LIFE SUCKS : 2010 September

Life is not easy

I'm reading some of the blog about how life sucks. Some of you are still young and have a future ahead of you. We all have a chance to make changs but if you give up nothing will happen. My life sucks and I'm 41 years old. The reason why I say this is because 2 years ago my son who was 3 1/2 years was diagnosed with cancer. Now life sucks, it drained me and my family out mentally and emotionally. Money doesnt matter to me. All I care is that my son live a healthy life and that I'm able to see him grow up in the next 30 years or so.He is 6 now and he is on remission for another 3 years, now life sucks. As a parent i have to wonder everyday of my life for 3 years is this shit is going to come back at some point, so life suck. WE should all be happoy we are alive and thank God that he is still with us, me personally I gave up on life after all of this. I'm a stay home mom for the past 2 years to care for my son and another child who OD twice last year and this year, so life sucks for me. I got hit hard with cancer and a drug addict. He's alive and doin well. But emotionally and mentally I lost my mind where I have been despressed since March. Life is very unfair to me, I dont believe in anything any more because all the hope I had is all gone. And here I am telling you guys not to give up. That because although I know deep inside of me what is true I fail to accept it. So we including me need to be happy we are breathing, material isnt everything in this world, cause when you died is not going with you as well as the money. One day I will get better and believe to have some hope for me. Life is crazy and unfair but that because it already set for us. We just need to overcome those bad moments.

The only thing I am good at is quitting.

I am 22 and I have never worked a day in my life. Pretty much every job excepts their employees to have confidence and years of work experience. I have neither.

Yet I do not feel bad of being a leech upon my parents. At any moment if they choose so they could kick me out or something and I would just go onto the streets and die. I am mostly apathetic, which prevents me from caring much about anything. I spend my parents money and give nothing in return. I barely even speak to them.

Really what I do feel bad about is that the next 60+ years of my life are going to be so boring. I view many things in life to be pointless. Death the most pointless of all. So no suicidal thoughts.

I have nothing to lose by trying and everything to gain. But I still lack the motivation to do anything.

I am solely responsible for my misery

Hello

The moments of arresting beauty that life presents to us are useless - when the golden autumn sun strikes a building at a particular time of day; when a smiling mother totes her two tow-headed daughters through the grimy streets after a light rainfall, the three of them oblivious to the colorless world that surrounds them; when the snow transforms the night into an eldritch moony landscape that we might dream heaven to be like; all of these quiet, private, experiences serve only to demonstrate how little regard good things have for us, the abject and rotten.

I am a villain. I act how I know I ought to act, I act responsibly when people around me are upset - I let them know I understand, that I hope they feel better, that they are good people and that they are loved. It is a lie. The truth is that I couldn't be more delighted about the miseries of those I know. And the irresistible conclusion reaches me that, for lack of a better phrase, I am bad. I am adverse to happiness - rooms filled with happy people quite literally cause me to panic, become nauseated, then dizzy, and often even to faint. On the other hand I take a great satisfaction in crowds of miserable people - funerals, protests, wakes, etc - I feel at ease and quite comfortable when those around me are in a great state of torment. Again, I am led to believe that I am bad.

In relationships I do all I can to resist the urge to train and control. I need for people to neve...

i HATE YOU

THIS FUCKING SUCKS. I HAVE NO WIFE. NO LIFE. NO MONEY. I LIVE IN A GARBAGE CAN UNDER A FUCKING CARD BOARD BOX NEXT TO SOME NIGGER NAMED JAMAL. HE HAS DREADLOCKS AND I USE THEM FOR A PILLOW. I GOT BITE BY A RAT OUT OF HIS DIRTY FUCKING HEAD LAST NITE. I HAVE RABIES AND NO INSURANCE. MY MOM HATES ME AND MY DAD BEATS ME. I STAY IN THE LIBRARY BUT THEY KICK ME OUT BECUASE I SMELL LIKE SHIT. I CAN'T EVEN GO INTO THE ARMY CASUE MY BODY IS SO WEAK AND DECREPED FROM SLEEPING IN ALLEYS AND DITCHES THE PAST 6 YEARS. I THINK I SHOULD KILL MYLSEF. BUT THEN I COULDNT BUY DRUGS. I HAVE NO MONEY THOUGH. MY LIFE SUCKS AND I HAVE THE SAME SOCKS ON FOR MINIMUM 7 DAYS THEN I PUT THEM IN WATER AND PUT THEM BACK ON. YOU EVER WORN SOCKS LIKE THAT? MY EX WIFE STOLE MY KIDS AND MONEY. I AM A BUM AND CANT EVEN SHOWER. I LOOK LIKE BUBBLES FROM THE WIRE. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

Life is never good to me...

