| | Posted by Adam Ortega (California) at April 19, 2012 |
Hi all,
I was doing a search online for a bible phrase and I just happened upon this site. I didnt even get a chance to fully read anyone's post but I did notice the posts were recent and made some really saddening statements.
So I felt compelled to say a little something. I have been through quite a bit in my life. It seems like Murphy's Law that what can go wrong did. Either through my own fault or some inconsiderate doing of others. Either way I have always managed to work through it and believe me when I say I have been at the very very bottom in life and below many others woes. So dont take my lows lightly.
What Im trying to say is that we can and will get through this. My strength was the LORD and I pray that you all have the same.
Even now my life is not peaches and cream but I have peace and I have joy. Joy for the peace that I have and peace for the joy that I have. Its that simple.
I believe that sometime we need to be just a bit selfish and do what makes us happy. We live in an imperfect world and we all fall short of the glory of GOD. Meaning none of us are perfect and we all sin. So we cannot try to be perfect and we cannot allow others to constantly wrong us. We need to do what we have to to make our world what we would like it to be.
In doing so Im sure others will enjoy the world in which we built. So we really are not being selfish at all. We are just taking charge and showing them something that they may... |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 19, 2012 |
I feel alone. I have friends, they are okay but I can't seem to function normally with other people. I love my family I guess. But every relationship (not romantic) makes me sick. I won't write about my life, the details, but I'll say that people are evil, I don't mean everyone but those around me. And when I do get out and find other people, I get sick. I can't take them any more. Everybody is so selfish and greedy and ungrateful. I just want to read all day. It's all about money and I guess it's social pressure and the environment in which I am living, it seems I don't see moral and all the good things in books and such. I wonder if moral even exists or are we all selfish? Fantasy is nice, it gives you an illusion on life, and it suits me. I wish to live in a mountain and have very little contact with humans. Or live in a small village or something like that. Do you have any ideas how I could do that? Are there choices? I can fake relationships with people, but I don't want to do that any more. I can't try and I can't always pick myself up. I don't want to try and I don't want to fake anything. I want something real. I know I can do anything. But I'd like some choices..to know them. And where and what I could do. |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 19, 2012 |
Hi, I'm currently in high school as a sophmore. i feel really lonely at times and depressed. I only have 1 friend which I dont even really like anymore. my mom is selfish and doesn't care about me, and my dad is an alcoholic. Im really shy... im not weird though. I have a hard time with school because its really stressful to try and impress my parents when they dont even care. i wish people in school would try talking to me and know im actually really nice and would get along geat with them. on the weekends I dont do anything and sit in my house. ive never had a girlfriend and I feel like no one will ever love me. I sometimes cry because I realize how lonely I really am and how no one likes me… |
| | Posted by Kimberly at April 18, 2012 |
Im a woman of 33 and I have 2 kids. I earn a good money, i have a good job, house, car and everything i need for a good life. But I fell in love with a married man, who decided to reunited with his wife and who left me. The story old like this world. Fell in love with a wrong guy. I had just 2 men in my life - my ex husband and him. Now Im alone, absolutlly alone. Kids are far away from me now, coz im working in another country and I have no single friend, not talking about a boyfriend. I have no one - absolutly no one who can just hug me and say something or cuddle up with me. I wish to have someone special in this life near me. Even now, sitting in this luxery hotel room in a spa hotel - i wish to die. |
| | Posted by Ki-Kun at April 18, 2012 |
For the last year, I've had some hard times, times that have made me feel very lonely and isolated from the rest of the world. A year ago I attend a University with my best friend of eight years. We both chose the same school because it was a place where we 'both' wanted to go, we wanted to be with each other. After the first term of attending that school, I had to leave become of finical hardship. My friend though had the money to attend, so she planned to finish the year there, then go to the university of our hometown, that I would now, once again, be living in.
