LIFE SUCKS : 2010 September

ima duaghter hidding her depression a sister tring to make a good impression

okay im 13 yr old girl that basicly has no reseson to live .......my friends are always complaining that their parents woun't let them go some where or that their friends leave them out of "important" things but they don't have it that bad they go to partys every other weeekend and they have friends by the hand full......back to me i guess ok my life sucks beacuase my friends don't trust me they act like i don't exsist my grandfather just died, one of my friends act like they own me my parents don't even know whats going on i love my best guy friend but one of my friends like him too i have thought of going emo but i couldn't do that because of my little brother and sister...they need me...i cry myself to sleep i have low self esteem a couple years ago i say my best freind get run over by a jeep . im failing evry class my friends leave me out of every thing they only come to me some times when they need help with homework...the only thing that keeps me going is my lil bub and sis like i saiid earlyer they need me

mylifeisfucked.

hi, i'm amy.
i'm gonna sound like a stuck up bitch. but anyway, who gives a fuck, NO ONE!
i have a boyfriend he is amazing, and today i hooked up with another boy.
i feel really bad. i cut myself, i smoke sometimes, i drink, and steal alot.
i want to die. i hate life, my friends are so wonderful.
theres a group of skanks at my school and they all hate me.
they send me hate mail all the time and bully me.
my boyfriend might be getting expelled and at the end of the year he is moving to australia.
i listen to depressing songs and hate school.
my parents are divorced.
and my mum is an obsessive over controlling whore.
i want to run away, but ilovemyfriends.
i have to go to this gay college and none of my friends are going there but the skank group is.
i hope you didn't just waste 2 minutes of your life reding about my bullshit.

Tough bumps

Ok before i start off with my story i would want to say im only 19,so i dont see the purpose of life, i had an abusing childhood, i was forced to not go to college and death threat by one my family members, the most horrible very dysfunctional family,and really an abusive family, My mother and father have been fighting and going at it since i was 7, i was raised to be a weakless duckling. I have no force,anymore i cant hold on the rope anymore, i have to let go of my life, my life is been raised wrong. Just someone please, i feel trapped. I just want to go to heaven where things come right. What did i do to deserve all of this??im not a devil child. I was raised to be weak but i will not let go of my full heart.

Yeah..My life sucks as well

So, Yes, I am here at the life sucks Google spot. I already checked out the suicide spots and the Hemlock Society trying to see what they have to say about checking out ahead of schedule. Nothing looks good.

hey I have tried different check out methods in the past without any result.

I have read many stories posted by others. And as they say I felt sorry for myself because I had no shoes, til I saw one that had no feet!

Yes life can suck. But I have to try

God bless alll of you

I am lost in time , just life sucks

I am 59. My kids are grown and grown and all doing well. I am well employed and hae been for 20 years. I am a person who will probably never find this site again it is midnight on Friday night.
You know my life has been good. i raised two kids when their dad left, the wen to college and after that I finished college. I work for an Ivy League magazine (20 years) and some where along the line life became worthless. I made good money but all for advertising I have no idea why life is so rotten. Peole with Ivy educations want more, I want less. I will quit my job soon and why, who knows. But is certainly to find somethintg more rewardingt than supporting a rich magazine
Am I embalanced, not centered?Who the hell knows. I just know that what I do adn where I am at 60 sucks. almost retirement age but not enough money after raising two kids alone. geez. i am old enough to write this but will never find it to see if anyone answers. It is midnight, my husband is sleeping and has not a clue that I am lost in my life.
I have worked so hard to raise two boys, put them through college whe they wer eready and finally got my degree after then, not for some "poor mom" deal, that was just how it hapened. Now my kids are raised I am remarried and my mother has dementa and I now am the only sib in the area to takecare of her and it is doing me in.
There is no answer, I am stuck and she is sweeet but lost in space - and life sucks.

mother

I worked hard to do the right thing. We paid over $200 for drivers training and our youngestr son died in a single car accident. Afer 21 years of healthy living, our oldest son now has inoperable brain cancer. Why bother???? God is going to do what he is going to do. He doesn't gove a shit what you do. You are screwed if He says you are going to be screwed.

