| | Posted by anonymous at April 17, 2010 |
I am living at the edge of Hell. The bare brink of insanity but yet enough to keep my sane. The bare minimum of torturing until my mind shatters from agony. My brother and sister died before I was 7. My drunken failure of a stepdad use to rape and abuse my mom. I didn't get it as bad as my mother because she always stepped in eventually we dropped everything and ran away. I didn't learn english or come to america til I was already in 3rd grade. I've been to 6 highschools throughout my life and it ended with me dropping out. I was abandoned by my mother once and sent to a relatives house to live for 15 months. It felt like nobody believed in me and my relatives all treated me like I was a burden. It was hard making friends when you are constantly moving. I was expelled in middleschool for 'selling weed' even though I was holding it for a friend which is my fault I suppose. Girls approach me with half hearted offers of love only to find new boyfriends and further show me how alone I am. I see people everywhere living normal and happy lives. Its hurts so much. I curl up in a ball and cry until I fall asleep clinging and praying to god for help. There is no God. I've already tried to kill myself but couldnt go through with it. I am always being compared to my older brother. He gets good grades, he works a decent job. I DONT GIVE A FUCK. Im not him. I never knew my real father and I dont really care, just add it to the list of crap. I wish I could disapear. I only see all the negative things now, where did things go wrong, Why me? I am 20 years old now, a dropout, a virgin, jobless, living at a friends house, addicted to cigarettes and living at the edge of hell. |
| | Posted by Noone at April 17, 2010 |
Let me start by saying I am blessed with two precious kids that I love so deeply. At school growing up I was the popular one I had many friends and enjoyed my life. After school I fell pregnant to a man I have known forever..we married although he had cheated on me 4 wks prior because I didnt want to be alone with a child at such a young age. He drank and abused me verbally threatened to kill himself on so many occasions and told me I had ruined his life. I forgave him for this and yes I had another child with him and he cheated again 2 years ago. When I forgave him yet again he promised he would change his ways and he did up until now. Because I dont trust him he tells me he can not do this anymore and needs to be able to live his life and find happiness. I gave up my life for him I gave up my dreams my career and my chance of a new life because of his empty promise's of a better life with my family. He is a great dad when he is around the kids adore him which is the reason I have been so very stupid for so long. My life sucks because I chose to take this path and I hate myself for wasting the last 10 years of my life- I can not bear to be alone instead I wanted to be unhappy in a marriage built on lies and verbal abuse. I just want scream I am that angry with myself and my pathetic excuses.. |
| | Posted by WTF at April 16, 2010 |
Every since college, my life has spiraled down hill. I'm a teacher with a Masters degree and I'm always broke as hell. My wife won't listen. I married her because she got pregnant. I want to do the right thing since she already had two children out of wedlock with two different men. She had her tubes tied when she had my child despite my wishes. Now I can never have another child, but I call hers my own. That was ten years ago, but problem like that don't go away. I'm a former athelte who will never have a son. She quit her job to go back to school. She was obviously focused on other things while she was in college. Now the water is cut off, the gas is off. She hasn't worked in a year, but when I mention it I'm a jerk. Everyone wonders where my money goes like I'm a damn crack head or something. I spent most of my life loyal to Christ and GOD. I was a deacon, sunday school superintendent. Its all the same. My life sucks. I used to be pretty good looking, but now I'm bald and funny-looking. I've sacrificed the best of me for a woman who is out for herself, and won't even help me as I take care of her and her kids. I used to smoke weed daily just to get by, and I can't even afford that anymore, so I tolerate life as is. No help in site. You see, my life really sucks. Worst ... if I leave her., I will have to pay the child support that she doesn't even make the real dads pay. The sex sucks because she basically lies on her side. Lately, I've had the desire to wear women's clothing. I'm all fucked up. I think she has bitched me out. My mom passed a few years ago. My dad acts like he never had kids no that she's gone. I have no one to borrow a dollar for if I need it. If I ask a minister, everything that is happening is my fault because I'm the man. I can't go on like this. I'm at my lowest today. Life sucks big time! |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 16, 2010 |
i have come to realize over the course of the last two years that god or the fates or whatever is out there has designated me to play second fiddle in everything i do. in school i am smart, but still i am second in the class. in choir i try to work hard, but no matter how much effort i put into it, i dont make the audition choirs and the special selections, while a girl in my year who isn't very good at all makes it in despite her inability to be anything more then mediocre. but the thing that really solidified my now steadfast opinion that i am the dictionary definition of second fiddle was today in practice my coach said "the other coaches and i were discussing players who would be good secondary players in the positions and your name just kept popping up." i can understand he was probably trying to tell me he thought i was a well rounded player, but it seems to me that it's all i'm ever going to amount to. the goddamn bench warmer. just in case any of our starters dont feel up to the job of hogging the spotlight you definitely on the top od the list to step in until they feel better. great, thanks coach. |
