Hi folks like many of us on this here, wer writin bout r shitty life...well im gona tell u bout mine,ive bin wanting 2 tell someone 4 many many years bout the things that have happnd one disaster after another why oh why?? as a child i grew up in a house with an xtremely abusive father 2wards my mother,which i still 2 this day believe this lead 2 my brother sexually abusing me 4 a few years in my early teens,which then lead 2 me attempting 2 take my own life on more than once with an overdose which nearly killed me.. which a friend got her dad 2 save me! although my attemps wer genuine at the time,i was glad 2 hav bin saved from death..i love my mother so much and the thought of her suffering cause of me tryin 2 do myself in..it wud kill her 2. i hav had crap relationships one after another..from alcholic 2 woman beater!! i sure no how 2 pick them,my last relationship nearly finished me ,as he was very controlling,needy,minipulative,oh it was awful i felt i had no life,he took over my life,moved himself in2 my home forcfully,such a job a had trying 2 get rid of him..he nearly desroyed me and my family ...i just gt so drained of the hole thing and cudnt take anymore so i tried numerous times 2 break up but he kept crawling back until 1 day enuf was enuf..well 4 a few years runnin he still pesterd me as he only lives down the road from me which makes life still hard 4 me 7 years later im a bit soft and dnt speak up for myself alot,by the way the friend i mentioned is'nt a friend anymore as her husband tried 2 rape me a number of yrs ago i cudnt tell 4 the fear of her nt believing me..but he must hav said sumthing 2 cover his tracks as i found out last yr he had told her tha i tried 2 come on 2 him cause 4 yrs we havnd spoken.i hav bin single 4
7 whole years hav sufferd depression and been 2 counselling..oh how cud i 4get
the most important thing of all,i had an abortion 12 yrs ago im 36 now,and totally regret ever havin
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