LIFE SUCKS : 2012 March

Stuck

I'm a 28 year old man that lives in a house with 5 roommates. My place is crap, my job is crap i barely make enough money to get by. My girlfriend resents me because she buys most stuff. I really hate my life at this moment. I need a new job. I need something because this daily grind is getting old.

I wake up every morning contemplating quitting my job and quitting life in general. Fuck my life sucks big time.

Are you alone like me?

I'm a fourteen-year-old girl, freshman in high school. I'm overweight,unattractive,and I've never had a boyfriend.Some days,I really just can't stand myself.I have Asperger's syndrome,and suck at social situations,I want desperately to be able to talk to people,but I can't make the words come out right.I'm in love with a boy who would never love me back,who barely knows I exist.I'm so lonely,but I can't talk to my best friend and the only person in the world who understands me right now, because my damn phone is out of minutes,and she has a class during lunch period.
Ever have one of those days where you feel like if you died today,nobody would remember you tomorrow?That's how I feel.I have bad grades, no talents besides reading, and I get so angry at the world sometimes, I could explode.
So,I guess I'm just posting this so,I dont know,someone might read it and maybe give half a fuck for five seconds.
Or not.Whatever.

Me against the world

Nobody's story could be worse than mine. I have read alot of peoples stories but I think mine is the worst. First, I'm a 35 year old blacc male who recently got released from prison in Ohio. BOOOO!! I really don't even know how to tell everybody how I feel so I'll just "keep it real" with whomever reads this. I have been diagnosed with all types of shit from bi-polar to manic depressant with schizophrenic effects, impulsive control disorder- been on all types of meds since 1993. Been hospitalized a few times for beeing suicidal...blah,blah,blah. I have very low self esteem...very self conscoiuos about my height etc...I'm very materialistic....Oh yeah I exaggerate ALOT. I never had any real friends my whole entire life. I have no problem getting a girlfriend as I have had many and children to follow behind... I would like to think of myself as a good father but my kids have become materialistic like me! Or is the fact that this bling-bling era/video vixen shit got everybody discombobulated? i live at home with my mother and I had another child while incarcerated and Im still with the mother but she complains that we don't have sex enough or that I don't take her out...yada,yada,yada. I hate the world and what it has become. I hate myself for feeling like this. I love my kids but they seem to want only be happy when I take them shopping at Holister or some shit. While I was away my oldest daughter got pregnant and had the baby right before I was released from prison. So now...

self inflected wounds

Well to begin I’m in the army, have been for 10 years. I understand that life in the army is usually not too bad they provide for everything, rent, food, utilities and pay u to go to college. But I dug myself in a huge hole that it isn’t even funny. Now I realize that my story isn’t the worse and it is recoverable but at the very least it feels better to complain about the situation I’m in. Well first off let’s start with the job, like I said I’m in the army but a recruiter, now if u know about recruiting its very political. They don’t look out for anyone in the unit, they try and screw u over at every chance they get, and if u were ever to get on the hit list, good luck trying to get off of it, I should know from firsthand experience. And on top of that I am being investigated cause I admit I messed up on the paperwork, but it was unknowing to myself until it was actually pointed out on a piss test I had to conduct, so now I’m stressing about not only the investigation outcome which could end my career of 10 years, but I’m trying to balance getting people in the army cause if I don’t then I have about 3 to 5 people yelling at u asking y u haven’t put anyone in the army, so that how much fun I’m having at work and there’s more about work but I’ll get to that. Now let’s go with the ex-wife, I was married to her for 5 years I deployed to Iraq and she cheated on me we got divorced, we had a son together which even though we have joint custody she thinks that she has a...

A sad lonely life.....

I am in my 30's and i have never had a girlfriend. I live a life that I want to have filled by someone who would love me as much as I would lover her. But, i have come to the conclusion that this will never happen. I don't go out, I have no real social skills, and everyday when I wake I hope it will be different and that someone will come in, butI also know it will never happen. Again how or why should it. I am not able to take the step needed to make it work. Worse yet? I am not even good looking so who the hell would want me? This is my fate and I must except it.

Giving Up Hope

I was laid off from a good job in 2009. Almost 3 years later I cant find a job. I am 48 yrs old. I have been selling things on ebay to make the bills. But I don't have much left. I am single (ex-wife left me 15 yrs ago). I have no health insurance, my credit is shot, living in a 1b 1b apt, no savings, no 401k (cashed and spent in 2010), no children. I was engaged to a beautiful woman in 2009 but she broke things off in 2010.