| | Posted by whocares at April 16, 2010 |
im only 17. and i have seen so much in my life already! My father has a low paying job. so could never gave me and my siblings the life he wanted to or we ever imagined. My mom is a diabetic and has kidney disease and heart problem too. Because she doesn't have any health insurance most of my dad's income goes after her medical cost. Im in high school and already i am a failure. because of moving here from another country language has always been a big issue for me. and yeah most of the kids in high school thinks im weird and i don't mind about it that much. i let people think whatever they want. most of them think im a terrorist just cuz im from an south east asian country. even though i never really said anything about it to anyone it really bothers me a lot. some thinks im a loner, some thinks im stupid cuz i have bad grades. but they never really understood what my problem has been. just cuz im not white i have to face a lot of racism in this town. i dont really care about those racist bastards. i left all my real friends back where i grew up, where i really belong. so if im here sad all days i have no one to really share my sadness with. in my lil time here i liked a few girls. but hey im not meant to be happy so i got turned down every single fucking time. well now on a situation where nothing really matters to me anymore. every time i rise my hopes up it gets demolished into the ground in matter of seconds. i've got my heart broken numerous times. so im kinda used to it. the most sad thing was when i asked a girl out she called cops on me for sexual harassment. since then i have learned my lesson. never talked to a girl unless she came to me and said something to me. i dont know why im even writing this. i just know that there is no one that cares to pick up millions of broken pieces of my heart and piece it up together. i just want to leave everything. so they will be happy. and the world will have one less sad and a failure left living. |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 15, 2010 |
I use to be happy, use to have dreams. I believed in my self. I believed in the good of everyone around me. But the reality is, nothing is good nor will it ever be. The worse thing in life is to have loved and lost. Once I was happy and so so so much in love and thus life was bearable and let me even go on to say I was even happy. He's distanced himself from me, broke up with me, got back together with me and now just ignores me. One minute feeling on top of the world and the next being at your all time low really really kills. In my opinion, never love. Never surrender yourself unto someone who is not like you at all. |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 15, 2010 |
Life sucks because I have a husband that I am no longer attracted to, we don't have sex because of it. his job is no longer paying well. I've been sick for a week, and can't go to the doctor because we have no medical, our bills are over due, I have no experience to get a job(homemaker) gas is getting shut off today, my family lives far away, and I have to put up with a stupid Sister inlaw that calls me her bestfriend, but tells everyone about mine and my husbands problems. I've lost a lot of weight, but can't buy new clothes cuz we have no money, so I wear my old fat girl clothes and it's embaressing for my kids and me. My church is filled with gossips, liars, and fakes! I've prayed and prayed but it seems like even God thinks I suck! |
| | Posted by ... at April 15, 2010 |
why life suck?i think my life would be better when i got in university but it's still same and that become more worse!!no friend,no bf,everyone avoid me ,and i found if go university is bored thing.everyday sit in front of the pc and don't know wat to do,always feeling alone even there is many people around me,always sad when all people around me happy and laught,being judge by the person don't know me..life really suck!! |
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| Posted by anonymous at April 15, 2010 |
Well, I was happy, about 4-5 years ago, but now i cant show emotion, its hard to say what im feeling, if im feeling anything atall. My soon to be wife and 2 year old son is gone, Im finding myself selfish and rude.(but i cant stop my actions)When i was with the wife, i said i want to be the main "bread winner" and support the fam. but since iv been in school,(3 year program) and she left me, i dont know what to do anymore. |
| | Posted by unknown at April 15, 2010 |
I married a bitch who has done nothing but complain and try to destroy me at every turn.I was wotking my ass off as a painter for us and our family-10 hour days all through the summer.All she could do was complain,didn't mind spending the money from my paychecks though,she used my working long hours as an excuse to talk to other men online and had the nerve to tell me it was my fault.I hate her completely and only stay married for the kids sake.I have learned from family members on her side that she has a history of this-I did not know.Anyway life sucks also due to the shithole of an economy wer in- I got laid off at the painters union and finding comparable pay is next to impossible-NO I will not work for you asshole at $8.00 an hour. |
| | Posted by chris at April 15, 2010 |
