| | Posted by shady at May 12, 2012 |
To start things off, I'm a Shady (I don't mean Eminem, just Shady. Shady is a name for lonely, shy........person).
Here's a short description of me: I'm 16, good looking guy, good at sports, not a nerd, very smart, good person, shady
My parents think that I have a great life and a lot of friends...but I'm just acting so they don't have to worry about me.
I'm always on my own.
At school, people are making fun of me and calling me freak, fool and I don't even know why !
I never had a girlfriend. I have never been loved. I have never been hugged. Never. I have never been looked in the eye and told from the heart that I matter. Every girl I ever loved hated me for no reason. I just can't stand the fact that I'm single...
Nobody cares about me exept my family. Nobody knows that I'm cold and depressed.
I don't have to go further 'couse I already told you my whole life story, not just based on my description. I hope that all of you shadys out there get a better life. Bye...
Sorry if my English is bad... |
| | Posted by lonely and confused at May 12, 2012 |
I have a 16 year old son and a 20 year old daughter, and I have been married for 20 years. I knew one day 19 years ago this marriage was in trouble,when I came home from a week long business trip and walked into the house as if I just returned from taking the trash out. I said im home and she replyed " what im no mrs bradey" (Brady Bunch) she left and went to her mom's house, while I drove to mcdonalds for dinner. I should of known this while dating, what I mean is the almost non existant signs of affection, no holding hands, no kissing, no snuggling or anything else. In the bedroom things were ok for about 3 years, the children came and that also went to hell in a hand basket. My daughter is addicted to drugs and my son is doing well.I find myself leveling responsibility for my daughters situation on my wife. She was never very close to her, most of the time reacting to what she wanted,and then nothing till the next situation came up. Today my daughter wont talk to her and when my wife comes home she hides in the bedroom.We have been to counciling, psychiatrist, theraphist, all the stuff. As for me I am always helping my daughter out of all sorts of situations,and I am there 100% for my son. My wife hasn't had sex with me for over 13 years,I know your thinking what kind of crap are you up to, or you probably deserve this. I have never cheated on my wife, I still love her, I have talked with her about this, written her letters about how we can fix this. She dosn't speak o... |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 12, 2012 |
So to start things off, I'm feeling really bad right now. I never really had a "great" childhood, although my mother did everything she could for me and my brother. My dad who had weekend custody would often leave us waiting to be picked up. I'm not sure how this has subconsciously effected me as i was young. As I grew up through middle school I was a loner, outcast, weirdo, etc. I never really had many friends. I did what I could to get by though and stayed with the neighborhood kids who all hung out together.
In high school I was still a loner, I pretty much was known as my brothers little brother. So everyone knew me from him. I knew nobody really cared about me or wanted to talk to me I was just sortve there. But in high school I got into drugs and feel out of touch with most of my friends as I had to repeat my junior year, to this year I rarely talk to my "friends" from high school.
Lately, I feel like such a loser, like nobody wants anything to do with me. I'm not good enough for anyone. I never kissed a girl before in my 22 years of life. And about 2 years ago I finally found a girl that gave me the attention I finally felt truly happy. I loved her but she turned out to be a phony and walked away due to the distance, found a new boyfriend and wants basically nothing to do with me. I was honestly happy all through my younger years without knowing love and what not. Now I just feel so lonely, no real friends, all i do is drink, the girl i love wan... |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 11, 2012 |
Everyone thinks I have lots of friends. I'm sure more people care about me than I realize. But God I feel so alone.
I am declaring Chp 7 bankruptcy next month. Went through a tax audit that left me due money and then lost my job last year. No one knows my situation except a few people. Everyone thinks I have a near-perfect life, in some ways. But I don't.
I have often just felt so different than others. I know I couldn't be. But sometimes I feel intellectually on a plane that maybe isolates me from others. Also my experiences have led to that--I have chosen to pursue careers in foreign countries, to do things that simply lead to having to make new friends and go through lonely times.
People seem to want to use me a lot. Men for attention, people in my social group (church, mostly) I feel like just want gossip. I read once "I make love on the stage to millions, then I go home alone.". I identified. I have done speaking and sales work where that feels like my story.
