life sucks so much. I eat the same stuff, where the same stuff, and do the same stuff.I have no social skills at all. No one wants to be my friend. All I have are these stupid video games. I cry every night knowing my life is worthless.
I once had a dream of becoming a great writer that traveled the world in luxury.That dreams over. I eat fried chicken every day,play video games and watch TV and where a blue jacket and jeans everyday(different shirt though).I try the hardest to cheer myself up but its useless. I hope somebody who is reading this could tell me that my life is OK because it just seems like I was just a loser all my life. I try everyday to get my life together but people all ways put me down.
|Posted by Apps at February 26, 2011|
I'm 22 years old, working in an IT company. I'm a B.tech It Engineer from India.
I'm sharing my story not because I have given up ( That I will not do ever ) but just because my life sucks but still I enjoy my life to the fullest and try to bring happiness in life of others.
Here goes my story :
Right from my beginning of my childhood I have seen my parents under the financial stress. I was sent to good school but was never able to match up with other students on financial basis. I had to lie just because your father can't pay is no good excuse and those father who can pay will never understand that. My scool was 6 km away and I used to cycle down in the heating summers where temperature was 45*C around. That makes 12 Km a round trip back home for a small kid who was not given proper nutritions. But I managed somehow, got addmission in good reputed Engineering college and this is the point I got the breaking news , mother suffering with cancer. I was all alone with this news broked over me. Just like a kid I cried and Cursed God. But at the end you have to bear all troubles. people outside can just console you. Soon, we were under financial stress. had no option other then uit my studies, but I took that as a challange, I started coaching. In my third year of graduation i taught students of 2nd year and others. But never let myself go down. Sometimes, I go to the office in such conditions in which I'm not sure when I will come back I will find my Mom dead or alive. But still I don't cry and cusre God, just because someday everything will be all right.
Iam a 53 year old women,divorced and never had any children. I've made one mistake after another to get me to this point. I am in a job that brings me no joy and I go home every night to an empty house. I live paycheck to paycheck and though I have been in the same job for over twenty years, I make less money in 2011 then I did in 2002. I have family, but get very little, if any emotional support from them and have few friends. On my days off, lately I just spend the time in bed. I was married for 15 years, unhappily, and wanted to believe by divorcing I would find the love of my life. Instead I have found noone and lost myself in the process. Married men hit on me and at a vunerable time I got involved with someone. I fell in love with him, he left his wife, but not for me. He left for the other person he was cheating with and is now married to her. I have gotten to a point in my life, where there is truly no joy. I can't imagine living my life like this for another 10 years. It's been over 10 years since my divorce and never did I think I would still be alone. I feel like just a shell of a person, going through the motions of life. I realize there are alot of people who's lifes have been much tougher, yet I can't shake this loniness and being so empty. I cry daily because I feel as if I've got nothing. Maybe being so public with my emotions will lead me to a road of healing.
