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worn out

Posted by anonymous at July 1, 2012
Tags: July 2012

I am a 41 year old male. Married my high school sweetheart at 20, we have a beautiful 19 year old girl. My mother died of cancer when I was 7 so I was 'raised' by my father - a retired Marine Corps colonel. I became a golf professional at 20. I lived that lifestyle of alcohol abuse, gambling, out all night. My wife had no choice but to leave. I continued my self-abusive behavior, but never had a drink around my daughter and paid my child support. When I was 30, I was sick of this phony lifestyle so I went back college and earned 2 bachelors degree and a master's degree in economics.
My last semester, I had a seizure and was told I had a malignant brain tumor that was incurable and will kill me. I went through all of the surgeries and chemotherapy.
I lost most of my analytical and quantitative abilities because of brain damage, so I have no chance of working in the statistics or economics field. I am on disability and medicare and work partime at a golf course. I experience frequent seizures and severe memory loss. I have just found out I have an aggresive strain of Staph infection in my spine and brain.
I cannot drive because of seizures, I have no assets. I have nothing to offer society. I'm just ready to get this life over with.


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By anonymous at 27,Nov,12 19:27

You do have something to offer because you are a really good person and you know a lot about recovery , survival and grace. The kind of grace to wear such tragic unfair traumas with kindness, honesty and bravery . And you are still willing to work hard and you even have the appeal to land a job even with all this going on. Society is lucky to have you.
By anonymous at 10,Dec,12 03:37

This is very true. You are a great asset to society! Many can be inspired by your bravery and your strength.

By anonymous at 28,Nov,12 04:09

Damn, if I were in your position Id feel the exact same way. Im sorry you have to go through this. Life has a sick sense if humor. Try to hang in there as best as you can.

By anonymous at 28,Nov,12 18:41

That some horrible luck, man. Many people have some shit going on in their lives, but serious health issues are the worse.
By anonymous at 04,Dec,12 03:06

Yeah, health issues suck. Those can really take the fun out of living.
By anonymous at 15,Dec,12 19:12 Fold Up

Considering this site is worth $482 ( I looked it up) I imagine the owners have no shirts to lose
By anonymous at 15,Dec,12 22:42

no,and they are pretty fing irresponsible and don't give a fuck about anyone on here.
By anonymous at 18,Dec,12 23:30

At a net worth of $482 they don't make enough money to care. Stories are nearly 6 months behind and the whole board is infested with disgusting trolls gleefully writing smut and telling people to off themselves.

By anonymous at 03,Dec,12 22:49

Good luck man, that's really awful

By anonymous at 04,Dec,12 07:38

just drink some hemlock

By liverpool at 05,Dec,12 22:15

continue 2 love
By anonymous at 15,Dec,12 00:02

what an incredibly irresponsible reply, and btw, the site manager should be totally subject to a lawsuit for not removing your post..i hope they lose their fucking shirts.
By anonymous at 15,Dec,12 00:03

not your post, sorry..the "drink some hemlock" post, is what I am referring to

By anonymous at 10,Dec,12 03:41

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." Matthew 11:29

God bless you! I will pray for you. Dont give up!
By anonymous at 16,Jan,13 02:33

shut up bitch

By anonymous at 13,Jan,13 19:28

i wish i had brain cancer. it's be the perfect fucking excuse to end my pathetic life

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