| | Posted by anonymous at May 21, 2010 |
Things were looking up. I got a second job, while my first was working out really well. So I decided to help my brother out with a job. Unfortunately I had lied about certain qualifications for myself when having acquired the second job. My brother went in for the job interview, couldn't keep his mouth shut long enough to make it through his interview, blew my spot up. And now I've lost one job while the other one is coming to an end (temp position for the loss).
Now instead of things looking up, I see a large earthen hole being dug in front of me getting ready for my burial. |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 21, 2010 |
cant find job, despite looking hard for one. had a few interviews, but having a degree doesnt make up for lack of experience. I need a job that pays enough for me to survive.
i am depressed and there is nobody i can turn to. im stuck online trying to get help and attention. my real friends do not give a damn. when i want to kill myself i text someone or try to call. either nobody replies or they talk to me for a little while, then say bye. one friend started talking to me about god and i said god didnt exist because of all of the bad things that have happened. he did not like that i said that and stopped texting me.
my car broke down also, its my only livelihood, its my transportation. now i have to put money i dont have into fixing it.
nobody speaks to me or treats me like i am human, like i even exist. i stay inside most days unless im out looking for a job. i try to save gas money when my car was working.
my boyfriend neglects me and goes days without speaking to me. he has no clue that things have gotten so difficult and just accuses me of cheating on him.
life sucks, i wish it could get better. i've tried to make it better, but nothing is happening. i truly would like to die, im sick of crying.
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| Posted by chris at May 21, 2010 |
Ive just been through way 2much shit and I really cant take it anymore. If my life stays the same, "shitty", and doesnt change soon, im most likely just gonna give up and end up dead |
| | Posted by blah blal at May 21, 2010 |
Lets be blunt here, life sucks and if there was a pussyless way out id be there. I dont wanna work anymore and dont give a shit about my life one damn bit.m sorry i had chuldren because there in for a living nightmare. I hate money and how people do anything incuding fucking over the real meaning of life for it. Im 28 and feel ive failed and my destiny was to be a fucken loser. I tried by going to college ang graduating with a business degree but honestly i have no will power to even use it. I just want to sleep forever. I have no energy at all............ goodbye |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 21, 2010 |
It was just a normal school day, and I told my friends about a really disgusting nightmare I had (I wont say). The friend who was in it got all pissed and wouldnt talk to me all day. My other friend, Lydia, being the shit hole she is, goes to her side. At lunch I go to sit next to Lydia, and she moves from that spot to the next seat. I sit somewhere else, and all that time I'm sitting there, listening to her conversation with Alex and Kayla. I try to say something, they all look at me, and look away. I know this is something on my part, but I called them motherf*cking b!tches after that. We go to science class about 45 minutes afterwards, and we can either play math games, or read. I chose to read, because my only 2 friends left were with the b!tches. I cry, school's over soon enough, I get home, and cry my eyes out again. I didn't go to school the next day because I didn't want to face them, even though it was field day. |
| | Posted by Modeeb at May 20, 2010 |
When we say our lives suck, there's a question that should be asked. Compared to what?
We are always scanning our world to determine where we are. Our brain is constantly trying to evaluate, by comparison, whether we're in the 'right' place or not. Mr. Jones has a lovely wife & kids, a nice car, a big house and a good job. But me, I don't have any of those things. Or look at Sheila, she has a great figure, a great guy for a boyfriend/husband and nice things. We are constantly comparing what we have or don't have with what others have or don't have.
But this thinking is a bottomless pit, a question without an answer. Whenever we ask, "What is this all about, what is the meaning of my life," we're asking a question that literally has no answer. Viktor Frankl who survive the concentration camps of Germany, went so far as to create an entire therapy around this very problem (what is the meaning of existence). In his book, "Man's Search For Meaning," he remarks that to ask what is the meaning of my life is irresponsible (yes, irresponsible). Is would be like asking a Chess Master, "What's the one and only, best chess move?" There's no such thing. It depends on where the chess pieces are at any given moment. So the question is not, what is life all about, but "what is life asking of me."
The reason we don't want to ask that question however, is because it puts the responsibility of making our own choices, upon us. We talk about freedom, we write about... |
| | Posted by hmmmmm Impalement at May 20, 2010 |
I'm back for more. To cleans the world of it's ignorance! (See may 1 under philosophical for more information about my answers to the meaning of life)
I said it once and I'll say it again. Your lives are all empty. You don't feel anything. You are cacoons that contain no life. You say you feel sad, angry, happy, etc. But the reality is that you don't feel anything... you just naturally react to something. Your reaction is the same as everyone else.
Though the reactions are meaningless and empty. You do demonstrate the signals of happiness and sadness. But more importantly you try to hide the pleasure you get from the pain of others. Lifeless vessells that don't suck the life energy from the pain of others. That is the true meaning of being human.
