LIFE SUCKS : Attitude

Im 25, live with my parents. No money, no degree, no friends. I hate my job. No one ever wants to hang out with me. I usually just stay at home on the weekends. To top it off, I am fat and ugly. I hate my life.

Why me !

Why is it that my life has turned out the way it has. I tried to be a good person and all I get in return is a shitty life. There's so many reasons why life sucks. Why did I leave school, why do I isolate myself from people when theyre getting to close, why doesnt anything good last forever ! I've isolated everyone so much that they all hate me. I have no friends, no boyfriend, no school, no work, no career path no direction in life. I have so much hate inside of me ! Why me ! I want everybody to leave me alone and I wana be anorexic again but this time I won't let anyone get in the way, at least when I was sick I had a routine, confidence, skinny body, friends, a job, my course . Why did they ruine everything I was doing so well until they gave me food ! But this time I won't let them I'm stronger now they can't trick me. I won't be happy till I'm as light as a feather.

am I depressed?

NOt sure am I depressed, but I don't like living in this world. Not much complaints, got a job, a place to live, but just upset everyday.

I am in my mid-30s but already planning for the day I die.
I can't help to keep educating my parents that they have to die one day... of course, not surprisingly, my parents don't like to see me much...

Not really sure why I turned out this way.... I am a freak.

What am I doing wrong?

I'm 34 years old. I have the most wonderful loving son. I put my time and effort to become a good mother. I work and to feel in the holes in the time I got left - I workout. It seems I shouldn't have any time left to feel alone but I do. I don't know how to deal with this . I hate myself for being so weak and letting emotions take over me. I get angry every time I'm trying to analyze what am I doing wrong.
I was taught to concentrate on bigger better things. And the rest will come when the time is right. But when will it be? How long should I wait?
I don't have any friends because I don't know how to make them. I was raised with" Don't trust anyone. They're all lying and using you ".
Since I was a child I wanted so bad to be accepted and be likable. I could never achieve that.
My efforts are a waste of time because I can't fit in among others. I'm considered antisocial.
I don't like games people play and I don't want to be hurt anymore. I wish I could just become a heartless person.

i hate it

I cant take this life anymore. I was trying as hard as I could to be a good person then life took a shit right on top of my head. My wife has been cheating on me, comes home and tells me this. Then tells me she has the clap and that I need to go get checked out. I go to work broken hearted, come home and she took everything I held dear to my heart. My tv, japanese hentai collection, star trek movies, and my dog warf. I went to the bank so that i could get a six pack of beer and the whore closed my account and took all my money. So then I start thinking about my kids, and shit dont add up. They all have curly hair, and are dark complected. I just want to die

Handsome yet unworthy

I have always felt good about myself, people have always complimented me about my looks and smiled. Though being myself i truly hate the person inside me, sometimes i think if i was not born with looks would life treat me better? Having good looks is not something i like having. I seek the advances of body modification in the future to fix this problem i have, i have so many lies so many secrets and a life with mental thoughts swirling inside my head.

To many times i come along certain people who seem to have a great persona well at least that is what i see at first. Yet though people only use me for my looks and play with my emotions at times i cry because i want to find someone who does not look at me just for my looks, i want someone to fall in love with me for what i have to offer inside.

I am not your typical good looking type of guy i have secrets i sometimes turn to online dating sites and make a fool of myself posting ads for sex to feel the need to fill in the emotions i do not share with someone true. I have probably had allot of sex more than the average person my age and its something gross i live with. I am only 18 and sometimes i just think to myself why was i chosen to look this way and face this path. I have been contacting plastic surgeons to help me out with my problem and i have been turning into tattooing and all these other type of surgery's and complicated procedures to change my face to change my body to change the way people will ...

Why do the Rich people have it so good?