Dying of boredom, living with the truth

The truth is not always easy... I am hating life right now...Back in school again, tried screenplaywriting school, personal training school, bartending school, and here I am barely scraping by on welfare and one night a week at a catering hall. I quit a job about a year and a half ago and in this dreadful economy I wasn't able to find another one. What employers want is BACHELORS degree holders. Well, I dropped out of college, so now what. I couldn't cut it as a personal trainer, or a bartender... I wish I could go back and relive my life, I would have done everything differently. The only way( and I learned the hard way) people like me get out of their bumblefuck suburban drone towns is through edumacation! I'm no salesperson. I feel like everywhere I turn someone is trying to sell me something. I don't even leave the house anymore because everything costs a dollar amount. Even friendships sometimes. I hate the fucking stinking suburbs... At least in a city there are other poor people there to relate to! In the suburbs, its the biggest lie out there. Everyone is trying to be something they're not!! THe upper middle class are one hell of a group!!They make me sick. What happened to poor and rich?? The " upper middle" class is a joke. THey'r either looking down to the poor, or trying desperately hard to keep up with the wealthy. When is it going to end?? What really sucks is that I've been there and lived in a city and I know how it is. Within an hour you can hop on a trai...

it keeps getting worse

I guess ill start when i met my bf (now husband). He was married to someone else and left her for me. I should have seen a problem there, but i was naive (i was only 18). The months after our relationship started were horrible. He never let me see my family or friends. I eventually got a job and made a couple new friends. Then...I got pregnant! He banned me to the bedroom while he slept in the living room if i puked or said i had to puke. He made me hide puking (even though i was pregnant and that's what pregnant women do). He again hid me from my friends. Then, the biggest mistake of my life, I married the bastard! After I had my daughter, I got fed up. I found an apartment and forced him to move. But God forbid we moved out of his parents house! They fought for grandparents rights, called cps on me repeatedly and the cops because I wasn't a good enough mother for them. They tried every way possible to take her from me, just because they wanted her to be their daughter!!! I did kick-out my husband eventually but it bit me in the ass. He had recordings of me yelling at him and it could have gotten my daughter taken from me. So i told him I would get back with him so he wouldn't use that against me in court. So, sadly he is back in my life and it's just as horrible as before.

MY LIFE SUCKS

You think you have it bad?

I had to get up in the morning at ten o'clock at night, half an hour before I went to bed, eat a lump of cold poison, work twenty-nine hours a day down at the mill, and pay the mill owner for permission to come to work, and when I got home, my Dad would kill me, and dance about on my grave singing "Hallelujah."

My name is tim my life didn't always suck I always try to look at the good side of life but since I turned 13 my life has gone downhill. That's when my parents got divorced,ever since then it seems like there has been a hex on me. Right after the divorce I started high school. Highschool is suppose to be fun for most kids not me. I went to 3 diffrent high schools in 4 years. Never makin enough good friends. Wen I graduated I came down with an illness that made my lower back hurt the worst pain I've ever felt in my life turned out to be lukemia. I have been through many rounds and months in the hospital for chemotherapy just to relapse after 4 years. After the chemotherapy it came back so I had to have a bone marrow transplant which was a success but now have a disease called graft versus host disease. Which is caused by my sisters cells not reacting well with my cells. Though I am in remission now I still have many therapie seccesions to deal with this new disease. I also have to get a hip replacement soon due to erosion in my hip due to having to take steroids for the cancer. Also I have money issues due to this disease I have had since turning 18 I am 23 now and I don't feel I have lived a day in my life. I owe money to social security diffrent credit agencies and the irs. I just want to live on my own have a good job and a wife. And right now I have none of that. Due to the chemo I can never have kids,something I have always wanted. I also have to deal with my stepdad not workin so I have to pay him rent. And don't know if I can goin in for surgery on my hip. I just want my life to be like all the kids I saw growing up. But so far nothing in my life has gone the way I wanted. I don't believe in god. If there was a god why would they do this to someone.

Life Sucks When It Doesn't

I'm a teenager.

I go to a great school, have a loving family, and a good home and income.

I am way too stressed.

My grandma had a stroke and has been in the nursing home for weeks. I am watching her die. She was the inspiration for my education and reason for living.

I go to a competitive school and nobody understands what I'm going through. Though I get good grades and fake a smile, my heart is breaking strand by strand everyday. If only someone knew...

My life sucks....

