|Posted by TM at July 31, 2011
so...1 year ago i would tell my life was perfect... my dad was never home but whos family is perfect?? but my mom just get tired of pretending that everything was ok and now im here crying almost every night seeing how my " perfect family" falls apart... my mom acts like cracy shes always yelling at me about everything... i spended 2 month thinking that she was cheating on my dad.. those were really hard days.. but now she seem to hate my dad.. he have asked her out like 5 time y 2 week and shes always tired... it sucks shes always tired. and the other day she told me that i need teraphy beacuase im not normal..... mom you aint normal you hate your life i dont hate mine you hete your jod your husband and you family! she always treat me like im the worts daughter ever.. i most say that im studying with a full schoolarship.
|Posted by Freezing moon at July 31, 2011
My life is pretty stagnant, boring, uneventful, don't have any real friends or a girl friend, and recently got laid off from my job. My job was shit, but it gave me motivation and something to do at least. Now I've got to endure being me, sat at home unemployed with my parents. By the way I'm 22, people keep saying: "Oh you're young, you've got your whole life ahead of you! Do whatever you want!" Okay that would work providing I had a job, a more decent personality and much more confidence. Right now I am a shell of the man I used to be. I had a lot of friends and every single one of them fucked me over, man looking back on it I was a push over, I was so fucking innocent and naive and just let my "friends" shit all over me. I got used for money, I got used for lifts (I was the only one out of my circle of friends who could drive), I even got used for petty things like buying drinks at the bar. I wised up to it and when I stopped being mr nice guy, they all vanished like a fart in the wind. I do have interests I'm dead into heavy metal, but we live in a society where the majority of people only listen to the radio. The few metal-heads I do know listen to stuff I really cannot stand like Slipknot or Throwdown, I wont go into my personal tastes, but let's just say I only meet people with similar tastes at festivals. And even then I haven't been to a festival for two years! As for my love life I have had my fair share of girl friends to be honest, but it's like I have forgott...
|Posted by unlucky at July 31, 2011
I am tierd of living from day to day.. I can't get a good job because I have an extensive felony record... And I have a lot of tattoos( I am a Tattoo artist)... Business is slowing down I have tried everything to get people to come in... I work at a reputable shop In a good part of town... I am constantly 2-3 months behind on everything... I also have a pregnant girlfriend... She has a job but it's with a friend filing papers so not much help... I have a good job lined up in seattle but I can't go because my gf cries and cries about leaving friends and family... This job would be able to fix everything and we could live a decent life... But no... We are moving into my friends house to try and save money but what's going to happen when it's time to move out again... After turning on all the utilities.. First and last months deposit and pet deposit we will more then likely be right back where we started only now we have a kid ... How is moving in with my friend going to change anything.... Every logical and rational idea I come up with she shoots it down... I refuse to raise a child living day to day.... I am so stressed I'm starting to have small panic attacks crazy chest pains and in my left arm.... Of course there is no money for me to get checked out... If I could get this job in Seattle there would be no problems... I could take care of everything.... I'm starting to get hateful feelings twords her( not the baby).... She won't stop smoking weed or ciggerets... I can't talk to her about anything without her freaking out... I know her body is going crazy and the whole hormone thing but damn... I know this may not sound that bad but what am I supposed to do... I have even noticed a difference In how I act twords my BEST friend that we are moving in with...I just want her to see the importance of preparing for the future even more now that we are expecting......
|Posted by sac at July 31, 2011
Well, I'll be 22 next friday. Not one tad bit excited. I have a 4 year child whom is the world to me. Now heres the problem: I've been unemployed for almost 2 years now and so has my mom the only income that was coming in was my unemployment which is gone now. We live off of food stamps and we're a year backed up in rent. I start school in september, but its to prepare me for college because I failed the algebra part of the placement test. I've applied to sooo many jobs and no one ever replies. I'm soo tired of being broke and not having anything! I dont know what else to do. I'm tired of this life I wish I were dead, I think about killing myself all the time, but my son doesnt deserve that. I really dont know what to doo
|Posted by pit of horror at July 31, 2011
Okay, i really hate thinking!! Because i always think (sometimes it can be annoying )
So I want to write and forget something that in my f*cking head
I'm writing because i hate my family (actually saying that words -my family- it makes me feel uncomfortable)
Now you can think i'm a pessimist teenage but it's not for i'm a teen. I always think that my family is pretty weird!! I'm completely sure everybody think that sometimes. But i know that my family is f*cking weird.