This is not how I planned things would go at my age. I used to live in a beautiful area of the country and life was so good back 20 years ago. Now I feel trapped and imprisoned by my situation that I really didn't have alot of control over. I have never done drugs, or been in trouble with the law, I always have tried to do my best in all things. It seems I'm getting my butt kicked in life for really no reason.

As a boy I grew up in a severely abusive household but thought I overcame that awful part of my life at 18 yrs old and was well beyond being subjected to emotional pain and abuse. What has happened to me in the last few years is driving me way down again. I feel like I am living in an invisible jail cell. This is not the way to enjoy living by any stretch.

Seriously?

I'm 26 years old and life just never seems to get any better. I lost my job, my fiance, my apartment, my best friend and turned into a raging alcoholic. I don't even like drinking. I have been looking for a new job since September and every glimmer of hope I get is crushed in an instant. I had to move back in with my family after I lost the apartment and since that is in another state I now have no friends to speak of. Everything just seems to keep going from dark to worse with to hope of change anytime soon. It's a feeling like the harder I try the worse things become. I've been slipping down a rope since this past summer and I think I've finally reached the end of it. What now? How much worse can it get?

Whatever

I can't begin to tell the whole story. But the break down of it is that I have not had a girlfriend or a woman in over three years. I have tried several times but nothing so now I just give up and want to pass on . The only thing that stops me is I don't want to suffer I have suffered enough. I just can't take no more of this so called life I have an i do have a good job and a good person that has a huge heart but that just don't matter anymore to people is how I see it so f u c k it enough is enough so what I want is encouragement on doing what I want to do i don't want to hear the bullsh_t about why I should not do it bla bla bla I heard it all to much

this is my story

I reall dnt know what to write.... m again manipulating things to write here.. coz i want everthing ... fuck me m so bad at writing also... i will try again... i think whatecver is happening wid me is coz i want it to be so, i want to be the saddest person dont know why , but then i am never happy, obvious it is

i watch movies alone, i prefer eating alone, i want to run from everone, i alwas pretend to my freinds, i am so busy coz i dnt want them around me, but fail to express directly on their face as i fear they will feel bad, i cant stop my tears coz i miss her so much, i tried suicide but sometimes my parents and other ppl who depend on me came in front of my eyes or else it was too high to jump from... i cnt 3even kill myself , i live alone, after she left i stopped studying and evrything is now hazy.
i dnt weant to go back to my old frens, and i find impossible to make new fremns : i am so pretentious, but i onl pretend so that the other person does not feel bad.... please help
how to love myself please teach me... :{
only alchohol helps me to sleep daily... but its not helping to get rid of my state, what is the meaning of life when the most precious and loveable thing leaves you walking away from you on there own foot , yes i made mistakes but realized after commiting them, but why such a big punishment!


it was all my fault but i was honest

Ultimate Loner/Loser Girl

I'm 22 and a college dropout, still living with parents and can't get a job, and every guy I've ever been with just used me for sex. I don't have friends and never had a real boyfriend, and my dad keeps telling me I'm a failure in life and that I shame the family. I'm very shy with zero connections so I'm not very social...always the loner kid who ate lunch alone in school, etc. I've been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and I take meds for it, which helps a lot but it doesn't erase my crappy situation in life. I'm thinking of killing myself eventually, maybe in a year.

not the worst that could happen but pretty close

I’m 19. Started life like most people do, in a hospital, from the moment I came home my parents were finding ways to get rid of me. They tried everything from starvation to drug overdose. I have been an alcoholic since the age of 6 months when my parents started putting wine in my bottles to make me sleep. At the age of 4 I was put into foster care where everything was supposed to get better. It didn’t.
Everything from sexual abuse, physical abuse, drug related issues, you name it. Also my older sister was taken from the foster home that I was in because she was deemed “dangerous to herself and others” by a woman with Munchausen’s. My younger brother and sister were also sexually abused by the foster father in the home we were in at the time.
In 2001 my younger brother, sister, and I were adopted. To this day we don’t know where our older sister is.
I am a United States Marine stationed in San Diego, CA. I will be Deploying to Afghanistan this year to serve in the Global War on Terror. I am on duty 24/7 and can be called to work at any time, Day or night. As it stands right now, I get paid 24 cents an hour after taxes. If it weren’t for medical benefits Marines would be the lowest paid workers in the USA.

