I was fairly optimystic before 2008. That was until bankruptcy, foreclosure and divorce all in the span of 2 months. Feel free to judge all you want... Even though I had a 740 fico score prior with not one late payment beofore 2008. I also had a huge pool home, a couple nice cars, and people to clean the house and do the lawns. But Yes, I am now a mere deadbeat who bankrupted his bills and could no longer support his children.
The ex-wife was fine. Her dad gave her a place to live and a job. She also got $700 from me every month and $2200 from the state.
The worst part was moving in with my mother and losing the kids to an ex-wife who met a guy 4 states away and moved my children out there.
I went from seeing my children every other weekend and driving 3 hours round trip a week night just to seeing them for dinner.. To never seeing them. She will rarely let me talk to them and she loves keeping them away from me. It's been 6 months, but my 4 and 5 year olds still cry at how much they miss me everytime I get to talk to them.
I always condsidered myself a good guy. Would never intentionally harm nobody and am empathetic against anyone less fortunate or not in a great situation. I have always given freely of my time and money and have helped out whereever I could.
Yet I am cursed until the day I die. People seem to only truly despise me or want to take whatever they can from me. I havent had a real friend in over 20 years. I have lived a life of depression and have never been able to find happiness. I am now stuck at my mothers house for the past 2 1/2 years... in my late 30's and barley make enough money to live here.
I dont even think I am mentally or financially stable enough to live on my own anymore.
I dont know what ever I did to deserve this life God. But I do wish for another one or a quick end to this one. | |
I am so mad at the banks for crashing the economy. I worked so hard to have it all taken away.
I really hate like and despise the pain of it all.
there is no god give up on that idea
if you want or need something you have to attain it yourself
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