I hate my family because we never compromise. They always say something about my life. Even my clothes. Okay!! leave my clothes alone please :))
Today we had a long trip and finally arrived at home. It's good because i miss my bed :)) and we were stay grandma (aaghh it was awful because mom and grandma are same. Their character aggghhhh! I can't find a word to say about it)
anyway. I have really good friends. And we just can't live when we are not together ;) It's weird a little bit :) but that's the truth we want to hang out together :) But mom doesn't allow! Okay is this normal? (i'm really asking! Is That A Normal Behaviour?)
It's not. I hope you can see it my new friends
I want your help so i came here to find a wayout from my family's constraint
What should I do? (and death is not a solution ;) )
|Posted by wntingsomeone at July 31, 2011
I have been looking for love and not having any success at it. I have my own home, I try to be kind to others, some of the guys I have dated it has only been all about them...I have not been on a date now or 9 months, (my choice) I am pretty, fit, love animals. Honestly sometimes the pain is overwhelming! But I know if I just go with anyone, I will even be more miserable, I can't hardly stand it at times. My friends are married, or they have someone and in central pa where I live it is a very small town, I have even considered moving! AUGH. I tried internet dating, blah...maybe just maybe two lonely hearts can find each other here. You ever wonder how come? I do, it makes my throat tight and then the tears come..and I just swallow harder. I meet these guys that are just ego maniacs, they dont value your love at all..I am in such sadness at times.. I wish I had someone to hold there hand, take a walk, snuggle with in bed, share a meal, laugh with, cry with, hold..
|Posted by Natalie at July 31, 2011
Life just sucks.
What else is there to say?
Yes, it sucks more for certain people. People are on the streets begging. Babies are dying. Children can't eat.
What kind of a world is this?
Men are disgusting pigs. Many sit on their butts watching "busty milfs get facialized!" How awkward when you find out your father is one of them.
Women sell their bodies for the pleasure of men.
Smart children cannot go to college because they don't have enough money.
Ah. But yet. "What a wonderful world."
|Posted by anonymous at July 31, 2011
damn life sucks so much right now. im 19 but feel like crap. im at a lame cashier job part time barely get paid but my broke parents are asking for money. theres NO FOOD in my refrigerator. in fact as i write this im on my way to work to start an 8 hr shift on a empty stomach. parents argue all the time over nonsence. moms the most unreasonable person on earth. i have to pay some house bills and buy food. i feel like i thrown these responibilities that i shouldnt be responsible for. damn
|Posted by anonymous at July 31, 2011
I am honestly to the point of thinking about suicide. When I was born my mother nor my father wanted me, they would let me (a 2 month old baby) lay there is my own vommit, shit, and piss for hours. Then when I was 2 my father started abusing me. He used to punch me in the stomach as hard as he could and laugh about it. He beat me with extension cords, fly swatters, and anything that was within reach. Then my grandmother took me away from him. But thats where the mental abuse started. Her husband didn't and still dont like me. He made me feel like shit for everything I had ever done. He made me feel like a burden to everyone. Like I was worthless. Then when I was 5 my uncle started molesting me. I told but everyone thought I was making lies and didn't believe me. Then when I was 8 my mother moved to the town we was living in. And her being my mother I wanted to have a relationship with her. I was too young to know she was no good, I just knew she was my "mommy". It went good for a few months until she started shooting me up with meth. She used to tell her friends right before she did it to watch how I twitched. She and her druggie friends thought it was hallarious. So that started my drug addiction. By the age of 12 I was addicted to meth, heroine, and cocaine. I was also an alcoholic. Then when I was still 12 I got really fucked up and ended up molesting my younger cousin, which I know was my fault and I admit that. At the age of 13, I was sentenced to 4 years in juvie. T...
