| | Posted by thendaragirl at March 20, 2011 |
I am a lesbian who was in a 10 year relationship with a woman who left her marriage for me. I helped raise her four ungrateful children whom seem to think that the world owes them a living and decided that at the age of 15 that they could pop out a couple of children and call it good. Now don't get me wrong, i love my grandson dearly and listen to him say everytime i see him, that he wants to live with me. remember these are no blood kin of mine and him living with me would be damn near impossible due to that fact. I'm just the evil stepmom that ruined their lives by coming into it and taking over where their dead beat dad left off. I now live in the "mantefactured home" (trailer) in the back yard of my ex's parents property. Ok how's that for being fucked up? I have a job, but only make enough to pay some of the bills. I have to rob from peter to pay paul so to speak, and on top of that i have no children of my own to take care of me when i can no longer do for myself. I have several health problems and part of a left lung. I live in Texas (as if it's not bad enough) and i'm a counselor for ex offenders who, all the time,are crying about how horrible their lives are. They have it good. Now my ex has taken in several kids that thought that their lives were horrible and she decided one day to tell me that the fucking faggot that came to stay with us, was now her best friend. What happened to us? She always said that she wanted to be the "cool mom" and now that i'm gone she... |
| | Posted by anonymous at February 24, 2011 |
When i was a kid i was into music,i spent the whole day singing english songs although my first language was not english(it's persian),the love for singing just made me to learn the english well enough to sing.i grew up listening to michael jackson,jlo,madonna,beyonce and X-tina from my radio.
My dad was a sick bastard who always beat me in every moment he could find and my mother didn't care.I always had bruises on my skin and i had so many problems in school and my grades were low.
I always cried at night and wished for a better life without my crazy dad. in high school i realized that i'm gay cause girls were more appealing to me than boys and this one really gave me a hard time.
because of that i didn't experience any relationship with someone cause i hated myself and i had social issues like severe shyness and people phobia.
i was being tortured and beaten by my father until i was 18.then one day i told myself enough is enough and i left home and went to live with my grandmother in another city. Although my grandmother was a nosy bitch but life was better than before cause there was no beating and torturing.
I was 19 when i went to college and got a job.i ditched college in the second year because i didn't like my major,i quit my job,got some money from my mom and left Iran.
I came to Malaysia when i was 2o years old.went to college in here and finally got my bachelor degree in IT but always the thought of music haunt me. ... |
| | Posted by Casey at January 16, 2011 |
I guess my life started sucky. I guess. Blahblah mom gets knocked up young, blah blah, dad leaves when im 2 havent seen him since..blah step dad...half brother....step dad and mom divorce blah blah uncle kills himself, go to a new school blah blah, two of my classmates die blah blah. But the suckiest part- IM A DOPE ASS FUCKING PERSON. IM REALLY SMART AND FUNNY AND CREATIVE AND HANDSOME. and im not trying to be concieted because in my day to day i try to remain as humble as possible. It just doesnt make sense. I dont think my mom ever believed in me or my talents and i think shes always resented me. oh right im gay. she never got me and she thinks she does. Im gay and im artistic and im like my dad and she doesnt fucking like it and never has. I was "DIFFICULT" my brother? Wonderful. talented. different ways- sports academics normal easy shit.and shes always believed in him. and she always supported his talents and his gifts and hes really sucessful. im single and lonely and feel empty and worthless and i just want someone to make me feel fixed. |
| | Posted by bobbyy at January 7, 2011 |
i have quite alot of friends, all girls that is. no guys want to be my friend because they think im gay (witch im not.) im just starting high school and its hard and stressfull. i get called gay, faggot, queer, and alot of things. ive thought of suecide. if i owned a gun i sure as hell would have already killed myself... so i cut myself. and everyday i go to school with a smile on my face and act like im fine, but im not. ive tried talking to close friends about this && they dont really care, or they think im being stupid and overreacting. idk what to do... my life sucks. :/ |
| | Posted by BOA at January 1, 2011 |
When I was 14 I was raped, by three boys, first orally then anally. I am male. I had no friends, and it seemed like while I was having sex with boys the boys liked me, so I continued. My parents divorced, in part because my dad found out I was having gay sex, and mom said it was okay, dad didn't want a queer son. All my life since, even though I had girl friends and sex with girls after I turned 18 .... when life was at the lowest, I turned to sex with males.
When I was 24 my younger brother age 22 died .... and it is possible that I helped cause his death ... not a criminal act, but it may have been caused in part by my actions.
More dating girls, and various roommates, and during lonely periods of my life, more sex with males.