|Posted by ConstantSadness at February 26, 2011|
I long for the touch of a woman, a loving embrace, a passionate kiss, long talks that result in a lifting of the spirits. These are things that are foreign to me things i've seen only in movies, in songs, and in life. Will I ever experience these wonderful things that make life worth living? Probably not, all my fault due to not having enough courage to approach the opposite sex, low self esteem, no confidence, no money, basically all traits women find unattractive, I would imagine. Appearance wise I feel more beast than beauty. But that's cool, what am I'm going to do? I did not win the genetic lottery, yet I've seen people who look like me or worse with beautiful women which blows my mind. I guess personality goes a long away. I unfortunately have the personality of a Is life worth living when the most simple of all human emotions is never sated? Is it possible to go through life and never experience love? I'm around 30 so i've pretty much given up but it does warm the heart to think maybe it'll happen, deluding myself into thinking love is right around the corner when it's more like around the moon. In my early 20's I made love to a woman once and it was okay yet a forgettable experience, all lust and no love a one night stand or more like a 3 night stand, so i've had sex but it wasn't the way most normal people experience their first time. So i've had sex but never a girlfriend, weird right? I just want a girlfriend DAMMIT! is that too much to ask? I want to hold that love of my life in my arms squeezing her tightly, gazing into those beautiful eyes and spiraling into a whirlwind of ecstasy. A fantasy that will never become a reality unfortunately in my case. *sigh*
|Posted by anonymous at February 26, 2011|
I'm pretty average, really, I shouldn't really have any complaints, but I'm always depressed. I push a lot of my friends away eventually with my self hatred. Every girl I've been with broke up with me because I'm to clingy, except for one, who I broke up with because she cheated on me. I just don't understand why I can't buck up and be cheery. I've tried therapists, talking to people, not talking to people. It doesn't seem fair that so many people out there have valid reasons to be sad, and here I am, with a perfectly adequate life, wanting to kill myself for weeks at a time. I can't even do anything productive, seeing as I'm always sure I'll fail. I feel I'm just taking up space... But suicide is "wrong" so I'm stuck here, enjoying little of the good life I have, loving parents, a few really good friends, even a pretty good computer. I gave up on god knowing that if he does exist, he creates horrible things for no good reason I can see.
|Posted by anonymous at February 26, 2011|
x-mas eve 2010,I have been in an arguement with my wife,due to I wanted to try and work from home,other then going to the same shit job I had for the past 14 years.I have bipolar disorder,I was going through one of my manic phase,I thought I could make money at home through a raido-wifi feed.We decided to spend the night at my wife"s parents house,due to we have not spoken to my parents in years.When we arrived I was telling my in-laws about what I thought I might want to do for work.My Mother in law told me if I left my job and didn"t have another,then I could go to hell.My wife was angry with me,everyone started shouting at me,telling me to sit down and shut the fuck up.My 2 boys were there as well,15 year oldand a 11 year old.I spent about $500 on my kids that was sitting on the floor,that we brought with us.After everyone making me feel like a piece of shit,I wanted to drive myself home.My father in-law,stood up blocked me,and forced me to sit on a stool in kitchen.I told them they are holding me here against my will.My mother in law herd that went in bedroom called police.My mother in-law and my wife told the police I am fucking nuts with a mental disease.The police gave me a choice jail or mental hospital.I figured this is fucked,I cant watch my kids open presents I bought?..So I start yelling outside(look police are going to beat me up).That was enough for them to kick my ass and take me to jail.I spent x-mas there through new-years.When I finally got out on bond...
|Posted by no name at February 25, 2011|
Iam a 53 year old women, single and with no children. I was married,unhappily for 15 years and got divorced 11 years ago. My family has never been close, I"ve got no close friends and I no longer enjoy my job. I divorced with the hope of finding someone that would appreciate me and share the joy of living with me. I have not found that at all. It seems that life only gets harder as one gets older. It's very difficult not really having a family for emotional support, let alone any friends. I truly have lost my joy. Every day has become a struggle. My depression has overcome me, barely able to cope with my job and lack of anything fun in my life. I am my own worse enemy.
|Posted by anonymous at February 25, 2011|
Im 27, I have a 1 yr old with a girl i love & fucked it up with, and my life is fucked. i got addicted to heroin when i was about 17, stayed addicted, went to prison, got out got back addicted, and finally a few years ago kicked with the help of suboxone. i was able to hold down a functioning life and had a son. I was supporting babys mamma/son when a crooked cop pulled me over and threw some dope on me. I had to sit 6mos. in jail but eventually got found not guilty. she & the baby had to move to her moms house 2 hours away. so because of being in jail 6 mos. i've lost my apartment, job, car, girlfriend, and what hurts most my son. also the doctor i was on (who was free) stopped writing subox and now i cant afford to get back on it, so im shooting dope and going through withdraws again. Im broke so im staying with family who dont like me bcause of my past (cant blame em) and they made it clear i cant stay long so the next step is homeless in new orleans. im depressed im a nervouse wreck, i miss my life, i miss my family. i cant even support them i cant even support myself, & now im considering eating a bottle of sleeping pills.