My life sucks so bad. I'm only 15 years old and I shouldn't have to live this life. My mom is an alcoholic who, every time she drinks, goes over board and makes me feel like shit, she told me I was nothing but a broken condom. Every time she drinks and falls on her ass and breaks something i'm the one who has to take care of her. Even though she's always telling me how much she hates me and this family and how she wish someone didn't stop her from committing suicide when she tried. I used to worry about her, but now I don't and can't feel any love towards her... My dad, is addicted to drugs and hates my mom but we're too poor for them too get a divorce. So i have to live with the constant fighting. My parents make me pick sides, and its so much stress. My dad is Bipolar and used to beat me and my sister as children. We were nothing but defenseless and sat through the never ending beating over something as stupid as eating his food. Speaking of food, my parents would buy all the good food for themselves and leave me and my sister with nothing. If we ate it, like I said, we'd most likely get beat. Have any of you ever had an emotional anxiety break down ? They suck, thats when i developed the habit of cutting myself. My parents don't care and wont care. When they found out I cut, they tried to get me admitted into the hospital just so they wouldn't have to deal with me anymore. It was me against everyone and somehow i still managed to get myself home the next day. My parents only care about partying so that's what they do. They spend so much money on drugs and alcohol, yet when my sister and I need clothes because everything we have is ripped or outfitted, we cant even get anything because they'd rather drink and smoke then take care of their kids. I had to grow up at a young age just to survive because if i didn't, things would be even worse for me. and this isnt even the half of it.....

I wish this torment would end

This summer I went on Army training for 10 weeks. It was a completely miserable and stressful environment. I lived in a tent with 6 other guys with a locker that I couldn't put anything in, because of inspection, and slept on a cot in a sleeping bag. In the field, was even more miserable. We navigated harsh terrain in a sleep deprived state during training and there were so many mosquitoes I lost count of my mosquito bites.

The last week each of us had to do a patrol recce. I was completely unlucky, my pacer lied to be, my navigator wrote on the back of my orders which completely screwed me up and I had harshest instructors for evaluation.

I had constantly been keeping my eye on the prize the entire time. I was building my hopes on passing my training and getting my dream job or position in HQ which was guaranteed if I could get through. After failing twice, I crashed so hard I felt as if I was nothing but rubble. I went suicidal which sparked a huge paper trail. I

When I got back I found the commander of the base had been sending nasty emails to my superiors about how I "lied" and used the medical system to get out of the field. This has completely marred my personnel file and I have no hope of getting that dream position and I have to retake the entire course all over again.

Now I am back in my horrible existence of being 24 living at home with parents, unable to find a job and this past tormenting me every day and night. Because of this ongoing experience I find my self incapable of hoping anymore.

Not a day goes by that I don't think life sucks.

I'm going to fucking kill my self

I'm done. I'm through. This whole 'living' shit can go fuck its self! I live in a shitty apartment, work a shitty job that only pays me enough to where I have to go back to it every day. I have dreams that I know I will never fulfill. Happieness and dreams are a fucking scam that only brainwashes people. We're just a skeleton with a bunch of organs bundled up in a bag of skin. We eat, we drink, we shit, we piss. We're fucking disgusting. We have no purpose. We are amoebas in the grand scheme of things. We live we die. And being alive is fucking over rated. So I'm going to slit my arms open. It won't matter because being alive and being dead are indistinguishable. So fuck live and fuck you.

someone plz come and kill me!

So im 20 years old, living with my mom, broke and ugly. Ive never had a gf because of my face, not even a friend, never had sex, not even kissed a girl. I hate school at point that if you tell me that if i get a nail trough my hand i would get my degree without going anymore, that nail would be trough my hand in 2 seconds, no joke, mainly because i dont like watching people at school laughing, having at good time, making out, and i have no one, i think everyone already knows i am the guy with no friends so why would they be friends with me?, but my mom forces me to go to school if i want to stay in her house. Basically just go school, suck it up, come home and all the rest of the time im home since i got no one to go out with, never had a social life, every weekend either i stay home alone cuz all my sisters go to the club and shit with their friends, or i have to watch them making out with their boyfriends in the living room. I spent 90% of the time locked up in my bedroom on the computer doing nothing, my greatest joy was cigarrettes, but i dont feel joy anymore, i cant feel anything, only pain, nobody really cares, i am depressed everynight, everyday that passes i get more desperate and fall even more into madness, i wanna go outside but it only gets worse, with girls looking at me with discust and everyone trying to avoid me, i guess im that ugly, and everyone having fun and party wich i cant stand to watch, i dont know what to do i think im gonna go crazy, it has been like this probably since i was 12, or maybe my entire life. I dont know why was i created or whats my purpose in life and i dont even wanna know, just want to vanish and never be created again. I guess i would have suicide by now but the bible says that you would go to hell. But now im starting to think how is this different from hell?