Life sucks…
I hate life, because ever since I was younger, I had it all… did not have to work, did not have to worry about anything but “what I’m going to wear”, or “wear I’m going to go”
Today, I suffer from depression, wondering “how am I going to put food on the table to feed my family” No one wants to help people these days. I’ve been through so much these last few years, I can’t stand it anymore. I can’t stand being a broke ass.
It makes me sick seeing those who do have the success, luxury and money… And they don’t even bother to help the less fortunate. Yes I know, what one would say… “Work for yourself” “nothing comes easy these days”. I’ve heard it all before…
But honestly, everything I try nothing works out… No one wants to hire me.
Why? Because I have little experience, and people need to have COLLEGE DEGREES to become School janitors these days.
Weird? Isn’t it. How all of this technology in the world, people are getting less and less work, there are more people starving, and going without then most of us realize. Because robots are taking over people’s lives.
All I know is, I had to say this somewhere, for those who read and think...”meh” it’s ok. I just fucking hate life, and wish I’d die already, then I wouldn’t suffer, I’d rest in peace. Maybe I’ll die after I’m done writing this…
Thanks

Tired of life

I am so sick and bloody tired of not getting what I want in my life. All my negative voices keep me convinced that I don't deserve anything good in my life. Why is it that we can`t stop these voices from crushing our spirits and making us feel like crap.

I prayed tonight for help and didn't get it and now I just want to crawl under a rock and die there. I have been working on myself for so many years to reach a place of peace and just when I think I reached it... pooof I crash and burn.

I am so tired of picking myself up each time that at times it just seems easier to just give up. Even as I write this, I am not finding anything to give me hope.

If there is life after death, it must be much better than my life right now... so why stay...

God help me find a reason tonight, send me a sign of promise that my dreams will come true. I am not ready to give up but I need help.

what a waste

Here I am sitting in this hot ass car of my girlfriend and thinking that I have no purpose in life. Day by day I wake up to the same thing. Either my stupid job as a security where they put me at a door that never even gets unlocked for 8 hrs n then home to bitching n arguing. If not work then I go to my college classes where I don't feel like I fit in bc everybody looks at me like I have a fuckin problem or like I just dnt belong in the class. My family is all broken up nobody calls anybody or evn checks on eachother. It used to b so perfect, we all would meet at my grandmothers house everyday and just be a family. But now its like everybody tries to stay far away from eachother n act like they don't want anything to do with anybody. Nobody calls me or wants to talk to me even when I call or contact them. My stupid ass friends from high school are doing their own shit but nothing new just the same shit. They were the ones I would turn to when I needed somebody but then they got me into some trouble with the law n landed myself in jail bc I took the wrap for them. He swore like he didn't know what went down n then he told me that he woulr help n pay my fines n I haven't seen a damn penny from that low life skumbag asshole. Now my girlfriend thinks that I need to adjust to how her feelings r n I try but its to the point to where I can't have an issue without her gettn mad or her tryn to control the situation n turn the table on me. The only thing is is that she's my only friend and only person I have in my life. My life sucks balls.

Feeling worthless and a failure

I'm reading all these other posts and all of a sudden feel selfish. I hate my life, but I haven't been abuse, my parents are great and I live in a happy environment, but I'm not happy. I'm a15 year old girl, I feel as if I should be happy and carefree, but I'm not. It all started in grade seven when girls started bullying me. They called me worthless and made me feel terrible and completely alone. The worst thing was, these girls bullying me were my "friends". I did what they tell you to do in elementary school, I told my mom and everything got dealt with, but the wounds were too deep, and it still hurts today. After that, my family went bankrupt and we lost pretty much everything. We
Ost our car and my dad lost s job, we almost lost our house too. The next year I worked really hard to make new friends and we eventually overcome the money problems. But this year, it seems things are going down hill again. I play basketball and suck.at least I feel like I do. I played on the high school team this year and my coach was constintly putting me down and making me feel bad. I also didn't make the summer team I tried out for and the camp I tried out for. I see other people around me succeeding and I want to and try so hard, but can't. Another thing is my sister was recently diagnosed with depression. It's really hard. I hate seeing her suffer. Because of her problems, I feel like I can't tell anyone about mine because I don't want to be a bother. I hate it. I started cutting myself too. I'm scared I'll do something more sometime. Like kill myself. I just want to disappear. I'm embarrassed by the lack of amazing things I've done with myself. Why am I so unhappy? I'm so young, I should be happy, why aren't I happy?

