I have been feeling extremely depressed the last couple of months. I am mid 30's now. Single and havent had a real date in a few years. My odds of finding a decent man and getting married are pretty much gone. I have a lame job. Its ridiculous, I bust my butt everyday, I went to college and yet, I never get ahead. All the a-holes and back stabbers around me do instead. Really? Is this fair? I have a studio apartment. Yep, I'm not even grown up enough to have a real place. No one I know ever comes here. Cant blame them. Place is ridiculously small and no where really to sit. If I actually go out, its a miracle. Most of the time, I am either sitting alone in my place, or going to places all alone. Yes I am that weird lady one sees at a restaurant or movie sitting alone in the back. Pathetic huh? But I have a cat, yep I will be that crazy cat lady soon everyone see's on the news.
I dont really have any friends. I just have my parents. Who are of course getting older and having more medical issues. And I think they have given up on me. Who could blame them really? All there friends kids (doctors, lawyers, married, with kids, etc). All they can tell people is that I work. Oh joy. No grandkids to spoil, no special talents or successes to brag about.
Why am I here? Seriously. Its ridiculous. And I cant see any light at the end of the tunnel. I just see me getting older and soon being the creapy old lady that you see talking to herself.
Get busy..hobbies, charity work etc etc etc... Stop hoping and looking, get out there and take what you want.
You have a studio apartment... So GET LAID A FEW TIMES
MERCY I NEED TO ABUSE YOU!! HURT YOU! MAKE YOU SCREAM AND CRY OUT BLOOD! MEERCCY!!
Here are a few questions that you need to answer to yourself honestly.
1) Do you *want* a partner?
2) Do you *want* to get married?
3) Do you *want* children?
4) Do you *want* friends?
A lot of time we don't really want things but society tells us we have to move in that direction (marriage comes to mind) and we feel like failures in the eyes of the others.
If you do indeed want to meet someone, get married and have a child, you still have lots of time. Why not join a dating site? Go out on a few dates, have fun, visit new restaurants, catch a movie? Don't expect a love of your life, just try to have fun. You never know, there could be a lonely soul somewhere waiting for you.
If you don't care about having a partner and marriage but want kids, you can always do it by yourself.
You could try to adopt, get artificial inseminated, foster kids etc. But in order to do that you HAVE to get out of your shell, make a first move, force yourself to act.
Do you have any money? Maybe you can book yourself a trip somewhere with a tour. Those tour groups have all sorts of people, and you might make new friends while seeing new sites. Join a book club. Force yourself to go to the library once week and practice being social by saying "hi, nice day, isn't it?". Go to gym and try to make friends. Hang in there.
I am so tired of waiting for a man in my life that I came up with a new plan recently. It was to save as much money as possible even if that meant having to do double jobs. What I am going to do with the saved up money I don't know.
Hope things turn around for you two.
my sister was also single till she turned 36
she was helped through a spell caster
and now she is happily married with kids