| | Posted by the happy man at July 27, 2011 |
im a guy and i am not living.i wanna escape from this shit. I have no money ,no friends... All day a stay at home because i dont know:where to go ,what to do,. I am a real loser. I think i need a job to make money but where i live there is no job. I DONT WANNA LIVE NO MORE. Girls of my class are jokeing with me. Everybody is jokeing with me. I AM WASTEING MY LIFE. I wanna make money, cars,girls.i need to be a big man . I AM READY TO DO EVERY THING for those. I am not afraid to die...i just need a litle help...'? |
| | Posted by Carrrley at July 27, 2011 |
After reading some of these stories......I realize that in the end life is to good to throw away. Someone will always love you. God (even if you don't believe in him) loves you. I am 13 and adopted, I live with a brother who was adopted from Columbia as well as my sister who is not actually related to my brother they are just from the same birthplace. It is really sad to have to feel put down/alone/useless and ect. I understand that people might read this and be like she don't know what the he'll she is talking bout she don't know how i feel. I don't know how you feel.....but When I read these stories I got an idea of how you felt. I love and pray for those who feel sad alone and ect. You are amazing people. But in the end you have to be the One to make your life happy. It is your life. You have the power!! |
| | Posted by anonymous at July 27, 2011 |
When I was 4 years old my depressed mother and father had a divorce. Naturally, I thought it was normal for everyone's parents' to get a divorce. Until the Christmas when I turned 5, when I knew something was wrong when my dad slept on the downstairs couch. I didn't believe in Santa anymore. When I was 7 my mom, brother and I moved in with my mom's physically and mentally abusive boyfriend. He had two older sons. I loved one of them with all my heart because he was so nice to me. The other one sexually abused me. All the while my mom's boyfriend was abusing her. He was mentally abused my little brother and I. He shouted at me every day to 'toughen up' because of a time when I got dust in my eye and started to cry. My little brother spent every day with him, since he wasn't old enough for school. I was made to think my dad caused all the bad things. He was continually shunned and i barely got to see him, even on my own birthday. I had nightmares my parents killed each other, every night. Apparently I screamed in my sleep, because I shouted "NO DADDY NO!". I guess this was enough cause for my mom to keep my father away from me even more, as they accused him of sexual abuse. Finally after 3 years, my mothers family rescued us one day due to her boyfriend cheating and being more abusive. So I was moved to a different school where I got a little more confidence. That was taken away from me in jr. high. I had no close friends, only acquaintances. That change a little in high s... |
| | Posted by Reagan Callum Huchtins at July 27, 2011 |
im reagan and im fucked, i was 14 1st job at austwide trolleys got paid one paycheck Bout $400- $70 4 uniform so $330. did that job 4 about 10-12weeks b4 i checked my balance to give my mum some money and bang there was only $330, my 1st paycheck. i asked the boss wat the go was and he said hed sort it. bout 1wk later got fired 4 stealing a can of drink which =33c and he thought (marshall boss of austwide trolleys in brisbane metro area) that cause i took a rrp 33c drink im nothing but a scum bag not that im working my arse off, saving my money, keeping out of trouble and being good No he thougt fuck hes done wrong i DONT HAVE TO PAY HIM i can keep the $3000+ that hes earnt WAT A GREEDY CUNT. now we will skip a whole bunch of bs cause theres one more thing i really want to say... the police a fucked mate ive been beatin by them 4 the littlest reason so many times everytime i see one i just wish he was dead and i no he will b one day. Bout 10 months ago i was walking home i had a argument with my mum and my sister my step dad tried to stop me leaving the car cause he new i was rite but na i wouldnt have it (my sister is spoilit and she said i got it easy WHEN I DONT). so im on my way home jumped out at queens road and walk to loganlea trainstation and caught the train to kingston(we i lived), on the way some coppers pulled up the wanted to talk to me i said "No get fucked im drunk, ive had a fight with the fam and im walking straight home". Wat do u think he said ill tell ... |
| | Posted by whatever. at July 27, 2011 |
Where should I begin? Hmm let's see my family?
My dad never talks to me. The longest conversation we've had in the past few years was less than three mins. He won't come visit me or even try to get to know me. I've tried so many times but he just won't give me a chance to have a relationship with him.
My mom is married to a pathological liar, who tells the most outlandish lies about me. Because of all his lies about me my mom doesn't even like me anymore. She thinks I'm this person I'm not and constantly shit talks me to everyone in my family. Everyone in my family thinks I'm this horrible person and no matter what good I do I can't prove her wrong.