But there is more. The only purpose we have is to destroy. You subconciously do this through my existence. My birth into this universe is the reason for your existence, and my vision of the world has been achieved. A world where empty, meaningless, lifeless beings that react the way I invisioned, decide the way I invisioned and the list could go on for millions of pages. My goal was to create a nearly sustainable world, a world where I am free to feed off the pain of others. A world where there exists depictions sorrow, anger, jealousy but little do these people know...they don't feel any of it...it's just the actions they do because I invisioned them. I take this energy from peopl... |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 19, 2010 |
Me: [to the Bible teacher Helen] Like Pastor Roy said, how God is so much bigger and wiser than us, and trying to see what He's thinking would be like an ant trying to see what I'm thinking.
Helen: Yes, exactly. But we can trust in His wisdom, and have faith that He is watching over us.
Me: Like me with the anthill in my backyard. I spent days watching the ants, trying to figure out which ones were good, and which ones were bad, but they all just looked like ants, so I started smiting all of them.
Helen: Well that's not -
Me: I was smiting them with the garden hose, and with lighter fluid, and with the lawnmower, and to be perfectly honest, I think I went a little crazy with the shovel. Those ants could have been praying to me all day, I wouldn't have heard them.
[ponders]
Me: There was nothing they could do about it.
Helen: But, I don't think –
Me: Really it's the same with us. There's nothing we can do about anything either, so why worry about it? Hey, this is making me feel better.
Helen: Well, that's good, but -
Me: I guess all we can do is live our lives with as much kindness and decency as possible, and try not to dwell on God standing over us with a giant shovel. Bye!
I when from having 5 girls who would do anything for me, now, down to none…
I did it all for one girl whom I loved, I thought it could work, Even though I knew it would not. I gave up every thing, every one, for the one I thought had a chance at tr... |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 18, 2010 |
Life sucks I fail every time. Every time I am raised so high and thrown down when I'm about to succeed. I have idiotic friends around me who deserve to eat shit and die. Dion ng fuck you and go to he'll you fucking price of shit |
| | Posted by Nick Namovich at May 18, 2010 |
My Life SUCKS! im sitting near a PC typing my life story in an internet page. While there are people with Down syndrome, people who dont have food or shelter, people who are dying from cancer, I decided to tell how my life sucks. My life sucks, because I made very stupid choises in my life and im basically an idiot. My life sucks because instead of changing it or trying to help those who need my help I sit near a PC, telling all the world how hard life is for me, waiting for their comments of sorrow and understanding. Maybe after ill get some good sleep or speak with my friends ill come back and continue my miserable life story..dont really know... I think people should be sorry for me...I think everyone needs to know how hard is life for me because of my stupidity and ego. No...i cant continue....its just too sad for you to hear.
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| | Posted by come back when you're a little m at May 17, 2010 |
Lately I've been experiencing moments where I lie in bed with a severe head ache. I feel empty. Now I've heard 5 different reasons given to me by 5 different friends: 1. I am suffering depression. 2. I am suffering from loneliness. 3. I am sexually frustrated. 4. I have multiple personalities and one of them is unhappy. 5. The fact that I am out of college with not as much work has given me withdrawal symptoms.
Now all of these seem reasonable.
Depression: I have suffered depression in the past. I've been advised to take medication but I refused to take it (I was afraid of change). I've felt this way due to my lack of social acceptance. But lately I've been accepted a little. In recent weeks I have been stressed out and during weeks where I had a ton of work I felt this way.
Loneliness/ sexual frustration: Well I never had a girlfriend in my life but I don't tend to mind that. The only reason why I considered this as a possibility is because it could be some natural reaction to inactivity at an intimate level. Though I have my doubts.