|Posted by jimmy at July 31, 2011
Well ever since I was in about 2nd grade I have had thoughts of suicide because of not being socially accepted. Im a nice kid and do my best but i just dont see why no one likes me, the up to my life is that i have a good family. When I was in about 4th or 5th grade I took a bowling pin and started smashing it into my face after being told over and over at school that i was worthless and that i didnt belong on this earth. I was never emotionally depressed into all the wrist cutting and crap in middle school because i believe those people just want attention. all ive ever wanted are friends. Since I dont hang around kids i am the target for all bigger kids. i am like the main school punching bag, ive even broken bones to beatings at school. now its a week until high school and from what ive heard it keeps going downhill from here, i SINCERELY do not expect myself to be able to make it through all 4 years of highschool, i am one of the top 5 smartest kids in my class of 350, but i wont make it through highschool because i sincerely do not think that i can survive. i seriously barely survived middle school. i was about 2 beatings or 5 days more rejection away from hanging myself. at this point in the summer i am around my family all the time because any friends that i had in the past have moved on or out of town. well thats all i am complaining about for today, i might check back on this site in 4 years if im still alive to post again, wish me luck please
|Posted by anonymous at July 30, 2011
Three years ago my husband and I separated.... I say separated but in reality he left me pregnant and homeless because he found someone who would worship his mediocrity and suck his penis while she did it.... about a year after this debacle and the loss of our (my) child because of stress and malnutrition... we started talking again. I had moved (obviously... I didn't have a home anymore so I moved in with my sister and amazingly enough found a high school teaching position... anyway)and he was living in LA... he had jumped from woman to woman and was unhappy.... I was recovering from postpartum depression and the loss of a newborn, and we "worked it out"...
He made a bunch of promises he didn't intend to keep, and I pretended that I believed him.
Flash forward two years and he has improved... a little. He is still the center of his own universe, but at least now he tell me he didn't mean to hurt my feelings when he does fucked up shit....
I'm going to school full time as a career change ( oh yeah... I quit my nice teaching job because he moved in with me and wasn't happy in the town we lived in... because even though he watches "Survivor man" like a child watches mickey... he HATES living outside of a city... and I had moved to the wilds of Monatana... which I loved, but I realized that in order or him to stop drinking like a fish we were going to have to move to a city... which meant I was going to have to find another job) I've been accepted to the Midwif...
|Posted by anonymous at July 30, 2011
i gave up the love of my life to make her happier.. what i didnt realize is that i can never be happy without her..
|Posted by anonymous at July 30, 2011
I've realized I dispise the human race. We are idiotic lowly life-forms. We have no special skills(besides intelligence, and even that is debatable), we destroy where we live, and we kill eachother constantly. If we find value in things, why do we use notes(paper money) and coins to represent gold to represent value? Why can't we trade things? Or at least focus on not destroying where we live? Why can't we stop inventing new pollutants and make green fuel, using something like lightning? I hate humans...
|Posted by EmoThug at July 30, 2011
I hate my life so much. why was i born for God to just curse my whole life since birth? im a 26 year old ex con, single, unemployed, no friends, horrible childhood, lonely, unloved & misunderstood. all i want out of life is a slice of happiness but it never comes. i was a neglected child growing up from my family which resulted in years of living in group homes doing drugs & getting locked up at the start of age 11 because i wasnt wanted from anyone. inside im a big hearted loving man thats just misunderstood. deep down inside my heart is still that 5 year old kid that just wants to be loved unconditionaly.
im so used to people coming in & out of my life since i was a child that till this day i try so hard to please just for someone to permanently stay in my life & love me. i have so much trust issues with people because nobody is genuine anymore. everyone has an personal agenda/gain & ends up using me. everybody judges me & sees me as just a thug that wont do anything in life. but thats not me anymore. i changed my life away from the street life but society wont give me another chance. i cant find a job let alone keep one. im getting old & so is my mother. she is very sick & wont have much time left on this earth. im preparing myself mentaly for that day but i cant imagine going through that alone.
i have a daughter that iv only met once. my baby mama never loved me & used me for 5 years. now shes in another state somewhere living a new life. i have n...
|Posted by over it at July 30, 2011
Well what can I say, I'm 19, I've abused drugs since I was 14 mainly weed, alcohol, mdma, meth and few others here and there. I recently quit and am trying to live sober but it's hard cause when i stopped i started suffering from anxiety and depression. I have few friends but the ones i do have don't give a fuck cause there still crack heads.
I've completely fucked my body and mind, I don't want to be like this forever, but i don't think ill ever recover. The doctors want me on meds but I don't want to pile more cocktails of drugs in my body.
Soldier on I guess..
|Posted by anonymous at July 30, 2011
Ok well here we go..my life sucks..no matter how much make up I buy and how much I spend on heels and nice clothes..I never get noticed ever since I gained 50 pounds during my pregnancy 6 years and COUNTING!!... my sons dad didnt want me, nobody wants me..not even my parents ..I know they hate to say I belong to them. I find myself trying to settle for anything just to have companionship..but theyre really settling for me..acting like they like me ..then after they get what they want they move on..and on top of being fat my face isnt the best to look at either.