When I left to go back to my hometown, we promised that we would keep in contact no matter what, we were best friends. But as the year continued, it seemed she had less and less time for me. Soon talking everyday turned into every other day, and then it has gotten to the point where I barely get to talk to her for more than a hour a week. At first I figured this was big transition for her, me being gone, I assumed that she was trying to form new friendships, and I understood that I didn't want her to be alone. So I tried my hardest not to be offended, I felt that once she got settled in, that our communication would naturally pickup once again. That though was hopeful thinking, lately I've noticed she only talks to me if all her other friends are busy. I don't know, it just makes me feel unimportant anymore, she once would take time to just talk with me, but now I feel she doesn't. And when we do talk, she... |
| | Posted by No realfriends at April 18, 2012 |
Hello,
I am a 24 year old girl african girl, i will describe myself as tall slender beautiful and averagely smart. My main problem is that i have NO friends, my whole life i have never had a best friend, i have had a friend who i call a best friend but he was a guy in high school with a crush on me, we got over this and became friends but we have never been close. I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH MEN , every guy i have date has been head over heals and instantly wants to live with me for years.. i have only lived with or dated Caucasian men, one for 2 years and now this guy for the past year and a half, he is gorgeous with beautiful blue eyes tall, and a scorpio (hot sex) but he has lost ALL his hair at 24 and that bothers me a lot! i love HAIR on a man. I love this guy he is perfect in every other way except his hair! it hurts me because i feel i am being too artificial! Back to my main problem, i went to college in a graphic design school which cost me almost 100 k in student loans i could not pay it because the recession hit and i could not find a job so my credit score is now 510 :(. I finALLY recovered from That and realized that my passion in life is working with special needs children and i am acquiring my masters in that right now i will be done next year ans finally start making the money i deserve 60k a year but i just hate life because i do not have anyone to call when things get bad except my parents (who love and support me have been married for 25 years) my brot... |
| | Posted by Thomas at April 17, 2012 |
Hi, i have no job and every single one of my so called "friends" have stabbed me in the back at some time...not literally. No one talks to me about this and i could never share anything i feel with any other person who knows me because every time i have, i was mocked for it.
This has led to me never showing emotion to anyone, i have exams approaching in the coming weeks i am totally unprepared for allowing me to fail life in this awful society,its the time in everyone's lives hormones are unbalanced and no one wants to go to school and people are instead being forced to come in to do exams. Many people in my school deal with it by coming to lessons high or drunk. Its all ridiculous and no one can do shit about it... People are so cruel and vindictive to others and i don't get why.its a horrid world we live in but only due to the horrible fools babbling shit like its going out of fashion constantly. i have no money, no job, no friends, and no one to talk to....i don't have much left other than patience and faith...useless |
| | Posted by Possessed at April 17, 2012 |
I wasn't always like this. I used to think women were okay. When I was in high school, i knew everything. If I got ditched, no big deal, at least I had plenty of years ahead of me
Now I'm 26. A little over two years ago, i dated a girl who completely wrecked my self-esteem. She constantly told me about all the people she ever had sex with (making me feel sexually repressed), she told me there was something wrong with me for not wanting to hear about it all. If i did anything she didn't like, she screamed at me. At one point she said she could replace me in a second. When we broke up I felt relieved at first, but then she of course went off and found someone in a second, while i sat around masturbating for several months, due to the fact that I can't treat people like replaceable objects in that manner.
She called me a burnout, so now I'm going back to school to prove the bitch wrong. School is not fun. Now i get to look at a bunch of young girls who don't even make a pass at me.
I tried to start dating again, but all I find are these girls who screw around with me for a second, then they say, "I want to be single," then they go off and get a boyfriend RIGHT AFTER they say that. It's like a repeat of, "I could replace you in a second," over and over again. What is wrong with these cunts? I feel like I want to strangle them with their own hair. I envision myself punching the next one who says, "I want to be single," since I know by now that's a... |
| | Posted by LONDINESS at April 16, 2012 |
HI Guys
I always had a pretty messed up family. My dad was depressed and ex gambler, my mum always tried to keep me away from friends and let me stay at home by myself, so i never knew how to make friends ( and i still dont).
8 years ago my older sister ( she left home when i was 8) fell in depression and she never recognize the problem until last year. I have 2 friends which are very close to me but now i lost them.
this is a period of my life where i stopped, i looked back and i realised that i have followed my friends because i did not want to feel alone. but they never followed me back, i feel like they dragged me with them because they have to and they feel sorry for me, not because they loved me.