I got married, fathered a son, and when she cut me off sexually, I began searching for a male lover, but before that happened she divorced me, and took my son away from me, (as well as her kids, who I was very fond of).
I gave up on women, having sex, with men, a relationship with a man, but I love women, so I met a girl who was open to sharing my bed with another guy. They ended up running off together. My dad died one year, then my step father died the next, then my mother died the following year, leaving me with only my son, who was 14 and visited on weekends.
I bought my ex out of our house, when we got divorced, having to refinance. Then after 19 years with a company, I got laid off, tried to start a business, failed, and had to refinance, then got fired from a company (truly was not my fault ) and had to refinance again. I owe 110k on my house, then assessed at over 260k.
The economy tanked, my house is now worth about 65k, my son got stupid and just got sentenced to four years in prison. I am 60 years old .... and the only thing I have going for me is a steady job, no lover, male or female, no prospect. |
| | Posted by the girl who has no choice at December 24, 2010 |
Im 21 i live in a country where women has no right to work what she wants,to say what she thinks or be who she is..and besides that iv chosen the dificult task and passed the limit..im a lesbian but this is not the problem yet,but for sure will be soon,when someone is going to learn about my sexual orientiation.
my biggest problem is my family,my sister 25 just got divorceand my mum is pushing her so bad to marrie again her ex,beacuse of what th epeople would say r think or who wil marry her again...this sucks so bad..home is becomin hell all the preasure and yelling sometimes and beating..i just wish i could take my sister and my niece and go somewhere far away from home..have a job a normal one,and not like here i only get payed 70 dollar a month can u imagine...
My life really suckssss..... |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 21, 2010 |
My mum had me when she was just 14 and my biological dad ran away. Then she married Mark at 16 and he was 20. And he basically bullied me throughout my whole childhood. I got picked on all through Primary School for being Fat.
Got raped by my uncle at 10 years old and he was convicted Not Guilty BY ONE FRICKEN VOTE!!!
Got bullied once again all through high school for being Fat and Dating A Girl(I'm Bisexual) in my last year!
My mum had 6 kids with Mark, and when we were just beginning to bond she divorced him. Ever since then I became Bi-Polar and Suicidal.
Mum then Shagged a bunch of men and got Pregnant again! I spend my whole time acting like thier mother rather than older sister!
She then ditched him for Another bloke and is now Pregnant with her 9th baby and is once again single!!!
I'm struggling in college and have no time for a job!
My mum said she is going to put the unborn baby up for adoption when it's born but I want to adopt it instead. But only being 18 with no job and no house of my own I'm scared of what will happen to my unborn brother!! I wish I had some help!!? |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 7, 2010 |
Everyday i wake up with my skeletal body making an attempt to finish my day. I'm a college freshman & i hate my life. My entire life, I've been a loner. Once 6th grade started, I became extremely shy and only at the end of high school, did i finally achieve something sort of making an attempt to be social. I have no self-confidence & I'm a guy. It doesn't help that I'm gay, though I consider myself to be homoromantic.
Every passing day feels like a compressed pressure I constantly keep bottled up inside of me. I'm mixed/asain/pacific island, 18, 5'10'' and 140 lbs. Everyday, i feel like I'm slowly fading into the darkness. I'm slowly losing my grip on reality and it scares me to death. I've never been in a relationship, let alone even kissed someone. I have no friends & the 3 i had, they all arn't here for me anymore.
My best friend I ever made in high school has similar issues with me. In the 11thgrade, we were best of friends. But somewhere in my depression, I hit her twice. Her nose bled & i got suspended for a week.We still went to prom after and since then, we've never been as great as friends though we still are. She found a boyfriend and I slowly became friends with her them. We all did drugs together and alcohol.
My other friend, he moved to another island. He's my closest male friend. It sickens me to my stomach that i ditched him last minute for the college he's at now because i got nervous.
My other female friend, she moved to Seattle. All three of my closest friends are never around me. In college, I only go to classes and find myself in solitude most of the day. I don't know what to do and am not sure how much longer i can handle this. I don't have the motivation much longer to continue. Fucking loathe my life & just want to become a shadow already. What's the purpose of me even trying anymore. |
| | Posted by anonymous at November 23, 2010 |
I'm pretty young, 13, but please don't tell me i realize this. I am gay when I told my dad he excepted it but when i told my mom she said that there was something wrong with her kids because my older sister is les. From that day on i tried my best to denie what i felt. it really hasn't worked out. My so called friends constantly ask if i am gay i tell them no.