Fuck this

I don't know how to do this anymore. I don't know where to start. I am 24.iman artist which doesn't matter to this society anymore. I want to die on the daily. All I've ever wanted in life is my dad to except me and I'm now realizing how much of a piece of shit he is and how much I don't want anything to do with him. He tells me how worthless I am. He tells me I'll be one of the many homeless people that liven our main street. He tells me I'll wont get it and when I do it'll be too late . He tells me things like I'm too pretty to live the life Ido but I live in a house that he pays for. I quit school because I failed so many times. I quit my job because my dad humiliated me for the second time at my job and he makes me crazy. I don't want anything to do with him anymore. But where do I start. I've grown up in a small town where my parents divorced. Everyone on this island knows me and my family and I can't stand my family. My dad makes me want to die. Every time I feel good about anything I do he will be there to knock me flat on my ass. I need to learn how to not let him bother me but I've been putting up with his abuse for too long. I would love to end my life and make him feel the reality of how he treats me. He might as well have killed me. He faked loving my mom when they married. He had meandmy brother who's sort of dealing with the same stuff as me right now but my dad for some reason is obsessed with him. I want it all to end but for Somme fucking reason I don't ...

Money sucks

I am 27 years old. I had this girlfriend for 9 years, high school sweethearts. Started dating around 15. I thought she was going to be the girl i was with forever. I can't even recall what happened but we ended up breaking up and were too stubborn to talk about our problems. After high school i got a construction job with her neighbor. Awesome job for someone so young. I made 22 an hour. When the break up happened i snapped and made some awful decisions. The main bad move was i quit my job because i couldn't stand having to park outside of her house everyday to go to work. So i sit and live off what i have saved for about 3 years and did absolutely nothing. Alot a world of warcraft, hanging out with friends drinking, different girlfriends. Yea, i dated some crazy chicks in 3 years. Most of you are wondering how i could not work for 3 years! well i live with my dad and he doesn't charge me rent, try to give him money sometimes but he never takes it. I started to get super depressed in that time mostly about love. I'd wonder if i'd ever get that feeling back where you truly love someone and they love you. And then it happened. I am wasted at a bar with friends one night and ask this random SMOKIN girl to go to a upcoming wedding with me, that i was just invited to. We had some mutual friends so she says yes! We went to that wedding and everything since then has been a miracle. Been dating her for 6 months now. So, here is the problem, i want ...

Live with idiots, not one person has a brain.

I am a 21 year old guy, and i have almost completely given up on trying to do anything with my life. Why, you might ask let me explain to you. My mother is a fucking crazy bitch who has such bad anxiety she can not for her life think logically. I have been searching for a job for three months now. I took a break from school, so that i can find a good paying job to support myself on. My mothers idea of a good paying job is, to work a minimum wage job at full time. Now lets see here, at $7.00/hr that averages out to $1,120 before taxes are taken out, and around $900 after. She says that is plenty of money to live off of. Well lets do some maths kids. My father wants me to pick up my car and insurance at roughly $600 a month. Well there goes um 2/3 of my earnings. That leaves me with $300. Well the cheapest place i can find is around $200-$300. If I find a place at $200 that leaves me with $100. Here is the choice now, that is $100 for food, or electricity. Which to choose? Well food is obviously a necessity, but electricity is required for cooking said food. The only advice/help i get from my parents is that I should keep my chin up, and it will all work out. Now, I understand i would have to work 2 full times jobs to make enough to live off of. Problem is that i dont care who you are, but working 80 hours to make $1800 is not even remotely worth it. The kid the raised has more of logical thought process than the people who birthed him. This is so fucking stupid, good thing amazon.com has a good price on a noose, stool, and ceiling fan.

I hate my life

I have the smallest penis in the world, somehow everyone thinks its funny,you can notice it,when i wear jeans it is like im a girl with no bulge at all. It wasn't always this small, I hurt it when i was 18 during masturbation. now im 24,some people say its Peyronie's disease but the penis and testicles are now very small.No one believes me, ive been to 4 urologists and they say the usaul its just in my head bs.I get teased by girls that notice ,its a serious issue for men,small penis is not a joke.I don't wanna be a cuckold or get into SPH. iv'e seen it on the net, I just want to be normal, I want to end the pain but my problem doesnt have a cure and no one believes me when I say I hurt it with too much masturbation(7 times a day).I am aware that most men masturabte and nothing happens but I know my body and I hurt it .I wont get married, id be too embarrsed to be social,I only have male friends, i am sick of acting like theres nothing wrong and size doesn't matter blah blah i wanna end it all .Whats worse is it still shrinks when I masturbate,Is there anyone that can help ,I can even prove it.Hope people believe me,im not trolling.Girls stop making fun of small penis its not a joke it can kill a man inside.