Now i do not have anyone. i got angry at them and we dont talk, and i dont feel confident enough to call other people and hang around with them because they might fell i am using them so what i do is just close in my room and cry. life really sucks |
| | Posted by unkissed at April 16, 2012 |
another lonely story.... i waited for my true love and kept myself until i met my first boyfriend when i was 25. he hurt me alot by lying to me to get me to do things and feel compassionate about him. he still hurts me because he knows i have deep morals and he looks at other girls and tells me how hot everyone is. i cannot handle it especially after all he has done to me. i get panic attacks when i have to leave the house, i think i am so damn ugly and hurt myself a lot. everytime i go out with him he tells me how great everyone else looks. i know he doesnt find me attractive but he always had problems dating girls and since he doesn't like himself very much he thinks he couldnt get a girl "above his standards" so he is basically trapped with me cause he knows he couldnt get a good looking girl.... i fell in love with the person he pretended to be and now he has destroyed me so much i have nowhere to go. im home all day and i have no friends. i am a poor excuse of a human. |
| | Posted by Darren Marden at April 16, 2012 |
I am 29 and in a little over a month I will be 30 years old and I am so lonely, more so right now than I have ever been in my life. As I write in this virtual space on my computer screen in my bedroom in my house on my own I am trying to hold back my tears and my sadness at how alone I feel. But I cant.
I was going to write why I am so alone but I cant even be bothered to do that, I feel so worthless and everything seems pointless. |
| | Posted by Chi at April 15, 2012 |
I'm 22.
I've never had a girlfriend, I'm a virgin, I don't have friends. At least not friends I can call up to go hang out with and do stuff. To top it off I am going bald at 22.
This sucks and it just makes me feel horrible, it brings my self esteem down even more.
I don't know what to do. I try and accept that being alone for life is okay. But idk.
Doesn't help that I was just recently scammed from some money. I have to pay for school now by saving up my checks.
I'm shy, so that doesn't help with anything.
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| | Posted by A.J. at April 15, 2012 |
Has anybody ever asked you what it's like to be you? me neither. Some people may say i have a fairly easy and happy life, based on how i might try to fool the average person with my visible emotions. Truth is, nobody really knows me. Hell, i don't even fully know me. One thing is for certain though. My life is not easy. Have you ever had a girlfriend? Isn't it great? Having someone who loves you, and you love them back just as equally or more, and share many special moments with them> I wouldn't know that feeling. I've never had a girlfriend, and i don't have many friends either. so all those times where you might be doing something fun with your gf, i'm probably just sitting here, like i do, all day every day, wishing that i could be as lucky as you. Not too deep down, hidden just under the surface of all my fake smiles and half laughs, is a very lonely, depressed person who hasn't experienced the basic fundamentals of a relationship. some people might say that someone like me is lucky. i have an iPod, iPad, and mac. some people might say i'm lucky to be me, or they wish they were me so they could have all this cool stuff, but let me tell you. Never, Ever put material things before people. things can't give you happiness. People who you can spend time with and enjoy every second of it can make an immense amount of happiness. to anybody out there who has experienced this, i envy you. you are luckier than you could imagine. |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 14, 2012 |
Even as a small child I was unconfident, my mum told me I never made any effort to play with other kids, I just played by myself. I used to make people up, a lot of kids do, but it took me a long time to grow out of it and I was bullied terribly for it, I was also living in poverty, so all of my clothes were old and I was really small and skinny, which made the bullying much worse, and i never had friends to stick up for me.
For a long time I just took it. I didn't fight back, I didn't show that I was bothered, I didn't hurt anyone, but eventually I just got fed up with it. I just changed, I started doing strange things, bashing my head really hard on surfaces, screaming at people randomly in the corridors, breaking down for no reason in class, people thought I was attention seeking - I was crying for help.
I tried to talk to someone, anyone, but because I was always so quiet about all that had been going on no-one believed me; my parents didn't, the teachers didn't, everyone was treating me like I was the problem, like I was wrong to be me. Eventually I believed them and I did terrible things to myself, physically and mentally, because I felt like I should be punished for existing, I realise that it wasn't that I was wrong, it's just that no-one understood me. I've never spoken to anyone of it, not even my mum, I can't talk to anyone, I can't let anyone close.