My love life? Well my first serious boyfriend dumped me for getting raped because that is still cheating apparently... Then my next serious boyfriend was not much better...He ended up becoming a drug dealer.
I really could not hate my life more. I really don't think I will ever be happy or escape any of this drama. I can't find happiness in love, friends, or family.
I've never been to this site before but I thought this would be a good place to vent...and maybe see if it is as bad as I think it is.
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| | Posted by Emma at July 27, 2011 |
My life is sh*t. I know I'm only 15 but it sucks so much.
I have two friends. Who basically never hang out with me, making me a loner. Because most of the time I CHOOSE not to hang out with them, None the less they don't want to hang out with me anyways. Since the age of eight I've been a loner, I've always enjoyed being alone instead of being surrounded by people. I hate being social. I HATE IT.
I'm over-wheight. I'm so scared about my health. I'm scared to see how heavy I really am. But I'm definetly fat. Making it impossible to find clothes that look okay but fit. I'm not over wheight to the point I need to shop at big and tall but I'm still pretty fat for my age.
I've missed so much school to the point where I would rather just die than do it. Yes, lots of kids hate school. But I actually like it, but due to my parents I've missed a ton of it.
I have a huge anxiety disorder. I got anxious over the smallest things.
I want to kill myself, but I don't have the guts to do it. Well first option is to shoot myself, Which I can't do because I don't have a gun, and how is a 15 year old going to get a gun? Another option is that I hang myself, but I have a fear of suffocation. Which is the whole point of hanging myself. So hanging and drowning myself are not options. Other than an over dose from drugs, I don't know what I could possibly do to kill myself. I wish everything would just work out for me. But obviously that's never going to happen.
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| Posted by anonymous at July 27, 2011 |
I'm havin kinda bad dirty pimples on my face.. i dunno how to get away from these i wish i could have done somethin earlier. My Face Sucks !! |
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| Posted by anonymous at July 26, 2011 |
i dont even know where to start.. when i was little my family was happy we could afford anything we wanted nobody was yelling at home but now our lives are totally different.. we dont have any money we are poor as shit nobody is happy but the most unhappy person in the family is me.. high school made my life a living hell im bullied all the time im really sick and tired of that i want to stand up for my self but there is something in me that is holding me back i want to do something more in my life but i cant im a total loser i have no friends i never go out and im just 17 im depressed all the time every word can hurt me and i cry like crazy for everything my personality has changed im yelling at everybody my parents always yells back at me that i have to change but its easy to be said but not easy to be done sometimes i wish i wasnt even born... every other person i know is just so happy they are all smiling and i wish i was like them maybe they have problem too but they dont show that they are not happy but i that kind of person that always shows what i feel like i suffer from social anxiety thats the reason why i have no friends.. 10 minutes ago my mom came to my room and she said if i wanted to take my dog for a walk and i said no and i said that this morning i took it for a walk and i said that she can take the dog out and she started crying and yelling at me " why are you doing this to me you are driving me crazy" and she always takes pills to calm down...
im writing this with tears in my eyes wondering will i wake up the next morning i just want to commit suicide right now.. |
| | Posted by Mick at July 26, 2011 |
Sometimes things can suck, but, other times TRULY suck. In the past 2 yrs., there have been TWO house fires, both rendering the place uninhabitable. Both my Mom, and my little brother were diagnosed with Mesothelioma, the fucking asbestos cancer. After round after round of life -sucking chemo, my brother finally succommed to it, at 44 yrs. old. I'm not too big on crying " boo -hoo' when things go bad, but also my grandfather's had 4 heart attacks, a broken hip, and horrible, infectious MSR, whatever that crap is. Some life -threatening infection.
Growing up, me and my 2 brothers thought it normal to be beaten and mentally abused...that this happened to ALL kids, and hiding from " Dad " during his near nightly rages was just part of life. And seeing and hearing him walking around the house, rifle in hand, looking for the " gooks ", and even pointing it at us. Thank " God ", or whatever, that he finally left us.
Just one last bit, so now my brother and best friend is gone, and I don't have a job, like many others. I feel that yet another bomb is going to drop, probably with my mom, who has also developed diabetes from complications, and she contracted Hep C., from being stuck with an infected needle at work in a hospital, years back. Fuck, thanks for listening, and remember to put it all in perspective... some people lose nearly everthing, from tornados, fires, or madmen with guns, shooting randomly into crowds, 'cause they don't like the way things are going. Do what you can to help yourself out of that fucking hole you are in. And always remember MILLIONS of people have things much, much worse. Thanks agin. |
| | Posted by anonymous at July 26, 2011 |
I am a 19 year old male. I have lived off my dad until i turned 17 and got a job....I just recently got kicked out of my brothers house because his gf says all i wanna do is live off of people. I have put in an application at every workable place in princeton and nobody is hiring. I am stuck with no money, living in someones shed. who knows how long this will last but all I know is if I dont get a job soon I will be literally living on the streets. I also get depressed quite often and every thing i do or say always ends up in some drama or me failing. Bottom line is I FAIL AT LIFE.
