The time when i heard my dad having cancer was when i was 14. Im still only 14 now so im pretty much being a slave around the house just because my dad cant do any work. I had been court up in 2 relationships so far in year 7. One i thought was useless and the other, i guess is the reason im still alive. Im still in the second relationship and been in it for almost a month now. But its just the constant same lovely dovey shit. I love her so much but i just dont know if she loves me since she lives 2 cities away from me. i just dont know why im so depressed over a relationship. I should be happy. But sometimes i just keep wondering dose she really love me?
Well i guess in life we always have questions, judging our relationships and our self of steam.
I'v had so many friends since i have been on this earth for 14 years. Most friends stabbed me in the back leaving me with hatred in my heart. Other friends always supported me to do good and bad, and i still haven't learnt how to choose my friends. Im the type who always try's hard to fit in so i guess thats how i ganged so much popularity. Now dont get me wrong even tho im popular dose not mean i dont have people who always try's to ruine my life. I guess it sucks to be popular then being a person who has no friends, because of all the pain you will get, with all these friends stabbing you in the back and making you feel useless, and i guess thats what is happening to me right now. Thats how i pretty much got suspended 2 times this year on my first year of high school. But its not only the suspension that ruined my life its me trusting a girl who gave me oral sex and pretty much got me in trouble. So that pretty much sucks.
My family has been on and off and thats another reason why im so depressed. I mean of all the stupid crap they fight about. Its just like one of those dramma reality shows. It sucks so bad to have peasants who always grounds there kids just over stupid things they did, i mean no ones perfect. My parents tend to think every child is supposedly to be perfect and if there is anything wrong with them they would seem to grow annoying with overprotection for a long period of time before everything goes back to normal. They have been involved in everything i do and its so fucking annoying. They do let me walk my self anywhere thats not to far from home but besides that they are so annoying with everything i do. It also sucks to have your dad diagnosed with cancer because of all the burden put on your back. You have to do so much shit that pretty much changes your life for ever.
You may think this story isn't as bad of all the other storys you may have ever read on this website but i guess im just telling you my story so far.
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