The man I love is a pathological liar. It's very sad to accept that he will never be who I thought he was. And when he has realized I've found out about his lies, rather than want to fix them or apologize, he runs away scared to death that someone saw through him. So it's even been me often who has to coax him back. He agreed to therapy. But during it he was again lying to the therapist and me. Women contacted me through Facebook, basically, telling me what else he had goi... |
| | Posted by zora at May 11, 2012 |
When I was younger I had a few friends. I am 32 now and haven't been able to make and keep any friends in 10 years. I have always been nice and real. The people that I see who have a ton of friends seem fake like they all follow the same code of conduct and dress code. I have never been into trying to follow other people or do what society or t.v. or school says is right. I am just getting weirder as I get older. I don't mind it. I don't want to change. I think the way everything is set up how people treat people is really shitty. It is really a dog eat dog world and I am not like that. I am considerate honest and open and kind. I feel like the majority of people are turned off by these qualities and I am turned off by self absorbed superficial spiritually vacant humans so I am alone. I choose to be alone. I feel my only other option is to be fake and that doesn't seem very fun to me. A lot of guys check me out but I don't want anything to do with them because I have had really bad experiences with dating. The majority of people are morally bankrupt and lack common consideration and I just don't want to put myself out there to be torn down again by some superficial person who watches porn and is not evolved spiritually or emotionally. I also have trouble finding and keeping a job. I quit my career which has been a relief but now I have no job or money so had to move in with family which also turns me off from meeting guys. Nothing could me more embarrassing... |
| | Posted by jimmy at May 10, 2012 |
I can't stand life anymore it all seems so pointless to me. Everything and everyone that I have ever cared for goes away. I have no friends and have been lonely for awhile. All I want is one person one single god damn person that I can talk to if I had that I feel as if I would be ok. I feel like hurting myself sometimes and if someone anyone would care enough to listen to me I might not want to end my life. The hardest part is attempting to reach out to someone desperatly only to find out that they really don't care. |
| | Posted by PoohBear at May 8, 2012 |
I can barely stand the fact that I'm single...i think its loneliness that get to me the most. I have noone who understands me. Noone can see all the things these cuts hide, or understand the reason for this bottle in my hand. I hate myself. The depression is hard to fight over and over again, so I will raise my white flag and surrender to the dark. I used to be scared of death but now it seems to be the only way to get these thoughts out of my head. What am i supposed to do? Your the only one that can save me and you know this. You konw if you gave me the time of day I would be fixed forever. Being your best friend is driving me crazy. Everytime you ask for my blessing with a new girl I wanna say no because I want you, but your happiness is more important to me thatn mine, so i say yes she seems right for you. Will I ever be happy or oneday or will i finally just pull the trigger. I've decided to pull the trigger after I know for sure that you have read my story......i love you andrew....always have always will. |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 3, 2012 |
Yeah you might call this a first word problems post. I am 23, I have an existence, and I will likely get qualifications to mantain it. Hooray, I can vegetate. Like a fucking goldfish. Or a rock. I am as important to other people as a fucking rock. I am going nowhere. The people I meet look through me. If I ever build some kind of relationship it breaks. I have never had a girlfriend. I have never been loved. I have never been hugged. Never. I have never been looked in the eye and told from the heart that I matter. That my life life matters, that anything I do matter at all. I travel alone, I eat alone, I sleep alone, and my best text message-buddy is Vodafone.
I was raised religiously, I was at pshychologists, I tried to make other people understand 1 percent of my life but nothing and noone can tell anything that will change anything. I think I know most of the self-motivational bullshit that only helps normal people to get through temporary bad moods and that probably some of you strangers reading this post will comment. But I am not normal, I am a freak.
I tried. And failed. Basically trying and failing is what I've been doing for 23 years. If I take one look at the result of my efforts I could cry. It is now quite logical to deduce that if trying results in failure, then I might as well give the fuck up. |
| | Posted by Alone at May 3, 2012 |
i guess im destined to be alone and it really fucking sucks. Ive never had a boyfriend...i have no friends. ive been aloen for 15 years..its hell like i can't describe. I cant meet anyone, i cant meet a guy...im alone 24/7. The only people I hang out with weirdos i meet off the internet who are freaks who try to use me for sex and when they can't get any they bail and I have to get on craigslist to meet these weirdos and put ads in--it sucks.. My friendships with tehse weirdos last 2 weeks usually through text then they're gone. I can't go to parties, anything i have no friends, and people shun me. peopel who whine about being alone when they have people make me sick-- try living in my shoes a day you'd freak out. No one comes to visit me...i have to trick people into visiting me and usually they are these weirdo guys thinking they'll get laid. The only people who coem to my place are these ugly loser weirdo males who are hoping to get laid-- it's awkward and strange...I have to suffer through chatting or a bad movie where they're saying "why don't you come sit next to me"..and im like nah..not into that...sometimes im scared some sicko weirdo might rape me. But that might be ok since im a VIRGIN and in my 30's...ive never had a boyfriend...im beautiful and gorgeous but doesn't matter--males hate me cuz im beautiful so i cant meet anyone except tehse fuking weirdos off craigslist and I give up--it's so weird and not fair...ive NEVER had a relationship NEVER had a boyfrien... |
| | Posted by Stephanie at May 2, 2012 |
i just turnd 18, all i want to do is die. i hate my life, i hate my family. my family is more concernd with themseles n dont notice i do drugs to stop feelin hurt.