Meh

Why am i always crying on my bed? When i come home upset, with awful thoughts in my head, we just leave wiv a goodbye, theres no love, no warmth inside, just pure hatred. u look at me with disgust as u turn ur back an walk away slowly, my eyes fill up with tears as I feel so lonley, I gasp to say a single word, it hurts to even speak, Whats left of me tries to stay strong but I fail because my heart is so weak, I dont know where i belong, the only place I know, is in your arms. I just want to be loved, accepted, cared for, appreciated, put me first above everything an everyone, be the most beautiful girl u ever seen, be proud of me. But u don’t see me like that at all, u see me as one big failure, sorry im not perfect.

waste of time

I could write out everything that's wrong but I've already done that so many times. I'm tired now. It doesn't matter anymore. I have chronic, debilitating health issues on top of being mentally pathetic and emotionally weak. Apparently I have sh*tty character too or else I wouldn't be such a self absorbed train wreck. I'm 23 years old and I live alone on social security because I'm so terrified, disgusted, and confused by the entire world and myself. I rarely leave the house unless I'm going to steal food from the grocery store in attempt to cure my aliments which never works. Everyone I've ever met thinks I'm insane because of a few episodes of expressing my frustrations in less than eloquent ways ...What's worse is I could care less about their judgment because I'm so unimpressed by their perceptions anyways. The reason it's a problem is because I'm all alone. My best friends are animals and I've gained 30 pounds in the past year from becoming sober to hate myself more. People keep dying that enjoy their lives. People that were surrounded by loved ones...I don't understand why their party gets cut short when my misery continues to be stretched out.

my unremarkable misery

I had a hard life growing up, constant verbal and physical abuse growing up at the hands of my siblings. over summer when we went to stay with our dad he was a dysfunctional predatory person who is pretty much batshit crazy, he devoted much of his energy to terrorizing us. I'm a complete social failure.. I am afraid to go outside, afraid to be around the general public, in my mind im just a piece of shit to them, whenever i walk close to people talking i huff and puff and breath really loudly just in case they are talking shit about me i hope by doing this i can muffle the sound, I have lost grip with reality at times in my life, and now the shame and humiliation is to much for me to cope with. between the abuse and lonliness i am emotionally devastated and its been that way since my early childhood memories. Its shocking to me how quickly time is passing me by virtually unchanged, im 21 now and i just sit alone at home year after year with no hope of a better life. I have mental problems that wont go away.

Cant hold myself anymore !!!!

I am 27 years old female who is tired of adjusting, crying, tolerating and above all living! Had a terrible childhood as my Parents relation didn't work well. Saw my dad beating my mom hundreds of time. Still those memories get me unstoppable tears. Regret that why didn't I do anything ???? Now they have taken divorce and are better off. Still things are very chaotic :( Lost love of my life because my dad did second marriage and my lovers family wasn't fine with it. My husband ditched me ....... don't feel like living,nothing makes me happy despite my 8 months old son !!!! have to live for him !!!! Thanks god for giving me him


Its tough getting over things which happened with me....completely shattered,hapless and hopeless......

but will keep trying to bounce back!

Complete failure

I can't believe that there are so many people out there who feel like I do. I have never googled anything about hating life before and when I did I found all of this, which in some strange way has been of comfort. I really do hate myself and feel a total waste of space on this earth. I have eyed off the rafter in my shed and the rope and in some weird way feel comforted that it's there when things get too much. Today it feels too much but I am so tired that I can't be bothered going outside. I don't know whether that is a cop out or not, but that's how it is. I only ever try to help people or do someone a good turn yet I seem to get abused all of the time. My pot is empty and I have nothing to give anymore, so no point being here really. I have a couple of pets and they are both 15 years old, so as soon as they have gone, I am out of here. I am have held a management job and worked in Govt for nearly 40 years, was sexually assaulted by my boss over a long period of time, felt dirty and worthless. I have no family and my mother died 2 years ago, so hung around for her. I spent my whole life caring for my parents, being criticised by my siblins who have all cut me out of their lives due to me protecting assests after our father died. I had to do that as Executor and I had the responsibility to realise my mother's assests. Not according to them. I no longer work due to having a heart attack about 4 years ago, which was due to my high pressure job and no support to do a 4FTE position, then I became depressed and had a breakdown I guess. I couldn't work again, so here I sit in total misery, not knowing where to from here. I spend my life in bed hoping that I don't wake up.

