| | Posted by anonymous at August 24, 2011 |
Ijust need a break. Seriosly. Im tired. Im tired of crying every fucking night, because im miserable. Im worthless. No one really loves me. Fuck people who stab you in the back every time you turn back. Fuck people pretending the care about you. No one really cares about anybody. Thats the truth. I just really want to cill, on an island all by myself. I also, I think i need somebody to love me. TO KISS TO HUG, TO CARE ABOUT, TO DO SEXY STUFF, TO FEEL PASSION WITH, SOMEONE WHO MAKES MY HEART BEAT FASTER, WHO MAKES ME SWEAT, MAKES ME LAUGH MAKES ME CY.. AND DO THAT THING TO HIM TOO. Ugh, I think I cant really hadle it anymore. I just want to escape for a it, like when youre drunk, or high, or just watching TV. I need to escape of this town, of the bllshit and I really just need to stop crying every fucking night. IM TIRED. IM SICK. IM REALLY DEPRESSED. HATE MY LIFE. theres not really a prpose in it. Just an object more. A simple human being more on earth. Simple as that. Im worthless. |
| | Posted by anonymous at August 24, 2011 |
Hate my school. Hate my fucking little drama town. Hate that I dont have money. I hate my hair. I hate my nose. I hate the fact that no one has ever loved me. No boy has ever tried to even talk to me to see what im like. Im not atractive to anyone. Sucks being a teenager and it sucks even more when yor parents are always trying to control you. I know these problems seem stupid but they matter to me. My life is empty, it has no prpuse. It just goes. Just like that. Fucking with my mind every single day on why was I born, on why am I in this world. A poontless drama town where everyone judges yo no matter what you do to try to fit in. The worst feeling of all is not to have true firend. The worst feeling of the worst feeling is not having someone to kiss, to hug, to count on, to hangout, to tell your secret, to act sexy with, to laugh, to cry… That is the sad thing. Also, I;m trapped.. sometimes I try to escape with alcohol but it just make it worse. I feel sadder everyday. Just want to take a break and breathe ot of this town all by myself. Need to spend time on my own, meet new people, discover, touch, smell, play. Experience. This town is making sicker and sicker everyday. Im tired of the bulshit the drama and the pintless shit people bring. I'm tired of the fucking routine. I just want to go away. I just want a true friend. I just want someone to love me. I just want some time with myself. Gosh, I cant handle crying every night for apparently no reason. There is no reason. Tears just fall because my body cant hadle the pain anymore. IM FUCKING TIRES. LIFE REALLY DO SUCKS. |
| | Posted by Anonymous life at August 22, 2011 |
I can't believe I'm writing this but maybe someOne out there feels like I do. I'm a stay at home mother and house wife. My life consists of the same routine everyday. I have a sexist pig fOr a husband who says he doesnt have to help me clean because he works to bring money intO the house. He also bitches about everything: why do I take money outta the account (maybe because I need to buy stuff!), why isn't the house clean( I fucken clean it like three times a day it's not easy when 3 kids are making a mess all day!!), why do I make the same food all the time (I'm trying to learn but I'm busy all day!!) etc. The fucken list goes on and on... Alot of you are probably thinking why the fuck am I still with him: well the answer is simple I'm not good at anything so I've just grown reliable with the life I have:-( it's sad to see this!!! I went to college & I have degree but the major I studied for was shit ( I worked in the field I studied for & realized I fucken hated it!!!!) so now I spend my most of my days regretting the day I moved In with him. If I could turn back time I would've done it all so differently. In a way I think I understand why some parents just up and leave their families, they get overwhelmed with everything that they find it easier to leave. And no one will understand it either until they've actually lived it. |
| | Posted by pra at August 16, 2011 |
i the most sucked person on earth i think so...
i m good earning engineer.working for good company. my problem is that i feel like i m following a everyday cycle.everyday going to the company, comimng back to home to go back again .such huge universe to explore n what im doing. whenever i get a free time i stare at the sky feel like to fly n go there but what to do iam stuck with this mortal things i try to take interest in ma job but some how ma day gets fu___ .i love one girl n u know shes the ideal girl i have ever seen in my life. but the problem is i have no match for her qualities.u know it sucks when somebody doesnt love you but it sucks a lot when u came to know that shes not made for u..
and i feel more sucked when i see great people i do study hard but never gonn be a scientist.i love to read and understand things but im so poor that if left job i will not even get a food to stay alive. sometimes i feel like i am useless junk in this world.why would god have created fucking junk like me....
i cannot cummit suicide but leaving with such life is hell.
this not to demoralise u freinds but to express my feelings..
u know what i have learn from my life so far i have experienced is that yes "today is my last day" n will live every day like that i will take every experience as if its the last time i am gonn have it..
enjoy ur life buddies it might be the last time u will be reading my feelings n thank you for that if in our life we meet by coincedance that will be great.. |
| | Posted by Volts at August 10, 2011 |
Every day i wake up to depression.