Can anybody tell me how to boost my confidence or get rid of depression????
I cant do it medically because i dont have a medical card. |
| | Posted by anonymous at July 26, 2011 |
They dont give me shit they never helped me get into drivers ed... My brother did of course.... I lived in a tent 2 months, a motel room (6+ months) with fathers tweaker bar wife (1 year marriage) , with my dads sisters (1 year) this whole time my parents fought did meth always smoked pot (bad for there tight money) they never owned shit always rented houses and bought >$900 cars I am 1 m live with parents pay $225 out of $775 rent I pay for food i dont eat... My dad will take me to work on his way to work sometimes, umm he picks me up once in a great while... Other than that he doesn't do a fuckin thing but says he does.... i clean 20% of the time but damn make me feel bad about the other 13% (3 ppl in house) oh yeah he pays a $60 cable bill i dont pitch in thats pretty much it.... He says i am always a dick cuz i ask him if he wants to get somethin to eat, on me like a you drive i buy kinda thing, he talks shit to mom gets himself worked up everyday yelling saying i am a smart ass dick head, i like to poke fun at tv and get kinda frustrated when we play a video game and do bad but WHAT THE FUCK, its how i entertain myself during a unbearable movie or someone acting stupid on live tv ? ON THE BRIGHT SIDE I get $900 a month from job getting car by halloween hopefully by september but insurance sucks to pay for... DOWNERS I am good lookin but i am very awkward and have a small penis so it tends to ruin my confidence to get a real girlfriend to find a place to move into... FUCK COLLEGE. ~Tucson, AZ |
| | Posted by nīkeking at July 26, 2011 |
I hate life everything just disopoints me. I meen everything i get excited for just breaks. Like for example i buy an expensive outfit and it atleast gets stained,ripped,or ruined. Its like God is trying to punish me for being materialistic. Like for example i got a gucci suit and i went to a restaraunt and a waiter spilt sauce on me. I'm like scared to buy stuff because it just gets recked. I also got a new laptop that i was so excited for and guess what? It starts acting up the next day. Life just sucks. Idk what to do now when i buy something so nervouse. |
| | Posted by Tom at July 26, 2011 |
I'm 13. I spend most my life in my room, no one likes me and all I do is be nice and supportive and I receive hate in return. I am starting to hate everything in existence and am wondering if religion is real because I go to church and pray but my life gets worse. My parents are nice but my mom is never home anymore, and they were way too easy on me and never punished me so I didn't learn right from wrong till about 6th grade. My dad is depressed and unemployed and every time I try to hug him, he seems disappointed in me. All I want is friends and my parents to be proud of me. I am different than everyone, I don't wear the same clothes, listen to the same music and for that people treat me as an outcast. When I go to school, I hope I get suspended so I don't have to deal with the pain and irritation of people laughing in your face while they think I don't notice. People don't talk to me. My only 2 friends use me and treat me like shit and I always just want to stay in my room. I ignore them because when I'm with them, I always say something stupid on accident because my dad tells me I have impulse so I can't think before I act. If God is real, why can't he just send me to Hell, it can't be worse than my life. I know I might sound like I'm exaggerating but I can't deal with this shit. |
| | Posted by anonymous at July 26, 2011 |
Until this year i had a good amount of friends, but now i have none most of my old friends got into drugs and left me behind most of my other friends just left me behind because they saw me and still do see me as an embaressment to them and there social status, so now when they see my i get greeted by ignorant slurs and being made fun of all the time, rarely do i leave my house, because i have nothing to do outside my home so with having no friends what so ever i spend most of my time cleaning and taking care of dogs, i don't know what happened over the summer that made every thing turn to shit but it happened to me, unlike my old friends i have no social status my brother puts me down sometimes just because he is older and knows that he can i have no self a steam at all, so beside all the put downs i have come to, and all the bully forced in my direction i have nothing at all besides family i don't know when this will change or if it ever will i hope it does and to all the people who will read this and say wow what a looser i no longer care i have heard every name in the book so i no longer care what people say to me or about me so before you people add on to the pain i already sucome to think about how much damage you will inflict upon me |
| | Posted by No one at July 26, 2011 |
Life sucks for me too. I was a single mom for 15 yrs and should have stayed that way. So I married someone 5 yrs younger than I. He was and is a baby. COULDN'T WORK DRANK TOO MUCH AND TURNED INTO a pill poppin ass. He was so mean to me and my kids got very hurt by this. Now 5 yrs later were divorced. Our home is going to foreclose any time. A couple of years ago I went back to school to career change to teaching and now can't find a job. So no home and job. My kids are in college and never home. I am fat and ugly and do not want to see anyone. I hate living and wonder why things are such a mess. I am nice and now bitter and am drowning in misery. |
| | Posted by anonymous at July 25, 2011 |
"if you say life sucks it does, it you say life's great it is" |
| | Posted by sick of it at July 25, 2011 |
In a fucked up relationship for many of years, partner wont marry me cause i piss him off alot, all i ever wanted was for him to love and respect me, now im paying the price.
