LIFE SUCKS : 2010 May

started loving a guy after he got married to someone else !

I was in a relationsip with a guy when i was 17 and now am 22 ! i proposed him , he didnt deny it but he dint accept it verbally but am pretty sure that he was also interested. we used to chat thro' phone and i used to meet him daily in a particular meeting spot which is quite far from my place and nearest to his place , thats how we built our relationship. sudenly one fine week he started avoiding my calls and stopped talkin to me , wen i inquired bout this to his frns they said that he got engaged. hearing this i cried " A lot " and tried to get out of this . After a couple of years i came across his contact and talked to him in a frndly manner and he told me that he have a baby girl just 6 days old. He never used to talk much and he is a perfect gentlemen and that's wat i lik the most in him . I felt very happy wen he spoke to me again . Even after lookin at his wedding photo , am not able to digest that he is in some one else's hands! In spite of all these i used meet him in regular basis wen i was in 20- 21! Now my parents found a match to me and am gonna get engaged in next one week. i miss him a lot . i dont know wat to do . i still love him , doesnt matter who he his and with whom he is !
is that a crime to love who is married !?

a messed up tale

hi my life really sucks right now, the love of my life left me, my crush which i hit on earlier this year is like running away almost literally from me, earlier this year i was the brunt of a cruel joke and had maybe at least 40 people laugh at me for two months, my best friend steals money from me but im to much of a ... to confront her, my mother hates me amd she together with the other members of my family often critic me annnd i want to be in a relationship badly right now but im too much of a pussy to make the first move, or to accept dates.

Dumb Puerto Rican

7 years ago I moved to USA from Puerto Rico. I started in Florida, then to Georgia then back to Florida, things didnt go well so I decided to go back to PR, all in the same year(2003). Came back in 2005 to GA then moved back to PR in 2006. Found work in PA and before my year on the job I moved back GA to help my mom. In 2008 I moved to FL, again. I was really depressed because I wanted to have an American white-blonde-blue-eyes girlfriend so I decided to get really drunk. I walked into this bar and started talking to the bartender. At the end of the night she gave me her number. Month later I moved to MA just to be 3 hours away from her. She lives in NH and was in FL for the summer of 2008. So 3 months into the relationship and we decided to move in together. It lasted 7 months. One day on a very cold night under 30 inches of snow she told me she needed space. I totally freaked and moved to San Diego. I wish I would of never done that. Then she calls me while in CA, tells me shes 8 weeks pregnant but the thing is I cant have kids. So here I am in San Diego with a broken heart and single again. By the way she was perfect, cheerleader all her life, amazing green eyes, blond and white skin; also I had this notebook where I wrote something romantic almost everyday and she was just loving it. Anyways single and with the thought that my perfect girl cheated on me I took off to Tijuana, Mexico where of course I got drunk on Tequila and luckly woke up in San Diego with all of my...

life story

my mom lift me it age 8.and i am marrid and have a boy & girl that i love and daed for and seens the age if 8 to now 23 all i do is work naver i haved a day
where i gets chill out and anjoy life and every day i think am going mad..
sometimes i gets punch and silp people over litlle thing. and at the age if 16
i almost killed my self mutuple time...i think it happening all over i am always think if ending my life....hlep me ..I realy dont went my wife and kids to be with out a father

what i think about life

hey its me again, im always thinkin bout life in such a detailed way every day that i have to rite it down n i think its gd to do that. it makes u realise that there r people everywhere on all levels of life who r incredibly depressed, n that i find very sad and the way us humans live or not. the world i c and live in makes me so angry and restless. i always go to bed thinkin bout what that day could have been but all it was was gettin up goin to college or work,comin bk home cookin tea, loadin the dishwasher. it does my nut. were a fucked up species that think just because we have a brain we can be superior to anythin else. that is not true all creatures have brains and we think as were the most intelligent beins here that that gives us the rite to rule absolutely everythin. look at the way we run single countries and then fight each other for more land n what for. i feel that is very ironic because if we were clever then surely we would be livin a more meaningful life, instead of gettin ourselves down by thinkin we can change whos guna lead this country and actually makin it all better. that is never goin to happen so all we can ever do is carry n battle on. i want to no y were the only species that have to earn to live on this gorgeous planet which it is not anymore down to what we have done. i feel so sorry for all other breathin life on this planet as none of what has happened is there fault its ours n we think that makes us the most intelligent beins on earth, which makes us very unintelligent. OH PLEASE GET REALISTIC. what scares me the most is that its not just earth that were goin to destroy were talkin bout emigratin onto mars now so yh were a fucked up species. if we were here everythin would be amazingly beautiful n all our fake n horrible buildins would be historyn replaced by natural climate once more n that is what is awesome. bye guys n gals take care

The journey of a thousand miles sometimes ends very, very badly.