My life is made of suck and fail

Two years ago I lost my fiance to some two-bit whore he met at a restaurant. We were living together at the time, and he decided to break up with me slowly, first starting with the "we should take a break" speech, then the "we should start seeing other people" speech, and finally "I'm breaking up with you." He was cheating on me with two of my friends most of the time we were together; I don't count it because he had asked and received my permission to screw around with both of them, though one he asked be about after the fact and I didn't find out until later. He justified breaking up with me as "I don't want to use you and walk all over you, and I don't see myself improving any time soon." This story has changed each and every time it's mentioned, by the way. Stupidly, I'm still in love with him, and he is a great guy. He's improved a great deal since I met him--since he broke up with me, even! We're best friends now, and while that relationship is wonderful in and of itself, I want so much more out of it that I know I'm never going to get. So that's the suck.

Anyway, I was living on my own in the one-bedroom apartment we used to share working a shitty job as a customer service agent for a major telephone company. Every day was hell. I was screamed at by people because policies that I have no control over changed, I was called a fucking idiot for doing my job, a worthless cunt for reporting fraud (the guy doing the fraud called me a cunt, not the person I report...

More to life than this...

Im overweight, I have no self esteem, I have raised two teenage boys by myself with no child support, I work my ass off to make ends meet. I have no life. I have 3 cats who are the only things that are every happy to see me. I have no friends or family that are worth a damn. No adult conversation unless at work with my clients discussing technical issues.So lonely. Tired of being told how beautiful I am BUT I would be stunning if I only would lose some weight. Nobody would even care or notice for days on end if I never made it home and drove my car off a cliff. Can't stand watching "happy" movies, hate seeing people in love. So sad and empty inside. There has to be more to life than this. I do community service for an animal rescue to refrain from laying on the couch on my little time off. I'm a friggin old cat lady at 39 years old. Scared of relationships been burned to many times. Molested as a child by several of my mom's friends/boyfriends. What the hell. It's Saturday night I'm laying in my bed watching COPS with 3 cats and have to wake up at 3am to work 13 hours on Mother's Day...nothing ever to look forward to.There has to be more to life then this...

This just can't go on

I have paranoid personality disorder. Wherever I go, people seem to look at me with contempt and arrogance. I just can't stand when they're laughin, feels like it's about me and I just can't do anything about it. I can't react cause this will make em laughe even more. People always manage to have the last word, and that pisses me off. They dare talk to me sometimes and I think it's rude. They treat me the exact way they don't to be treated. Sounds like they figure out my weakness just by looking at me and they use it against me. Maybe it's my imagination, but I just can't help thinkg it's the truth. All my conversations go about my insecurity, I just can't think of anything else to say. I'm constanly needing to be reassured, and I'm afraid to show who I am, fearing that it can be used against me. I don't know what to do. I need help. How can I look stronger, or how can I get rid of this thinking ? My life's become a living nightmare. I'm all the time running scenarios of persecution in my head, everyone can harm, everyone can hurt, and I know nobody cares. People have the right to do whatever they want, but I don't, cause they decided so. SHIIIIIT !

Too good to this world

It´s simple: I´m too good and golden hearted to fit this world. I´m done with men playing with my feelings when all I do is just open my heart to them and treat them right. Done with hypocrits and with all the superficial things people always appreciate. I´m done with it and even though I even tried to be more religious I realized things wotn change just because I am, so fuck life!!!

I can't stand it anymore

So to start things off, I'm feeling really bad right now. I never really had a "great" childhood, although my mother did everything she could for me and my brother. My dad who had weekend custody would often leave us waiting to be picked up. I'm not sure how this has subconsciously effected me as i was young. As I grew up through middle school I was a loner, outcast, weirdo, etc. I never really had many friends. I did what I could to get by though and stayed with the neighborhood kids who all hung out together.

In high school I was still a loner, I pretty much was known as my brothers little brother. So everyone knew me from him. I knew nobody really cared about me or wanted to talk to me I was just sortve there. But in high school I got into drugs and feel out of touch with most of my friends as I had to repeat my junior year, to this year I rarely talk to my "friends" from high school.

Lately, I feel like such a loser, like nobody wants anything to do with me. I'm not good enough for anyone. I never kissed a girl before in my 22 years of life. And about 2 years ago I finally found a girl that gave me the attention I finally felt truly happy. I loved her but she turned out to be a phony and walked away due to the distance, found a new boyfriend and wants basically nothing to do with me. I was honestly happy all through my younger years without knowing love and what not. Now I just feel so lonely, no real friends, all i do is drink, the girl i love wan...