I get so depressed that most days I have to get drunk to even think IM pretty so I know guys feel the exact way..all this I have to hide from the world ..how I really feel because im know as "the sweet christian girl ..who loves everyone and isnt at all judgemental" which im not about anyone else but when it comes to me I cant say anything nice..im disgusting and gross..I wouldnt and couldnt kill myself because I have a seat in heaven waiting and wouldnt want to forfit my spot ..I know God loves me but why dont I love me..do I have a mental problem?? Ive always thought this way.
I cry all the time ..how I want marriage, true love and affection..but I cant get it..I know I will die alone and everyday I get closer and closer to my demise..I just want to not be so bored to the point im crying because all my friends are in relationships, married..living together..watching movies and eating popcorn....
|Posted by anonymous at July 30, 2011
Well I finsihed college but could not find a job, luckly I had a job paying well but nothingto do with what I went to school for. I went backto school for my master, my sister married a guy I went on a date with, I thought I was going to get purposed to from my boyfriend, but he dumped me. We had dated three years. I got laid off from my job, i cant pay for my school, I cant find a job, ive gained weight. THEn I started dating a guy and he just stopped calling out of no where. My parents moved so I cant move in with them if my condo get forclosed. NOW I find out my college roommate died this week. What next really?
|Posted by saba at July 29, 2011
I feel that what so ever has happened to me is not justified...i do not know why.I even feel scared to ask Allah that why i have been through all this...starting from the early memories where i always felt that my father should not have married by mother as they do not respect each other till now when i feel that even i should not have got married is really painful...i wana ask ALLAH why this all has happened to me...still i get sacred that it must be his will....but why me........why i was abused at the age of seven...why i raised up with a fear in my mind that what will happen it others come to know this....i had irregular periods,,,,,i always thought that i am not a complete woman...i won't be able to give rise to a generation....who would accept me,,,,,,always thought that i m ugly,,no one will ever accept me....always grew up in isolation...was never able to voice my feelings.............
|Posted by Kaybee at July 29, 2011
I am going through a very lonely and depressive phase. I Googled in "I am lonely" and I found this wonderful forum to share my loneliness with many lonely hearts.
Hmmm... Where do I start…. Well...
I am 28 years old and run a small clothes shop, which I opened last year on August. I have a credit card debt of $2000 which may not a lot for many, but it is lot for me because I am an Indian and it amounts to a lot for us and especially when the returns of the shop is not so much...but this is not the cause of my loneliness, just my depression.
I've had good childhood unlike many here. I am the youngest amongst the 4 siblings. My father held a good government post. He is retired now. My mother runs her own private school. My two older brothers are married and well settled in life. My older sister got married last April.
I've always been a peculiar since childhood. I used to love to sit alone and draw and read a lot. I wasn't exactly anti-social or shy but I preferred my own company with story books and art. I was a bright and preoccupied child.
Growing up, I had few close friends and many playmates. I grew up with this friend of mine who was also my cousin. So as we grew up together and were in the same class, we became life long friends and were also more like sisters...
I also have other 2 close friends, one from school and another from college but they are working in different places, far from here.
I've had my share of rebel a...
|Posted by anonymous at July 29, 2011
I am 17 and in a relationship with a girl I truly love. I try my best to do any and everything I can to support and help her. I dream of her and constantly miss her when she isn't around. I never really consider it work or a burden because I love to make her happy. I try to let her know I love her and pour out my soul with my feelings. She is an amazing girl who deserves all the best.
Except she doesn't feel the same. We had been close friends before the relationship and I know she loves me, but she isn't in love with me. She only misses me sometimes and tells me that I don't "fit in with the rest of [her] life right now" and that I "don't feel right" to her.
Worse still, she has stopped herself when we are getting hot and heavy because she "can't get into it" and feels "guilty". It wouldn't bother me if I knew she wasn't ready for sex, but I know she is. We have discussed in on multiple occasions and she doesn't even believe love is a prerequisite for sex. Though I am a virgin, she is not. I don't think it is my looks because the guy she has had sex with before is significantly less attractive (in my opinion as well as others). She has said before it is her own problem and not mine (she has anxiety and intimacy issues), but it drives me mad.
I also feel terrible because I have seen her in a couple of relationships before as a friend. The guys she missed most and felt strongest with were "distant" (her own words) didn't really care about her (m...