I wanted to start out that my life is compared to an ant, meaningless and can be stepped on anytime. Ive been depress all my life since i have moved from thailand to the united state in 86. I never had loyal friends just people who used me as tools. I don't fit in with any group because I am different from them (look). I use to try hard in school then i lose motivation. I feel like i don't have a future to look forward to. I never had a girlfriend, never been liked by a girl. i can say that i am loser. My parents always look down at me. My parents are the one that gives me the most pain because they never support me in anything and never cared about me. I feel lonely and depress all the time and and to make worst, I lost my Job...I don't care about living anymore. I don't care if i go to hell or heaven as long as i escape from this suffering.

I hate telling people my life story..

My auntie died two years ago, in-front of me, she smashed her head open on a scooter. My dad died of cancer last Christmas. It was slow and painful, and i had to watch it all. It was his birthday last week. Everyone but me forgot. My uncle died last month. The funeral was exactly like my dads. My brother is a paranoid schizophrenic, he tried to kill me with a drill, because he like all of my family (except me)are secret drug addicts and dealers. I'm failing math because my teacher says I'm too distracted. Last week my boyfriend cheated on me with my "best friend" All people seem to do is tell me how cute and innocent i am, and how i forgive too easily, I've had more life experience than any of them. But I'll never tell them that, i don't want them to know, people look at you different when they hear how much your life sucks. So i keep it all to myself, and i smile. I'm only 16, is wrong of me to think all this isn't fair?

A man takes me and rapes me.

I was night and i was in the city and I was on my way home becuase I worked late becuase of deadline. I stopped a the light and while iwa wait to change to green a man jumped in my car. he had kinfe at my abdemom anf he told me not to scream and do what ever he says and I would not be harmed. When the light chnged he told to drive he told pul into a deserted parking lot and he told to turn offhte car and get on his side so I knew I would be able to escape. He put in the trunk of my car. My was a Cadillac Deville. Before he closed the trunk he took my heels off and bindfolded me. He dove around for long time with me in the trunk. When stopped he opened and took off the bind fold and we in cemertary. He took behind a mosilem and told take off y clothes I took off my dress shoes slip panty hose bra and underwear. He hand cuffed me and forced to and told to spread my legs. He rpaed me for long time and he took my jwelery clothes and my car. I was still nude. I made to the road and woman stopped and took me to the hospital. They found my car burned along with my clothes purse and the contents m of my and wallet on the ground but my money and ATM card were gone. i stope froze my account and but my check bok was left with all my check left in it. I got a newcar a Honda Cicic. I drive around with my doos locked so this never happens again. He took my sense of safty my peice of mind and my virginity. I was violated and humiliated as ahsamred of what has happened to me. I wonder when i was taken form the trunk should i have ran or fight back and I f did would he have killed me. He has never been cuaght and they have his DNA the they got fromand from my clothes.

Im lame.

My"friends" only talk to me when their bored, or pregnant, in ones manner. Do i have anything to do with their life? no.
They just call me up to talk down to me and to remind themselves at least they aren't as lame as me.
Im clinically depressed. Soon to be 20, and still im trying to complete high school. Cause two years of my life were wasted on being locked away in (several) madhouse residential centers. The facts state: im lame, a loser, a mess. Always will be. Still waiting to loose the virginity bullsh*t on top of it. And the sad part is...
When i look in the mirror, i look desent.
I wasntborn ugly, or in a poor house with a abusive family, lke all the people ive been around lately.
No. my life is screwed up for one reason. Me
weak me. Acting sad, after awhile, can really get you into serious trouble, trust me.
Ontop of all this crap, im gay (which is still hard even though the media makes it out like being gay is IN now. that the gay guy is now the center of affection. Sorry,not true)Being gay is hard by itself, and it always will be i an imperfect world.
And!!! guess what:I have a social disorder. Asbergers syndrome, and bipolar, and slight OCD all combine to make a disagnosess of "autistic traits." Now that i was born with. But who cares? Just a big excuse right? I know theres no one to blame for my problems. just me, like i said.

