I'm 18 but I feel like I'm 80. I've missed out on most of my child hood. I wake up every morning alone sober and completely sore every one of my joints hurt my muscles come and go in waves of pain. My chest hurts as though I'm being stepped on by an elephant I can't sleep and can't seem to stay awake at the same time.
I wonder if things would be better if I were dead. I get the short end of every thing in life I'm an 18 year old man who's got an easy 30 years of life stuffed under his belt. I go to school I work and still get absolutely no respect from anybody around me. My mother bitchs away the few women that I've been able to get to go out with me so I'm the only one in my family that doesn't get laid. I'm always alone and always swimming against the current I contemplate suicide but I couldn't put my mother thru that kind of suffering she's already sick and in constant pain from all her diseases I couldnt put her thru that nomatter how much I hate living.
So I wake up every day go to school then to work then come home listen to my mother bitch about this that and the other put up with her horny boyfriends bullshit and go to sleep then repeat allover again the next day.
I just need someone that I can call on when I'm on the edge. Someone real that I could trust to be there for me I don't want to wake up tomorrow.
I need a true friend. | |
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