when i first realized that i liked girls my best friend slept over my house (she likes girls as well) i was really attracted to her. Lately she wont talk to me or sit by me and she is just a completely different person but i really feel like i love her. I miss a lot of days in school because when i see her far away i get depresses and then i get a fever and nauseous it really is horrible. I am a straight A student with big goals but i'm not sure if ill make it when i get depressed i sleep. I once slept for 2 straight days having weird dreams and my dad was worried because i really didn't do anything to get so tired. I know my life doesn't really suck but still it feels nice to let it out. |
| | Posted by kayleigh at November 19, 2010 |
My life basically sucks. I'm 18, in high school, and have a girlfriend. Doesn't sound bad? My former friends call me a dyke all the fucking time, my friends sometimes ignore me, and my entire family are homophobes. The only person who gets me is my girlfriend rachel. She gets called a dyke just like me every fucking day. We kissed in the hall in her freakin house, and her dad throws a friggin book at us. Being a lesbian is fucking hard. That's why I hate my life, and Rachel hates hers. |
| | Posted by ricky bobby at November 11, 2010 |
For some time now i find myself in these sticky situations, i just cant help myself, i start the night out with my mates clubs and pubs having the good time with the lads, looking at the ladies, banging on about sport, then i get a few drinks down my neck and before i no it, i am giving head to the nearest man in run down toilet.
I Like men and i dont want to like men. I am the popular one in school, i am the team captain, the one everyone wants to be around but I like cock, makes me feel sick and everyone that knows me will feel sick. My Dad will hate me for sure, my mum wont speak to me, and my friends will push me away.
I dont no what to do. I cant go on keeping a secret, but i am to scared to tell, and a part of me hate its to. |
| | Posted by anonymous at October 20, 2010 |
Hi everyone.
I guess most of you are from America, or at least from a anglo-saxon country. I'm not. I'm from morocco, a muslim country south Spain. Since a very early age, I discovered how society is unfrair. How weak people does not mean anything to others. I was weak (But I'm not anymore.) And the worst among all of this, how gay people are indesirable !
I am gay, and I am atheist, two things that the muslims hate over anything else. There is no need to tell how people mocked my effeminacy. Neither how my father was about to go crazy when he learned that I was homosexual when I got teenage. And how he tried to make my life a hell. He's still trying, with more difficulty because I caught him talking to a teenage girl (He's 53 !). I'm blackmailing him : if he does not leave me alone, I will tell the police, and this works everytime. And this if fun !
There are so many other sucking things in my life, but I don't have time enough.
Hope my message does not suck too much !
If there is some advise I could give, this would be : find how sucking life could me funny ! That makes us more clever, and more objective, yes, I swear ! |
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| Posted by Kev at October 19, 2010 |
I don’t see any stories of pedophile here, only gays. Well if you gays think you have a raw deal in life, try being a pedophile like myself. Life is total hell believe me. At least being gay is not illegal in most parts of the world and being gay is acceptable to a small percentage of the world population while being a pedophile is only acceptable by those who are pedophiles themselves, probably less than 0.01 percent of the world population. Like gays we also didn’t ask to be pedophiles and if we had a choice, at least 99% of us would choose to be normal.
Life is all about choices they say. Oh yea, if only. Well if I could choose, I would have chosen never to be born or exist rather than being a pedophile. As some other contributors here, I am looking forward to death and I hope there is no life after death or reincarnation to have to live another hellish life like this. If I knew for sure there was no life after death or that I might have to come back to live another life if I commit suicide, I would end my life today.
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| | Posted by anonymous at October 16, 2010 |
Before I begin, let me give you a quick back-up story to how it all started:
7th grade. Fucking hell. My parents are teachers and they made me study like crazy so I could get into a good school. I went through all of that miserably and now I'm in the second best school in my town. Before 8th grade though comes summer. I had a fucking blast during the summer. I got a job offer to work online as a technical writer and I accepted. I was earning my own money and I was able to spend 20 bucks a day without even caring... It seemed like I'm in heaven.
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But then the summer ended.
School started so I had to quit my job since I knew I wouldn't have time for it. Everything suddenly came crashing down. My new school is incredibly tough and my parents make me study even more. My free time has been minimized to almost nothing. Hell, just the other day me and my friends were thinking of playing online during the weekend but my dad screamed and said that I have to study! It feels like a trap all the time. On top of all I always feel disconnected from everyone else at my new school. Sure, I do have a few friends, but nobody seems to share my interests and I feel I can't adapt to all the sudden changes.