Cheaters

I have been married for almost 5 years, now come to find out that my husband has been cheating on me with several girls, one of them is my oldest sister, whom I might add is married also but she sleeps around A LOT and with whoever with have her. My husband nor my sister will fess up to their relationship but I know the truth, I've seen the messages they text back and forth to each other (not to mention the pictures she sends to him of herself). I just don't know what to do anymore. Oh and did I mention there are also children involved? My oldest daughter is disabled and loves him to pieces and I'm not sure what this will do to her when or if she finds out. But tonight he wrote me an e-mail (of all things) and told me that we should not be together anymore. So he leaves me with a house payment, all the bills and all the bullshit that I have to put up with. I warned him previously that my oldest sister was a big slut and probably has some kind of disease since she sleeps with anybody that will have her, but apparently that didn't stop her or him for that matter. I have no money or job right now and my husband had been supporting me and the kids since I quit my job due to having surgery and can barely walk right now. I just don't know what to do anymore. And stupid as it sounds... I still love him and want to work this out with him for me and the children but how can a person earn that trust again? I also found out that the house payments have not been made for almost 6 months so we are about to loose the house and of course I have no money to pay that because as I've stated, I don't have a job because I can barely walk right now. I just don't understand how he can throw our relationship away like that for a slutty sister that I have. Yeah, some sister huh. Thanks for hearing me rant.

I'm __ years old. I am going to trade school in November. My dad is the biggest, most thick skulled mother fucker on the planet. I quit a job in June cause I couldn't take it. I can't even fucking talk to my dad anymore cause every time I do he busts my balls cause I don't have a job and he tells me to get one every god damn day. And I've tired but no one will even take my resume. I put in two applications online. And I have social issues and he tells me to just grow up but he doesn't get that it's not that simple. He tells me that he is going to make me work at his car wash soon. FUCK THAT. I AM NOT GOING TO WORK WITH ILLEGAL MEXICANS. Someone shoot me.

mum fucks bf's dad

This is a life story so its a long one.
Before i was born my parents tryed for 8 years during those 8 years we almost went bankrupt and dad spend his dick germs around as much as possible so mum started to resent him. So then mum got pregnant. On the dad i was born my parents fought over my name so my sister named me lauren. Me and my mum never really got alone i was a cubby stupid kid and i just did naught shit. I think its cause i was in hospital for the first year or so of my life. Well fast forward my dad has a new family as soon as i hit high school. then when i drop out at 16 me and my sister get in a physical fight and i get kicked out of home
its been two years and i havent talked to my sister and i invited my mum over once and now she is fucking my boyfriends dad im living with it's so gay.
i just want to talk to someone who gets it
my boyfriend doesnt care about any of it
and my mums a bitch like suck a phyco

and yeah happy to help you with ur problems as well

I give UP!

My life is worthless, and obviously so am I. My parents and brother beat me up as a child and generally emotionally abused me and instilled my thoughts that I am worthless. I strive to be a worthwhile person and a good person, but it gets me nowhere but in a deep pit of despair, disappointment and loneliness. I graduated from college, am in shape, own a home and am intelligent and pretty. I have tried to make my good, but I guess I am not good enough! Because I am a failure and deeply unhappy. Only one person, who I can barely tolerate, on this planet vaguely cares about me. I cannot find a man who I can marry because no guys I like-like me back. I am now 43 and if I don't get pregnant like "tomorrow" I will have zero children in life, (oh and as the good Christian girl, I don't have sex outside of marriage), so unless sperm is on sale at the pharmacy for like $10, I'm outta luck. That means no family, no one to attend my funeral when I die, just alone and pathetically unhappy for the rest of my life. I only have one friend who takes me for granted and treats me like pure shizz. I have no other friends, got laid off at work, and my mom (who barely loved me at all) just died.
P.S. Thank you all for sharing your troubles, I have enjoyed reading every one of them, and I appreciate REAL problem--instead of my fake friend whose main problem in life is she had a bad hair day. Thanks also to the person who signed off "thanks and Fuck You" to all the readers at the end of their story; it really brightened my day because of the raw honesty and I really relate brother.