Life is a journey. Most people get lost along the way. Everything that can go wrong, will go wrong. My life sucks. I have a mental illness that makes me miserable. I am fat and have scoliosis which is a curved spine that causes me back pain. If that was not enough to make my life suck, I am also poor and sensitive to noise which means I am at the mercy of my neighbors to keep quiet. I have very little control over my life. The only reason I don't kill myself is the small amount of hope I have that my life will get better. If I ever get a painful terminal illness, I will kill myself rather than suffer.

Life sucks. Period

IF people really must know, life sucks, period. School sucks, Mornings suck, Drug sucks, God sucks, Telivision sucks, Music sucks, sports suck, siblings suck, parents suck. Fridays SUCK. In conclusion you can make you life worth while with all of its suckiness, or you can sit at home all day in deep depression and think about dying. lists go on and on about how much "life" sucks, and if you think about it death sucks too, its mostly painful and nobody really wants to die.

My daughter hates me

U know life is bad when u find out your pregnant and your 18 and on your 1st semester at college. My good for nothing baby daddy moved on and never helped me with anything. He never even made it to an appointment!!! I had the baby by myself and continued school. Years later I graduate, marry a wonderful man, and have another baby. I do everything for my daughters! Yesterday I get a call from DCF saying they need to talk to me. Once they call I break down, I couldn't even function. I had to leave work so that I could cry!!! They came over and she said my daughter was complaining of me hitting her with a belt and making her bleed. Anyone who knows me knows I don't hit my children, they ate the most spoiled kids I know!! How can she do this to me? I feel so betrayed and heart broken! I can't even look at her in the same way. I cried soooo much my eyes are burning. I took a shower with cold ass water and feel asleep for about an hour. I am in suck shock and disbelief!! Even though my family is supporting me, I feel so alone. I feel like I'm in a room full of people and am screaming and no one hears me. The dcf worker told me not to worry, that she can tell my daughtes lying, since she can't keep her story straight. But it hurts so bad!

Hmmmmm Impalement....

Dyadic withdrawal... I recently took a sociology course, since im a math major i couldn't care less about it so i never showed up. But if there is anything I learned from that class, it's the term dyadic withdrawal. What is it? It's when two couples decide to hang out with eachother, base the decisions on eachother, etc. But at the same time, they don't hang out with their friends as much, they don't care so much about how your day was, etc. So pretty much this is my case. I had 5 friends. All of them got into a relationship and now it's just me. What i find interesting is that. People who are in relationships tend to hand out with other people in relationships because then they could discuss relationship things... I'm not in a relationship mainly because I don't try, since I was under the impression that relationships happened after college. So...I guess I was dead wrong.

I thought I had it bad

Man I thought I had it bad, The last three years I have went thru a tumor in my head the size of a baseball,wich then my weight skyrocketed to 400 because of the nature of the tumor, I was diagnosd with Diebities and I read these stories and cant help but think you people needed a word of encouragement. Snap out of it and do something about your problems, take control of your life, BE STRONG PEOPLE. Dont put up with the negative things, only you can fix them and turn your life around. Life does suck at times but you have to keep fighting and never give up!!!! There is good out there, sure its getting harder to find BUT KEEP LOOKING its right in front of your noses.

Life can't get any worse :(

my cell phone juss recently broke & i really have no way of gettin in touch w. my mom when i need to . so one day i stayed after school w. my boyfriend longer than i should have . im not even allowed to date & im i n high school . wtf kinda shit is that ?? now my mom thinks im havin random sex WHICH I AM NOT ! & we're not even speakin . i dont think she gives a damn about me anymore so im jus gonna keep my distance from her . i no longer ask her for anything , i ask my closest friends . life has always been like this between me & my mom . i always thinks she dont care . for example. ill say ilove uu mom & she will just sigh or something , so its like why even bother . but iwould never commit suicide , dont ever do that but im jus tired . wish i could live with my boyfriend or sum . ugh

Dealing With Hopelessness

In our world there are all different kinds of popular heroes. War heroes, good samaritan heroes, captain Sully heroes, heroic athletic performances...