I have a part time job as a server but it does not pay my bills witch makes me even more depressed.
Thought of killing my self run free through my mind i have all ready thought of a way to kill my self but have not gone through with it.
I have tried to talk to people about how i am feeling but to me it seems like eather they dont want to hear about my problems or they are to busy and dont really care.
My friend of 17 years has been the only person that i can open up to but when i talk about this with him he changes the subject.
I have no goals in my life i have a diploma from graduating high school i have tried to talk classes at a community collage but nothing seems of interest to me and i end up losing hope and stop going.
all that runs through my mind is killing my self im still living at home with my parents and when i try to talk to them about this they yell a swear and want to argue with me about this I dont really know why im even typing on here not like anyone really will care.
4 months away from hitting 30 and i still have nothing going for me makes me feel worthless
i cant find any reason to live for and each day drags on longer and longer i cant tell you enough how much i hate my life
then to top it all off i have a learning disability and H.A.A.D.D (Witch stands for hyper active attention deffest disorder) ya i know ill prob have people say get off the computer or stop complaining but i dont care i need to let this out.I wish i knew what to do its hard living a life that makes no sense to you and all you want to do is just die.
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| | Posted by Roman at August 10, 2011 |
Hello
I am a nobody. I feel like my life has come to an end. You can call me an idiot looking for attention, but I feel like writing this down. I need to tell someone how I feel.
I'm currently studying (third year) and I'm almost to be a policy licentiate (don't know if it's called that way - a guy who analyses and specializes in politics). My further plans are to do a university degree of any available faculty cause in Poland to be a translator all you need is to get a university degree. Of course I'm planning on being an English translator, cause this is the only language I know other than my own. When I'll become a translator then... then what? And here is where everything collapses and kills me mentally.
What am I going to do? My face sucks, my social life sucks - have two friends, no friends of the opposite sex, had gallstones which I had removed along with my gall bladder, that causes diarrhea almost everyday. My eyesight sucks, my spine is distorted, I have strange nipples (maybe because of lack of training) which are baggy-like even though I'm slim.
The main problem is the face, but if you want the details, type in Google 'life sucks big constant pain'.
Even though it's vacations I feel awful. Cause I don't feel like it's vacations. To me everyday day is the same. If it's something like Christmas or Saturday or Sunday or something national, I just simply don't feel the difference. Everyday is like a boring routine. I know it's because I'm... |
| | Posted by anonymous at August 6, 2011 |
No friends, nothing to do, nowhere to go, so I sit and ponder the Day. Decisions don't come easy and I long for the day when it all goes aways. The seconds tick, the hours change and night turns to day. Without worry or care will only be found once I'm placed beneath ground. A few will weep, all but none will loose sleep. Then there will be peace. |
| | Posted by techlife at August 5, 2011 |
I am 29 years old and have 3 boys whom are the driving force behind all that I do. I am in a relationship going on ten years which has its ups and downs but is otherwise ok.
The problem I do have is I have a job that pays nothing, tons of debt, no free time to enjoy life and absolutely no friends.
My job is extremly dangerous. I risk my life on a daily basis to bring in a measly income. The problem with it though is that it is a technical job and one that does pay good given the right opportunity. I can't seem to find anything else though. This city I live in may as well be the ass end of the universe. High unemployment, no opportunity. I would move but all my efforts to find employment elsewhere result in zero calls. Its not that i don't have the credentials or experience, I've been working in my field for a few years and have been to college a few times. Which leads to my other problem. Tens of thousands of dollars in debt. Because of it I can't get a mortgage or a car loan. I can't save up any money to move out of social housing projects despite cutting back constantly. I am always selling everything I saved up for just to makE ends meet. I don't know what elsebi can cut back on. Its always a downgrade for me. My luck is shit too I swear every appliance or eletronic device fails on me even though I've owned it for a shirt period of time and I meticulously take care of everything I own. I can't do anything fun with my kids. They never been on a trip. ... |
| | Posted by anonymous at August 2, 2011 |
I am a in the closet gay 20 year old depressed man. And i have nothing to live for. I am ugly. I have severe acne and have a huge nose. I have no friends. My parents are VERY homophobic. And i am stuck living with them because about a year ago i got diagnosed with an incurable disease that pretty much requires me to be on health insurance, which my mom has me on. I don't have enough confidence to even look for a job because i feel so ugly. I used to think about suicide, but i considered that to be for weak people. But how much more of this can i honestly take? Literally nothing in my life goes right. I am also going to college, but my grades started to plummet upon to getting this disease, which gives me constant pain. |
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| Posted by anonymous at August 2, 2011 |
i dont know what to do. Im a sophomore in high school an i have so many family distractions at home that i loose motivation in school in friends and everyday activities.. On top of dealing with things at home, i have no friends. i talk to people but no one hangs out with me. I literally sit at home and do nothing. i used to be everyones friend and then so many things changed that i dont know how to cope with it. i dont know what to do anymore, i feel like giving up. |
| | Posted by who cares at July 28, 2011 |
When you are young, the world seems like a cool place. There are objectives and mile markers you have yet to see. It all seems very exciting. Then you get out of high school and you start working. You work really fucking hard and you finally get a girl friend and get laid. Then you start fighting about 4 or 5 months in for some unknown reason. Then you realize that every relationship you will ever have after that is subject to the same mechanically driven process that nobody can take a step back from and realize it could be stopped. Once you realize that relationships are doomed to repeat the same nasty cycles of infatuation, complacency, bickering, full on fighting and then the eventual break up then life REALLY starts to suck. It comes down to predictability. Once you start predicting with accuracy what is likely to happen in future situations, all you want to do is stare at the wall and smoke weed until you die with the same nagging, shitty questions that have never and will never be answered all alone choking on vomit and cursing your own blatant human ignorance.... |
| | Posted by Everyones life sucks at July 25, 2011 |
I am 28, own my own home in a good neighborhood in the bay. I am a full time sleuth and part time law student. I have loving parents and like everyone else an asshole sibling who I love. I struggle everyday to find motivation to continue, wake up, get dressed, wash my hair, put my face on, and smile like nothing is wrong.