Why I Feel Sad??

My life is so great.... I have everything anyone really needs. Since I hit my stride at age 14 I have always been told I was beautiful, smart, and confident. It seemed like I could do no wrong everything I tried I was automatically good at and I was told by numerous people the jealously they feel towards me daily. I am told I could have everything and anything I wanted. My problem you frustratingly wonder is.... Me.

My own worst enemy is me. I am always sad, I fake being happy so much it has become an exhausting act. I push people away yearly. I always start a new year with intentions of making it my best. I gather friends, I get good marks, and I join clubs. Then slowly the new year turns boring and old. I stop trying at school, I stopping going to clubs, and I turn my friends away by criticizing everything they feel horrible about, I would go for the jugular even my Best Friend of the year wouldn't be safe. Then I would stay home alone and feel sorry for myself and sad about the outcome, when I really brought it on myself. Then I would start over again each year with the same results.

Why do I destroy my life?? Why can't I be happy?? Why am I such a whiney shit that can't have a actual problem yet I continually create one??

I'm just tired of sadness and being unhappy. I wish it would end.

Soo my Lifee sucks!! i had a boyfriend but then we broke up cause he cant stay out of his friends ass! we got back together and things were going good for a while until i caught him lying to me about where he was and who he was with!! (some other girl) we broke up then again, he treated me like crap for a week cause he was mad at himself! one day we talked and we are trying to work things out now, but he still cant leave his friends for one night!! i get ditched alll the time and cant hang out with him but maybe everyother day.. and for maybe only 2 1/2 hrs.. this sucks! he is never going to change!!!

My Mother is an incurable Cancer on this family

My life truly fucking sucks, I've grown up with a mother that suffers from manic depression, she is CANCER on my family that will no go away! i love her but i fuking hate her soo much when she gets in to one, and then we have the proposed suicide attempts we have the attempterd beatings to my father and i am always the one caught in the fcuking middle trying to stop them killing eachother when i have these sick thoughts in my head to smash her fcuking skull in and choke the life out of her.... 2010 has been a lousy year....University was going shit, the love of my life dumped me over the telephone (getting me to ring her) after 2 months of the silent treatment, and to top it all off the day after i got dumped, i had to put my grandfather in a hospice where he suffered continuously for an entire month before he eventually died as the lung cancer had gotten to him.
Further fcukin more, 2 days after that cunt dumped me, i log on to facebook to find pictures of her having the time of her life!!! Eddie Guerrero said it best,
"the worst thing you could hear is from the person you love is that they don't love you anymore!"
In addition my mother is the laziest cow on the planet, she'll bitch and moan about how untidy the house always is (which it really isn't), but will she get off her fat arse and clean??? ...like fuck she does!!! she doesn't cook either but she'll gladly help herself to 3 jars of chocolate spread a week and then moan why she's so fcuking fat, and ...