ive lost all my friends becuase they dont want to hang around me on drugs.. bt my homelife is soo stressful i jst cnt quit or cope. i dont care if i dont wakeup tmrw. i have no friends, no soulmate, and ima lesbian who is too scared to tel anyone
i feel alone trapped stuck lost like nobody else can hear me screamin . i scared im jst crazy n need to run away |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 2, 2012 |
I moved 3000 miles from all of my friends and family to be with fiancee who is military. I sold my car, quit my job, packed everything I could fit into several suitcases and hopped on a plane to try and start over in a new city. A better life or so I thought. Since I have no vehicle out here I can't go anywhere really unless I take his car. I have sent my resume out over 125 times but have had no luck in the job market. I don't know anyone but my fiancee here and to make matters worse I'm almost 8 months pregnant. Combine the pregnancy horomomes with the constant feeling of being alone and you have tears...lots and lots of tears. My fiancee is great but he works most of the day and is too tired to do anything by the time rush hour traffic let's him get home. By then I'm starved for human interaction. I feel like a puppy that is locked in the bathroom while ur away from home. The excitement to even see and talk to someone. Granted I do keep in touch with all my people from back home but talking on the phone just isn't the same. It's hard to enjoy being pregnant and having the baby when I feel so miserable all the time. I was so desperate to find a friend that I put an ad on Craiglist. I've never had this much trouble meeting new people. I've never been so alone before. |
| | Posted by TooSmartForYou97 at May 1, 2012 |
Sorry about the empty post but it means that my life is empty. My friends only talk to me when they want something. My brother wants to "touch" me(you know in a we are together kind of way with no strings when i dont want to). My real mom hasn't bothered to call. My real parents don't give a flying fuck. My sister is just one annoying whining spoiled little wanna bee princess. I am alone. My brother says he just wants to be closer to me. I said wer are claose without that. He says we are not that close. He said he doesnt want to fuck me he just wants to rub. To tell you the truth i am saving for marriage but with my appearance I dont think any guy will step up to the plate. I feel so alone. MY LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| | Posted by PW at April 30, 2012 |
I need to do something here. I feel afraid to leave the house most days, seems like all I want to do is sit around and smoke pot. I have been chronic for more than ten years now, and I want to stop but can't seem to help myself, I feel like I turn into a maniac when I feel the need for weed, like no matter what I do life will always be nothing but duty. Up until now I have managed to keep rent paid, but work has dried up and I can't motivate myself to look anyway. I know I could get work but the fear of the whole process leaves me panicking before I even start. And, of course, reaching for my pipe. I feel ashamed of getting high, and getting high is the only way to avoid the shame. I have made it to 41 now, but I feel the same as I did as a kid; scared, lonely, and unloved. And as I get older, now I am married with a 7 year old boy, I feel the constant weight of responsibilities that I don't feel capable of dealing with. And what's the world's response to me? Same as always. "Suck it up." I hate this world sometimes. |
| | Posted by HAFED HASSAUD ABDULA KAIM TURNER at April 30, 2012 |
i feel so bad, someone shit in my turban as i slept, and i am losing my faith in the seventy virgins. I am 46 years old and I have never had a girlfriend. my job at stop and save sucks, and I hate detroit. people come in and call me apoo. I hate life, i hope there are at least 6 virgins waiting for me. i am ready to go |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 30, 2012 |
for a long time ,i didn't have the feeling loving a person and to be loved.i have boyfriend and some good friends,but i still feel lonely.when the night falls,when i close my eyes,i wish someone in my mind ,but my life is so empty,there is no one can give me that great memory to think of.everything i did is wrong ,i just make it worsen every step i take,and now i pay for the price,i become the loneliest person. |
| | Posted by Amy, 23 y/o at April 29, 2012 |
I have been very upset with myself and my life for a long time, I chose a great career path and will be graduating with a degree in 4 months, but I really don't care for the job. I live with my parents and siblings but we rarely speak to each other. I've been acting out silently in ways those that know me would be shocked. I've secretly been finding men off websites and fucking them, no money or drugs involved, just liquor and sex. I can't stop myself. I've done this about 15 times in the last 5 months. I can't really say why- I'm lonely, bored, desperate for attention, mentally ill, not ready to begin my adult life? I don't know and most of the time don't really care. I'm hoping this is just a phase I'll forget about in the distant future, but when you think about how bad your life is, try and think about what I've done to myself, then you'll realize you're not that bad. |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 29, 2012 |
This si my 4th entry in this website. And yes my life sucks.
