| | Posted by lackey at June 15, 2011 |
im a 14 year old girl, and i dont go a minute without thinking about my flaws. my parents got divorced when i was two but i switched weeks with them. but in the last year they have been fighting lots (court and money stuff) and everything got messed up and i dont ever talk to my dad anymore. we were so close. i hate it. and since this is my first year of highschool, i feel that im a piece of crap cause im not pretty like the other girls and they are getting all this attention from boys and i dont even get noticed.. i think about suicide but i dont wanna die. i just wish i could be happy with myself. they may sound dumb but here are the things wrong with me. flat butt, freckles, pasty skin color, flat hair, not good at sports. an this one is the one that bothers me the most, i am a mean person. i do stuff that hurts my friends without realizing it and they get mad at me, and i get suicidal because my best friend hates me. i know it is so dumb and thats why i hate myself. someone please help me before i get too mad i end it all
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| | Posted by anonymous at June 15, 2011 |
I love someone that doesn't love me back. We had a romantic relationship for over 5 years. Now he says he only wants me as a friend, and wants to be friends for the rest of our lives. I don't think I can do it. It hurts too much. I know I should be a bigger person and continue our friendship, but when I think about doing that I feel like I would be disrespecting myself while also allowing him to believe that I must not be as hurt as I am. I want to quit my job, move far away and never give him the satisfaction of know that I'm ok. I'll be ok, but it's been a long time since I hurt this badly - I feel like such a fool. Thanks for letting me vent. |
| | Posted by usman at June 14, 2011 |
im 25 and i live in IL, i'm overweight and a virgin.
my dad died when i was 6 and my mom died a year ago.
i have tourette syndrome and it fucking sucks. i have mental tics where i have to stop and think for minutes at a time, sometimes i end up staying awake till like 3 and barely get any sleep. i scream out loud when i try to sleep and snap at other people.
dont have a job, live off of ssi and some life insurance money. im currently in school but its so hard to concentrate and i get distracted so easily. and im not very intelligent.
i tried getting medicine for my disability but nothing works.
i get angry alot and i feel suicidal alot. i sometimes wish i had the guts to take my own life and end it. but im also terrified of going to hell for killing myself. i feel like im trapped. i wish i did things with my life ealier and it drives me insane. i have alot of regrets in live.
i think the worse thing is that i see other people who had great lives. both parents alive, nice houses, have there college degrees, and didn't have a pain in the ass disability.
i dont know what im suppose to do. i guess i have to wait until i die for all of this to end. maybe i can relive my life without any of the bullshit. |
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| Posted by Pointless. at June 14, 2011 |
Reasons why my life is complete and utter bull shit: (In no specific order)
1. My moms an alcoholic. She claims to be my best friend. But
If that was true, why is she drinking, and if shes not drinking, shes smoking.
2. My father is a fat asshole. Just because you make a dick load of cash,
Doesn't make you father of the year. You eat everything in the god
Damn house. You speak to me like im an insignificant piece of shit, and
You do not care About my happiness. Its clear.
3. The love of my life and I cannot currently have a relationship because
His suffocating asshole mother refuses to let him grow up, have a life or
Be happy. His hick abusive father won't give him the time of day, so he can't
Turn there either. He's my only reason of living, and I can feel him slipping through
My fingers like carribean beach sand.
4. I'm stuck. Stuck in the worst place in the world. Litterally, theres
Nothing here.
5. My far-fetched dreams will never come true. Doesn't a million other girls
Want to be famous musicians and movie stars? Who am I kidding?
6. I'm lonely. I literally have no friends. my best and only friend is my true
Love, boyfriend. I'm alone in the biggest crowded room, everyday.