I am in constant pain from a recent accident, I have been slacking off at work, dressing down on all days not just Fridays. I never wear make-up anymore and I never give 100%. Same goes for school; half the time I wonder why I am even still attending. I originally enrolled to prove I can be an attorney. It was a challenge; I am not loosing but I am sinking.
My personal life sucks as I am overweight. Ironically I lost 30 lbs and was very healthy prior to my enrollment. Now I am 40 lbs heavier because of the stress. I no longer think I am beautiful and I no longer believe I will ever get what I really want: I want to be a happy mother, a wife, and loving daughter with a J.D. Yet I don't try hard on school until crunch time, I enrolled to go to the gym a month ago but I have yet to start, I attract men who still live at home and either have crap jobs or no job. I throw myself at a guy I tell I would never take seriously and yet I can't bring myself to tell him I love him.
In addition I help everyone that asks for help and allow myself to put everyone else before me thereby setting myself up for failure. Yet I tell no one...I smoke marijuana and watch porn to feel better.
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| | Posted by Frank at July 24, 2011 |
i do nothing,25 AGE, BE MBA, NO JOB , NOT GETTING INTEREST IN BUSINESS, NEVER KISS A GIRL- VIRGIN, NO FRNDS, OBESE PHYSIC. I WOKE UP 12 O CLOCK THAN EAT, WATCH SOME TV, GO OUT , ROAM LIKE PHYCO, COME WATCH TV EAT , POKER , MASTURBATE , SLEEP.... |
| | Posted by anonymous at July 20, 2011 |
I am 24, white cocasian male, I live in a shitty eastern European country, although myself am originally from another country. I hate my life, I hate my family, I am ashamed of my heritage, I hate my body, my mind, I never had any friends, I had hobbies but lost interest in everything completely throughout the years.
My family never gave a damn about me, I grew up in my elder brother's shadow and was constantly bullied by him. I still live with my family, I have no job, I dropped out of college because I lost interest and eventually failed to pass the exams.
It is my personal belief that my brother sucked all the confidence and self-esteem out of me during childhood, that's why I feel like garbage right now and he is such an arrogant and overconfident prick. I blame my parents because they never noticed any of that and never intervened. (They invested all their love in him and left me pick up the pieces on my own. Ironically for them my brother turned out too spoiled to make them proud in any way.)
I rarely talk to anyone about anything important. I grew up watching TV and movies and listening to music in English. Maybe it's because of that, that it is my dream to move to an English speaking country and start a new life and forget everything and everyone I've known up to this point. Maybe find a life partner whom I could trust and who will see me and accept me for who I am, with all my faults and insecurities. I feel like I have lots of love to... |
| | Posted by Kaliedscope at July 12, 2011 |
I am just tired. In reality, I probably have a pretty good life. I am skinny, which most girls crave, but I am a double AA at 19 years old. My hair refuses to grow past my nose and I am choco black. I am going natural because I cant afford to keep getting a perm, but I despise my hair so much that I cannot look into the mirror or move out the house when it is in an afro. My 27 almost 28 year old boyfriend still lives at his step-father's house and for the most part seems content living there forever unless I move in with him, in which then he will get an apartment...but only after I move in. I feel as though it is a set up for me to pay the majority of the rent. Not only that, but all while we are planning to move in together, he is asking for a break. which just confuses the hell out of me and makes me even more hesitant to move out of my mothers house.I HATE HATE HATE kids, but I work as an after school counselor because childcare jobs were the only ones to return my phone calls after half a year job hunting. They give me nightmares even though I only work 5 days in 2 weeks. In truth, I would prefer to spend most of my time sleeping, if not my whole existance because even though I rarely dream, I do not suffer in my sleep. When I am awake I am garunteed to suffer Not that anyone puts their hands on me, but just suffering in this life. I wake up and my first thought is "shyt...another day". even if I have nothing planned on the agenda. I know something is going to fuck ... |
| | Posted by anonymous at July 10, 2011 |
IM 17 i have no girlfriend, no friends, no part time job.. nothing. A usual day for me would be wake up go to school get back from school, eat watch tv and sleep, and then do it all over again the next day. Sometimes i even feel sorry for my self. I feel like i can do better by trying to make friends or try out for sports but at the end if i get a friend i dont even feel like talking to them... I feel like IM worthless, ugly and cant talk to any one because i feel like IM not good enough for anyone.