Ok here this one

Ok get this: I was given up for adoption then my mother reclaimed my tins sister and I, fast forward to three years we end up with our shit bag abusive grandmother and step grand father through fostercare because of our shit bag mother,(with me so far?)Hehe, then my shitbag mother refuses to really get off welfare or get stable so we move everywhere you can fucking imagine, all the while getting teased and sumtimes my ass kicked because we look like bums('cause we are.) Then, we our mother send my sister and I to live with our shit bag grandparents who physically,mentally,emotionally, and verbally abuse us.(Thank God not sexually.) Then at 14 we get sent BACK to fostercare where my sister and I are promptly split up. We some how barely manage to keep in contact through out the years, I become the average real-smart-yet-wasted/unrealized-potential repeat juvenille offender in and out of juvenille halls until I'm 17, then my 1st kid is born with a beautiful yet just as emotionally damaged 19 yr old. girl. Then we get in many arguements, she flees CA to SC with my lil girl for 4motnhs, were i eventually track her down to start over again, find out she has slept with plenty dude, I MARRY HER N E WAY!! Then we have ANOTHER kid(my son) and move back to CA to stay with a cousin, I get a job doing security(whoop-di-fucking-doo), things r going fine again til my wife gets gallstones, I leave my job to care for my wife after surgery, fastforward 6 months and we r headed to divorce court becuase'I'm an ass." Yet she barely gave a shit about the marrige, took me this long to realize it,meanwhile I try to join the Army and can't because they stop accepting GEDs like, a week before I try to enlist. So here I am, 20, in the throes of divorce, two beautiful kids;(not complainin' about the kids, they rock, they're awesome.) no job,living with my aunt(she rocks too) and no fucking life skills. yea, .y life FUCKING SUCKS.

friends

i have , sorry had a friend whom i gave my all to i was always there for her and she was never there for me but i continued to be her friend thinking, hoping she would change she always chose her other friends and even boyfriends over me but it did not matter i knew i was being a good friend just by being there but now she has gone and done it again. i said something on facebook that pissed her off now i am no longer her maid of honor in her wedding and we are no longer friends after 9 years at 25 years old i think she just made the worst decison of her life and to make things worse it wasnt even to her it was to an old friend whom she hasnt spoken to in over 6 yrs wife i have no money and a dead end job and now have no friends other than my husband which isnt even that good because i work while he sits home on his ass watching tv LIFE SUCKS i would write more but i don't have the energy to bitch anymore ima go take my meds and then off to bed

another life sucking story

Its funny, I'm starting this with a smile on my face.....how could life suck then right?? I guess I'm smiling cuz I can post this...why that made me smile.....who knows????

My story...

Early teen, actually pre-teen. Had to have a breast reduction done; no, not because I was fat and had huge breasts. Was as thin as a board, but huge Dolly Parton breasts. As you can imagine, this gave me problems.

Had the surgery done by a surgeon/butcher, who now happens to be Chief of Surgery.......that kills me!!!!!!!!!!!!! As another surgeon put it, I have the breasts of a fifty year old; and I wasn't even a teen yet. Gone to see many surgeons but none can fix what he did. Cried so many tears, you would think I've cried enough. Twenty three years later; still cry.

Found a guy who was kind enough to accept how I look. We had a baby together. Lost my hair. Now I wouldn't give up my son for anything; I would give my life for him. Was told it was normal to lose hair after a pregnancy, but it never stopped. Now have to wear a wig at all times. His dad and I didn't last.

Can't do anything I want cuz the fucking wig becomes an issue with EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can't go swimming, can't go out on windy days, can't go skiing, if around little kids, have to be on constant alert that they don't try to pull it off. Can't go bike riding, can't go on dates cuz not only are my breasts fucked, I have no hair; try explaining that to a future boyfriend.......ya right!!!

I could seriously go on and on about the things I can't do but I think the drift is there.

Yes, yes, there are many who are worse off; in war, etc. But its still extremely hard to live in my shoes.

my life sucks

Hey i'm 16 and i'm Colombian but i've been living in Spain for the last 9 years whom have been horribly endless.... I've always wanted to go back to Colombia but my mum is always talking about my future and all this shit I don't care about.... In Colombia I can study and have a career too... I don't know why can't she understand that.... Here in high school I have no friends... I talk to no one..... and I hate almost all teachers.... I live in a very small village and I'm so far from everywhere so for me it's quite difficult to meet other people that are not from my high school..... I'm bisexual so I'm so discriminated at school because of my sexually preferences.... TT everyone think I'm gay... TT I'm sure that in Colombia my life would be just the way I want.... pff..... My life sucks and I can never complain because everyone else just has it so much worse than I do..

my dog

Today my dog was hit by a car. The driver said he was sorry and drove away. The dog is my 13 year olds and im afraid what she going to say. We took the dog directly to the vet but they couldn't save her leg so they amputated it off. When i told my daughter when she got home i was heart broken i dont know what to do i just hope our dog gets better and my daughter.