7. I hate the majority of my looks. It's hard to look in the mirror and feel
Beautiful when your constantly told you look like someone, someone
Disguisting, and your nose takes up your face, and your hair looks... |
| | Posted by septembergirl at June 14, 2011 |
I didn't have a very difficult life but I lived a very sheltered and lonely life. My mom and dad fought very much when I was little and still do, I didn't have the greatest family relationships and that caused a great rift, I'm not going into detail with that. When I was younger I didn't go out very much I had very little friends I rarely hung out with people so I was always left alone in my room. My parents were and still are very strict so they didn't allow me to do many things such as go to parties very much, go trick-or-treating, go on sleep overs, and many other things kids usually did. I didn't have many friends so I had to entertain myself by talking to my stuffed animals and essentially talking to myself. I was born with a speech delay so I didn't learn to speak properly until I was around 6 or 7 and still struggled to speak. Kids made fun of me and took advantage of me. I remember one day when I was at the park with my cousin a kid kept on calling me a retard and it really hurt me because I was so young. I was so naïve and dumb and so lonely that it caused me to become very sad a lot. Everyone would ask me why I was so sad all the time and I never told them why because I was too embarrassed to tell them. I had very low self-worth and basically no confidence in myself. I started becoming increasingly afraid and sad because I wanted to live a long life. In high school I suffered the first year because I didn't like my high school and it was hard for me to make some... |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 13, 2011 |
I'm writing this b/c im very stuck and unsure what to do. I feel the simple act of writing this down will help motivate change in my life. My situation sucks right now. I am horribly anxious all the time and i no longer sleep normal hours. I seem to be suffering from some kind of tremor that makes my hands shake uncontrollably when i get nervous and the dexterity in my fingers is so bad now that i find it hard to do normal things sometimes. Worse yet is the fact that doctors can't seem to do anything for me as nothing is descernibly wrong.
Anyway, im 23 years old and i graduated from college as of 5 months ago. However ever since moving back home i have found it impossible to start my life. I am broke and i feel in many ways underprepared for finding work in my field. I don't feel i learned much at school and now realize how difficult it will be to compete with other more qualified folks. My resume sucks, i was a bit of a reclose in school so i don't have recommendations, and if i even were to stumble upon a position im sure the fact that im illequiped for the work would be realized relatively quickly. I don't look forward to working as im fearful of everything and i recently found out that i need surgery to fix a busted shoulder from an incident that happened 3 years ago. Not sure what to do outside of fixing my shitty shoulder and resume. Im wondering if there are any good ideas out there for easy subsistence jobs which could be applied for out of state and at the very least keep me independent from my parents while i move forward my plans? Every day is worse than the last and i feel like im wasting time and can't stop.
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| | Posted by sm190113 at June 13, 2011 |
i hate my life, it's as simple as that
2 years ago i realized that i'm bisexual and i tried telling my mom only to find out that she's homophobic and thinks being gay is just wrong. so we kinds just let it go, i was scared to bring it up, still am. so I've been in the closet since then and let me just tell you that it gets really lonely and claustrophobic in here. it also doesn't help the fact that i have no friends what so ever so i never have anyone to talk to about anything. now when i get depressed i cut myself, but I've been trying to stop and i haven't in about 2 or 3 weeks. which i think is the longest I've gone without cutting since i started.
i mean i try to make friends but i can't, i'm not that talkative and it takes me a while to let someone get close because in the past whenever i let someone in they just end up leaving without ever looking back. I've always been the i'm-just-hanging-out-with-you-cus-i-have-no-one-else-to-hang-with friend, or i'm-just-using-you friend. so it's really hard for me to trust anyone because of that another thing is that people seem like they wanna be friends with me but when it comes to hanging out after school i never get invited. i'm just the lone loser.
plus my low self esteem doesn't really help, i try to move on and look to a better future but it just keeps getting harder everyday, especially when you keep getting shot down.
oh i forgot to mention, things have also gotten so bad at a point when i though about suicide so now I'm just doing whatever it takes to get out of this shit hole of a home and looking forward to a better future. hopefully i'll make it
till then i just hate my life. |
| | Posted by LonelyDreamer at June 13, 2011 |
THIS IS THE TRUTH ABOUT OUR KIND: THIS GENERATION OF TWENTY-SOMETHINGS HAVE SUCCUMBED TO REALITY. WE ARE PISSED-THE F-OFF, DISILLUSIONED, AND TOTALLY APATHETIC. WE ARE MAD-AS-HELL AT OUR PARENTS, RESENTFUL OF OUR GRANDPARENTS, AND SERIOUSLY HOPELESS FOR OUR CHILDREN. BUT FOR OURSELVES, WE ARE ONLY NUMB. . .
