ok ok. I believe there is a lot of fun in the world. A lot of interest and whimsy. Perhaps with no real point except that it entertains us as humans. And then we find a source of happiness somewhere-say a holiday or a crush or a fun game or food- whatever. then we exploit it. and find another one. and exploit it. and it keeps happening like that.Maybe more than one at a time.
To be honest I can live with that. There is enough variation in the different kinds of happiness for my liking. But I'm not getting enough. That's where my problem lies.
My problem- well.
ok let's just start by saying that-yes I am another filthy acne riddled teen.I'm 14. You don't have to read this if you think my problem is stupid. Or my writing is boring. that's ok. if you want to leave, leave now.
now that that is sorted.
I'm ugly. It sounds harsh. you can say I'm not, but the truth is there. blindly obvious. I think I have PCOS, which is a disease but I'm not going to ask my parents to take me to the Dr's. no. never. Because a symptom of it is hirsutism which is..excess hair. Which I have. Which is vile. I admit it. And there is something very sad about being disgusted by your own appearance. And believe me I know what is normal and what is not. And as I said. I have acne. I have stuff for it. It doesn't work that well.I was never that attractive anyway.
so that's great huh?
Let me guess that you're either thinking...well she'll get over it, she's just a teenager it's some puberty thing.
or.
Just go to the dr.
Or maybe...just maybe you're telling me to FIND GOD. well i'm an atheist and I'm not changing.
If you're not thinking that then my apologies for categorising you like that.
besides. you've probably given up reading by now.
that's ok.
the thing is this problem is really much more complicated then it seems.
Besides from THAT problem -yes are you sick of hearing my problems..?
I'm kinda lonely
;(
and I'm sad. but you know what
i'm not going to give up and die.
even though it seems like a good option.
and I'm sure there's plenty of people on here who are sad.
and life sucks.
but i guess we just have to deal with it.
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I don't know who you are but, from what I've read, you sound a bit like me when I was 14. Like you I had heaps of acne and it was so bad that kids at school would tease me everyday. I've also had adults, yes adults, accusing me of eating too much junk food lol. Anyway, to make a long story short, after trying plenty of products and creams including proactive etc, nothing seemed to work. I finally went to a dermatologist and after two courses of isotrentinoin (the most potent drug for acne) I was acne free. Though I do still get a pimple here and there even as a 21 year old adult. So what I'm saying is that acne is really just a minor inconvenience if you want to believe me or not.
Another point I would like to make relates to how you see yourself as 'ugly'. Now, like you, I also thought I was ugly. In fact, like you, I was abnormally hairy. Now let's address this perception you have of yourself. You think you're ugly but you're only 14. You will look different when you hit 20 so there is a chance that you may grow up more attractive. However, saying that, I sincerely think that you just have a bad perception of yourself and that you're not ugly at all. At most, you may just not know how to present yourself with your clothing style and grooming etc. when I was your age I also had a bad perception of myself but as I grew up, I realized I wasn't that bad after all.
All I'm saying is that you're only 14 and you're showing symptoms of any typical teenager but it's ok. It will get better and you will see what I mean when you get a bit older.
Also, if you do get down from time to time, just think of the things you do have because, trust me on this, there are far greater problems such as not being able to get a job to financially support yourself, being homeless etc.
Listen, in case you want to tchat from once in a while here is my hotmail adress. ( ahd_alkadi3@hotmail.com), I am looking forward to hearing from you!
Best,
Nisrine
I am now on birth control (i llose weight off it) and get laser treatment, which is expensive but worth it. After 4-6 seesions hair disappears!
All is not hopeless my dear. Try to concentrate on your studies and making yourself a good person and everything will be all right.
Also remember, certain people become addicted to a certain kind of sadness.
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