I know I will be alone forever, I've accepted that, I've never been in love or had a best friend. Listening to music makes me feel a little better and not quite so singled out, but I'm always, always alone. |
| | Posted by Kaddie at April 13, 2012 |
Hi, i also feel lonely as in school everyone acts nice to me and then at break times those people leave me alone and go to their other friends and then i feel so lonely and find a room where i can sit on my own..if someones asks i lie and say my friends have gone to get something to eat and keep telling lies. I also find it weird when i am on my own i think of the past which makes me emotionally upset and start crying, bad thing is no one is there and I must say my family is very supportive, suspecially my Mum and I will always love my Mum till I die and my Mum wants me to have a good future and i want my Mum to feel happy as i will fulfill my Mums wishes and will stick to my Mum in the good and bad times. When getting married I want my Mum too live in the same house as I will....my Mum is the best Mum that I can wish for and am blessed by God to have her...I LOVE YOU MUM FOREVER :) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx and many morexxxxxxxxxx |
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| Posted by Beauty at April 13, 2012 |
I have always been alone and made fun of since i was a kid, i am now 20 years old enrolled in college and i get made fun of in my face. I am not and will never be the one to judge anyone i keep my opinions to myself. It really hurts me me that people do this, for so many years i have just had only myself no friends and never no lovers, I feel like i like solitude and sometimes it kills me. I feel that i have just accepted being depressed and even though i know I am a beautiful girl, dress pretty, have nice personality, kind and everything good and sweet i have nothing at all. I have lived in prolonged sadness...i have everything i have it all but my spirit has been severely crushed by all the mean things people have said to me. I believed i was a princess now i don't have anything to believe in. |
| | Posted by Alien at April 13, 2012 |
I am a High School student. Because of Easter Break (we had a week and a half off), I’ve been feeling extremely lonely. I don’t have friends in real life but I do talk to people at school. When I come home though, I am lonely. There is one person that talks to me sometimes, – because I believe we are ranting buddies – but she is not home and where she is, she has no access to the internet.
So basically, I’ve been feeling lonely for a week. I don’t talk to people much and my family and I don’t have a good relationship. The longest conversation I’ve had was online and it lasted about 10 minutes. Out of the 10 minutes, I waited for a reply for about 5 minutes and it took me a total of 2 minutes to write mine … so basically, it was a pretty empty one.
When I feel lonely, it makes me go crazy. I try my best to forget about those feelings but they always come back stronger. For instance, while writing this, I can’t stop crying. Right now, it (kind of) calms me down but I bet tomorrow morning, I will find it quite ridiculous. Anyway, it is the only thing I can do.
I’ve tried talking to new people online before. Unfortunately, the internet had changed a lot. Nowadays, people on chatrooms only want cybersex. They want to see girls get naked and do disgusting and shameful things for them. So obviously, the odds of finding someone that is willing to talk only are slim.
Before (well, a few months ago), when I would feel extremely lonely lik... |
| | Posted by Anny at April 12, 2012 |
Fornlorn...maybe isn't the right word. I'm 21, female and never had a boyfriend and have only one friend who I rarely see. I feel tired, I feel lost and right now I just want to die because I'm fed up of crying and having no one to turn to when my family becomes too much for me, when I can't take looking after my grown relatives who don't even remember my name. They don't trust me, they don't know who I am or what I'm doing, but they want me to go away.
I spend my life in and out of hospital with them and when I do have time to myself...it is to myself, I have no one to spend it with and the loneliness is crushing me. I've become a recluse while I've been caring for them and now the idea of going to a pub to meet someone terrifies me.
I just...wish I could wipe it all clean and start again. |
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| Posted by Alone at April 12, 2012 |
i am addicted to a certain kind of sadness and feel like ive lost a certain part of me that people would not love, i am a fab cook, clean house a good mom and uni student, but i feel so alone at times and seems the one thing i want in my life i cant get. I try everyday to appriciate what i have but feel like i will never be happy ever in my life. i just feel alone and wish i could talk to someone, i smile so much everyday and have a daughter that just wont shut up, i just want to sleep and my wish before i sleep is i have a dream where i am in love and happy. i just want to be held and loved i feel so alone |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 12, 2012 |
Hey everybody. I guess this is just a bad time for me and life doesn't suck per se, but here I go.
I am making a mess of my life. I have no real friends except a couple people that might be considered friends but we aren't that close and live in other countries (better than nothing, yeah, but still meh). I have a boyfriend who currently lives on the other side of the planet and I will only get to see in August for 3 weeks but never before that and it'll be months again after.
My mother was diagnosed with Parkinson's disease and I am her only caregiver currently. I am only 22 and trying to graduate from university but being a full time student, caregiver, long distance relationship lover, it is so hard to handle it all. I won't give up on any of these things, that'd be impossible for me to do, but it is just so hard to live life with no relief. I am trying to pursue some hobbies that will keep me sane in the little free time I have but I am so emotionally strained I can hardly keep up.
I feel my life is completely up to others and my wishes and desires don't matter at all. My boyfriend keeps trying to plan our move together though we both know it's in years and he has no ways of planning it out just yet. Plus he keeps taking jobs that won't allow him to easily visit me and will just pay for me to visit him instead, which is ok, but I just wish he could come over instead at times.
My mom used to be my best friend but now she is sick so eve... |
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