For how long as a child were you told time and time again that you were special? How many times did you hear teachers or parents utter the words "special" and "unique?" How many of you (like me) were duped into believing that you could "change the world," or "make a difference," or perhaps that you "have a purpose." Well, guess what, GEN Y - we are not, can not, do not, will not. We are the same as our parents, our grandparents, and the GEN's before that. Our parents are not to blame entirely - they really thought that we'd be different because they assumed the world would be different. It's not that we were so special, just that there should have been more opportunities available. And now that things have not gone as planned with our economy, job market, and entire country, our generation is left unfulfilled and totally disappointed about our parents' empty promises. Things aren't SO BAD for everyone, but they are MUCH different than the expectations we had.
UNFORTUNATELY - there is not enough emphasis on the tens of thousands of 20-yr-olds exiting college without ANY job prospects and a TON of student debt! Our parents' generation nags us about mov... |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 13, 2011 |
Wow, where do i start. My dad threw me and my mom out of our house a few weeks after i was born so that his beloved sisters and his beloved nephews could move in. My mom and i moved around a couple of times until my dad finally went bankrupt and decided to take us to the USA from the UK. For the live of me i don't understand why my mother stayed with him. So we moved to the USA and lived with my dads other sisters (who were just as big bitches as the others in the UK). My sister was born in the US and was taught from day one to act like the fucking queen of the world, to this day she treats everyone like crap and i cant fucking stand her anymore. Fast forward a few years to sixth grade and i hit puberty. My acne becomes horrible, all over my face and my back, i start getting fat and end up looking absolutely horrible. Then when i get to my freshman year of high school and it seems like everything is starting to look up for me i find out that my idiot dad fucked up my immigration papers to the United States and i find out that me and both my parents have been illegal immigrants for the past four years. No surprise that my parents marriage went strait to hell after that and my house became a war zone overnight. So now i have to leave the United States before my eighteenth birthday to avoid being arrested. I left the USA a couple of weeks ago with my mom and sister but couldn't go back to my old house because my pieces of shit aunts wouldn't let me stay in my own house and my dad wont do a fucking thing. Now we are sitting in England with barely any money and a dad who doesn't want to help me because it means helping my mom, not that he could help anyway since he is almost a million dollars in debt.
MY LIFE FUCKING SUCKS |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 13, 2011 |
Well how can I start off how money serve's such a huge purpose in our meaningless rat race life; to begin with I'm 22 years old deseperately wanting to go to college, but wait one moment...My Parents are defeinitely well off, but some how manage never to be able to pay for my tuition or books....I get the same excuses we're hurting on money...please keep that statement in your mind, for I will refrence back to it later.
I work a part-time job that fluxuates in hours so sometimes I'll get close to 40 and then some times it will drop down to 25 hours...I'm about a month close to 2 months behind on my rent, my girlfriend hardly gets any hours at her retail job, so its pretty hard. Finally I go out sucked up my pride and went ahead and got food stamps, I received them I get 145$ per month now, freaking amazing...I was starving for quite sometime, that made my life better until the day after I got my food stamps...oh boy the electricity bill totally forgot about that in my mind, well here comes 1pm ooops! The power gets shut off, I figured it was for the rolling blackouts in New Mexico since Arizona is on fire and shit...but nope I open my door found a notice from El Paso Electric....trying to get that resolved today, running on my lap top battery juice whats left of it...before I'm completely sitting with nothing to do in my meaningless rat race life.