homless

Yes, like the title suggests I'm homeless. my house was taken because I was behind on my bills. my wife was killed in a crash my daughter was found dead in the woods. right now im typing this from the library. this may be my last record of living to all of you struggling out there dont give up dont be like me. Im coming martha

Life is a bitch

...and then you die. That's all. So don't fret. It will be over soon.

My Life Sucks.... because

I'm a 13 year old boy who is FU***CKED in high school, i get bullied every single day in school and the teachers dont do ANYTHING about it, i got so depressed that i just stopped caring about my studies, and stoped studying, so now im failing everything and have NO friends, and the "friends", just use me, and arent real friends, now ill probably fail the year, and because a kid punches me in the face, and i punch him back, the teacher sees only me, when i hit him, so he puts a suspension to me, and my CONDUCT GRADE gets lower and lower, so now my parents and everybody hates me, so i just gave up, cuz now that im trying to improve in school, i got so FU***CKED that i cant go back to being the good, smart and intelligent, boy and/or student that i once was, so im not crazy enough to kill myself, but i just gave up....
LIFE SUCKS ASS!!!!!

P.D-A high school student who does'nt wish to put his real name, but tells you internet community, how his luife SUCKS ASS!!!

r u kidding me!?

I'm only 21 and I've already realized that life is only chaotic suckiness. I was hoping for a few more years of ignorant bliss. I just want to tell my life story for you on a page.

I went to a boarding school in high school for smart kids that was so difficult and stressful that it sapped my of the energy and motivation to succeed at college. I went to school freshman year, out-of-state, and got so depressed I had to come back in-state for sophomore year. I am gay, but on top of that I don't identify as male or female (genderless, I know, wierd), so I feel isolated from everyone. That school was full of homophobic "Christian" D-bags, so I dropped out in my second semester to just find a job. Of course the economy sucks, so I started at a community college in the summer. Still really depressed, I dropped out halfway thru in July b/c I just couldn't deal with the work required. I now live with my parents who are conservative Christians who just sweep the fact that I'm gay under the rug (because they'll never admit that I embarrass them), and my dad constantly makes me do outdoor chores because that is what guys are supposed to do. I am a pathological liar at this point: in college, I had a boyfriend for months and my parents don't have a clue, and they think I am taking a full load at the community college right now when I'm not taking any. That is a bombshell I'll have to drop here pretty soon. My parents just think I'm lazy; well, I'm sorry that I don't think har...

dosnt really matter noones going to read it . its too lenghty.

im feeling so beat up. .
i dont tell what i am feeing to anybody not even to my closest person( i dont have anyone who is as close since all all of them have hurt me so often).

life pretty much sucks and if it were anyone in place of me , would have dafinately done with it. it is only and only because of my failed memory that im surviving.
there are a lot of phases in my life where i have felt diffently .but one thing remains common that i am the problem everywhere. that is why maybe people are harsh or unfiendly or taking advantage of me. i feel so used up. its frustrating. to live the life i am living. heck! my life is some story you wudnt be able digest well. like ooh were you that stupid? yea. thats me.

suicide isnt an option but i think im gonna burn in the fires of hell anywys for what i have done to my loved ones. i have murdered all of their souls.with my ations .its funny to think that just some 10 yrs ago i was the apple of everyones eyes. the cutest kid on the block. now i read some unknown stranger calling my sister his "sister" , that my brother is in love. so someone new. so its easy for people to fill up my spaces. dont tey remember me?
and what good did i do here where i am at present hurt them too. but i was pained deep. it isnt an excuse for what i did. but still.i listen ofcourse i listen . i hear them i do what they tell me, but y still do they say that i dont. y dont they still consider me. doubt me? even befo...