I'm 33 and the past few years have pretty much thrown everything I've ever accomplished in life out the window. I caught my partner cheating and left her. Through the separation I lost the house and everything in it except for a few personal belongings and a bed. About 6 months after that I was laid off from work and I've been looking ever since and still nothing. About 2 months ago a brick came off the back of a ute and went under my car doing more damage than the car was worth and wasn't covered under insurance. I was forced to move back into my mothers place, where the spare room is about the size of a jail cell (good thing I lost everything) and I only have one friend who I met at my previous employer and he's only 18 so there's not much we have in common except video games which is my only escape from life but recently I can't even get the motivation together to do that. All I do all day is pretty much smoke cigarettes and get in and out of bed. I can't seem to find reason to do ANYTHING. I just keep thinking, what's the point? I've tried talking to therapists and what-not, but everything they say just sounds stupid and superficial. Mum tries to help me out whenever she can financially but I can't talk to her about serious stuff, every time I'm depressed she just gets cranky with me cause I'm "in a mood" which more than often makes me feel worse but, if she wasn't around I don't think I'd be around for much longer either. Every time I have suicidal thoughts, the fact that mum's still around is the only thing that stops me. I dread the day I loose her. I honestly think I wouldn't be able to talk myself out of it if she wasn't around. Anyway, I just felt like getting some stuff off my chest since I got no-one else to talk to. So to re-cap, I'm 33 with no job, no qualifications, no partner, no friends, no car, no life :-(
so your wife left you, this is the case for tens of thousands of people, you have your motyher it isnt over
1. Get reeducated
2. Put a CV on a job wdbsite
3. Job Hunt
good luck, friend
At least you are still young enough to start your own business. Get a cash business, do not get a business license or the government will tax you immediately into bankruptcy. You know how Obama told Joe the Plumber that he needs to give all his money to those who never worked a day in their life in order to spread the wealth around.
You said that, "Every time I have suicidal thoughts, the fact that mum's still around is the only thing that stops me."
I have the exact same feeling everyday and since my mom is only fifty i hate to think of the pain that will cause, but i wish all your problem was my problem because i could live with that, but i lost my only child and there's not replacement. at 33, you're still young, if you can find a way to find motivation everthing that you lack now can be possible. Find a new partner, date until you find the right now. Find a job and get out on your own again. Make a goal and try to do it one at time and before long you'll get there.And remember there are worse things that could happen so be thankful that's all you have to deal with.
Get a job. Who cares what it is. At least you'll be meeting people.
I know this may sound like a cliche, but you have lots to live for. Keep that in mind. I know all the things that happened make you feel like you don't want to do anything, but you have to be strong and stay in one piece and move on.
God Bless you