Yet on another note there are other kinds of people in this life just like you and me. People who suffer through heart wrenching things: People who are incredibly lonely, sad and hopeless. People who deal with unbearable pain who don’t know how they will make it through the next 5 minutes let alone the next hour. Guys and girls who feel utterly worthless because of the expectations of themselves and others. People who have been helplessly sinned against, who’s earthly lives have been wounded and can never be healed.

To me the concept of time is a strange thing. For some time is a blessing. These people are able to feel a moment of happiness in the future; they have the hope to endure a little while longer. For others and I think for many of you time is a curse. For a while in my life I have felt completely hopeless. I think for you and me the emotional and physical pain has completely broken us. For some life on this earth has erased their spiritual faith, has taken away their happiness and has destroyed their hope for a future. For these poor people time is a curse because they have no hope.

I don’t know how many people have truly been hopeless at a time in their lives. You need to have suffered some kind of unbearable loneliness, loss, anger, pain or wrong to truly understand.

I thi...

This month sucks..

This past month has probably been the worst month of my life. Throughout my life, I have had to face the struggles of my parents divorce, the hate I from all the students. This resulted in me switching schools. I ended up feeling the same as I had at the previous school.

Then I moved out east when I was in grade six. I am now in grade eight. My boyfriend dumped me and laughed in my face. I just found out my dad isn't coming to my graduation and I'll be the only kid NOT doing the father/daughter, mother/son dance.

On top of that I'm finding out my friends aren't really my friends, and my mom is losing money. Even though she says I don't have to, I know I need to get a job to help out. My sister is 15 and is trying to lose her virginity before she turns 16 in two months.

could it get much worse - part 1

So even as a kid i remember my Mum dragging me to school, me hating it i was an anxious child and i would hide myself in the toilets run away from school, anything just to get away from this situation that i hated. In the end i ended up loving primary school I excelled in heaps of things, i was in the paper a lot i *used to* love being photographed and being the centre of attention. A catholic school was the first high school that i went to but there were these twins who hated me and just loved to bully me, my parents moved me to a public school when they took it too far and knocked me unconcious against the bike stands. I got along with everyone there really. I was in year 9 and was at gcse level i like really excelled despite the whole add thing. Then my Dad got a job in France and the next thing i knew i was sitting in class in a private french school. I didnt know how to speak french. I hated that skool the kids took the piss out of me again i was pushed around and stuff things just got too much and the thought of going back to school was so terrifying i took an overdose and landed myself in hospital. I had kidney failure. I was on dialysis and tbh everyone had been warned i could die cuz i was just so ill from the od. After 2 months i was out of hospital, but not with much counselling cuz i didnt understand much french so it was hard for me to understand and express myself. The majority of girls i associated with in hospital had eating disorders (ed's) and i didnt th...

my life sucks

my life sucks so badly....
um born in a poor family,,,with no status n luxuries...
bt mine problem is dat i can't stay like a poor one...
its been ages i have never succeded in my life,,,, i never got wot i wanted.... bad family, bad love life, no stature, nothing ,,, just starving like dogs... feel like ending mah life... its too bad ...no car, no home , no fanciful desires, no gud clothes, nothing i have... my life sucks like NYTHING... I DUN HAVE ANYTHING WITH ME AS LIKE OTHER PPL HAVE WITH DEM.. GUYS PRAY FOR ME... SO DAT I CAN BE SOMEHOW GUD SOMEDAY... i hate my family,,now i dun even believe in god, i dun have any frns no circle, no party, nothing,,, um hell...

Injustice

Before I met my wife, she had a pretty rough life. She was divorced with two kids from her first marriage and pregnant - living with her new fiance. One evening he beat her oldest child to death.

Her fiance went to jail and she decided to have the child but made it clear that she wanted nothing to do with her ex-fiance. As a result of the fiance's crime, she lost custody of her remaining child from the first marriage.

