Had a good life once until high school - all down hill from there. My best mates started spreading rumors about me behind my back and then started to ditch me at recess and lunch. Made a new friend but he went off to Lebanon to visit family for 6 months, so there I was, alone in high school. I used to pretend I was going to the toilet so people didn't think I was a loner.
I was at an age where teenage boys were discovering girls, well I wasn't, no, I was discovering boys. Alone and gay can pretty much sum up my life.
I have a few friends these days but they ae preoccupied by their girl friends which I do not resent at all because they accepted me for being gay but still I feel alone. I need someone in my shoes, someone I can relate to. I think about what my future holds and it scares me, I would love to have a wife and kids but that can't happen for obvious reasons.
I would feel a lot better if the world was more open to gay people but allas they world stil won't accept me.
I'm 19 so have another good 60 years of my life to go according to the Australian average life span stats. What am I going to do with all that time? Am I going to waste it because I hold back and can't take anishitive ( can't even spell ) I'm to much of a pussy to act out my hopes and dreams.
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Could you be more wrong?
I could go into facts of how people are executed for being gay in some nations, or how the government of Australia made sure gay marriage was never legally valid in an act before parliament in which both parties agreed. But know, all I have to say is 'homophobic father'.
(Yes, I am uh fugging moron, I no nothing and sound iggorant)
you have a loving bf,mother and loads of friends.
most of the rest dont even get accepted,let alone loved.
you dont know what its like to be humiliated and live in fear of being raped 24/7.
i envy you mate.
Keep your head up.
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