I have only one friend. I use to have more but they all back stabbed me. And even with the one friend I have, it sucks. I'ts this girl, that ive known since i was 6 and im now 16. so ya, 10 long years. My parents work with hers so weve been friends with them for a long time now. I started talking to her bout 5 months ago cuz ive always been so nervous to talk 2 her cuz i like her 2 much. Finally i grew a pair and told her how i felt bout her and now shes my only and best friend. What sucks about it is ive only had 1 gf in my entire life... which only lasted a week. But this girl, is the coolest person i know. i luv her to death and would do anything for her, and i wanna let her know that but cant... bcuz three reasons.. 1, shes 3 years older than me, 2, her parents hate me, and 3, she has a bf. I hate it bcuz were exactly alike, and i cant even describe how i feel about her. Im head over heels bout her and i just wanna pull my hair out and scream cuz i want her sooo badly... but i have to sit back and ive been tryin to get the whole situation outta my head but im always reminded of it. Ive also tried to meet new friends and girls but no one likes me :(. I lost times of how many times ive been ignored. Were still real good friends but i seriously hate how the one girl im crazy for and luv to death,, theres gotta b a catch.. and what hurts the most is to know that nothing will ever happen... I just wish she was mine :,( and... my bro and my mom always laugh at me when im txtng her and theyre like "u wish! only in your dreams!" "itll never happen!" |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 15, 2010 |
When you are 30 years old, you are not supposed to live in your husband's parents' house. My husband and I had been on our own for 6 years, but since my husband had been out of job for 9 months, we have decided to live with his parents so he can go back to school. I thought I could endure and somehow would get to know them better. But the reality is the more I get to know them the less I like them. Their house is so nasty and even though I am constantly cleaning aroud it; they just don't keep it clean. I just get mad at myself to let this happen. I was so stupid to foresee this. I hate the weather, inconvenience of the country and inconsideration of my inlaws. Life sucks |
| | Posted by Rick at April 15, 2010 |
i just cant handle it anymore. too many problems going on in my life. i cant even explain my problems, its complicated. |
| | Posted by kloud9 at April 14, 2010 |
let me start out like this my mom was knocked up by a guy who wanted to abort me she refused so he left her and she sent me to live with my grandmother in trinidad because she could not take care of me at the moment i move back to rhodeisland a few years later than to brooklyn than to long island gaining and loseing freinds along the way dureing my child hood years i was and still am very shy i was forced to play baseball go to church(till i was 18)(im atheist) when i asked my mom about joining martial arts she said "no you just want to hurt people thats the devil inside of you"growing up all my freinds had more freedom than me i couldent go trick or treating i couldent stay out late couldent have a girlfreind. my parents stoped me from hanging out with freinds eventually leading us to not talk any more my dad picked what clothes for me to wear when i was in 9th grade mots of my freinds stoped talkeing to me highschool was lonely and depressing theres so much more to write bit not enough room |
| | Posted by lonelyApple at April 14, 2010 |
I have only few close friends in my life. It's hard for me to make friends because I often get rejection from others (maybe because i'm not pretty?). I never have a choice to choose which person I want to be friends with. They chose, few of them chose me and most of them rejected me. I've never changed in this past 5 years. Still struggling to socialize with peope around me. I never have boy friend in my life, I have no guy friends, even my own best friend sometimes hurt me. My mom seems doesn't care about me anymore. She never ask or call me how I've been doing. I hate going to college coz I have no real friend in the class. No one seems interested with me and when I tried to make friends, they just gimme the look of rejection. My best friend even dumped me several times but I still be friends with her coz I dont want to lose her (since I have so little friends)... |
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| Posted by stressed at April 14, 2010 |
Well, I've got 3 siblings and I'm the eldest and it's stupid because I feel so hurt by my related midgets. I had a nasty fight with my little sister 3 days ago and we haven't talked for the 3 solid days. That's alright if it wasn't that I used to be really attached to her? I had to live on my own for 1 year in abroad away from my family earlier and I guess even now when we're back together, they can do perfectly well without me being around. That's alright too, except that it hurts me bad. I feel like a loser. Am I a loser to feel this way? Anyway, my 2 sublings have ganged up with my sister and they're giving me hell. Now that I'm officially not talking with my sister I can't even yell at her to piss off. I just feel like I need to get out of the house. Or better still, quit my life here and get out of this world that everybody will agree to suck. Actually I began to understand why some people suicide lately. They want to end it all, right? I don't have the gut to do that though. I just hate it here. God damn it. |
| | Posted by anonymous at April 14, 2010 |
Really...You want to know what really sucks? Being married to a man who has no emotions. I mean no laughing, no crying, no nothing. For 20 plus years. It's completely impossible. How do you have a realtionship with someone who's completely flat??? LIFE SUCKS! |
| | Posted by Steven at April 13, 2010 |
ive got AIDS. Life sucks. |
| | Posted by Fuck You at April 13, 2010 |
school sucks
work sucks
life sucks
parents suck my gf doesnt suck.
i hate happy people
STOP SMILING
i hate you
i hate your mom
Goodbye unfair world. |
| | Posted by Petty Dee at April 13, 2010 |
I'm a very lonely person. I started off with a group of friends who didn't respect me. Of course all of my friends were unpopular as well. And all my unpopular friends betrayed me. I'm all alone. I entered college and i thought it would be a good start for me. But I'm still alone. The friends I made in college criticized me and betrayed me. My roomate drove me nuts. My friends teased me, my roomate was extremely negative and told me about how my life is hopeless. He told me I might as well end my life now. |
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