That is when I came into the picture. I fell in love with her and we were married. Prior to our marriage the scumbag who killed her daughter was let out of prison (he was only convicted of involuntary manslaughter, not murder). I had decided I wanted to adopt her son from that relationship as I was the only daddy the boy had ever known. We started the legal process for that and the ex-fiance decided to contest the adoption and assert his parental rights. He had not even tried to see the kid for three years and now he was claiming he wanted to be a daddy to the boy.

At around the same time her ex-husband announced he wanted to move out of state with their remaining child. So we were suddenly faced with two legal battles to fight at the same time. First the adoption and then the removal from the state.

The legal bills piled up and both cases dragged out for more than a year. We kept charging the lawyers fees on credit cards. Our one hope was to force the ex-fiance to pay the court-ordered restitution from his c...

i dont know why i even try

1.Im Black
2.Im Gay
3.The sun never shines on me
4.My boyfriend cheated on me with a WHITE GUY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5.I have AIDS
6.I failed 7th grade
7.Nobody wants me to suck them
8.I can only work at fast food placesss
9.my mom fucks me
Ima end it all
fuck life

my life sucks and there is nothing for me anymore

My life sucks and there is nothing for me anymore. About 2 years ago my life was really bad. I was with a guy for 9 years and he was really abusive. I then met my current boyfriend. On september 22 of last year my current boyfriend proposed to me and now I am supposed to get married in less than 2 weeks. On May 22, 2010 is supposed to be my wedding day and the pastor that is supposed to marry us called me and said that he could not make it, so now I have nobody to officiate my wedding. I do not know what to do, but cancel my wedding. i dont really want to cancel it, nor can I afford to cancel it at this time. I know nobody else to marry my fiancee and I. Nor can I afford to find anybody else cause the justice of peace in our state cost dang near $200, and short notice sucks even more. To add to it my photogragher canceled as well. I am beginning to think that my marriage is just not ment to be.

mr

As a child living in Scotland my family was very poor, we lived as best we could on a diet consisting mainly of haggis. Haggis which we had to catch and kill ourselves or face the wrath of my tyranical father. Even at aged four my father would daily send me up into the hills with my two younger brothers haggis hunting. And if we didn't catch a big enough one? He would beat us to sleep that night with the intestines of the scrawny ones that we did catch. I suppose it was just his way of saying that he loved us, but a cuddle might have been nicer.
I think these experiences have inevitably coloured my entire life, for one thing, I can't stand haggis anymore, and I still flinch everytime I see a string of sausages. Which considering I work in a butchers makes my worklife a living hell.
Not that home is much better, my wife "Mamfa"... before I conitinue I must point out that Mamfa is a pet name, her real name is "Samantha", you see my wife has a cleft pallat and when I first asked her her name it sounded like she said "Mamfa" so it just kinda stuck.
Anyway "Mamfa" has recently left me for an orthadontist and her words just before she slammed that door behind her for the last time, well they still haunt me.
And for anyone out there that might be feeling a bit low, believe me you don't know the meaning of the word pain until you hear your wife of 16 years call you a " shushling ushleh shunt".
TOM c

When is it time to say goodby??

My life for the past 16 years has been complete hell. I married when I was twenty years old. Almost immediatly he started to controll everything that i did. We moved away from my family and friends. One year later we had our first child. Not being able to have friends of my own, thought that it would be ok to go to the beach with his sister, No what I got was the phone slamed to my head.His family looked at me like this was normal behavior. The physical abuse went on for my entire marriage. I have had pillows held over my head until i passed out. Once I was beat 1 hour before i had to start work. That day I went into work with two black eyes and a bloody lip and nose, and handfuls of hair missing from my head. Ten years ago to try to get away from the pain ,i slit my wrist. Many stitches and a week in the hospital for mental observation, was it worth it no.You see my Ex husband is very powerful Sucessfully, and he does know how to works the system. People tend to listen to him, because he is a very smooth talker. He has a way of turning things around to make you look like the bad person, and he has no problem doing this to anyone to get what he wants.. The people that know him including his own family have described him as a ruthless son of a bith. Aside from the physical abuse that i have endured from this Monster. The mental abuse was far worse than anything that I have ever had to go through in my life. This person has made me feel like i am a useless person and whose ...