I'm a 20 years old moroccan gay man, alone and lonely. I've been in some relationships that lasted only for some days. I have lots of qualities that can make of me a very popular person. I'm smart, somehow funny, and somehow nice. I study French at University, and I know lots of poeple. I hang around with them a lot, I somehow feel accepted and loved. But it seems that at some point, they let go of me. I can't figure out why. I do my best so I can stay close to them, but it just doesn't work. I look around and see people talking and laughing, and having a good time together, but they barely notice me, or come to me. It always has to be me the one to go to them. Sometimes I just feel like I want people to abroad me, and talk to me. It might seem a very benign issue, but actually it sucks. I've come to lose all my emotions and my motivation. I don't feel like having friends anymore, though I know it's very important. Maybe that's the reason why after all ? It shows that I'm a very cold person, so nobody dare approach me ? I also feel uncomfortable under my skin(But I don't lack much of self confidence). I think other people are resilient and independant, unlike me. I can go and talk to someone, and make it look like I really need them, but they seem to be distant and careless. I feel like being with me or not is something that makes no difference. People have their own lives, and I don't. They act the way they like, and are not afraid to show it. And that pisses me off.
I don't know if what I say makes sens, but I hope you understand me.
Please help |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 28, 2012 |
I'm 20 years old and I can safely say I have a good life but I can't help but feel like there's something missing. By something I mean a woman in my life. Everywhere I look I see people in and out of relationships. A couple of my friends just got engaged and I look at myself and only think about why I can't have what they have. I am truly a fun person to be around but when I come home I feel I am a completely different person. I don't want anyone to think me being fun is a charade because that is who I am but being an only child, when I'm home all I do is think about why I have not met a special someone. Adding to that are the problems I face every time I see or hear from my father. We have never seen eye to eye and he has verbally and physically abused me for over 15 years. Because of these factors I have developed a bit of a bipolar personality in which I am laughing and all smiles for a second but suddenly all the bad memories and thought are let free and I just want to be alone. I try to vent it out through my hobbies (writing, playing guitar and listening to music) but they are not enough. The thoughts still chase me. I was asked once what I would change about myself. I didn't want to sound all depressing and ruin the fun atmosphere so I said I wish I was taller but in my mind was the real answer- "I wish I could cry easier". It is very hard for me to cry so I cannot vent out all the negative emotions. I try and try but I can't squeeze out a single tear. What I want i... |
| | Posted by jane at April 28, 2012 |
Hey iv never felt so lonely before:( I'm an only child, its just my mom and i in the house and i have a short temper so i don't make great convo with her! I spend most of my time sleeping. My dreams are beter than reality , i had a lot of friends then all of a sudden i started feeling out of place . I met this guy last year he took my virginity and ripped my heart out my chest. The pain is still there,and I'm going through it alone i have noone to talk to oneone at all literally people who were my friends just feel like people i know :( sorry i just had to get abit off my chest |
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| Posted by friendoftheloners at April 27, 2012 |
I came from a dominant, confident, never been dump and living the life financially and having tons of friends to now 30 jobless, lives at home and friendless. I lost everyone and the only person i did have was an emotional abusive ex bf and lastnight was the last (yah right I said this 2x already) ill ever have him cuss at me.. I cussed him out too... I have God and I should be good BUT Why do I feel this emptiness and sadness... Ive became the black sheep of the family and I dislike my lil lesbian sister who selfishly only care about her happiness and does what she wants and acts as if everyone is her slave including my folks BUT everyone adores her... WTF!!!!
I want friends to go out with and praying so badly to finally the guy whose rib I came out from...
Im not an ugly woman, Im decent looking and have such a one of a kind heart.
Its sucks cause all I really want is to find my soulmate but how can I if I dont go out cause no where to go and I dont have my own car and Jobless... what would I do without the internet.. Its my bestfriend now and hoping God will miracously manifest the guy of my dreams online or at least the friends whom can be for life...
Damnnn I forgot to mention I tolerated the ex and kept chasing him cause I have nobody else.. I actually did loved the guy but he can careless if I died... I so hope I can stand on my ground this time and not chase after him cause Im feeling alone and wants to get out.. Im tired feeling like a fool and... |
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