On top of that, I drive a 93 lexus which drains every freaking new battery you get, because the on board ... |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 13, 2011 |
I am 26 yrs old 3 kids first 2 never had a real dad so i met someone who took me an my girls in we moved in we were engaged i found out i was preg which would b my ony happy pregnancy we had big plans found out we was having a boy things couldnt b better then a week before the baby was born he was tragically murdered ....my life sucksssss |
| | Posted by ajewels at June 13, 2011 |
After four years of being with my boyfriend and living together on and off. I find out he is living a double life. When we started dating he was getting divorced and his lawyer advised him to not mix the girlfriend with the kids. So we did things together without his kids but he would be with mine. I loved this man like no other and it seemed like the same back.
I have been somewhat suspious through out our relationship. Somethings he did didn't add up. But he allways had a really good excuse. He thinks very quick and is a really good liar. There was a day we were at a store and they had a dicount card and they had to look it up by his number. There were two names that were the same and they guy read off the address and then again I asked who's address is that and he then lied and said I don't know some guy with my name I just use his.
One night he didn't show up and I decided to white page his ex wife I got the adress and drove by. And there his truck was sitting in her drive way in the middle of the night. So many thoughts went through my head. I decided not to knock on the door do to they have kids and I didn't want to upset them. That morning he showed up and I told him was I knew and he broke down and admited he moved back in with her a few weeks ago. Well more like a few months ago.
Well we ended it and that day he called me crying for 4 days straight and decieded he couldn't live with out me and he moved in there for the kids knowing i... |
| | Posted by nicky at June 13, 2011 |
Have you ever noticed that when you test dive a car the dealer will have a pre-planned route for you to follow? This road will be paved as smooth as a baby's ass, no bumps, no pot holes, so the worst piece of crap car will behave like mom's cadillac seville. Once you sign the papers, the dealer lets out a big sigh of relief and watches as you leave their dealership. Then when you encounter the real world you find that the car performs like the piece of crap that you just traded in, and received next to nothing for it. In Illinois the car dealers are protected by state law. If you by a toaster, and don't like it, you can return it. If you buy a car, and the dealer lied to your face, nuts and bolts are falling off, and you find out that it hit a moose and was pieced back together so that no one would notice, you have no recourse. There is no three-day period in which to break the contract, you are stuck (I would like to be much more colorful with my language here, but I won't). How can a car you purchased for $5000.00 on Monday be worth $1500.00 on Tuesday? Would you say the people of Illnois are being treated as fools? Why is this the only business in the modern world that is allowed to cheat and scam everyone, and we all stand for it? Write your State representatives, enough is enough. |
| | Posted by what now? at June 12, 2011 |
well im 19 years old. im not good at much things i like to believe that my skills are drawing and computing. well i moved out of home to my grand parents when i was 16. this was shit but i had a group of friends multiple lovers. i smoke weed i smoke it with the few friends i have. this causes me no problems its just the area im in. well i moved bk come around christmas time. and my parents started to break up. my dad blamed it on me, my mom got support for the house and food and stuff. well now they are back together and hes moving back in, in a week. i cant stand my dad hes a prick and i hate him, and he hates me and i dont care that he hates me but the fact is hes coming back and i can live her when he does. theres always something he wants me to do when its something hes done himself i gotta clean it. i get on with my mom fine we have our problem but we get on. well my problem is my dad is coming home and im going to the extent of declaring my self homeless for i dont have to do this. i dont no wht to do. i need to go. ive been depressed for a year and i dont take pills because they just make u worse everyone noes that but still takes em. im english and i need advice how should i go of getting my convidents back and how can i get out of this house and get my own place with out knocking some one up. not like i have the means to anyway. i cant find a job because of this stupid credit crunch this pointless war has put us in. and anyone just gonna say oh u havnt got it tha... |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 12, 2011 |
I'm a quiet, shy and lonely guy.... I like to help people, i feel happy when I see they are happy... I always dream to see a peaceful life on this earth... But, in reality, most of the people I see, is selfish, cruel, they fight for each other for money, success and for their own... Where are their compassion, their kindness?? and I always think what will the earth looks like in future... The world is changing, criminal keep increasing, and the situation keep getting worse and worse... I don't understand and not know how to change this world... I just trying isolate myself from this kind of people... getting lonely and lonely... |
| | Posted by nevergoing2happen at June 12, 2011 |
please see my age at the bottom
never kissed a girl with out using money.