Nihilistic Life

my life.. 17 years old and since i remember my family has been screwed up by alcohol/divorce/drugs. As a young child I've done stupid stuff like sell drugs at school via peer pressure from sister and her boy-friend. Been abused by mother under the age of 10 (verbally and physically), nearly had boiling water down my back side. Been heartbroken as a girl was never going to be mine due to the cliche scene of boys and how "relationships work" and probably the messy place I'm living in. Real father died when i was about 15 from cancer, alcoholic and never really wanted me to begin with (same with mother). Step father treats me like a child yet supports me. As the years gone by I'm only growing up to a world in which i don't care about anymore, a life of values that seem vague now due to society. I've felt sad for years and just couldn't care about anything these days to which i feel like i don't belong and just wish it could all go away with death.. start new.. or even at all. Been to three different schools due to bullying and following my "dreams" (which are the values i mentioned). So never really have made any strong friendships if any at all, everyone doesn't like the way i look or something, cause they don't talk to me for some reason. No one really cares and I've learned that i shouldn't care either. I don't find much pleasure in life anymore and I'm sick of hiding my depression behind a mask. I have a lethargic mindset now and full of negativity that I'm worthless etc, i think about death a fair bit but haven't tried. The pressures along with year 12 is killing me to "do well" when i just find everything not worthwhile, guess I'm doing it out of angst but i just feel mentally beaten and weak and can't stand it. I hate everything, everyone and life.

i caught my dad looking at porn a few years ago and confronted him about it, he promised me his son that he would never do anything like that again, when i caught him again a few months ago i looked closer at his computer and found he was seeing prostitutes regularily, i am single handedly responsible for telling my mum and sister who then told my brother, im 19 and the youngest in my family, i tore my family apart and havent spoken to my father since. life has become unbearable as i was in the process of my biggest job interview when all this happened, i didnt get the job and now struggle 40 hours a week to feed myself and pay as much as i can to my mum who is studying. as i write this im trying to devise a way to kill myself without pushing my mum over hte edge because i love her too much. life really is a bitch

i find life negative

well im 20 years old im trapped in my own mind, i can't progress, i dont have someone to love, the only girl i had ended up being a slut :(. i never really had a real realtionship that i can consider. i bearly have freinds, and most of them use me. i spend most of the time alone in my house. i also suffer from a deep depression that leaves mindless. in my past years in life and school, ive sufferd to much bulying in school even some times from the whole class, they used to call me weird, and all kinds of names. under this there is still more to be told. at this point can anyone tell something that i should do? i considerd doing something else, but i get wierd signs from god (dont ask how) like telling me that i should go on and be strong.

hate my life

I am a 23 year old and i am living in a dump were mice poop is everywhere and the room is so small i cant keep all of my things organized. no matter how much i clean the next day there seems to be more. I hate were I life and people keep telling I am lucky? how am I lucky when I have alot of bills to pay and life in a dump. Not only that but I feel like loser with no future. I am gain weight since i started going to college and it sucks and everyone I know say how big I got or how I really should lose weight and that includes my parents as well. I am been living on my own since the age of 18 and I feel like I am not getting anywhere with my life. I work part time but hardly make any movies to support myself. I hate rich spoiled kids because they don't know how lucky they have it.

I was born in Canada, ripped away from the homeland. At 21 years of age, and I still do not know who I am. I have this issue were I mental block on everything. Honestly, I'm sure certain people believe I can revolutionize the world. I do. But I live my life on the sidelines unable to comprehend why I cannot do a simple thing like opening a book. There is all these ideas running around in my head but I refuse to write them down. I put the PRO in front of Procrastination. Procrastination summarizes my life. Laziness summarizes my life. All my life Ive felt the urge of helping others but how can I when I cant even help myself. I am capable of ace-ing whatever classe I partake whenever I study. But I refuse to study. Some say I am extremely intelligent. That's not true. Natural born intelligence is just like talent. It is worth crap. Hardwork is worth something, work ethic is gets you places, productivity is success. Frankly, why Am I even writing this, the thoughts of death cling unto my mind daily, but then I remember my best friend whos mother is dying from cancer. Now how can I look him in the eye and tell him I want to kill myself when God has blessed me with everything I need to succeed. Perfect health.
That kid might lose his mother, a woman I look up to, and tell him that his pain is ok but mine is worth killing myself over. My mom and dad bled to give me a livelihood. My sisters would do anything to make me succeed. But I feel hopeless.
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