Finacially dependant on him really sucks, 3 kids during our fucked up relationship as got me woundering why did i have my beautiful children with this evil piece of shit.
when im pissed off with him cause he wont ring me to tell me he's going to his mates for drinks after work, man i turn into this ugly bitch that just wants to bash him, so i wont cook for him, easy as that,
left him and kids for a few weeks cause i was sick of being told i was useless and he told me to leave so i did.
straight into bringing a fuck into our home with her kids, make me angry cant believe i deserved that one.
so humiliated that this bitch and his work mates know's everything about me,
i want out he tried to leave but came back(broken arse) now dealing with his stupid childish games,
thats right im looking for a husband so when i fuck up he will kick me out and take our kids... your fucking joking.
Shame bitch you have no morals |
| | Posted by pinky at July 25, 2011 |
i dont understand why these stupid things happen to me and me only.....
i have a family,my dad .mom and an elder brother who always misuse me....well not only him but almost everyone in my family misuses me..i am not that ugly to look at...but am not beautiful too.....
well my life problem is not about being ugly or beautiful,misused or well used....my problem is that,people around me are more than ME.
they are extra lucky,extra active,extra intelligent,...in a word extraordinary.
i am 19 years old and i always get scolding from everyone....when i do mistakes and even when there is no fault of mine.is being soft and patient really wrong???they always want to poke their nose into my life....am i not supposed to do what i must do??is it that important for me to take their comment(or advice as per their view) for everything that is going on in my life?i am sick of running around like a fool......i am poor at studies,i have completed my high school and yes i am not eligible for an UG course......and it's bugging me a lot.
where ever i go i get insulted by everyone for not understanding what they say....they scold me as if i am some 6yr old......no doc could help me with this and i am totally broken....
this isn't their fault i guess......coz i am good at NOTHING......i dont know to sing,dance,understand,communicate,behave and i am not even a nerd or geek......all i do in my life is just yell on everybody around for treating me like 'MISS.NOBODY... |
| | Posted by Everyones life sucks at July 25, 2011 |
I am 28, own my own home in a good neighborhood in the bay. I am a full time sleuth and part time law student. I have loving parents and like everyone else an asshole sibling who I love. I struggle everyday to find motivation to continue, wake up, get dressed, wash my hair, put my face on, and smile like nothing is wrong.
I am in constant pain from a recent accident, I have been slacking off at work, dressing down on all days not just Fridays. I never wear make-up anymore and I never give 100%. Same goes for school; half the time I wonder why I am even still attending. I originally enrolled to prove I can be an attorney. It was a challenge; I am not loosing but I am sinking.
My personal life sucks as I am overweight. Ironically I lost 30 lbs and was very healthy prior to my enrollment. Now I am 40 lbs heavier because of the stress. I no longer think I am beautiful and I no longer believe I will ever get what I really want: I want to be a happy mother, a wife, and loving daughter with a J.D. Yet I don't try hard on school until crunch time, I enrolled to go to the gym a month ago but I have yet to start, I attract men who still live at home and either have crap jobs or no job. I throw myself at a guy I tell I would never take seriously and yet I can't bring myself to tell him I love him.
In addition I help everyone that asks for help and allow myself to put everyone else before me thereby setting myself up for failure. Yet I tell no one...I smoke marijuana and watch porn to feel better.
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| | Posted by Asfuked at July 25, 2011 |
At 35 year old, I've accomplished everything a nice career, a big house a wife and a kid, everything is going to the right direction, until I quit my job and lost everything..... I wanted to shoot my ex boss and colleagues..... I'll probably kill them all |
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