I know that all of you who are on this site and reading my post and maybe a few others are having trouble with life right now?!! Why else would we type Fucked up life in a search machine?
Yes life can be shit and yes "our life" is probably the worst right now but what does it matter? No one thinks about others, everyone is after ones happiness.
I have had an disgusting, fucked up life too and it still continues..
Day for day i do wake up and day for day my feelings change.
When i was twelve i hated every human being around me, i was so sick of their lies and promises.. I was so sick of seeing their faces and fucked up minds.
Nothing made sense, no one made sense. Years passed by and i moved around the world searching for something i didnt know of.Searching for the answer of why the hell i am alive.What difference would it make if i wouldn't be here?
None!! Exactly none! No one cares about others.Friends?Friends are just people you share time with, may that be a week or even years it does not make a difference at all.They still are just friends and when the time comes where they need to make a decision its for sure not going to be for your good!!
I am 24 now, life in London since a few years and my mind has still not changed and i did still not find any answers.But there is one good thing that i did learn which keeps me going.. What it is? Its life itself!!The challenge of being able to survive, its the sunrise every morning and the sunset every night.
Its the happy few moments that i have when i feel what i am and what i can do!
Its me being able to make a few people smile.
Every body thinks i am a strong personality, which i am not!
I just want people to think that, in order to survive.
I did set my rules for life which does not mean i do anyone harm.
No i just live my life and if it does not fit the criteria people are looking for than good bye my dear.Figure out for urself what you do enjoy and what you would like to do? Be patient and work towards your goal!Sooner or later it will happen and you will fine your Life!!
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