|Posted by pissed off adolecent at February 25, 2011|
UUUUUGH!!!!!!! im a 15 year old girl freshman, and am currently PISSED AT THE WORLD!!! i dont know why im feeling so emotional all of the sudden (its probably cause im getting near that time of the month) but i just cant take it anymore! i feel like im constantly trying to "Make" myself happy and i struggle to not be sad all the time... and im currently feeling really fat (event though i just recently lost 20 punds) ive never had a boyfreind or been kissed and i feel like i never get out of the house, because none of my "freinds" want to hang out with me and i dont have a car. being 15 sucks presidential cock and im just so damn ready to be done with all the bullshit that is highschool! i honestly just feel like giving life the finger m!n) (thats the middle finger) im tired of all the fake assyness of people, like in school everyone has a "reputation" to uplhold and and everyone judges you like its their fucking job! i mean honestly FUCK EVERYONE!! highschool is over rated, hell LIFE is over rated! im tired of adults preasuring me to get good grades and stay sex free and sober. and yet were constantly reminded how short life is. i say fuck it! screw around in school, get high, and have a LOT of sex while your young, and if it kills me before i reach my 80's, so fucking be it! who the hell wants to live to be 100 anyways?! and as for sin...FUCK SIN IMA DO WHAT I WANT BITCH!
|Posted by anonymous at February 24, 2011|
I was abused growing up and the only reason I'm saying this is because I don't know any of you and in need to vent. I'm 17 sometimes my mom still hits me not as much as before. All I hear now is you'll never get married you are never gonna make it to college I hate you and whatever. I needed a way to get out. So four years ago I started caddying and have been working toward the caddie scholarship my whole life. I applies this year and didn't get it, but I got into u of I champaign. My dad wants my to go but again my mom can't be happy and just says I won't make it. What really sucks is this girl just found out today she for the scholarship she goes to my school. She has only been caddying for 1 and a half years now and she's pretty wealthy. She has the perfect life. She now also has my dream, what I have been working for. To make it better I get to hear everyone say how she deserved it tomorrow. I know I should be happy for her but I just can't. I know it pure jealousy. My life just sucks. I would talk to my friends if I had them. I have one friend and for the last year alcohol is my best friend. Even on school nights.
|Posted by anonymous at February 24, 2011|
When i was a kid i was into music,i spent the whole day singing english songs although my first language was not english(it's persian),the love for singing just made me to learn the english well enough to sing.i grew up listening to michael jackson,jlo,madonna,beyonce and X-tina from my radio.
My dad was a sick bastard who always beat me in every moment he could find and my mother didn't care.I always had bruises on my skin and i had so many problems in school and my grades were low.
I always cried at night and wished for a better life without my crazy dad. in high school i realized that i'm gay cause girls were more appealing to me than boys and this one really gave me a hard time.
because of that i didn't experience any relationship with someone cause i hated myself and i had social issues like severe shyness and people phobia.
i was being tortured and beaten by my father until i was 18.then one day i told myself enough is enough and i left home and went to live with my grandmother in another city. Although my grandmother was a nosy bitch but life was better than before cause there was no beating and torturing.
I was 19 when i went to college and got a job.i ditched college in the second year because i didn't like my major,i quit my job,got some money from my mom and left Iran.
I came to Malaysia when i was 2o years old.went to college in here and finally got my bachelor degree in IT but always the thought of music haunt me. ...
|Posted by Alone girl at February 24, 2011|
Its my story. Its different. I am a innocent girl, which may lead sometime into danger. I am 21. My life is not complete. Its complicated to explain my life story in details. Everyone want to use me. My friend call me whenever they need me. In class i dont talk to anyone and they dont want it too. I dont smile always. I dont know whats happyness in life. I hate my life. I dont share my pain with anyone. No one will understand. Am alone i think no need the stupid selfish people in my life.