And it gets worse - I am gay. I have told this to only two of my best friends and I fear of telling it to anyone else. So while my friends are not paying attention in class and looking at that girl's big boobs, I am stuck with looking at the hot m... |
| | Posted by S. at September 26, 2010 |
Im 19 year old guy and im completely lost and hopeless, i dont see any future or hope in my life. Im strugling with my sexuality and i dont know what to do. I think about the future and i cry, i cant have any guy friends because they cant understands me because i like guys, i have to live in a lie all the time, i have never had a gf or a bf.
My soul is tearing apart slowly. i went to a foreign country last year to study and i was the only time i was happy, but even there i have issues with because i kept falling inlove with my guy friends and they knew it.
Now i came back to my country and everything got worse, the few friends i had are miles away from me and because my family spend alot of money in that trip now i cant go to college.
I met a few nice people later but they are gone now; they always leave because im fucking piece of shit.
I have no-one and nobody cares for me i WANT TO DIE so much i cant even type this right now because i feel like every fiber of my being its telling me to stop it. Ended already.
I wish i die; i tried so many things but nothing works, maybe i should just jump or put a bullet in my head. I dont Care anything now, and i know i wont go to hell because THIS IS HELL i want to be free, i want my soul to be free. Please... |
| | Posted by Antoine at August 14, 2010 |
My name is Antoine and I am 16. I moved from Vietnam to Detroit with my parents when I was only a baby. Life was pretty okay until my mother lost her job in 2006. And ever since then, my life has been going downhill. I am gay and my parents hate me for it. I've tried being straight but I can't. This is how I am! In late 2008 my Father left me and my mother with no money. I don't know where he is but my mother tells me that he has been cheating on her ever since they married. Now we are desperately poor. My mother occasionally prostitutes to make money and she thinks I don't know. I never asks her where she gets her money from because I don't want her to know that I know. At school almost everyone makes fun of me. I am the only asian kid and everyone else is black. Everyone knows that I am gay also. But what they don't know is that I have been sucking dick and letting other men have sex with me anally for money since I was 15. The world sucks and this is what I have to do to survive. |
| | Posted by Depressed Joe at May 11, 2010 |
1.Im Black
2.Im Gay
3.The sun never shines on me
4.My boyfriend cheated on me with a WHITE GUY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5.I have AIDS
6.I failed 7th grade
7.Nobody wants me to suck them
8.I can only work at fast food placesss
9.my mom fucks me
Ima end it all
fuck life |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 8, 2010 |
i'm clinically depressed. i tried medication but stopped cuz i cancelled my health insurance. it didn't work anyway. i have social anxiety disorder which causes nausea in anxious times. i feel like i'm always the outcast in life. i'm the middle child, i was born with several defects (heart murmur, visible birthmark on my face, cyst on the side of my head), being a minority of a minority (i speak a different dialect of chinese), i turned out gay, always the smallest guy, super shy esp. when i'm depressed.
i didn't have many friends growing up, i was the kid no one wanted on their team in gym class, my mom tried to give me away to my uncle one time, i'm not close to my family at all. my siblings and i have distanced each other over the years, and i can only have superficial conversations with my parents cuz their english sucks (my chinese sucks too). my parents think that love is money. in a way, they kind of live their own separate lives too, just give us food, just the necessities. i get so jealous whenever i see a father and son moment cuz i never had any of that.
my parents are now bankrupt and they maxed out all my credit cards. i foolishly co-signed 2 student loans for my sis who has now withdrew from classes, now in repayment status and she won't work. they're defaulted so my credit is shit. i got into a fight with her so i ain't paying for that shit. i want to move out but now i'm afraid they'll require a credit check. i feel like i'm stuck in lif... |
| | Posted by Bitterwitchx at May 4, 2010 |
Before you read: don't fucking think I'm saying this just to get "some attention". That's the most FUCKING irritating thing to me. I'm severely depressed. It's treatment-resistant, not responding to any treatment. My mom is completely ashamed that I'm gay and mentally ill. I went crazy today yelling at the top of my lungs out the window that I'm gay and suicidal because of this bitch. She says she doesn't care if I kill myself. She's always complaining about how she's wasting money on me for treatment like therapy and medication, which don't work, for someone as ungrateful as me. She says I tend to be very cold-hearted and bitter because of the bullying I've gone through for the past twelve years and still receive til this day. I hate everyone in my school and wish the kid who almost shot it up two years ago would've done it. I hate my life. Death will be such a relief when it comes and I'm highly looking forward to it. If there was an easily-accessible painless suicide method I'd do it already.
/vent. |
| | Posted by I am so not telling you my name at April 25, 2010 |
I'm gay and every day i get beat up because of it at school. i mean bloody and every thing and no one believes me. they say i just want attention! |
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