Mutliple Personalities: I diagnosed myself for this and I am convinced that It's possible that I have different views on life, people, society, at different times. But to say that I have a whole new personality... that is a stretch but I'll accept the possibility. Maybe the idea would be mood swings, Idk if guys can have mood swings... if so then I wonder if that makes me a Drama Qu... |
| | Posted by estrellita at May 17, 2010 |
30 + 6,MARRIED , BUT NO SEX LIFE , NO KIDS NO NOTHING . fUN WELL ..... I HAD IT WHEN I WAS SINGLE , BUT I MISS THE CHASING UP, MISS THE SPLARKLING IN YOUR LIFE , MISS HAVE SOMEBODY NEXT TO YOU TELLING YOU THAT YOU ARE AMAZING AND HAVE THAT FEELING TAHT YOU WANT TO GET WILD AND ENJOY THE LIFE... IT IS TOO MUCH TO ASK , I WANT TO LOVE AND BEING LOVE TOO.sOUND CRAZY BUT I'M IN A TRAP I CAN NOT GET AOUT!!! |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 17, 2010 |
Depressed and on probation for a DUI... I've always had a pretty addictive personality, and it bit me in the ass on Oct 2nd, 2009. i had a decent job doing roofing labor, a great girlfriend and all the social structure i could ever need. i turned 21 in April 09 and started hitting the bar pretty frequently. Always had such a great time at this little neighborhood bar playing pool, shooting darts, singing karaoke and of course drinking. Waited a little too long to flip my lights on one night and got popped. couple days later i said something to my boss about it, and he fired me! I couldn't handle the frustrations of probation and being unemployed. Depression set in and my girl couldn't handle that. I was a real wreck for a while after that. The only thing that really kept me sane was meeting with the counselor the court sent me to. Now I'm about half way through my 9 months of probation, and have only paid off $250 of my $2700 total of fines. I've put in over 30 paper applications, and countless apps online. I've managed to get 2 part-time jobs, but they are extremely part time. Like i can probably only count on about $300 a month. I moved back in with my alcoholic of a father and sold off pretty much everything i had of value except this computer. but i still can't afford to get my license back. I walk about 6 miles just about everyday to beg around town for some work. well, I'm done venting. i can't afford anymore counseling, so hopefully this might make me feel a lil better. |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 17, 2010 |
Life really sucks i have fake friends everyone thinks im weird im fat lazy and have no motivation i really wish i was dead and i really mean that |
| | Posted by Dakota at May 17, 2010 |
I have arthritis in my knees and right shoulder, have fleas in my bed room and bed that no one will help me get rid of , my hospital bed broke down to the floor tonight . My adult children hate me. I have no place of my own to live I have lived with my adult children and every few months I get kicked out of their house. I live with my son and he brought some german girl in here and she is the devil himself...
Life Sucks |
| | Posted by Widge at May 17, 2010 |
My life sucks right now,
I am sick with Chicken Pox Influenza, Ross River Virius and a couple of other Virius. Have been for 6 months now and it ain't getting any better. In one semester of school I spent 50 days off of school; and the rest were like halfdays I was so late. I am tired and ill all of the time, and take 5 pills a day.
My school work is suffering. Normally I was like a straight A student but now I am a B, C student and hating it. I like to over achieve and get really stressed about heaps of homework. I even failed a few of my assignments.
On another aspect of my life, I have no friends that I can confide in, they are all into things that I am not and they are on a completely different page to me. I am at an expensive all girls school so I know I am a costing my parents too much and have to achieve well. My life with boy's is lacking because the one boy I have a crush on lives miles from me.
I also do acting and there is a role that I really want, but because of my sickness my director (who was always really nice to me) won't give it to me. But I think that is stupid because I always try my hardest to get to school on the drama days. I am getting better, slowly. But my director isn't very direct as well, he is very good with words, and I wonder whether he is just using it as an excuse to not give me the role because my acting is bad?
My parents also fight alot and bitch about each other heaps. I often get caught in the... |
| | Posted by UHHHHHH at May 17, 2010 |
I hate life and when I finally drop dead it will be the best day of my life. Working like a dog all the time, sometimes 100 hours a week, freezing in the winter and sweating in the summer. 6 hours a day commuting in stop and go traffic in this no good over taxed NY. My property taxes at 16,000 a year for nothing and the goverment always wanting more money stealing mine. Raising two kids by myself with no support or any kind. My mother is a useless piece of crap who thinks helping out babysitting once in awhile is a chore. Like I was asking so I can go out to the movies when all I need is to work. I have no friends because I work so much alone and an ugly girlfriend that I hate but stay with her because I need her to pick up the kids sometimes. She has such a bad attitude complaining about me not giving her attention. Yet we never see each other so what does she expect. Oh, did I mention I have not had sex in 4 years even though I am in good shape. Yes with my little free time, I waste working out an hour a day at midnight before getting up at 5:30 a.m....Looking decent for what. NO women ever look at me anyway. I can't wait to die when my kids are grown up. I only keep going for them. |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 17, 2010 |
So today I was sitting on a bridge wanting to just fall off. The only reason I didn't is because a bunch of people I knew were like 50 feet away and I'd rather not have a bunch of friends just watching me fall to my death.
...or maybe I just pussied out.
Either way, I just wanted to tell everyone how pissed off I am because I am still alive. |
| | Posted by anonymous at May 16, 2010 |
life sucks right now!!!, my aunt is going through bone cancer in her hip,and my b.f.f. is mad at me. every one is too old these days...LIFE
SUCKS!!!!!!! |
| | Posted by mangus leo at May 16, 2010 |
ok i will probly put this on my tumblr but i think i should post it on here too! ok my life is a blessing infact all life is amazing. yet im so depressed....... the girls i have liked for 3 years doesnt like me at ALL! Whats really bad is that im a attractive dude but when i first got to know her like 3 years ago i was kind of a loser and punk.... i have tottaly changed now tho! i am a very cool guy but she will always remember my old flaws and it seems like there is nothing i could to to make her like me... trust me i have tried about EVERYTHING... you could say that im inlove with her but idk... she is the perfect girl and there is probly not any other girl that looks like her or acts like her... so she is VERY rare and unique thats probly why i go crazy for her! she will never let me have her so i just dont know what to do :( |
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