I have never been invited to a party in my life.
asked out every girl I knew including my best friend and only got rejections.
everyone laughed at me when I said I was ga.y.
stopped being ga.y. because all the guys rejected me too.
gave up in relationships.
never been invited to a party.
I just show up at parties that people tell me to come (but was never invited by host) to steal free beer. and get wasted and made fun of.
ugly
ugly girls think there too good for me.
I have a nice car and money but still cant get a relationship that doesnt involve my ugly face paying a escort 300 dollars a night to make me look cool in front of my friends.
I'm about to die soon and no girl has ever been attracted to me.
76 years of my life
not one kiss outside of prostitution |
| | Posted by Momof3 at June 12, 2011 |
I am so lonely. I used to have lots of friends, but I am busy getting my PhD and my husband is a loner. Lately I had only two close friends, my best friend moved away and my SIL screwed me over. How do you make friends when you are almost 40 and spend most of your time with your family or working your butt off? |
| | Posted by lonely at June 11, 2011 |
I'm 18. I'm not allowed to go out most of the time. I can't get a job.
I'm ugly. I have a huge nose that even my family teases me about.
I go to a private college filled with 40 year olds. My parents spent $21,000 on my tuition. I feel as if it's a waste. I feel like I brought them down even througout primary school, and highschool.
My older siblings are always breathing down my neck telling me what to do.
I feel like the family failure. |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 11, 2011 |
I was pursuing a career in music and working days as an account manager. I woke up nearly deaf one morning due to a tumor. After hospitalization and subsequent radiation treatment, I moved back to my home state and started learning computers as a trade. I worked in retail fixing computers for 3 years, but my store went out of business. I then got a job refurbishing computers for a dirt bag employer. Three years later my boss fired me because I would not embezzle money for him. Now I cannot get a job interview because I can’t use a telephone and because I was fired from my last job.
I’m going to have to find yet another career field and start from ground zero. I try to stay positive, but it is really frustrating that one dishonest manager has the ability to end my career. What choice did I have? Keep my crappy job and risk jail? What if I got caught embezzling money for him? I would get fired and face legal charges. What did I have to gain? Nothing, the money was would be in his pocket.
My parents flew in to town for a quick visit yesterday. My hearing aid stopped working last night, perfect timing. I cannot even get it looked at until Monday, when my parents fly home. So I cannot have single conversation with them while they are in town.
This morning my 2 year old dog started twitching and will not get out of bed.
I started mowing the lawn this morning and the lawn mower broke. I am out of work and don’t have money to fix my lawn mower or take my dog to the vet. My car needs an oil change and new tires. The plates need to be renewed in a couple months.
I guess my life could be worse, and I am usually positive, but today things are just stacking up.
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| | Posted by lost at June 10, 2011 |
My parents were always there for me, but my father had some psychological issues and I think I inherited some. I grew up in a middle class neighborhood, went to a good school, but I never had friends. I think I was sensitive to rejection and it interfered with me socializing with others. I went to college and had trouble keeping relationships with men because I would always worry that they didn't really like me or would cheat on me. I was so scared of being dumped that I would actually cheat on them.
I then went to graduate school and that was a mess because I had trouble relating to people. I had some relationships with men that would always end badly. I ended up quitting school because of psychological issues. I then got married and had a child and was still not happy with myself and went on Zoloft which helped a lot. My husband didn't want to have sex with me so I ended up cheating on him and telling him I wanted a divorce.
We got a divorce and I went back to graduate school for a PhD and while in school I got pregnant (I am 39). Now I am not yet finished school and am pregnant at 39. The father of the baby is ok, but he was unemployed and I have no idea how we are going to survive. I don't finish school until next year and I hope that I can find a job once I graduate. The father has some bipolar issues and I am scared about the future.
I feel I am too old to be in this position. I am in debt, divorced, have a 9 year ols son who I have 50% of... |
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