my parents are divorced and i dont really have a good relationship with my dad... my mom and i had a good relationship up until now. I have a sister Thats 1.5 years younger than me and is the most successful out of my whole family and my other siblings are to small to say anything but their probably going to turn out better than me.
I dont feel like doing anything in life i feel like i have no energy always sleeepy .. I dont even feel like finishing this sentence I might as well kill my self |
| | Posted by jr14 at July 10, 2011 |
I am 35, live in a 1 bed room apt with my dog. I've had depression all my life and it's getting to the point, i'm not sure if I can keep doing this. I actually really fell for a girl recently, 10 years younger than me and in 5 months actually could see a future with her. Before that I was in a 6 year relationship in which i was cheated on and never thought I would recover. I'm not really happy with my job. All my friends are at the point in their life where they have serious relationships/ married, kids, houses etc. I am going nowhere. I pretty much try to sleep as much as possible to escape reality. The thing that kills me is that nobody really cares, no friends ever call to see how i'm doing, no x-girlfriends call to check on me (and they know how depressed i am). Each passing week I fall deeper and deeper into depression and lonliness. Saturday night, midsummer and i'm sitting on my couch, holding back tears. I don't know how much longer i can do this. |
| | Posted by jj at July 9, 2011 |
I am 21 yrs old. my whole life has been a complete waste. i don't know why my life sucks but it does.i m an introvert so i don't have many friends and those people who are my friends are just friends of name.what should i do?. it seems life has no meaning now. i feel lonely, i feel empty , i feel dead inside. |
| | Posted by Sad in Buffalo at June 27, 2011 |
I'm 53, divorced now for 5 years after being married to the woman I loved for 27 years. I am having trouble dating now because of trust issues and finding a good woman because I have gained weight and often get rejected. I find I have to settle for women that aren't right for me just so I can go out on a date. I am also dealing with insulin dependent diabetes. I come home from work so tired but yet can't sleep at night.
As a kid I was physically and emotionally abused by my parents, boys in school tried to beat me up everyday so I had to run home and hope they wouldn't catch me.
I don't have many friends, I live alone, I feel isolated, I feel unwanted. This has led to feelings of depression and sadness.
Now that my kids are married, they have their own lives. My daughter is too busy for her father.
I have always been a good man and have tried to help others when I could. My ex has remarried and her life has moved on and she is happy. I still miss her. I know I should be angry that she cheated on me. I just want her to be happy. I only wish her the best. She left me because my diabetes has caused me to be impotent and unable to get an erection or have sex.
I have no joy in my life, no purpose, no direction. I still live in the same house that my ex and I shared when we were married. I know I should sell the house and move. The divorce has also caused financial problems and I am nearing backruptcy because of my debt. I also know... |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 23, 2011 |
I am 33 years old and as pathetic I imagine a person can be. I am a single white male, living alone and eat takeaways every day. I have no friends.
I don't even live in a first world country.
I had a bad upbringing and didn't get on with both my mother and strict father. Because of this I never had the opportunity to rebel and so was just a good quiet kid not trying to upset anyone. I was very underweight for my height and at school they teased me as I looked much younger than my age and because I was so thin I looked anorexic. My mother always said I was greedy taking a big serving when she made food so she made me feel guilty so I took small portions.
I could never do activities after school or make friends as my parents were very antisocial and bough a house far away in the middle of no where and I had to take a lift directly after school to get home.
My life during school was my imagination and daydreaming.
My dad retired early and made my life a misery as he was an alcoholic and was at home and I had to do chores for him like buy him cigarette and alcohol, take off his shoes from his feet,clean his shoes, get him beer, make him drinks and help carry him to bed from the TV because he was too drunk to get there himself. He was a very unreasonable person treating me like a little kid and if I made any noise he could hear even if I was outside he would have a fit and scream at me for doing it.
During school my one hobby was... |
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